Are there things that you think about every day?

The latter is, of late, a very loud noise in my head. I am honestly starting to feel as if I'm a genuinely middling to untalented writer, and it was the only thing I ever thought I was any good at, so that's left me feeling rather down.

l. :: 580
family :: 400
brushing tongue :: 150
earplugs :: 100
bill-paying :: 52
panasonic three wheeled vacuum cleaner, greatness of :: 45
sunlight makes you cheerful :: 40
traffic frustration :: 38
penguin books, all :: 35
job, should i quit? :: 34
friends, dont have any :: 33
marriage, a possibility? :: 32
vending machines :: 31
straws dont unsheath well :: 28
shine on moving objects :: 25
mccartney more talented than lennon? :: 23
friends smarter, more capable than i am :: 19
paper towel dispensers :: 19
'what of was thought, but ne'er' etc :: 18
people are very dissimilar :: 17
trees, beauty of :: 16
sidewalks :: 15
friends are unworthy of me :: 15
identical twins separated at birth, studies of traits :: 15
intelligence, going fast :: 14
wheelchair ramps, their insane danger :: 14
urge to kill :: 13
escalator invention :: 12
people are very similar :: 12
'not in my backyard' :: 11
straws float now :: 10
djs, would i be happy as one? :: 9
'if you cant get out of it, get into it' :: 9
pen, felt tip :: 8
stereo systems :: 8
fear of getting mugged again :: 7
staplers :: 7
'roaches check in, but they dont check out' :: 6
dinner roll, image of :: 6
shoes :: 5
bags :: 5
earl buts :: 4
sweeping, brooms :: 4
whistling, yodel trick :: 4
'you can taste it with your eyes' :: 3
zip-lock tops :: 2
popcorn :: 1
birds regurgitate food and feed young with it :: .5
kant, immanuel :: .5

as for me, it's like
"how my life would be perfect
but for that ONE THING"

Second: Travelling round the world yet again.

Third: Where my mates are, and whether they still rock.

Fourth: Me, myself and I

Oh wait, you're actually wanting to know what it is that I think of? Yeah, like I'm going to spill that. There's only one person on ILX who knows what I think about daily, and I've entrusted her never to tell a soul. Good luck.... ;)

im sure that somewhere inbetween i do think some superb and mind-blowing thoughts about certain things on a daily basis, they just get lost in the mud along the way.
um.

clouds! if you had my view out the window you would be as fascinated as i have become.
also, god / lack of / belief or disbelief in supreme being / purpose of existence etc.

btw dee your post scares the hell out of me

ha ha, yeah.

Oh well.

big l :: 580
money :: 480
coffee, procurment of :: 450
grown so ugly :: 400
lee perry, genius or madman? :: 369
butterscotch krimpets, perfection of :: 340
"a cigarette would be good right now" :: 317
driving :: 300
driving, wishing to be :: 280
driving, wishing i wasn't currently :: 275
ernie hudson :: 260
intelligence since 2nd grade, erosion of :: 245
masturbation: too much? :: 230
dying :: 219
dying alone, arguments against :: 210
nipples, poofiness of :: 197
grandma: smells and textures :: 180
jimi hendrix, aquatic obssessions of :: 150
dying alone, arguments for :: 139
tupac: dead, or merely sleeping? :: 125
bellybutton, things inside of :: 110
automatic urinals, the mechanics of :: 100
applie cider donuts :: 89
poppyseeds, dangers during random drug tests of :: 76
hump or dulap? :: 70
shoes, smell removal from :: 63
friends don't understand us, adults don't understand us :: 58
beef, location of :: 50
mach 3 turbo razors :: 43
subway rats :: 36
timbaland: what does he eat for breakfast? :: 30
tony orlando and dawn :: 24
sex in the animal kingdom, mechanics of :: 19
"the 8 hour fragrance for the 24 hour woman" :: 13
pretzles with cheese inside :: 9
football, greatest injuries in :: 6
father, will i become like :: 4
war :: 2

ha ha, yeah.

Yay! Whoo hoo! Hurrah!

Um, what I meant to say was, "Aw, poor dears, no need to be scared. 'Tis nothing to worry about, really. Just little maddening obsessions and whatnot that might be a bit personal to divulge amongst you lot."

Um, but it *is* kinda interesting, actually evoking that reaction. Wow. There certainly is a first time for everything....

me :: 470
everyone else :: 45
job, do i need one? :: 43
mexican food :: 42
cds: unbreakable? :: 41
cute girl in my german class :: 41
german, study of :: 40
every single commercial jingle i heard ages 5-present :: 40
money, procurement of :: 37
has anyone ever actually gone permanently blind from looking at the sun? :: 36
haircut: do i need one? :: 35
the five mixtapes i've made for people but haven't gotten around to mailing yet :: 30
ian penman: what is he talking about? :: 29
does xXx hate me? :: 27
if so, should i hate xXx? :: 25
high school acquaintances, what are they up to right now :: 24
weak sight in left eye, possibility of eye surgery someday :: 24
handwashing: do i overdo it? :: 24
some random ilx post that no one else thought was funny but i did :: 23
"dental plan! lisa needs braces!" :: 21
parker posey :: 19
facial hair: why? :: 18
walt disney: nazi or no? :: 17
should i become a vegetarian or put it off another 5 years like i did 5 years ago? :: 15
vanilla coke :: 14
mark sinker: why am i not as smart as him? :: 11
how many credits i need to graduate :: 10
sharpies :: 9
the gwyneth paltrow sylvia plath movie: will it be any good? :: 9
the "guilty guilty guilty!" doonesbury strip :: 9
trees, whether or not they can think :: 9
j.d. salinger/thomas pynchon: same guy? :: 8
bowling: will i ever be any good at it and would i want to be? :: 7
life in hell :: 5
"elvis was a hero to most but he never meant shit to me/straightup racist the sucker was simple and plain?" : fair character assessment or not? :: 4
fingernails: do they need cutting? :: 4
chocolate cake or carrot cake? :: 4
does carrot cake improve your eyesight? :: 4
do other people think about any of this shit? :: 3
will i ever get drafted? :: 2
samuel richardson's "clarissa": will i ever read it? :: 2
guitar: will i ever learn it? :: 1

2) Finding funding, even though I'm years older than most of the fresh faced starving grads.