Drug Free L C (Support Thread!!!)

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Alright, time to wise up for this guy. My birthday bender has been intermittently going on, sometimes in secret even!, for about two weeks now. Self-improvement things totally interrupted. The way things are going, there is no alternative but saying goodbye to the yellow brick road. I'm back in school for fuck's sake. I'm weak and spoiled: for the past year or so I've been living the dream, pretty much getting anything I pleased, but it's catching up. Last night I threw away a barely-touched gram of Bobbytime in pure self-disgust (you know things are fucked up when you rationalise a G of Bobby as "dessert" for finishing homework and pizza with your new square school friends). Today I flushed a bottle of Xanax down the toilet. There are no drugs, RX or street, left in my household. I've never even admitted a problem online or in real life till last week - think this is a major step. Still gonna be on the ciggies but yeah, there you go.

Help a nigga stay strong.

LC, Friday, 1 October 2004 01:55 (nineteen years ago) link

keep the rest up, drop the ciggies man.

darragh.mac (darragh.mac), Friday, 1 October 2004 01:58 (nineteen years ago) link

It's all good sir. Will be giving you the best of thoughts, can't be easy, and I'll spare you further platitudes because you'll laugh. Don't be afraid to ask the right people for help in keeping it together, you'll benefit more in the end. Things all right otherwise?

Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 1 October 2004 01:58 (nineteen years ago) link

Good luck LC!

The Bitter Tears Of Little Lord Travolta (nordicskilla), Friday, 1 October 2004 02:09 (nineteen years ago) link

ayo man, you know how to reach me, I've always got an ear. I haven't had much trouble with substances myself but I empathize.

Al (sitcom), Friday, 1 October 2004 02:24 (nineteen years ago) link

you know we love you. you gotta leave that yayo alone.

Symplistic (shmuel), Friday, 1 October 2004 02:34 (nineteen years ago) link

yeah enough man! keep it up.

playing the hardbitten partyboy escapee to the square school friends is good fun too, i do it and i've never even seen cane.

g--ff (gcannon), Friday, 1 October 2004 03:18 (nineteen years ago) link

Good luck, L C. I hope you're successfully able to tackle these addictions.

Ever-Ready Daisy Chain (Dee the Lurker), Friday, 1 October 2004 04:46 (nineteen years ago) link

Thanks yalls, you know I'll keep you posted. I'm already feeling stronger - tonight I actually met up with M. Towers aka Mr. Bobbytime himself and he was publically bumpin straight off the dinner table FACE FIRST at Subeez and I still managed to say no no no, even after having my car towed ($85) 30 mins earlier, a rad excuse to hit it up if I ever heard one. I just ate gyozas and drank vodka. Sym I met up w yr roomie at the Atlantis rap show after that and he sympathized w me though I had to leave early. Even straightedge mini-dunst (irretrievable LC romantic disaster #93845394587) didn't seem that angry w me on the phone yesterday for being a SWEATY DROOLING PILLED UP PSYCHODATE on my birthday, though I still really need to apologize to her properly. Speaking of my birthday, here is the damage tally for my bday bender, approximately: 6 gs of Bobby, 3 DIRRRTY tabs, 4 caps or so of GHB (no idea of exact amt), so much Xanax and Zopiclone my pee was radioactive-looking yesterday, about 2 cartons of smokes, probably at least 600 bucks in alky, living off scanty yogurt + sushi + coffee for a week, 2-day giddy maniafest (I had a few hilarious Tourettes-ish laughing outbursts in class last week), crashed my bicycle and scratched fuck out my Audemars-Piguet and wrist, 2 phonecalls to Mom. Yup, time to wake up. Thanks for being there my peoples, I shant let ya down. I'll mail yalls soon and Sym I'll see you Saturday @ the Arch. Happy anniversary 4 u and Kirsten BTW!!!

LC, Friday, 1 October 2004 06:31 (nineteen years ago) link

Hang in there, DLC! I don't have any advice to give you but it sounds like you're doing something right.

You've Got to Pick Up Every Stitch (tracerhand), Sunday, 3 October 2004 01:42 (nineteen years ago) link

Last week my friend Tom died after shooting H at his grandmothers house while she was at church. He'd played on and off for years, various drugs, various locations. He was a sweet and funny and smart guy, and it's appalling to think of his end-- so boring and trite, it just doesn't reflect his personality. You LC, from your posts I take, have a fucking reason, and if Tom could've found that in his endless searching, he could've made it through the trees, too.

mcd (mcd), Sunday, 3 October 2004 02:09 (nineteen years ago) link


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