Under the Microscope

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Do you ever feel like everything you do is under really close scrutiny and the choices that you make are being constantly judged by those around you?

― MarkH (MarkH), Wednesday, 18 June 2003 17:51 (twenty-two years ago)

What do you mean by that?!?

― Colin Meeder (Mert), Wednesday, 18 June 2003 17:56 (twenty-two years ago)

I feel like this a lot, even tho I know that it probably isn't true - it is vain and arrogant of me to assume that the vast majority of ppl I come into contact with care one way or the other. But, natch, this doesn't stop me feeling this way quite a lot of the time. I think it's the work environment that makes me feel like this most of all. Now don't get me wrong - I am fortunate to like most of my job most of the time (I'd imagine some of you are saying "Lucky you!"). But at the same time I've been unable to progress to a more responsible and better paid position, certainly not thru lack of trying and certainly not thru over-posting to ILE ;). And I feel that it is not just when the CV is in front of one of the ppl who can make this happen, or when i'm in an interview situation, that my words and actions are being analysed.

― MarkH (MarkH), Wednesday, 18 June 2003 17:59 (twenty-two years ago)

In most jobs, there is an element of this. My boss is on leave at present and I'm kind of handling most of his responsibilities, and I'm very much in contention for promotion at the end of the year, so I'm damn sure that my performance at present is under some scrutiny. I don't actually mind this, as I think I deserve the step up and being watched will convince the relevant people of this.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Wednesday, 18 June 2003 18:56 (twenty-two years ago)

Nobody even knows what I do.

― Horace Mann (Horace Mann), Wednesday, 18 June 2003 18:59 (twenty-two years ago)

or rather what I'm supposed to do so they have no idea if I'm slacking off or what.
It's great.

― Horace Mann (Horace Mann), Wednesday, 18 June 2003 19:00 (twenty-two years ago)

I think that the problem is that i haven't mastered the art (if indeed it ever can be mastered) of being v. aware of what i'm doing (and just as importane *saying*) and how I must be on my guard not to act in a way which makes me look bad without being on edge, unrelaxed and consesquently, miserable. When I look back over my time in Oxford (10 years now, hence the retro- and indeed introspection) the times when I've been most happy I've been carefree and indeed careless and made blunders. Or if I haven't made blunders I have at least not kept my ear to the ground, tuned in to what was really going on and able to make the right decisions. There is a lot of overlap with my recent Hindsight thread I feel...

― MarkH (MarkH), Wednesday, 18 June 2003 19:11 (twenty-two years ago)

Quite the opposite really, I feel as though I'm fading out alot of the time.

― jel -- (jel), Wednesday, 18 June 2003 19:14 (twenty-two years ago)

seven years pass...

Different boozes under a microscope, really gorgeous:
http://www.buzzfeed.com/donnad/alcohol-is-microscopically-beautiful-bif

― A brownish area with points (chap), Saturday, 8 January 2011 16:34 (fourteen years ago)

Tequila:
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVwVCIHcwSw/TOW7clrzxvI/AAAAAAAAAG8/WIgUx0ImpjI/s1600/alcoholic-art-tequila-microscopic-image.jpg

― A brownish area with points (chap), Saturday, 8 January 2011 16:34 (fourteen years ago)

Whiskey:
http://householdname.typepad.com/.a/6a00e5502b6df488340133f15fc5ec970b-800wi

― A brownish area with points (chap), Saturday, 8 January 2011 16:35 (fourteen years ago)

Bloody mary:
http://microscopy.fsu.edu/cocktails/images/bloodymary.jpg

― A brownish area with points (chap), Saturday, 8 January 2011 16:36 (fourteen years ago)

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