There Will Not Be Blood: What Menopause Means to You

Let's talk about the pause that refreshes!

I turn 50 in 3 weeks so will age out of this thread. I'm here to offer an alternative view on "women have it better in their 50s", because no one seems to be addressing menopause and how fucking awful it can be for a lot of women.

Its fucking awful. I've never been so fatigued/incapable/fogbrained/angry since I had mono in my 20s. Yay.

― Stoop Crone (Trayce), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:00 PM (one hour ago) bookmarkflaglink

But on a more positive note, my silver hair looks pretty neat!

― Stoop Crone (Trayce), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:00 PM (one hour ago) bookmarkflaglink

xp That's horrible, and I'm so sorry to hear it! This is a huge topic I'm always up to discuss. I'm having minimal symptoms/side effects but I'm also only mid-way through. If there's enough interest, should we start a thread?

― Ima Gardener (in orbit), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:06 PM (fifty-five minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

I'm in the early stages of "the change" -- and a number of my female friends my age are like, "is it covid or is it menopause?" in terms of trying to make sense of the symptoms ... i have had [show hidden text]

― sarahell, Monday, February 22, 2021 9:08 PM (fifty-three minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

Xpost - You should. I’m not there yet but it’s of interest to me and I have some resources I’ve been bookmarking for friends/fire that I can share. The biggest single predictor of age of menopause is your mom’s age when she went through it which means I’m looking at another 10 years. Joy.

― Benson and the Jets (ENBB), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:10 PM (fifty-two minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

Perimenopause is a whole thing on its own S and from things I’ve read it can be the worst part for some people!

― Benson and the Jets (ENBB), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:11 PM (fifty minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

Yeah I dont want to crap up this thread with health woes haha. But yes, we prob can do so if we have enough of us lady-presenting types!

I remember my mother being constantly angry/weepy/weird/dropping things when she was in her late 40s (we get it early in my fam). So much I didnt know were symptoms. Dry eyes! Flu symptoms! Constant headaches!

― Stoop Crone (Trayce), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:11 PM (fifty minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

my mom was about 50 when she started, but apparently if you are a regular/heavy smoker you are likely to start earlier ... so 46, for me, I guess.

― sarahell, Monday, February 22, 2021 9:12 PM (fifty minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

xpost - yes E I've read the same, I guess thats whats happening. Lot of hormonal BS.

― Stoop Crone (Trayce), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:12 PM (forty-nine minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

Perimenopause is a whole thing on its own S and from things I’ve read it can be the worst part for some people!

yeah that's where I'm at ... I am definitely having to pay more attention to those issues that when I was in my 20s/30s my biggest concern was accidentally forming babby

― sarahell, Monday, February 22, 2021 9:14 PM (forty-eight minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

Yeah I bet it is. :/ Def think it’s warrants a thread. Trayce do they call it “the menopause” in Australia? That’s what they call it here in England and it makes me cringe every time because it makes me think of “the curse” or “the change” lol.

― Benson and the Jets (ENBB), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:14 PM (forty-seven minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

hahah I remember when I first heard the term "Aunt Flo" and immediately thought of the tv show Alice! and so at some point I associated grits, and the kissing thereof, with menstruation.

― sarahell, Monday, February 22, 2021 9:16 PM (forty-six minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

At least in school they show you a little movie about periods. Nobody tells you anything about menopause! It’s only from reading a bunch of stuff in a Facebook group I’m in that I started realizing how little I knew about it and started reading more.

― Benson and the Jets (ENBB), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:17 PM (forty-five minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

my hippie aunt apparently said "the trick is eating root vegetables rich in vitamin E" ... but ... hippie aunt is not always otm

― sarahell, Monday, February 22, 2021 9:19 PM (forty-three minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

I won't be in my forties for another few years, but I'm already dreading menopause because birth control pretty much made me lose my mind and so I have this lurking fear that menopause will mean being whomped by mental illness.

― Lily Dale, Monday, February 22, 2021 9:25 PM (thirty-seven minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

Trayce do they call it “the menopause” in Australia? That’s what they call it here in England and it makes me cringe every time because it makes me think of “the curse” or “the change” lol.

IKR? Yeah older ladies do seem call it that, it sounds anachronistic to me.

― Stoop Crone (Trayce), Monday, February 22, 2021 9:41 PM (twenty minutes ago) bookmarkflaglink

my friends are abuzz about perimenopause
i don't think i have any symptoms yet but i was a late menarcher

My mother was in her 30s when she started perimenopause, and was done by the time she turned 40. I started around 42 iirc? That was 2-3 years ago. I've had the hot flashes, the night sweats, the DRY AS FUCK eyes, the period that lasted for 2 weeks, and more. Also my body changed how it holds weight, which is not really what I was looking for in a "getting older and wiser" experience.

Now I have a period about every 6 months or so? Just long enough to re-set the clock and remind me that I'm still at the mercy of my hormones.

What do I have to look forward to? How are you doing? Normalize menopause.

Same LL. I was 15 when I got my period. And because of some tv show I saw I was convinced I was secret balls but that’s another sorry.

Even though I don’t think I’m peri yet I find all of this really interesting and I want to be prepared for when I am! It’s crazy how little this is talked about. Thank you for making this thread IO.

When I turned 43 my mom said oh you might start menopause because that’s when I did. Thanks for the heads up!!!

I really haven’t noticed anything different except my arms ache a lot a day or two before.

i was 9 when i first got my period (though it was really just one day before my 10th birthday ... pretty sure this anecdote is on the no boys thread somewhere).

just finishing a period that came early -- and was fairly normal -- but I did have the two months without a period in the fall, followed by the period that lasted 12 days. Over the summer, I had a backyard hang with a friend and his wife -- they're in their mid-50s and live in the suburbs. I mentioned that I needed to go Walgreens and get tampons, and A. (the wife) was like, "you need tampons? I have a large bag of them that I don't need anymore. Do you want them? Please take them? Do they have a shelf life? I think they should still be good." ...Anyway, on day 8 of the 12 day period, I was so immensely grateful for A's tampon stash.

I only know mine was 50 when she started because I asked!

i asked my mom a couple months back about it -- and she was like, "I don't remember. It was so long ago." ... so I guess, if I make it to 75 like my mom, my menopause experience might be as untraumatic as hers, considering otherwise her memory is quite good.

yeah my mom hasn't brought it up at all. i think she forgets i have a body

my mom generally only thinks of bodies in terms of food and pregnant y or n?

*raises hand*

(That's strange. I was just discussing menopause with a bunch of British sixtysomethings on FB.)

My period has been stopping and starting for about seven months now. This is the first full (but light) period I've had in three months--the last few ones were just a little bit of dried blood. I think I've been having hot flashes--I get hot a few times an hour, but it's not all that uncomfortable, and it doesn't make me sweat.

Oh hi. I think I probably started up the perimenopause train in my late 30s, early 40s (no wonder getting pregnant was such a challenge). I breast fed for 16 months, maybe, and that kept my period at bay. I remember the first one I had when it returned was a nice, short manageable cycle and I was like "NICE having a baby fixed everything." HA HA NO. After that, it was blood, everywhere blood, ten day periods every two weeks, can't leave the house, have to sit on a towel, two of those Always super overnight pads back to back when I slept so I basically had a pad that extended from my belly button to the top of my butt crack. Then hot flashes and night sweats and my favorite, major depressive symptoms/suicidal ideation the week before my period started! Which was happening every two weeks!

Anyway, I have a great OB/GYN and she was like, "This is not a normal way to feel. We can do something about this." Cue massive emotional breakdown in the exam room. But I take Lo Loestrin birth control pills (with no breaks - fuck you period!), and a big old dose of Zoloft and that makes it relatively manageable.

My mom started menopause at around 40 and was done with it by 50, so fingers crossed I only have two more years of this bullshit.

I have temporarily put this off by getting pregnant, but I should find out when my mom had it...

those extended periods, guys, I’m so sorry. that is some bullshit.

Pregnant, you say?

wait, it lasts TEN YEARS? i'm not kidding i thought it was like 6 months. i'm not gonna think about it anymore.
xp congrats?!

I've never used hormonal birth control, and I don't know if that will change my experience or not.

Oh, and congratulations.

haha thanks guys. yes, I am knocked up, but don’t let that distract from the topic at hand.

PMDD is the absolute total WORST
I can't wait to get rid of it. Hormonal bc helps a little bit, only enough to allow me to not detonate every 3 weeks

congrats horseshoe!

(thanks, LL!)

Yay, baby horseshoe! Congratulations!

Yay, baby horseshoe! Congratulations!

Yay, baby horseshoe! Congratulations!

I am obviously excited about this news.

horseshoe that is so exciting! How are you feeling?

Thank you! To keep on topic, it took a few years of fertility treatments, and I did wonder vaguely if I was racing menopause toward the end.

Horseshoe I totally saw that on fb and flipped the fuck out inside because I was so happy for you but then I wasn’t sure if I should say anything but omgiamsohappyforyou!

Thanks for running with this in orbit - love the title <3

So yeah, dry eyes is the one I never knew, dear god it is irritating esp because I already have frequently blurry vision anyway from not getting used to my multifocal glasses.

My last period was *thinks*.. maybe August last year? So yeah I'm well on the way at this point, as far as I can tell.

Am seriously considering HRT. It isnt dangerous anymore, right?

Carl, hi! I feel really good tbh; second trimester has been chill! I hope you and Ivy and Jeff are doing well!

fertility treatment high five. Ivy is the product of the best reproductive technology (our) money could buy. We are good! I'm so happy about baby horseshoe.

Oh and congrats horseshoe! Gah Im working cant keep up

And yeah I haven’t ruled out having a kid. I had my AMA tested two years ago because I was curious and my egg reserve was very good but I know at this point it is depleting every day. But that’s another good example - I didn’t even know that was just a test you can ask for!

Wait AMH

(thanks, E!) I have been weird about announcing bc it was so hard to get pregnant and I was scared of stuff going wrong, and also because being publicly pregnant is so fraught, and because I know people who want to get pregnant can’t always and it’s just annoying being a woman fin.

Luckily I never wanted kids, though my partner keeps jokingly demanding "GIVE ME A BABY GIRL" (he has 2 teen boys, he is joking)

But it is happy news and fertility treatment high five back at you, carl

It’s wonderful. The world needs more moms like you tbh. That’s a lucky kiddo right there. :)

re: the birth control pills and the PMDD, last hear at around the time of the Cavanaugh confirmation hearings (aka that week when everything was a trauma trigger), my GP took me off the birth control because of blood pressure concerns and my whole mental health state spiraled. I probably only got more or less back to baseline last August maybe? I do feel much more stable now, but I will not be coming off the pill to see if I'm done with this process any time soon.

year not hear

Aw, thanks!

But back to the thread topic - one of my colleagues was out a lot last year because of really bad menopause symptoms and the management was not happy. That’s actually one of the things that made me interested in it - she was suffering so badly and I was like oh wait? Can it be that rough? And it looks like it can and it should absolutely be talked about more often.

That was an xpost to E; I’m so sorry that PMDD was such a bear, Carl, but I’m glad the pill is working!

ugh it sucks so much when women’s health things affect attendance at work bc the workplace sucks about it, as it does about so many things

Here’s another symptom I didn’t know was a thing - itching! My boss was itching like crazy last year. She is 47 so went to the doc and the itching was hormonal! She’s perimenopausal but she thought she was too young and was shocked.

sadly the kavanaugh shit was fall 2018! i completely lost it around then too and went back on the HBC shortly afterward. i don't plan to ever stop taking it bc the PMDD is still there it's just not as bad. i am actually quite worried about what menopause will do to my emotional state.

She went out after work with girlfriends for a drink and mentioned that her dry skin was driving her nuts and they were all like oh uh . . .

xp esp as i am trying to rebuild life after losing my longtime job that i felt very strongly about
i guess we'll see!

i do have a weird itch on my head that won't go away!!!

First it came for my feet and now that it’s affecting my hands I’m at my wit’s end.

I would at least say it's possible? :( But maybe :) if HRT will help!

Xp LL … Otherwise it’s arthritis…not sure what’s worse. I got aches in knees and lower back… Idk if the different parts that ache during menopause are like the sneak preview of where the arthritis will hit in 10+ more years… otoh, men as they age are more prone to needing adult diapers so … definitely prefer hot flashes and aching knees to that

i have annual physical coming up, doc is going to get my bullet list of ailments now that my bp is under control. i fully dread the thought of having arthritis/losing functionality in my hands/feet.

I had hand and lower spinal/hip xrays recently cos of my aches, checking for Ankylosing spondylitis (cos I have the marker in my bloodwork). I dont have AS as far as they reckon but I am getting mild osteo in my knees and right hand ugh.

I get that classic "it aches when its cold" thing.

My journey to try and get put on fucking HRT is still ongoing! I feel like I'm in a GRRM novel at this point, it is taking sooooo long. I had to tick off all the "high risk" shit which meant seeing a cardiologist, controlling my diabetes, losing weight, and getting a mammogram. Thanks to waiting lists, thats taken me over 12 months. And now today at the final hurdle they tell me the frigging cardio never sent my results to my GP grrrr. But once thats sorted it looks like I may FINALLY get to try HRT. And not a moment too soon, I am over the tired, sweaty, cranky, clumsy, foggy lot.

Oh and not to mention the constant aches and pains. Just getting up off the couch is a trial.

I learned recently about menopausal tendonitis and it explained so much about the general aches and pains all over. Lower estrogen levels make the collagen in your tendons go crosswise instead of in a nice smooth line - this makes tendons stiff and inflexible. Counter with more stretching than seems reasonable.

Yesterday I stood on a chair… the process, the amount of time it took … I was like, do I go in the kitchen and get the stepladder? Nah, I could totally get on this chair no problem, faster than getting the ladder … in retrospect… the ladder would have been faster.

Trayce, yeah, they won't give it me here in Canada either. Frustrating because from what I've read, the latest research shows that most of the risks they thought were associated with it are more accurately only risky if your levels are depleted and then suddenly replaced, but maintaining is relatively much more safe. So *if* that is true, seems like a poor level of care to actively create the worse scenario. I saw my family dr, a private clinic, and a specialist and still got nowhere. It's ridiculous.

Meanwhile, in Big Pharma USA, even a person with a history of estrogen-receptor-positive breast cancer (e.g., me) can get HRT.

I've been on it (albeit at very low dose and combined with a protective SERM) for months. I still feel crap, but not quite as crap.

Oh we can get it fine its just the GPs are exercising an abundance of caution because of the supposed heart risk (bcs of my comorbidities). I mean I guess thats good but yeesh.

I have to say if this doesnt help the sleep/heat/aches thing I'll be pretty frustrated.

did y'all see that video of the woman's head literally steaming while she had a hot flash and was sitting on some bleachers watching a game?!
classic

My aunt’s hot flashes used to fog up her car windows when she was driving!

Its so weird! It isnt at all like fever heat. Its like ones skin has taken on hotplate qualities. Also I can be hot all over andsweating and still have freezing cold feet. FUN.

Itching! So much itching! Also managed to fog up some car windows today while sweat-soaking through a t-shirt.

It was never steaming nor uncomfortable heat, for me. I just had to be prepared to take off all of the covers or my coat a couple of dozen times a day.

Effexor completely halted my hot flashes and night sweats! It was rather astounding. I added estrogen for anxiety snd mood madness along with GSM.

Oh and if you are not already using vaginal estrogen cream, DO IT! It is not absorbed systematically so any doc who says it is contraindicated does not know wtf they are talking about. Which is unfortunately the case for far too many docs, including gyns, when it comes to menopause !

Effexor completely halted my hot flashes and night sweats!

Interesting, cos both the lady GPs I see suggested SSRIs and I was extremely wary because I had a Very Bad time on effexor and prozac back in the 90s (shot my anxiety levels thru the roof) so I'm not sure thats an option.. who knows.

I just 5 mins ago got called by the GP... I hve to get one last boob ultrasound to make 300% sure a minor blop on my last mammo is nothing to worry about before they'll start. GAH! there is zero BC in my family!

Is vaginal estrogen still $100+ a tube?

Not sure, my insurance pays for some of it—it is totally bullshit that it would cost more than, like, 20 bucks—cheap generic drug mixed with vaseline. Honestly they should give it out for free to everyone over 45.

Sorry to all who are pushing for HRT. It was easy to get mine but possib because I have no warning signs or medical hist issues. Also I was fully finished with menopause by the time I started, so I was already no longer having hot flashes etc. But I super super appreciate the improved joint flexibility and reduced chronic pain of taking HRT! Along with some other changes that I won't put here but suffice it to say the results are an improvement.

My hot flashes were like the feeling of wearing several coats in a hot room, nothing more or less than that. Definitely bothersome but not life-disrupting! Right before covid was a thing, I had one on a PACKED subway train one morning and I must have looked horrible because people were inviting me to sit down and like I might pass out! lol how you do you say thanks but I'm just SO HOT RIGHT NOW.

When do we know menopause is over?

My situation is different: end of 2017 I had a hysterectomy because of an entire fruit bowl of fibroids in there, kept ovaries. I sometimes have flash sweats and flare-ups of tendinitis (including in my Achilles for most of the past year). I did not realise that tendinitis is linked to menopause at all; my GP (who is great in every other way) has never drawn my attention to this. Not on HRT - because of childhood cancer, I have always ruled it out. Had to artificially stop periods as a first effort to treat the fibroids maybe 10 years back. What I do?

I take effexor for depression/anxiety reasons and still have all the sweating

I haven’t had a uterus since 2015, so I had to go by symptoms and ES/LH/FSH testing. All of which indicate I’m still in peri.

A year after your last period.

Gabapentin (which i take for anxiety) also is prescribed for hot flashes. Idk if that’s why I have only had one in the last year, the same number of periods I had in the last year fwiw. The sweats aren’t as bad as they were a year ago, but the joint pain has increased, as well as new un-fun digestive issues. Considering how mild my symptoms are, I haven’t considered HRT …

Apparently I have fairly significant fibroids, and since the periods are only irregular but have not actually stopped yet, the sheer blood loss is somewhat alarming sometimes. Need to get bloodwork done again to check but it's almost certainly making me anemic. Pelvic floor and skin issues too, but the advice I got for all this was to take naproxen for pain, maybe try sessions with at a "kegel throne" clinic (v expensive I think - anyone ever done one?) and to just wait for full menopause because "that should solve most of the problems" ... and that was two years ago and still waiting. Unfortunately put my own needs completely on the back burner because of typical being a caregiver stuff, but it seems that is going to be easier now, so it's a good time to push harder with some self care. Just feeling very shitty and so tired of it.

Menopause Is Having a Moment
If you’ve got ovaries, you’ll go through it. So why does every generation think it’s the first to have hot flashes?

https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2025/03/10/menopause-is-having-a-moment

https://archive.is/giTm4

(nb i have not yet read this and know nothing of these things; just posting a link)

She seems to think that no one had ever thought to track menstrual cycles until the invention of period tracking apps.

Ugh ugh. I am someone who just DOES NOT exercise, right? I used to, when I was a lithe teen - Jazz ballet, gymnastics, skating. Since my 20s, nada bar walking, for various reasons.

Anyway I've started seeing a new physio for my crappy knees/hips and shes thrown me into pilates, which I've never tried before. The actual session was fine, I could feel the burn, but it wasn't insanely taxing.

...until I sat up on the refomer bench after my last set and felt like I was going to faint. WTF is with that!? Should I have eaten something? Had more water? Am I just that unfit and it'll be better next time? It was so embarrasing. They even checked my blood pressure for the next 10 mins which was very nice of them and it was a bit too high (esp considering I am on BP meds).

I really hope that doesn't happen to me next time because that aside, it felt like such manageble exercise (no strain on my shit joints).

(I dunno if that's a particularly meno-related problem to be having so much as an "I am old and really fucking unfit" one... but anyway...)

My stamina has definitely taken a hit. I just get tired more easily in general, despite good exercise/diet/sleep. And uppers! I take adderall now in a (mostly failed) attempt to cut the brain fog, which should really go by another name because "brain fog" sounds way too benign for what it feels like.

Oh! I should also have mentioned that my neverending quest for HRT is finally at an end! I started on an Estrogel/Prgesterone tablet combo as of last night.

No change to my night flashes so far but I'm expecting it'll take a while?

I have felt like complete shit the last 2 weeks but its because yet again a statinlike med is NOT agreeing with me. I've tried atorvastatin, rosuvastain, eztimibe and fenofibrate and they all make me almost instantly feel like I have CFS. It is so weird. So I have permission to stop taking it (yet again) while I see how I go with the HRT for a month. Between that and the physio heres hoping I can feel like less of a malfunctioning Jabba the Hutt.

I have been feeling SO MUCH BETTER the last day or 2. Wether its the HRT, the ceasing statins or a bit of both who can tell but man it is nice to be able to get out of bed and walk downstairs without having to crab-walk clutching the stair rail.

Fabulous news, Trayce!!

I've just started pilates too which'll be tough; the first session I got really faint afterwards from the lying down/standing repeatedly and the next day my muscles were farrrrkin sore. I'm just really unfit.

I still haven’t conclusively determined what food(s)/ingredients are fucking with my digestive system and causing “LNG” but I have been having fewer problems since I switched to putting soy milk in my coffee instead of milk or half&half . I do kegels more often but not in any disciplined routine… though I think they have improved my sex life a bit so idk

I have been SO sweaty lately. Like I’m at work and am visibly sweaty through my shirt. Dnw. Hate it.

I was having night sweats almost every night, and now nothing? Not complaining, but wtf body.

My knees were sweating. Sometimes I wake up and my legs (only) are super sweaty. It’s so weird.

Also? Ears so itchy. WTF.

Yes with the legs (only) sweating!!!

Dang really? This phase is so brutal wtf

The whole thing has been way, way harder than I was prepared for. Fingers crossed, I seem to be in the “it gets better” stage, thank fucking god.

Sending everyone my best for getting through this trying time. I found hot flashes uncomfortable and night sweats personally inconvenient in terms of bedding freshness but it wouldn't have occurred to me to say that menopause significantly disrupted my life (also it was 2020 so it was hard to tell). Maybe I was just lucky in having a low level of symptoms, similarly to when I had a cycle. It was just an inconvenience.

The sweats and hot flashes have gone for now …but now I have knee stiffness and lower back pain.

The variation in menopause experiences is itself wild. At one point I thought I would have to 1) quit my job and 2) be checked into some sort of menopause funny farm.

Oh wait yeah I forgot about the joint pain. That did get a horrible for a while.

xp Yeah see, I wasn't working. It was 2020 and I had just quit my super traumatizing abusive job. It was pretty much impossible to have an accurate baseline for anything at that point.