sleeping: classic or dud

I also remember watching a programme about this unfortunate guy who couldn't sleep at all for years and years and years until he became really really weak and died.

Going to bed is dud which would suggest that sleep is dud but getting up in the morning is a million times duddier, so sleep must be classic, no?

That's quite a little stinker isn't it? heheh *ouch*

Also, dreaming = dud

last night i'd been reading ilm and the discussion of hanson got mmbop in my head. had an awful time sleeping.

I've had all three problems, but lately my trouble is that I feel horribly unproductive during the day and somehow convince myself that my doddering around writing, reading, cleaning up, listening to music, etc. that I am getting something done. I can rarely fall asleep until such time as I literally cannot keep my eyes open, around 2 or 3 AM. It's a vicious cycle because I am sleepy and unproductive the next day, and then-- etc.

Dud: 45% of the time It's a matter of not getting enough sleep and being exhausted all day, 45% of the time it's getting too much sleep and being exhausted all day, 5% by pure luck I'm between those two things and awake, and the remaining 5% is that I sleep so little (like 2-4 hours) that my brain/body adjusts for me and I'm honest to goodness more alert than I'd be had I gotten 78, or 10 hours.

What the hell is going on?

what is going on is that you are me.

Sleeping is neither classic nor dud, what's P KLASSIC is falling asleep in the first place. I love the almost orgasmic frisson that comes from total relaxation: all pressure is off, all the muscles along my spine can relax for the first time all day, I realize how much tension is in my FACE(!!) as I exhale a few times and try to let all the stress run out. F accuses me of passing out instead of falling asleep, as I'm usu dead to the world within 3-5 mins.

It's like when you stretch after sitting a long time, and you can feel the rushing of the healthy blood into stagnant areas, and it's kind of heady and feels wonderful in a way I can't describe. Maybe it does something to the nervous system.

went to bed extra early with the goal of getting up early to work but woke up at my normal time instead! goddamnit

God I wish I could fall asleep in 5 minutes, my wife does that and I get jealous. My mind races when I lie down, despite all the deep breathing and biofeedback tricks I use. Granted, its gotten a lot worse with the stress of being unemployed, but I've never been a quick to fall asleep person.

haha yah i wld be so much happier abt having to sleep if i could manage to fall asleep w/in five minutes of lying down.

i can't do it quite that fast but pretty fast. if i can't sleep i think about walking somewhere along a memorized route. sounds weird but i can never make it to the destination in my head before i'm out. also sometimes it makes for good lucid dreaming.

went to bed extra early with the goal of getting up early to work but woke up at my normal time instead! goddamnit

― 丫 power (dyao), Thursday, March 18, 2010 8:21 PM (12 minutes ago)

i do this pretty much every day :)

i mean :(