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i guess it must be busy being a Writer

Joolz is my maaaaaaaaster.

i know what you are saying and part of it is my fault, but between temping, and extending my range beyond the nme (which is a good apprenticeship for me, i.e. get the articles out there, finished and well-written and entertaining)....but I was pissed off at myself for writing so much on the denise lambert thread which was cutting into the time that i had set aside for an article that had to be done by friday - plus when you factor in my relationship w/Sophie plus friends who want to actually see me, occassionally, (yes i do have them) and the book, which is flowing nicely out at 3000 words a day and edits that take up too two hours a day, i'm just fucked for time.

and i can't commit or reasonably follow through thoughts that i do post up here (which as i admit, stream of consciousness, abstract, etc).

so i just wrote this to say, paul - do you want to be the world's greatest writer or do you want to fuck about on an internet board? i'm not being arrogant, but the time spent here is not creative for me, anymore and i might as well move on.

i do hope when i see suzy, kate, marcello, or the people that i met and dug on here for the past year, we can still chat and be friendly but i really have to call it quits.

even typing this, i've got my notebook filled with writing that i've got to be editing and it's cutting into it all....(get up six in the morning, sit in a cafe until 9:20, go to work at 9:30, write for an hour on my lunch break, write on the tube journey home, somehow use the nights and weekends to edit and perfect my ideas and keeping my relationship with sophie alive)...etc...do you SEE????

and even going on a pleasurable social outing with mark s and marcello (which was inspirational, as i do think marcello is an inspiration, that is my opinion) and then the next night seeing apples in stereo and the next night, turning down death disco because i've run WAAAY behind with my own tight schedule....and just being on the verge of nervous exhaustion.....

kate - i can't go to thee acid ranch as, well, to put it bluntly, i hate ian johnsen and wish him untimely death. he is a bastard, and if people read this, so what - i think he's an utter bastard - but those experiences of january taught me great lessons on how people are in the music industry - so really, at the same time, i should be thanking him instead of wishing him untimely death...

ANYWAYS! : - ) so, maybe i will run into you when i'm at a show, club, etc.

see you all!!!

and i'm not all bad - but because i am stream of consciousness (which is one thing i will defend until i die....) people see all sorts of me, some will like, some won't.

bye.

i'm sorry i wz so tired on tuesday, but i'm super-glad we all met up

back to work....

yeah, i do want to stress, i don't want to lose touch with anyone and won't....i just won't be writing on here or involving myself, much, anymore.

(and then they all met up?)

these departure threads are v. annoying every time