I went to a close friend from high school's twenty first tonight, I was knackered after work because I had spent the entire night pleading with the manager to let me off early.
I arrive at the party and run to see her, she is a bit drunk and is posing for some photos by a guy she likes. Now she has a bit of a history of ignoring me when cock is around, a trait I find irritating, but it has just gotten worse and worse over time and tonight she was ignoring me posing for the camera, I walk away infuriated.
I'm really bad at pretending to hide my feelings and I was really upset because we've been actually arguing about this for the past couple of weeks, I didn't want to pick an argument because it was a twenty first but I couldn't be around and not do, so I just tried to avoid her, finding this impossible I left the party.
I feel awful and was hoping ILX had a solution for my bad behaviour, because it's 1AM and there's still time for me to go back.
It's her twenty first and I don't want to bea toxic presence, but I really don't know how I'm going to deal.
― Nellie (nellskies), Saturday, 19 February 2005 14:00 (twenty years ago)
Ok, I'm going to stop being a spiteful fuck and go back to the party. Ciao xox.
― Nellie (nellskies), Saturday, 19 February 2005 14:12 (twenty years ago)
Yeah. I got back, she wasn't there, had gone home. Have to try to make amends tomorrow. bluddy ell
― Nellie (nellskies), Saturday, 19 February 2005 15:25 (twenty years ago)