langauge poets attack my self esteem

I wouldn't say that language poetry is particularly interested in evoking moods and sensations. A lot of poetry tries to use language in interesting, unusal ways, but many of the language poets are particularly interested in exploring the way meaning is generated, or something like that. How language operating outside conventional bounds can nevertheless be meaningful, and how readers can participate in that.

I am not trying to convince you not to look at it, however. Ron Silliman's In the American Tree seems like one of the most representative collections. From the Other Side of the Century also includes a variety of this material, though it's not soley devoted to language poetry. Maybe someone who actually likes it can recommend more recent starting points.

Actually probably the best place to start these days is Silliman's blog of poetry criticism, http://ronsilliman.blogspot.com/