hey, how is everything with you lately?

I've fallen, and I can't get up!

i am a wee bit STRESSED ( understatement )about moving house and i raved like a lunatic to someone on the phone today, but im fine now, thank you for asking, rainy.
i hope you get the job you went for.

kim i hope someone comes and picks you up!

i have a sore throad an an earache

hahaa! Yeah someone PLEASE, pick me up!

(um ok, I'm tired! I'm off to bed)

ahh, the ears, such delicate machines. And the throad too, of course. Try panadeine, Jim.

My mouth and limbs have been tingly and numb on and off since I took an antiobiotic (not that it s necessarily related) in Ocober), and it's been very occassional, but past 5 days it's been constant. So I went to the health center, and may have to get x-rayed to make sure I do not have some neorological problem. Oh and I have that paper to write, but see other thread I started for that..

"i have a tumah!" - ? just using my sense of humor ;) other than that, i'm dandy and excited about graduating

one exam and im done school, my belly is filled with latkes and im happy.

oh rainy, I'm so glad to hear you are quite good!

Things are good for me, too.
I passed the NY bar.
I brought back in my car after Thanksgiving all kinds of good food and household stuff that wasn't being used at home but is a pain to shop for in NY.
Instead of being lost, my brown tweed skirt was in fact neatly hung up on a skirt hanger inside a garment bag!
I saw the Trachtenburg Family. Oh yes.

Hey Rainy! Your photos arrived today -- thanks! :-) Glad to hear you're doing well!

oh yes house moving stress.
oh yes uni stress.
oh yes boys...

psh to it all

Between my classes I've got 33 pages of writing (involving, like, research and science and stuff, so almost no humanities bullshit-slinging for me unfortunately) to turn in within the next week-and-a-half or so, plus big finals after that, so I will be STRESCXSORED for the duration. On the other hand, Thanksgiving break made me realize that I do actually have a social life, it just happens to exist five hours away. Bummer.

Rainy, it's great to hear that you're doing better than you were last week. I hope the job transition works out well for you.

Personally I am doing okay, though a bit harried with catching up with things both at work and in life. If you notice a massive decrease in my ILX postings that does not end with a thread that says "my life is a complete failure" then I'm probably getting along okay.

Also hi, Felicity, I hope your holiday went well and little shivery dog-dog is okay and NYC is working out effectively and uncomplicatedly for you. Next time I'm out there we'll have to talk more, and I promise I'll be less boring than usual.

It's good to hear that you are good Rainy. Good luck with the job.

I am fairly happy but I have a sinus infection and a chest infection (which I blame on having to take antibiotics for something else and thus destroying my immune system) so it takes me a few hours to get going in the mornings.

I bought pretty fabric today to make some summer clothes out of.

Yesterday was an awful day. Tried to post an article on my weblog but Blogger wasn't allowing me to publish at all. Got into a terrible argument at work. I can't imagine being there for much longer. The same pattern seems to repeat itself in every job I go to; always the incompetence, always the pettiness. It is debilitating.

I had an invitation to an *** corporate bash in the West End last night, but didn't bother going. I didn't know anyone else who was going and didn't fancy sitting there for hours on end being deafened by loud music and surrounded by drunken journalists with whom I have no common ground. I went home, dog tired and longing for some rest. So of course the neighbours start blasting out their stereo at a ludicrous volume. It was as if they were in the room with me. This is South London, so I couldn't go and debate the issue as I would probably have ended up with a bullet in my head. Might have been welcome relief.

I sat there at my desk, reading, and just ended up crying uncontrollably. All I have ever asked for was a simple and quiet life. Someone to love and who would love and understand me. She was taken away from me. It is perhaps merciful that she isn't here to see how low I've sunk. All I wanted after that was somewhere quiet, a refuge of peace and freedom from harassment. I did not get it. Living in this flat is like serving a prison sentence. It doesn't matter where I work, where I live, where I go; there is always the noise, always the arguments, always the savagery, always the intolerable nightmares.

I have tried counselling and psychiatric treatment. Neither has worked.

I sat there crying and all I could come back to thinking of again and again was suicide. I can't bear to go on and on and ON like this. I feel as if I have been walking until I am out of breath but my feet keep covering the same patch of ground. Trapped on a treadmill which keeps repeating the same patterns, the same procession of torment, over and over and OVER again. LONGING to be out of everything, forever.

I don't have a clue who you are and probably wouldn't know you anyway, but can't help but be a bit concerned....kind of a disturbing post, eh?

I'm doing pretty good. I got over a work-hump yesterday and today--there's another one coming up soon, but I'll try not to think about it too much, and it's not as overloaded as the earlier one. Got advances of the New Order box, which I'm reviewing, and am playing the live disc right now. It's nothing special. I finally heard the original 12-inch version of "Temptation" on disc one, and it's pretty different from the Substance version. Somehow it reminds me of Loose Joints' "Is It All Over My Face" had it been done by a rock band--the same kind of raw looseness. I like it a lot, and maybe, eventually, as much as the album version. Earlier I attempted to kiss a woman I fancy on the neck, and she shrugged her shoulder upward because she didn't want to do that yet. "Aaah," I said. "You're protecting your neck. You're so Wu-Tang."

Good to hear you're well. M

abt the ***post: have you ever tried medicins like anti-depressives or anything, I tried councelling but it did not work either and then I had an argument because they disapproved of using anti-depressives, but after a few years of more nervous breakdowns I went back to my doctor and he prescribed medicin (efexor)for me. I'm feeling mucho mucho better now, it's a shame that I had not used it before.

oh rainy! i wish you had been in christchurch! it was good, but it would've been perfect if you'd been there! everyone there is very nice in an unemotional kind of way. and i have a present for you. good lcuk with the job interview. i'm in auckland. its warm and toasty. i am in LUST!

again,

Today is a giant day in terms of on and ongoing ILX related project. I hope to have good news by night fall. *fingers and toes crossed*

I'm running on nervous energy at the mo, but I suppose that's my own fault for trying to get everything done in the last month of the year.

i'm feeling a bit megalo

(eew matos you creep)

not bad, I consulted the I Ching, and it set me in the right direction

i am all moved. i am actually very, very happy. this is an odd sensation for me and i don't quite know how to handle it. probably by starting to look for a JOB... does anyone have any ideas of what i can do?

Am I alone in finding it a little strange that most people have carried on this thread as if **** didn't make their comments?

Whoever you are I can only hope that you can break away from where you are now. Is there anyone you can talk to at the moment?

hi nabisco! Yes, you have to come back to NYC again soon. Dog-dog has been utterly spoiled by my father and has turned into a wild animal. Maybe over Xmas you can tak some sense into the little bitch.

(right back atcha Bob Zemko)

i am fine again today, but um, HEY! i am a bit concerned about that *** post! come back **** !