how insecure are you?

I saw no option for "I'm quite secure despite my inevitable fallibility because my mother loves me", so I voted Other.

without reference to the polled individual's actual usefulness this is half-a-poll

Reasonably.

I'm pretty confident but I question myself more than I'd like

Although this all depends on whether I drink or not.

I'm a half and half in all things. Simultaneously v arrogant and incredibly insecure. Extrovert/introvert etc. It varies from one part of life to another I guess.

I'm aight, sometimes I struggle to trust my instincts

I transitioned somewhere from insecure to fatalistic, sort of? It's still possible I'm a useless, not very bright, particularly humorless harpy, but I can't do anything about it now so it's a moot point. Might as well suit myself whenever possible.

I'd participate in this poll but I'd just fuck it up

nil-will-it

i'm anxious about food, but don't have food insecurity.

if there was one between 'i suck..' and 'im aight' i'd go for that one.

missing "3 am wakeup panics 4x week" answer

relentless fear of being FOUND OUT has eased of late idk what I was even going to be FOUND OUT about tbh

it

:))) darra

ikr

There are a couple of areas in my life where I feel like I've mastered the required skills/have the necessary knowledge and in these areas I feel very confident.

Everything else I feel like I can't be trusted to do anything right.

I don't really get stressed about it much though.

a vote for don't believe; extraordinary claims require extraordinary proof

People without fear or insecurity are usually fascist imbeciles or serial killers in my experience.

fascism not exactly the most fearless or secure ideology i can think of but generally know what u mean

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I've been writing music ever since I was 16 or so and have always wondered if I would like anything I do at all if I hadn't written it. For the most part I'm insanely embarrassed of the stuff.

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Ah, my people.

I'm the only person that has life figured out???

14 others feel me

two weeks ago people coulda bullied me into believing 2+2=5

extremely, i’d say, but none of choices quite fit (would’ve voted other).

second localgarda re ‘half & half’; for me tends to be double-edged, two-faced.

have trained myself to (try to) fake it mostly (i.e. to cover up abyssal depths, stop myself from seeking reassurance from others— though this self-concealment can be just as bad: avoidance).

i’d describe it as bad self-consciousness. not so insecure “in the moment” of situations; more racked with rumination afterward. like sometimes i’ll be troubled for days (weeks, months, etc) with thought that i said wrong thing/ failed to say right thing, inadvertently hurt someone’s feelings, come off as jerk/ idiot/ douchebag, committed some inscrutable faux pas repellent to others, etc.

not necessarily paranoia but kind of hermeneumania & oppressive embarrassment/ guilt.

which leads to avoidant behavior & paralysis, not so much because i believe i’m incapable of pulling things off (i often shock myself pulling things off), but because i don’t want to deal with onslaught of punishing self-reflection afterward

ultimately comes to the same thing (which leads to issue of another thread: regret)

self-loathing, self-exasperation, self-contempt, self-disappointment, self-sabotage maybe more relevant terms

two weeks ago people coulda bullied me into believing 2+2=5

do it to julia imo

have long felt my intelligence only hits "slightly-above average to above average but not exemplary" levels and frustrates me tho years of slacking and not giving a shit largely put me there until I turned my life around in my mid-20s. too little, too late.

have a tendency to believe the shit hurled at me too, years of bullying and my dad's unpredictable outbursts growing up seems to have permanently conditioned that in me, though compared to age 18 I have comparative swagger.