Bad news: I am so freaked out

Oh, the newspaper story doesn't say it, but the guy did it, apparently. And my sister just called - she's okay but she feels like throwing up.

I'm sorry. was your sister involved with the shooter or the murdered? How scary.

She was involved with the shooter. She is so freaked out - I'm freaked out, I can't imagine how she feels. She said there was no sign whatsoever that he was capable of this. It's so disturbing when it happens so close to you. And his ex-wife (who wasn't killed) was sisters with my brother's ex-fiance, so my whole family knew him. So freaky. My family doesn't know about the affair, so they don't know how well she knew him.

How does this happen? How does someone freak out so violently all of a sudden? You always think you can spot a Gacy a mile away. I worry that people will read this and stereotype me or the family, so let me tell you this: it was a wealthy and prominent family.

Wait, how do you know who did it? The article doesn't say. Did you hear it word-of-mouth?

Yes. I don't want to go into the details, because I didn't realize that the story didn't spell it out. Local tv and other news sources are calling it a 'murder-suicide'.

And now they gave his name on tv, so it's confirmed. His sister found the bodies. I feel so bad for that woman.

Aie, yrreK, I hope you can get any form of sleep. I wish you the best. Perhaps your sister should alert all her friends and previous locations of employment about this?

Well, he's dead, so he's not a danger to anyone else, so don't worry. She is really upset, though - I'm going over there as soon as she gets home. I just can't think about it too much, or I feel ill. So I'm just biding my time online until I can leave.

I feel a need to write about this, but I don't know what the right place is. I feel so defensive about this person. So many people cared about him. Please, don't anyone think you are far removed from anything like this happening.

Nobody can figure out what happened here. He must have lost his mind without anyone knowing.

Two things brought tears to my eyes when I heard them:

-He bought the gun at Wal-Mart.

-He will have a wake and funeral alongside his parents.

I wish I could give people answers. The answers are slowly coming to me, but you have to want to hear them. My sister said that she feels more lucid when she is half-asleep than when she is awake and trying to think about it with clarity. And when you start to hear it, the answer is not necessarily any comfort : the pain that someone would have to be in to do something like this.