do you ever wish that you had a sponsor for everything...???

it's embarrassing to say here because people here probably play really complex games that take forever to get good at. i played it years ago and it got really bad. i got really bad tennis elbow from it! i went to a doctor! we got rid of our PS4 though and it was a relief. but during the pandemic cyrus bought a PS5 from a friend of his and he basically stopped using it after a minute and i just needed something mindless cuz i was kinda going out of my mind so i bought the game again. it's called Resogun. i play Resogun: Demolition a lot. if you want mindless it does the trick. even after all this time i'm still 11th in the world. i have a new user now though. i'm not as fast as i used to be. i'm 23rd in the world with my new user. i don't play it nearly as much as i once did. i think back then it was just an avoidance thing. i became obsessive with it. i probably played a total of months if you did the math.
i used to play the Survival mode a lot back then. its an arcade-style game with one life but if you get good at it one game can be an hour. i'm still in the top 100 there but people got really good at it. like, did-they-find-some-kind-of-hack good. it is not easy to get past a certain point.
anyway, long story short, i'm an idiot. and a side-scrolling idiot at that. Defender will always be my number one. since 1981.

but, hey, i didn't smoke one friggin' cigarette during a worldwide pandemic! i am still proud of myself for that.

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the thing is, its not even really relaxing. its just a release. it can even be stressful. its my meth i guess. but there are times when you get in that game flow, whatever gamers call it, where it can feel really peaceful. when i'm playing well. when i'm not its just aggravating. usually that's when i stop. which is good. that's progress.
its an old game but people all over the world still play it. so its not just me. i looked and on the weekly challenge 729 users have played that this week. you'd think it would be forgotten by now.

also, one more thing: if i were delusional i might think that when they were developing this game that there was a group of people in Finland saying "okay, now what sounds do you think would be ideal for scott seward in greenfield massachusetts in some primal asmr way?"

i mean the crunchy sounds and even just the feel of the game were made for me. people must have games like that. i will occasionally buy a game thinking i'll try something new and i last maybe 1 or 2 days and i never play them again.