brownnosing RFI

This is something that concerns me greatly. At my current job, I pretty much have full reign to arse about on the internet listening to mp3s all day, pausing momentarily to do some work for half an hour every now and then. I'm very happy with my job.

But we're going to be relocated sometime in the next few months to Chiswick, which is going to suck. I can take redundancy, but last time I did that I ended up unemployed for 18 months. Which was fucking brilliant, but I had no money.

So I'm torn between commuting to Chiswick to my cushy number, or risking having to work for some wanker to pay the bills.

carbon, you're sort of contradicting yourself. You can't recognize authority, but you want to be told what to do? By whom?

I don't have to brown-nose to my current boss. I think he'd hate me for it if I did.

Yeah, I don't have to do any of that either. I have difficulties with being expected to automatically respect authority, but I have enormous respect for my boss and his boss, with whom I also deal a lot, and I like them both and find them easy to get on with. They give me work, and we review things periodically, but there are whole weeks where neither acts in any boss way to me.

All of life is asskissing. it's just dealing with the fact that the next person whose anus you're sucking from like a teet full of life and joy is the person giving you your next paycheck.

I must admit, despite my recent whining about how I've kind of been forced into a role I didnt ask for (network engineer instead of customer support dweeb, working horrible rotating shifts and being on call when that wasnt part of the job I applied for), the company is small enough that our boss keeps a firm reign over what goes on, but lets us deal with the small shit. So we can arc up and bitch about a certain client or department and he'll take us on our word and land on 'em and sort it out. We actually have a clear say in how we run stuff and what best ways to streamline process, and thats pretty refreshing for me.

Yeah well these expert brownnosers fascinate me. People whose whole mode of conduct is geared toward saying and doing what the boss wants and in turn being immune from all job responsibility. I feel like I'm a pretty "naturally affable" person but I don't even register on the radar of my bosses--they're seeking a different type of connection or affirmation from their subordinates than I offer. In fact what I see as maybe conversational ease they suspect as "you think you have equal grounds with me well think again bucko". I also wonder who sleeps better at night, me or the brownnoser. They don't have to worry about their job but my moral fibre is immaculate...ha

I know I just need to find better jobs but I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I liked my job.

Love,
Carbon