tortured forced recontextualization thru vesuviuslike eruptions of long-buried burning lava, spewing forth from those most dear, none of it directed at you but still

      Other echoes
Inhabit the garden. Shall we follow?
Quick, said the bird, find them, find them,
Round the corner. Through the first gate,
Into our first world, shall we follow
The deception of the thrush?

meanwhile, by all means, continue - with your ... fun ... but know that i am still shaking, here.

no, no, no, no no no.

ex A [salutatorian (wdve been #1 but for a technicality), attends v nice school, total type a, driven, deadcold, selfish, uncaring, nevernevernever depressed]: i thought about killing myself last night. i thought about getting a knife but i couldn't get up so i ended up crying myself to sleep.

ex b [classic 3 sport star in hs, it is 2 o clock on sunday]: im fcking hammered man, come over to my place and drink w/ me. [his eyes are red and shiny:] i broke down today. i balled to my sister for an hour on the phone. [she would call his dad and he would come by and he would cry to him too]

ex c [greek god type, funny as hell, smart guy too, irrepressible anti-authoritarian kcik, junior year he left home and started smoking lots and lots of pot and not going to much school, really something of a kindred spirit, i always felt, i haven't seen him since a little before graduation]: yeah, he's squatting in some farm house or something, he does nothign but smoke weed all day, jesus, i feel sorry for him, his dad really fucked him up, never had a chance. [and the guy livign with him?]

ex d [his criminal record would make you think he was a sociopath if you didn't know him, but he's been battling depression for years and when he's not destroying himself or things aruond him it's clear he's got a heart of gold, i haven't seen him since graduation night]: he snapped a few days ago, went completely nuts, cops had to take him to the hospital but be broke out but they found him again, i guess he's doing ok now.

ex e [we are in my mom's minivan, we are eating yogurt, tomrrow we will leave for my paternal grandpa's funeral]: yes, the visitation, i know you don't have any real experience with funerals but i'm not exactly sure what will be expected of us. you or i might be in a separate room since most of the people there won't know us, i'm really not sure.

-mm.

you know dad's been married before right?

ipconfig /flushdns

Frame 1
    Packet Length: 260 bytes
    Capture Length: 260 bytes
Ethernet II
    Destination: 
    Source: 
    Type: IP (0x0800)
Internet Protocol, Src Addr: 222.47.183.18 (222.47.183.18), Dst Addr:
    10.11.12.13 (10.11.12.13)
    Version: 4
    Header length: 20 bytes
    Differentiated Services Field: 0x00 (DSCP 0x00: Default; ECN: 0x00)
        0000 00.. = Differentiated Services Codepoint: Default (0x00)
        .... ..0. = ECN-Capable Transport (ECT): 0
        .... ...0 = ECN-CE: 0
    Total Length: 246
    Identification: 0x0000
    Flags: 0x04
        .1.. = Don't fragment: Set
        ..0. = More fragments: Not set
    Fragment offset: 0
    Time to live: 50
    Protocol: UDP (0x11)
    Header checksum: 0x9c9d (correct)
    Source: 222.47.183.18 (222.47.183.18)
    Destination: 10.11.12.13 (10.11.12.13)
User Datagram Protocol, Src Port: 53 (53), Dst Port: 32792 (32792)
    Source port: 53 (53)
    Destination port: 32792 (32792)
    Length: 226
    Checksum: 0xfa49 (correct)
Domain Name System (response)
    Transaction ID: 0x5494
    Flags: 0x8500 (Standard query response, No error)
        1... .... .... .... = Response: Message is a response
        .000 0... .... .... = Opcode: Standard query (0)
        .... .1.. .... .... = Authoritative: Server is an authority for
    domain
        .... ..0. .... .... = Truncated: Message is not truncated
        .... ...1 .... .... = Recursion desired: Do query recursively
        .... .... 0... .... = Recursion available: Server can't do
    recursive queries
        .... .... ..0. .... = Answer authenticated: Answer/authority
    portion was not authenticated by the server
    .... .... .... 0000 = Reply code: No error (0)
    Questions: 1
    Answer RRs: 2
    Authority RRs: 4
    Additional RRs: 4
    Queries
        www.leroysprings.com: type A, class inet
            Name: www.leroysprings.com
            Type: Host address
            Class: inet
    Answers
        www.leroysprings.com: type A, class inet, addr 222.47.183.18
            Name: www.leroysprings.com
            Type: Host address
            Class: inet
            Time to live: 1 minute
            Data length: 4
            Addr: 222.47.183.18
        www.leroysprings.com: type A, class inet, addr 222.47.183.18
            Name: www.leroysprings.com
            Type: Host address
            Class: inet
            Time to live: 1 minute
            Data length: 4
            Addr: 222.47.183.18
    Authoritative nameservers
        com: type NS, class inet, ns ns1.m-dns.us
            Name: com
            Type: Authoritative name server
            Class: inet
            Time to live: 1 minute
            Data length: 14
            Name server: ns1.m-dns.us
        com: type NS, class inet, ns ns2.com
            Name: com
            Type: Authoritative name server
            Class: inet
            Time to live: 1 minute
            Data length: 6
            Name server: ns2.com
        com: type NS, class inet, ns ns1.bizwebb.us
            Name: com
            Type: Authoritative name server
            Class: inet
            Time to live: 1 minute
            Data length: 14
            Name server: ns1.bizwebb.us
        com: type NS, class inet, ns ns2.com
            Name: com
            Type: Authoritative name server
            Class: inet
            Time to live: 1 minute
            Data length: 2
            Name server: ns2.com
    Additional records
        ns1.m-dns.us: type A, class inet, addr 222.47.183.18
            Name: ns1.m-dns.us
            Type: Host address
            Class: inet
            Time to live: 1 minute
            Data length: 4
            Addr: 222.47.183.18
        ns2.com: type A, class inet, addr 222.47.183.18
            Name: ns2.com
            Type: Host address
 
0x0000   4500 00f6 0000 4000 3211 9c9d de2f b712        E.....@.2..../..
0x0010   0a0b 0c0d 0035 8018 00e2 fa49 5494 8500        .....5.....IT...
0x0020   0001 0002 0004 0004 0377 7777 0c6c 6572        .........www.ler
0x0030   6f79 7370 7269 6e67 7303 636f 6d00 0001        oysprings.com...
0x0040   0001 c00c 0001 0001 0000 003c 0004 de2f        ...........
― TOMBOT, Wednesday, 6 April 2005 19:08 (twenty years ago)  

thank you, sebastian. your laugh at the end is very scary.

no, remy.

tombot, i'm afraid you posted that to the wrong ... thread.

you guys.

that you climbed into voluntarily, no less. Chasing after Kant's version of "sublime" may be dangerous to your health.

So are oven-chips.

http://www.sangay.com/ecuadorguide/wp-content/uploads/2012/02/your-coffe-cup-800-steam.gif