should I keep doing an senior honors comprehensives project?
pros: - i like my topic ("violence in the thought of nietzsche and hobbes") & my advisor a lot - im seriously considering going to grad school w/ the hope of becoming an academic (how much does doing an honors project matter on grad school apps?) - i will probably be pissed at myself for not sucking up and doing this - it's not actually due till february or something
cons: - i have no time (3 other classes + being station manager of college radio station) and feel way behind (also splitting my time btw this & classes & the radio station makes my work on all those things mediocre) - making the "im behind" feeling worse, i still havent narrowed down my project enough & i feel directionless - as much as i like my advisor, he's really sick and i can only see him once every couple weeks (also i am feeling caught in weird ideological battles btw. various professors in my department that i only vaguely understand) - i have a horrible work ethic
did any of you do honors projects (note that "honors" in this case means writing an entire paper seperate from my graduation requirements, not writing a longer version of a paper i would have to write anyway for a graduation requirement)? was it "worth it" (were you able to use it in the future? did you just love your topic/advisor/whatever)? how did it end up? should i give up on it (or maybe give up on the radio station?)? should i just go for it and see what happens?
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:48 (seventeen years ago)
"becoming an academic" = "getting a phd and being a professor"
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:49 (seventeen years ago)
If you want to apply to Ph.D. programs, then yeah, doing the honors project will help, and it might look a little weird to apply without having done it.
but, dude, think seriously about whether you want to apply to Ph.D. programs!
I did an honors project. I "used" it in the sense that I excerpted it for the writing sample I used to apply to Ph.D. programs. I got into one. Oh, and it also made me work with my advisor, who ruled and wrote me a rec for grad school apps. honestly, I was a slacker undergrad and it didn't end up being that much work. so maybe you should go for it.
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:52 (seventeen years ago)
but if you have a horrible work ethic, THINK SERIOUSLY ABOUT WHETHER YOU WANT TO APPLY TO PH.D. PROGRAMS!!!
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:53 (seventeen years ago)
yeah this is sort of the problem, im not 100% abt phd prgms and my anxiety/laziness (the latter of which feeds off the former) makes me want to just abandon this project and not ever apply to school (but i would be doing that just to avoid this project rather than because i didnt want to go back to school)
and yeah i love working w/ my advisor and i think i would feel differently if i could stop by his office every few days to talk about it but its a lot harder given that hes taking the semester off and is only in his office once in a while.
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:55 (seventeen years ago)
as to how it ended up, eh. it pretty much makes me cringe now. but going through the experience (I had no idea what I was doing) is very much like going through the stages of grad school (I have no idea what I'm doing.)
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:55 (seventeen years ago)
maybe you should do it. I think it will be less overwhelming than you think it will be.
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:57 (seventeen years ago)
and if it totally sucks, don't apply to ph.d. programs and you'll have dodged a bullet!
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:58 (seventeen years ago)
xxpost: yeah i know which is particularly why im not applying to go right out of undergrad! fuck i dunno id love to go to grad school b/c i love love love the stuff i study and i think id be good at it except i need to get my anxiety/procrastination under srs control.
for example: i have a 6-page paper due tomorrow in my "women in mathematics" class and i have done none of it and i am avoiding it to post about my anxiety about not having time for anything on ilx
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 04:59 (seventeen years ago)
that was in response to "THINK SERIOUSLY ABOUT WHETHER YOU WANT TO APPLY TO PH.D. PROGRAMS"
where is the job where i can read things i find really interesting and talk about them with fantastically smart people and maybe even write about them but i can do it all at my own pace with no pressure and no one ever judges my work?
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:00 (seventeen years ago)
definitely don't apply straight out of undergrad. the students in my program who've done that tend to burn out something awful. the anxiety/procrastination thing is a serious problem, but it's also very common among academics (flakiest people in the world, I swear.) also, you will almost certainly be better about deadlines in grad school than you are now, because it's just a lot different than college. (read: less fun, less distractions.)
honestly, it's good that you recognize the anxiety-procrastination loop now. maybe you could work on it after you graduate and be super-ready to apply? my caution is that there are no jobs and also, you seem like a nice kid and ph.d. programs make people insane, but if you love the stuff, you love the stuff. lots of people warned me, but fuck if I listened.
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:03 (seventeen years ago)
yeah i mean id love to not go to grad school and potentially have no job and go crazy and stuff but i have yet to find something i like doing nearly as much as, well, learning & teaching stuff.
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:05 (seventeen years ago)
on the "no one ever judges my work" tip, one thing I wish I had been more comfortable with before grad school is not being immediately good at stuff. because you have to be willing to risk being less than brilliant to get the hang of academic work.
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:06 (seventeen years ago)
i also wouldnt mind being a farmer
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:10 (seventeen years ago)
one thing to keep in mind is that when you're in college and you love school your only immediate role models are professors. but I have to believe there are other things you can do with your life where you learn and teach...or fields that reward you for thinking. I obviously don't know what those are otherwise I'd not be in a ph.d. program, but they have to exist.
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:10 (seventeen years ago)
and to stop being totally eeyore for a second, it is pretty amazing to be training to do something as fun and frivolous as studying + teaching English lit. there's a lot of pleasure in the day to day of it.
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:12 (seventeen years ago)
yeah i know i shouldnt be complaining, i guess i just wish it came easier or something. mostly i just need to hear that its not impossible.
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:14 (seventeen years ago)
but thx for the advice horseshoe u did make me feel better :D
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:21 (seventeen years ago)
I'm glad! it's not impossible!
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:22 (seventeen years ago)
Judging by your posts, I bet you'd be an AMAZING high school teacher (not much $, though, and you'd be surrounded by assholes*).
*see Music Journalism
― Tape Store, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:33 (seventeen years ago)
thanks tape store! honestly, id love to be a HS teacher except that 1) i like research and paper-writing as much as i like teaching and 2) the stuff im really passionate about is the sort of crit-theory/contintental philosophy stuff that would likely get me drummed out by students AND parents (altho maybe im being small-minded abt the openness of hs kids to nietzsche)
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:48 (seventeen years ago)
max you'd probably like teaching AP classes at a high school.
― Jordan Sargent, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:53 (seventeen years ago)
altho i think teaching @ a college>teaching @ high school (i have no personal experience to back this up obv)
yeah i dunno i probably also hell of romanticize college teaching over high school teaching cause it seems so much less stressful & the kids are (supposed to be) interested & intelligent and not, yknow, being forced to be there, and you have more freedom over yr syllabus &c &c
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:55 (seventeen years ago)
AP classes= kids that are interested & intelligent.
the difference in hours between teaching college v. high school is what would probably do it for me.
― Jordan Sargent, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:56 (seventeen years ago)
times like this i wish my future self could send letters to my past self
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 05:58 (seventeen years ago)
if they even HAVE letters in the future that is
-- max, Tuesday, October 2, 2007 5:10 AM (1 hour ago) Bookmark Link
yeah, me too :-/
― river wolf, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 06:47 (seventeen years ago)
ps horseshoe why aren't we friends
― river wolf, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 06:48 (seventeen years ago)
just to bring everybody down I am going to mention my grad advisor who was talking to me once about how crazy all these kids are who go and work straight on through eight to nine years, get their Ph.D in english literature, and then somehow think some small college in a nice town is going to have an opening with tenure possibilities ;_;
― El Tomboto, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:18 (seventeen years ago)
because there is apparently a glut of that in this country
― El Tomboto, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:19 (seventeen years ago)
yeah i mean i know that im entering a field that has 1-2 openings a year and as a white guy im not what most departments are looking for but i still really like it... plus im hoping/praying that in 10-12 years when im getting my doctor8 a lot of the tenured boomer profs will be retiring and leaving options open for me (also maybe since most of my grad skool peers will be female my being male might work for me?)
but god who the fuck knows. there arent really jobs anywhere for the shit that im good at (at least is my understanding), its just even worse in academia.
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:37 (seventeen years ago)
pros: - i like my topic ("violence in the thought of nietzsche and hobbes") & my advisor a lot
http://www.deepsprings.edu/
― Curt1s Stephens, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:40 (seventeen years ago)
max, are you a phil. undergrad?
xpost deep springs rears its head agane
― John Justen, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:43 (seventeen years ago)
also, where?
english & comp lit, at 0ccidental college in LA
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:44 (seventeen years ago)
oh ok, i was going to let you know that phil. grad school is basically gagging for grad students if you're willing to TA, but that isn't quite as true for the lit side of things.
― John Justen, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:46 (seventeen years ago)
yeah id most likely being for a lit degree but i havent necessarily ruled out philosophy or maybe a program like history of consciousness @ ucsc or rhetoric @ berkeley
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:49 (seventeen years ago)
being = be going
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 07:50 (seventeen years ago)
that or buying a farm in the dominican and playing dominoes
let's be friends, rw!
Tombot's grad advisor otm. ;_;
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 12:20 (seventeen years ago)
have a keg party and pull a prank on the dean with some nerds.
― max r, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 12:24 (seventeen years ago)
it's called college, lol.
choose between the honors project and the radio station.
― gabbneb, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 14:16 (seventeen years ago)
get a job
― DG, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 14:29 (seventeen years ago)
Lots of great advice on this thread, I'll go through some of what was said. I think I might have some things to offer as I was in a similar situation and was thinking long and hard about the academic route. I studied philosophy (mostly continental/crit theory stuff as well as a lot of ethics, some logic, general history of phil.) and was very seriously considering doing a Phd. Actually, "was very seriously considering" = "ruling out pretty much all other options and thinking that I was definitely going to become a professor." I ultimately decided to take a few years off, thinking I would later apply to programs. I am beyond happy that I looked into other options. Most of my advice centers around "but, dude, think seriously about whether you want to apply to Ph.D. programs!"
Here goes: one thing to keep in mind is that when you're in college and you love school your only immediate role models are professors. but I have to believe there are other things you can do with your life where you learn and teach...or fields that reward you for thinking.
this is completely, completely OTM. So many smart undergrads who really excel in their majors (especially humanities students) look to the first immediate lifestyle in sight -- their professors, and just think "oh that's what I'll do" without really understanding a.)that there are loads of other options that aren't immediately visible but offer the same intellectual engagement with a lot less of the hassle and b.)that a Phd-->tenured professor dream is a hellish, hellish, hellish process that is extraordinarily difficult to achieve for most humanities students. Some students hear this, but then think "oh, I'll definitely be the lucky one, the student who gets a tenure position, I'm the smartest, most motivated, etc." But every Phd hopeful thinks they will be the lucky one, and the majority of them will not be.
the stuff im really passionate about is the sort of crit-theory/contintental philosophy stuff
This is an awesome field and there is some really engaging stuff in it, but unfortunately the job market is utter crap for this kind of stuff.
OTM. Nobody likes a downer, but unfortunately there aren't enough downers giving advice on students who are hoping to be academics. Most of my undergrad professors built up my self-confidence, and I thought "yea I got mostly As and good remarks from my profs" and my academic self-confidence was big and bloated, but none of them really gave me a realistic perspective on graduate study. Looking into it made me realize that I'd get my ass kicked in academia and I'd be miserable to boot.
a lot of the tenured boomer profs will be retiring and leaving options open for me
This might be true, but fewer and fewer of the retiring tenured profs are being replaced with other tenured positions. Adjuncts and other part-time crap jobs with lousy pay and no benefits are replacing the tenured professor who had his/her awesome job for 35 years.
Ultimately, you are wise for not wanting to go straight to grad school. Unless one is a complete crit theory diehard (or any other subject) who reads this stuff constantly even when his/her classes don't require it, he/she would probably benefit from taking some time off. Even that person might benefit. If you find you truly can't live without reading/discussing/researching/ Foucault, et al., then you can always go back to school. I took some time off and haven't read a work of philosophy since graduation, and it feels effin' great. I've had so much more time to find out what really, really interests me and I often think how miserable I would be if I was in a grad program right now.
As for the honors project -- I'd say go ahead and do it! (whether or not you plan to apply for Phd programs.) Things like that can be a blast, even if they are a lot of work. You'd probably be happy you did it in the end. It gives you a decent sense of what long-term, intensive research entails, which is precisely what grad school/academic life is. The only caveat is the one you mentioned about your advisor -- projects like that definitely benefit from frequent meetings with an advisor and if they aren't really there most of the time, it might be difficult. See if there is anyone else you could meet with.
One last point -- to all those who actually did go ahead and do a Phd -- I can be very forthright in all the reasons why one shouldn't do it, but ultimately I think it's a pretty awesome path and have a ton of respect for you. It's such a fantastic way to make a living, if you're motivated enough, and that's great. Damn I went on too long, didn't I?
― Mark Clemente, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 15:17 (seventeen years ago)
i really wish deep springs had grad school
― river wolf, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 17:09 (seventeen years ago)
thx for the extended reply, mark. i think a major problem is that as true as this: a.)that there are loads of other options that aren't immediately visible but offer the same intellectual engagement with a lot less of the hassle might be, those "other options" are very much not visible, and i dont really know how to go about looking for them. im more than open to other options (in fact, id really like to something i love as much as this without the impossible job market & 7 years of school), its just hard to figure out that they are.
but this isnt a thread about my creeping feeling of dread, its about my honors project.
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 17:41 (seventeen years ago)
I'm glad I'm doing a PhD, but I really wish someone had told me/I had figured out just how shitty and unsatisfying it would be a lot of the time.
― caek, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 17:46 (seventeen years ago)
in case anyone's wondering i still havent finished my 6-page paper on women in mathematics.
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 17:57 (seventeen years ago)
hahha nice. yea max i do wish i had more advice on your honors project. sorry to go off on the big tangent!
― Mark Clemente, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 18:02 (seventeen years ago)
no worries mark, its all the same question anyway basically
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 18:05 (seventeen years ago)
hi dere I am in this boat!
AFAIK doing these kinds of paper are really good because they are a great great great example of "research ability" which grad schools really look for. But I am doing one too and yeah it sucks a dick. Not doing PhD route tho, just grad school.
In terms of laziness/procrastination/anxiety, I just kind of constantly push myself to do things, make lots of schedules and planners, blah blah. I have to break everything down or I can't function. To narrow my topic and get an idea how to structure a paper like this, I went down to my college main office and asked to see the papers from previous years. They had a whole room of like all of them ever, and you could flip through and find stuff from yr major and look at how they wrote it and everything. Maybe yours does too! My advisor also advised me to break it down into smaller papers, which is a BIG HELP in terms of not feeling totally overwhelmed and terrified.
― jessie monster, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 18:07 (seventeen years ago)
sorry I know my posts read like gibberish but I am revising a grad school essay and doing reading for my insane IR classes at the same time.
― jessie monster, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 18:08 (seventeen years ago)
i think i also need someone to say "MAX stop posting to ILX you need to be working on your honors project"
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 18:12 (seventeen years ago)
to say that whenever i post, i mean
― max, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 18:13 (seventeen years ago)
"where is the job where i can read things i find really interesting and talk about them with fantastically smart people and maybe even write about them but i can do it all at my own pace with no pressure and no one ever judges my work?"
You should pitch this to the Gawker Media Empire (TM). I hear they're always looking for a new blog-hook.
― milo z, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 18:16 (seventeen years ago)
the Fleshbot crossover would be killer
This thread kind of makes me glad I never ended up applying to grad school back when I was seriously considering it. Especially horseshoe's comment about professors as role models and the romanticization of the academic lifestyle. I still wish my job was as social and engaging as teaching would be, but I can't say it's not intellectually stimulating.
― jaymc, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 18:28 (seventeen years ago)
max, I have periodically had to swear off ILX to meet grad school deadlines. it helps me to be all absolutist about it and not look at it at all for like, a month. but I have been driven crazy by ph.d. school; such an extremist approach might not be necessary for you.
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 19:35 (seventeen years ago)
(I am absolutist about it mostly for psychological reasons, not because I'm getting so much work done.)
― horseshoe, Tuesday, 2 October 2007 19:36 (seventeen years ago)
(also maybe since most of my grad skool peers will be female my being male might work for me?)
as long as you are down with feminist agendas!
― tehresa, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:00 (seventeen years ago)
can i ask a lol grad school question here?
professor sez: write response paper on readings and last week's class every week (which i think is incredibly undergrad thing to do anyway but whatever). she said they were to be 'diary-like.' however, she gives criticizes/grades them based on her personal opinions/agendas and does not seem open to alternate ideas. how do i shot good grades without compromising my own ideas by towing her party line?
― tehresa, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:03 (seventeen years ago)
wow, that does sound undergrad-ish. if that's the impression you get--that she's grading with an agenda--I would just write the kind of response she wants to read.
― Mr. Que, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:07 (seventeen years ago)
ugh i was afraid of that. i just feel like since i only have 4 semesters of grad school i really don't want to have any 'throw-away' classes. i want them all to matter and spend the semester expanding my thoughts rather than analyzing the readings to predict what she would say about them.
― tehresa, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:10 (seventeen years ago)
that sounds like some bullshit, tehresa. who grades diary-like responses?
― horseshoe, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:12 (seventeen years ago)
i just feel like since i only have 4 semesters of grad school i really don't want to have any 'throw-away' classes.
Yeah, the thing is though, you may not want to have throw away classes, but lol you may have shitty, throw away teachers.
― Mr. Que, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:15 (seventeen years ago)
thats not even undergrad shit, thats high school shit
― max, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:28 (seventeen years ago)
hm that is weird, t. but i think by 'diary-like' at a grad school level she may mean more like 'critical response' but with a bit more personal gut reaction involved. i guess i'd just say that to do well, stay open, address what you know her agenda is but don't necessarily agree with it if you don't agree with it. i don't know, in the end, it's her class...
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:28 (seventeen years ago)
yes horseshoe... response generaly = subjective and therefore not able to be graded under standard objective criteria, rite?!?!
i am debating bringing this up with my advisor. she may have some tips, but then again, i don't want to seem like a whiny 'wah grad skool is hard' biotch.
― tehresa, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:28 (seventeen years ago)
how long does your project have to be, max? under 50 pages?
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:30 (seventeen years ago)
okay, t, y'know i'm a bit jaded about school in all its forms these days, as much as i love education and knowledge and information and all that, but when they say 'response' and 'subjective' and 'your opinion' you have to forget what you thought they meant b/c what they mean now is more along the lines of critiquing with abilty to back up your ideas with references and reasons why
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:32 (seventeen years ago)
heh, 35 pages... honestly this is a lot less "how can i possibly write this" and a lot more "how can i possibly write this to my absurdly high standards of perfection"
― max, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:33 (seventeen years ago)
one of my professors pointed out this morning that im taking on way too much and my topic is way too big and im way to interested in writing something totally new and original instead of just putting my head down and learning how to research & write a long paper
― max, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:36 (seventeen years ago)
otherwise you will be shot down she might still be a crappy prof, of course, but if you make a solid argument she has no reason to give you a bad mark xpost
max i wrote 35 pages in 7 days at the end of my first semester of grad school plus wrote a 15 page paper and a 25 pager during that same month. you can totally do it! tried and true: one page at a time, one sentence at a time, one quote at a time, etc etc
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:37 (seventeen years ago)
^ i'm not bragging there or anything at all - research went into those papers that was done over several weeks before too but the compiling of it and the writing process wasn't so bad or long once i got going.
also it feels AWESOME when you're done
i just edited my entire thesis 80+ pages and sent it to prof yesterday. so i'm riding a high. plus i got a job today.
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:39 (seventeen years ago)
yeah but the thing is i honestly dont want to be in that position... ive written a 20 page paper in a night on two separate occaisions and both times they turned out thoroughly mediocre; this time i really want to do as well as i know that i can.
― max, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:40 (seventeen years ago)
hey congrats on the job! and the thesis!
i think what i really need here is tony robbins
― max, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:41 (seventeen years ago)
p.s. if you don't do the work and procrastinate things kinda go to shit. oh believe me, i know. even if you love the work yet can't manage to get yourself to do it for whatever reason, you have to force yourself to do it, like, just pick a quote and write about it for 10 minutes, stuff like that. better for work quality and sanity.
xpost tony robbins does have some good things to say
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:44 (seventeen years ago)
also, maybe don't think of it as a 35 page project/thesis. think of it as like, 3 10-page essays or 2 15-page essays and an intro and conclusion
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:45 (seventeen years ago)
omg congratulations rrrobyn!
max, that perfectionist shit will kill you!
― horseshoe, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:47 (seventeen years ago)
it almost killed me. i think perfectionism is mostly about fear. i've been doing a journalism/talk radio show for the past few months and it's really opened my eyes to how being perfect really doesn't matter - people will love you more for it, in fact.
thanks for congrats, guys :) i'm not all the way there and i'm super busy with life but i'll be defending before december hits anyway yaaay
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:50 (seventeen years ago)
ya perfectionism = anxiety = procrastination, so what i usually do is hold off till the last minute, turn in mediocre stuff, and tell myself, "if you REALLY TRIED you could have a 4.0" or whatever. its a defense mechanism and a shitty one at that.
― max, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:54 (seventeen years ago)
max, you know how you said you wished your future, old self could send letters to you-in-lol-college? consider me your future, old self.
― horseshoe, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:57 (seventeen years ago)
woah congrats, rrrobyn! that is so awesome!!!
max, i totally get you. i have a smallish paper to do this semester (10-15) but if i had my way i'd run away to this awesome collection in england and do research for months and months or years and then write a book. my thinking is that because i feel this way about the topic, i can easily churn out the small paper and then have motivation for a possibly larger project down the road. maybe you can think of it that way? then you won't have to think of this process as a terminal thing... it's just the beginning, and then you don't feel as bad about not being able to hole up for 6 months to work.
― tehresa, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 02:59 (seventeen years ago)
don't get lost in research though! it is so easy to do. to continue researching, feeling you're getting work done b/c you're reading but then never getting down to the writing part. gotta write.
(thanks t :) i am so stoked on the structure of having a full-time job again. oh, it'll wear off eventually, i know, but i need structure now. i'm even excited about creating spreadsheets and databases so that i am an efficient coordinator type. whoa.)
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 03:10 (seventeen years ago)
yeah i guess the thing is i just need to stop aiming so high and find a focus... im so desperate to impress/please my advisor & other profs that im trying to write a book or something, instead of whatever would be appropriate for a 35-page paper
― max, Wednesday, 3 October 2007 04:07 (seventeen years ago)
my advisor on my first completed draft:
There's no such chance. You got an A. But I know you can do a h*** of a lot better than this, no?
― max, Tuesday, 18 December 2007 23:05 (seventeen years ago)
:(
i hate disappointing people.
― max, Tuesday, 18 December 2007 23:07 (seventeen years ago)
:( sorry dude
― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Tuesday, 18 December 2007 23:11 (seventeen years ago)
disappointing people is a pretty big part of coming into adulthood
― El Tomboto, Tuesday, 18 December 2007 23:21 (seventeen years ago)
ok i need new advice!! i am currently taking four classes. of them, i only need one to graduate, one is interesting and challenging, and two are shaping up to be sort of deadly boring. should i drop two and become a part-time student? ive talked to the relevant people, and it shouldnt be a problem in terms of graduating on time or continuing to do things i like at the school.
i think i would obviously need to take something up--make sure i was spending the time productively. but as per my lol college request for advice from above, i have a least two big things on my plate already that need time and attention. plus i am taking a creative writing class this year and it would be nice to take it seriously and have the time to put some effort into it. moreover, id save a lot of (my own) money.
is there any reason NOT to just do this? am i going to regret not taking as many classes as possible down the road? will it look bad on an academic resume? also, i feel like a chump for even saying this, but dropping these two classes (both of which are likely As) will probably mean the difference between graduating cum laude and magna cum laude (and between a 3.7 and a 3.8). does that even matter (i guess specifically for grad school, and should i bother caring?
― max, Tuesday, 5 February 2008 17:26 (seventeen years ago)
yea, ditch the boring classes, but are you able to find some other fun, elective, and not-too-difficult-to-mess-up-your-GPA classes? i wish i took more interesting classes for the hell of it.
but investing a lot in your creative writing class seems like a good alternative.
― Mark Clemente, Tuesday, 5 February 2008 17:30 (seventeen years ago)
its two weeks into school and most profs wont sign me in--plus theres an exorbitant fee for adding classes after the deadline
― max, Tuesday, 5 February 2008 17:31 (seventeen years ago)
Ditch the classes. You will be happier in the short term and probably in the long term.
― HI DERE, Tuesday, 5 February 2008 18:06 (seventeen years ago)
i don't think the 3.7 vs 3.8 will mean anything in the future, even for grad school
― gershy, Tuesday, 5 February 2008 18:08 (seventeen years ago)
The magna might be worth enduring the classes for, though.
― HI DERE, Tuesday, 5 February 2008 18:10 (seventeen years ago)
unless there is some technical reason, like you need a certain number of classes to get scholarship or loan $$$ (or to defer loan payment) there is no reason not to drop the classes. maybe look for an internship in your field? having actual work experience is 9345890465 times more important than an extra point on your gpa.
― bell_labs, Tuesday, 5 February 2008 18:10 (seventeen years ago)
Ditch the boring classes! Take up an interesting new hobby, like collage or decoupage or learn to play a new instrument.
More collage, less college.
― saudade, Wednesday, 6 February 2008 04:01 (seventeen years ago)
is there any reason NOT to just do this?
no. do it tomorrow. spend the time on writing, if you want. or spend your afternoons hanging out and drinking. whatever. nothing you do with the time will be more wasted than spending it on classes you don't need and aren't interested in.
― tipsy mothra, Wednesday, 6 February 2008 05:52 (seventeen years ago)
max. do what is pleasure. but realize pleasure will be reconfigured in your near future. freewheel out.
― freewheel, Wednesday, 6 February 2008 06:47 (seventeen years ago)
it was weird to stumble onto this thread, max, cause i'm basically in the same situation. i'm working on my honors senior thesis (first semester of the two), and trying to figure out whether to apply to grad school. i'm actually meeting with my thesis adviser tomorrow afternoon to talk about grad schools to look at. i've also got this escape hatch planned out in my head where i start an MA in Media Studies (or Performance Studies), and if the whole post-grad thing isn't thrilling me, I parlay that into something media professional. And if it does thrill me, go into a PHD.
Meanwhile I'm reading Hal Foster, Fredrick Jameson and Jacques Attali for my thesis and wondering why I can't spend the rest of my life talking about post-Marxist critiques of pop culture. (On that note, I saw The Counterfeiters tonight and loved the Marxist critique of the Holocaust thing going on in the background of the film.)
So, feel good that other people are trying to feel this thing out alongside you? :-P
― Mordy, Wednesday, 6 February 2008 08:45 (seventeen years ago)
Also, I'm also currently in a Creative Writing class.
― Mordy, Wednesday, 6 February 2008 08:47 (seventeen years ago)
ditch the classes. i was only going part-time last semester and it made me feel cool, like i had a life.
― get bent, Wednesday, 6 February 2008 08:52 (seventeen years ago)
i dropped two classes am saving boatloads of $$$
AND i used the extra time to finish a draft of my thesis way early, and i havent disappointed anyone
ilx is hella good at advice
― max, Monday, 3 March 2008 17:06 (seventeen years ago)
i mean i still totally hate my paper and it could probably be a million billion times better, but at least its done
― max, Monday, 3 March 2008 17:08 (seventeen years ago)
high five bro
― gbx, Monday, 3 March 2008 17:30 (seventeen years ago)
way 2 go homes
― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Monday, 3 March 2008 19:26 (seventeen years ago)
aw, congratulations, max!!!! so proud of you (sorry to sound like a mom).
― horseshoe, Monday, 3 March 2008 19:31 (seventeen years ago)
no HS thx a bunch for all your amazing advice on the thread
― max, Monday, 3 March 2008 19:33 (seventeen years ago)
good work, max! making the best out of college is a challenge.
― ian, Monday, 3 March 2008 19:34 (seventeen years ago)
my advisor wants me to just hand it in and be done but i feel like there are 10000000000000000 things that i need to revise. it feels too simple & elementary but i wonder if thats just because ive spent so long w/ my texts that i know there are so many more things to say. it does feel good to be in the clear!! i have to defend it sometime in the next couple weeks, and after that i can devote my time to fixing up the radio station
― max, Monday, 3 March 2008 19:36 (seventeen years ago)
Wish I could go part-time!
― admrl, Monday, 3 March 2008 19:43 (seventeen years ago)
haha adam i dont want to brag but you have no idea how nice it is. my house is clean! im getting daily exercise! and eating 3 meals!
― max, Monday, 3 March 2008 19:56 (seventeen years ago)
i am so jealous!
― tehresa, Monday, 3 March 2008 19:58 (seventeen years ago)
should I see about using my new company's TR program to just attend a couple of throwaway grad courses a semester on the pretense of pursuing another master's degree? NB the actual primary purpose of this would be to meet ladies.
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:03 (seventeen years ago)
Yes, you should Tom! Learning and ROMANCE go hand in hand.
― ian, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:04 (seventeen years ago)
yeah dude definitely
― max, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:08 (seventeen years ago)
meeting men is the whole reason ladies even go to lol college
― bell_labs, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:14 (seventeen years ago)
I should go to lol law school and meet rich ladies
― Catsupppppppppppppp dude 茄蕃, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:16 (seventeen years ago)
i think boys meet lots of girls at lolcollege, but girls do not necessarily meet lots of boys.
― tehresa, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:27 (seventeen years ago)
i was in lolrelationships all through lolcollege, i squandered my education. :(
― Jordan, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:28 (seventeen years ago)
boys at lol college are easily distracted by all the other lol activities and forget that they are supposed to be trying to hook up.
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:29 (seventeen years ago)
I found my wife in lol college! ^_^
― HI DERE, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:29 (seventeen years ago)
(I also confirmed that I had, in fact, found the lol clitoris.)
I squandered my time at GWU by not being single for any of it.
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:32 (seventeen years ago)
Sign up for lol artschool.
― Ed, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:33 (seventeen years ago)
lolgradschool is kind of a bust bc everyone's already married.
― tehresa, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:33 (seventeen years ago)
Or ugly.
― HI DERE, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:34 (seventeen years ago)
Ed I was actually thinking of going into an education program. I hear the business of teaching is mad riddled with lonesome babes.
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:35 (seventeen years ago)
i should go back for library science, apparently it's like 95% lol women.
― Jordan, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:36 (seventeen years ago)
and ned.
― tehresa, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:36 (seventeen years ago)
at my old non-prof job we had a library science/archivist grad school intern and she was a 10.0
became engaged shortly after joining tho :'(
― deej, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:36 (seventeen years ago)
lolcollegeadministration isn't so great for meeting well adjusted women my own age
― Catsupppppppppppppp dude 茄蕃, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:37 (seventeen years ago)
xpost, true dat, one of my teacher mates hooked up within two weeks of his first teaching job, he was too pre-occupied with a local bar-maid during his actual teacher training to get busy.
― Ed, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:38 (seventeen years ago)
95% women, 5% ned
― Jordan, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:38 (seventeen years ago)
lolibrary!
― tehresa, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:39 (seventeen years ago)
lol raggett
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:39 (seventeen years ago)
Tom, you should consider something near a lol music school, as that will be rife with single women looking for a rich husband to help underwrite the expense of getting their performance career off the ground. (We have a friend who did the young artists program with National Opera who was SUPERMADPRETTY and super single but she might have only been interested in dating other native Koreans.)
― HI DERE, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:44 (seventeen years ago)
anywhere but Georgetown. I also suspect my prospects would be minimal were I to enroll at Gallaudet or Howard.
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:49 (seventeen years ago)
Although you never know!
dan is absolutely correct! i speak from experience of going to a lol music school - they are rife with single women desperate for straight guys.
― tehresa, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:50 (seventeen years ago)
no way dan, musicians are crazy.
― Jordan, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:50 (seventeen years ago)
yeah jordan otm no one who spends 4 hrs a day in a practice room is gonna be mentally balanced
only thing worse would be 4 hrs on ilx
― deej, Monday, 3 March 2008 20:57 (seventeen years ago)
no less balanced than comp sci geeks who are in front of computers 18 hours a day.
― tehresa, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:00 (seventeen years ago)
srsly, of the musicians I know, some are crazy but none are crazier than the computer ppl I know
no wait there's one, don't date her; everyone else is golden
― HI DERE, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:02 (seventeen years ago)
or married, lol
― HI DERE, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:04 (seventeen years ago)
god i need to get out of the house
― Catsupppppppppppppp dude 茄蕃, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:06 (seventeen years ago)
aren't you at work?
― tehresa, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:07 (seventeen years ago)
haw
I mean tonight. I guess I should just ask "that girl" for her phone number. SIGH
― Catsupppppppppppppp dude 茄蕃, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:25 (seventeen years ago)
http://www.paper-source.com/cgi-bin/paper/new/calling_cards.html
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:27 (seventeen years ago)
Tombot I would give her a FLICKR MOO card but that's too nerdy.
― Catsupppppppppppppp dude 茄蕃, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:32 (seventeen years ago)
http://media.npr.org/programs/worldofopera/images/jiyounglee.jpg
^^^^^ our awesome friend who as far as I know is no longer in DC so that's no help to you
― HI DERE, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:36 (seventeen years ago)
Koreans be accompanyin' recitals
― Jordan, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:41 (seventeen years ago)
lol Dan = eHarmony.com
― Curt1s Stephens, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:51 (seventeen years ago)
there need to be meetups for eharmony rejects
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:53 (seventeen years ago)
lol I think you googled the other musician with that name
― HI DERE, Monday, 3 March 2008 21:55 (seventeen years ago)
last night i ate korean food and the people at the next able talked abt how many flat screens their coworkers had for like 20 lol minutes
― jhøshea, Monday, 3 March 2008 22:01 (seventeen years ago)
uh, nah, i'm just stereotyping because there were a lot of Korean pianists/accompanyists when i was in school. :/
― Jordan, Monday, 3 March 2008 22:10 (seventeen years ago)
There's a jazz pianist with the same name, though, which makes that even funnier!
― HI DERE, Monday, 3 March 2008 22:16 (seventeen years ago)
http://spa.american.edu/images/treatment.gif?
― El Tomboto, Monday, 3 March 2008 23:28 (seventeen years ago)
^^^ "public affairs" joeks
pre-midterm stressout! ready to toss my books in the fire and go farm contaminated agriculture in the central valley.
― get bent, Tuesday, 4 March 2008 23:37 (seventeen years ago)
so sick of reading, need more mindless television
― get bent, Tuesday, 4 March 2008 23:43 (seventeen years ago)
I'm borderline failing but I have to keep going. So annoying. Thank god for spring break. This is my hardest semester ever and I've had the most stress ever in my life. Students are wired fro stress since third grade when they have to do timed multiplication quizzes and such. Stress is all we know.
― CaptainLorax, Tuesday, 4 March 2008 23:58 (seventeen years ago)
I should have went to bovine university
― CaptainLorax, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:20 (seventeen years ago)
listening to students talk about stress never gets old
― El Tomboto, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:22 (seventeen years ago)
come back when you've given yourself a case of the shingles
wait are you being sarcastic?!??!??!?!??!?!?
― max, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:22 (seventeen years ago)
YOU KIDS DON'T YOU KNOW THIS IS THE BEST TIME OF YR LIFE
― mookieproof, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:24 (seventeen years ago)
will i find babes in lol med school, is the real question
― gbx, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:26 (seventeen years ago)
y, but not enough time to c on their t's
― mookieproof, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:28 (seventeen years ago)
i'll probably just hit on undergrads, and hope they'll be impressed by my towering intellect and "life experience."
― gbx, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:41 (seventeen years ago)
oh dude no
― El Tomboto, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:42 (seventeen years ago)
please do not become that guy
haha joeks
― gbx, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:43 (seventeen years ago)
my friend dated a med student as an undergrad, and the reaction from her friends was pretty unanimously UH
― gbx, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:44 (seventeen years ago)
UNANIMOUS UH
― El Tomboto, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:46 (seventeen years ago)
the UHs have it
― gbx, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 00:48 (seventeen years ago)
i'm lucky in that half my profs scheduled midterms for the week before spring break and the other half scheduled them for the week after.
three essay exams and a project due tomorrow. THAT'S ALL THOUGH.
― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 01:34 (seventeen years ago)
ohman maybe not the full-on best time ever but damn it's pretty sweet! even if you think you're busy now, there is actually so much time! it just gets even busier if you go to grad school, and then you go and get a real job with real responsibilities (UH) and still try to remain this well-rounded person that grad school maybe encouraged you to be, and everything gets even busier! i don't know how this happens but it will probably make you want to go back to school soon enough even though you know this is a wrong idea that will result in extra pain that will only get you away from the pain of job-style work. yes, reading about students stressing never gets old once you're not a student. if anything got me through my thesis it was the desire to attain that kind of non-student status. and yet. noooo. but. lol.
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 01:36 (seventeen years ago)
btw max, good choice!
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 01:37 (seventeen years ago)
UHnanimous
― Curt1s Stephens, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 01:39 (seventeen years ago)
yeah college uni is pretty sweet but mainly because of the opportunities for fuckin'. learning is okay too. but even at my advanced age i can remember being pissed off at people saying YOU KIDS DON'T YOU KNOW THIS IS THE BEST TIME OF YR LIFE (although they were talking about high school in my case).
they were probably right, in retrospect, but god knows there was a bunch of other shit going on that they couldn't remember.
― mookieproof, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 01:54 (seventeen years ago)
a lot of other shit for sure. and haha i was totally like 'whatever' to anyone who said 'appreciate this time in yr life b/c it's the best blah blah blah' and yet. truth is i have never called any time in my life the best time in my life, mostly b/c i don't believe in that kind of thing. i do though think back and appreciate all the time and energy and freedom i had though. or maybe it was just blissful ignorance aah. whatever though, it's not like now isn't good or full of more choices, freedom, etc.
i always like hearing abt how people are freaking out b/c of school and then find a way to turn it around. that old story, always a good one.
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:08 (seventeen years ago)
When you're thirty and working you can spend your money on whatever you want. When you're twenty and studying you can spend your time on whatever you want.
― El Tomboto, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:14 (seventeen years ago)
the aphorisms of tom
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:19 (seventeen years ago)
the problem with saying "grass is greener" in that equation is that by the time you hit thirty every hour is worth 50% more than it was when you were twenty, so in a lot of ways, you find yourself really wishing you could use that money to buy more time, which even the most powerful commodities traders in the world can't do
― El Tomboto, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:19 (seventeen years ago)
when you're thirty and studying you'd better really like whatever you're spending your time and money on
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:20 (seventeen years ago)
xpost
i really wld rather have more time than money, it's true
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:21 (seventeen years ago)
i feel so cheated by phrases like that though cause i totally have no time
― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:23 (seventeen years ago)
but you have energy
it's all a big equation of the universe
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:24 (seventeen years ago)
i wish i was living in a more affordable place so i could afford to work less so i could afford to have more free time between my 12 hour class days, is what i'm getting at i guess.
"but you have energy" ha it's all relative i guess? certainly doesn't feel like i have lots of energy except to type fast
― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:24 (seventeen years ago)
energy + time / nostalgia for lol college life x money = UHNIVERSELOL
― rrrobyn, Wednesday, 5 March 2008 02:26 (seventeen years ago)
i just defended my thesis! i totally flubbed the questions but i still got honors! and i passed my comprehensive exam w/ "distinction"!!!!
― max, Wednesday, 16 April 2008 23:47 (seventeen years ago)
!!!
― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Wednesday, 16 April 2008 23:47 (seventeen years ago)
congrats bro
http://www.cyberpunkreview.com/images/Pi09.jpg
― gabbneb, Wednesday, 16 April 2008 23:53 (seventeen years ago)
CONGRATULATIONS MAX!!!
― ENBB, Wednesday, 16 April 2008 23:54 (seventeen years ago)
ps - I am in grad school and not insane thankyouverymuch. ;-)
Hoos, you go to TSU, right? Any clue how strict their transfer admissions are?
― milo z, Thursday, 17 April 2008 00:55 (seventeen years ago)
congratz max :)
― Rubyredd, Thursday, 17 April 2008 01:02 (seventeen years ago)
Pushing my graduation back two semesters will be worth it if it means I get to go to Wellington (from rural Minnesota) for a year, right?
― BigLurks, Thursday, 17 April 2008 04:20 (seventeen years ago)
wellington, new zealand???
― Rubyredd, Thursday, 17 April 2008 04:35 (seventeen years ago)
yep
― BigLurks, Thursday, 17 April 2008 04:36 (seventeen years ago)
that's where i live!
― Rubyredd, Thursday, 17 April 2008 04:37 (seventeen years ago)
well, for 2.5 more months. what are you going to be doing here?
Going to a different lol college. It'll push back my grad date 'cause I don't really need the credits badly; I just want to get as far away from here as I possibly can, and the study abroad thing seems like a convenient way to travel FAR. My girlfriend and two good pals are coming with, though they're all a bit unsure of what they'll be doing there (ha any recommendations?). We won't be there until January.
What do you do in Wellington? Do you like it?
― BigLurks, Thursday, 17 April 2008 04:44 (seventeen years ago)
oh wellington is awesome! webmail off-board if you want to ask about anything.
― Rubyredd, Thursday, 17 April 2008 04:49 (seventeen years ago)
*webmail ME off-board
wow, how did i miss the update? belated yaaaaaaaay max!
also, ENBB, i think you are in graduate school for something proper and useful, not lol english lit, so i totally believe that you are not insane.
― horseshoe, Saturday, 17 May 2008 15:07 (seventeen years ago)
Hahaha. We'll see how useful it turns out to be. I did english lit/creative undergrad so maybe I'm 1/2 insane. ;-)
― ENBB, Saturday, 17 May 2008 15:31 (seventeen years ago)
thanks horseshoe. i graduate tomorrow!
― max, Saturday, 17 May 2008 17:43 (seventeen years ago)
CONGRATULATIONS, MAX!!!
― horseshoe, Sunday, 18 May 2008 08:15 (seventeen years ago)
yaaay max! and congratulations on sticking with the thesis + comps option! :D
― rrrobyn, Sunday, 18 May 2008 13:49 (seventeen years ago)
guys i just got a letter from college that apparently oops they fucked up and I NEED ONE MORE CLASS TO GRADUATE
fuck knows how half a dozen advising sessions and three degree audits official and otherwise could have missed this
but i kinda feel like this whole insane semester, which was structured as it was for the sake of getting me completely done by june (and thus getting $10,000 in loans forgiven), was completely for naught now.
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― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Sunday, 18 May 2008 18:27 (seventeen years ago)
>:(
― gbx, Sunday, 18 May 2008 19:22 (seventeen years ago)
Aw Hoos want me to go clothesline some Texans for ya?
― Abbott, Sunday, 18 May 2008 19:23 (seventeen years ago)
damn hoos that is nightmare territory
― max, Monday, 19 May 2008 01:47 (seventeen years ago)
Can you tell this sentence to someone with any measure of power? I feel like if it was my decision, and I knew you had repeatedly visited advisors who didn't catch the "mistake", along with the degree audits, I'd use my executive powers to help you out. Then again, this is probably why I will never achieve any position of influence...
― Z S, Monday, 19 May 2008 02:50 (seventeen years ago)
oh man, hoos :( so sorry!!!
― tehresa, Monday, 19 May 2008 03:09 (seventeen years ago)
hoos, that sucks so bad dude :( surely someone will be sympathetic to your case...
because of my own fuckup in planning my degree, i was 2 points short at the end of my last semester (360pts for a degree) but there was no fucking way i was doing another semester so i wrote to the associate dean of my faculty and told him all the reasons i should get an exemption and he granted it within a couple of hours. but my situation was pretty minor. hopefully something similar will happen for you!
― Rubyredd, Monday, 19 May 2008 03:38 (seventeen years ago)
Can you tell this sentence to someone with any measure of power?
I'm calling my Dean in the morning.
― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Monday, 19 May 2008 05:59 (seventeen years ago)
thx for the sympathies, guys.
also
CONGRATS MAX U GO HAVE A FUKKIN TASTYCAKE DAWG DEAD SERIOUS