Anyway, I have a doctor's appointment for Friday. It's with a GP and I expect to get referred elsewhere. Here's the deal:
* For as long as I can remember -- at least since early teens -- my hands have been shaky. I don't mean problems with coordination, as such -- I mean that people have always said "hey, what's wrong, your hands are shaking," and it wasn't nervousness or anything, it was just ... my hands shake. Just a little, but frequently. There is a name for at least one condition that causes this, but I don't remember it; a friend I'm no longer in touch with to ask had it, and took pills for it in the mornings, and her hands didn't shake anymore. I always figured it wasn't worth the bother. What's a little shakiness? It's not like I was performing surgery.
* From time to time, I'd have a "spell" when my hands were worse. Just sort of ... muffled dexterity, like when you're drunk or feverish. A poor omen for my juggling career.
* In the last year, and especially the last few months, those spells have become more common and much more severe.
* What has changed in the last year:
(1) I'm on daily medication for chronic migraines. But they're just beta blockers, and I wouldn't think they would exacerbate this. The Imitrex which I take less frequently -- for the migraines that shove their way through the beta blockers -- definitely does make my hands shut down, and the migraines themselves used to do so sometimes. But that seemed to be part of a more general inability to function. (My migraines, before I started the beta blockers, were severe and just shy of incapacitating; I have talked about them far past the point of spamminess before, there's no need to do so again.)
(2) I sprained my hand or wrist or something this summer and didn't see anyone about it, because I didn't have insurance. Nothing was broken, and I iced it and splinted it and went through a lot of Icy Hot (a mentholated topical analgesic). But it is perhaps not coincidental, the timing. This week, I'm trying to pay attention to my left (uninjured) hand to see if it's as bad off as the right hand is.
* What's actually happening vis-a-vis my hands:
(1) I have cut or burned myself more times this year, in the course of cooking, than in all previous years combined. Frequently enough that I've pretty much always had a cut "in progress," if you see what I mean, one or another not yet healed to invisibility. At the moment I have a long scar on my finger from, um, dropping the knife and catching it by the blade.
(2) I often "forget" how to open doors and jars, and how to turn faucets. It's like ... telling my hand to turn, but it won't do so.
(3) I drop things a lot. Every day. Sometimes it's like when your leg is asleep and you start walking and it feels funny, only without the tingling; sometimes I just think I have ahold of something, but then it slips, or my fingers don't come together in a grip. We've lost a lot of plates, poor things.
(4) Sometimes my hands just "feel funny," like I'm wearing oven mitts, and although they do what I tell them, it feels like their motions are not as smooth or accurate as nature intended.
(5) I can type fine. I don't notice any change in my typing at all. This is perplexing. Mouse use and touchpad use, definitely affected. Typing, perfectly okay.
So that was lengthy and all, but I couldn't think of a quick way to explain it/sum it up. What I wanted to ask was: has anyone had any experience with something like this, first- or secondhand (so to speak)? It's very frustrating, almost humiliating, to drop things all the time, or hover in front of a door waiting for my hand to remember how to turn the knob, or to have to ask people to dice peppers because I'm not positive I won't cut my finger open again. It seems silly to whine about, which is why I've put off doing anything about it for so long, but for all I know it's part of some other thing that'll get worse over time.
― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 15:19 (twenty years ago)
― dave225 (Dave225), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 15:29 (twenty years ago)
― Ned Raggett (Ned), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 15:31 (twenty years ago)
I have to admit I was hoping someone would say "Oh, that happens to me all the time, you just aren't getting enough chocolate!" or something, though.
― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 15:33 (twenty years ago)
― Kevin Gilchrist (Mr Fusion), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 15:39 (twenty years ago)
― Sarah McLusky (coco), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 15:42 (twenty years ago)
― Markelby (Mark C), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 15:42 (twenty years ago)
Excellent, this is encouraging news (albeit not as good as chocolate).
Isn't carpal tunnel painful? I hadn't considered it because this doesn't hurt.
― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 15:54 (twenty years ago)
― Sarah McLusky (coco), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 16:00 (twenty years ago)
― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 16:05 (twenty years ago)
― Begs2Differ (Begs2Differ), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 16:12 (twenty years ago)
Here is a list of the most common symptoms:
Numbness in one or both hands which comes and goes or stays all the time.
Numbness often feels like it is in the entire hand even though it's in the thumb, index and middle fingers.
Numbness starts while writing, driving, sewing, holding a book or newspaper or when typing.
You wake up with your hands feeling numb or painful. You hang your hand down and shake it to get relief.
You drop things, especially small objects, from your hand.
Sometimes you feel "shocks" from the center of your wrist into your hand.
Sometimes you may feel all these symptoms or you may only have one or two of the symptoms.
― Markelby (Mark C), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 17:05 (twenty years ago)
― Sarah McLusky (coco), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 17:12 (twenty years ago)
― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 17:14 (twenty years ago)
― Markelby (Mark C), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 17:27 (twenty years ago)
*obvious joke here*
― The Ghost of Dan Perry (Dan Perry), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 18:41 (twenty years ago)
I don't understand this at all - how can you be mistaken about where you are numb? Isn't it like feeling pain, in that it's an a priori truth that you can't be wrong about feeling pain?
― Kevin Gilchrist (Mr Fusion), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 18:44 (twenty years ago)
― jocelyn (Jocelyn), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 18:47 (twenty years ago)
― jocelyn (Jocelyn), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 18:49 (twenty years ago)
Hope yours turns out well.
― kyle (akmonday), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 18:50 (twenty years ago)
Numbness at rest, I guess, vs numbness demonstrated.
xpost; joint virus, wtf! (I mean, it's good that that's something that can be dealt with, but it sounds terrible!)
― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 18:50 (twenty years ago)
This name dates back to when doctors would slap a name on a condition they knew squat about, dust their hands together and call it a good day's work. Like 'quartan fever' or 'galloping senility' or 'hysteria'. Thank goodness doctors today never do that!
― Aimless (Aimless), Tuesday, 2 November 2004 18:55 (twenty years ago)
Neither carpal tunnel nor arthritis are suspects, but they haven't been ruled out entirely, I guess.
I don't like, but am not surprised by, hearing "you need to see a neurologist," but it's better than a lot of other things you can hear.
So it goes, you know the drill -- see a few doctors, wait a bit, see a few more, eventually stuff comes together.
― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 5 November 2004 22:10 (twenty years ago)
― teeny (teeny), Friday, 5 November 2004 22:24 (twenty years ago)
Everything'll be fine, although I admit I was hoping the doctor would tell me "nothing is wrong, stop whining and go home." But I bought beer and Holiday Spice Pepsi on the way home, so I got nothing to complain about.
― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 5 November 2004 22:27 (twenty years ago)
― teeny (teeny), Saturday, 6 November 2004 20:33 (twenty years ago)
I hope this doesn't come out the wrong way, but be thankful you aren't a musician (i.e., your living doesn't depend on fine motor control).
― Jordan (Jordan), Saturday, 6 November 2004 20:41 (twenty years ago)
And thanks, teeny!
― Tep (ktepi), Saturday, 6 November 2004 20:48 (twenty years ago)
I'd love to hear if this is actually something else temporary or non-worrying!
― Markelby (Mark C), Sunday, 18 December 2005 21:48 (nineteen years ago)