so i punched a hole in a wall at work today...

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My hand is ok, I think. It's obviously sore.. haha. But I think I'll be able to type away normally again tomorrow. If I can do it now, I think my knuckles will be fine and less sore by then. Also, I purposely chose an area where i wouldn't be caught i.e. nothing in front of anyone's door... and there was indeed no one around who rushed to the scene to see what happened... as I just kinda walked on slowly... and occasionally looked behind pretending that I just heard a weird noise.. and no one showed up.

This wasn't work related.

I'm just... well, you know.... it's not everyday that i have a sense that there are thousands of people in my country just dying due to lack of basic needs when something even slightly supplementary could be done about it.. and i've never seen such negligence in my life before... i've never punched holes in walls before. I've never even been in a physical fight with another person before! I'm still somewhat angry about all of this... but i'm not, you know, LOONATIC angry about it anymore...

now is a time to just appreciate where i am, enjoy this month of music festivals.. appreciate that, while i'm starting with higher job stress than anticipated (which was told to me by one of my bosses, by the way, who appreciates me slugging through this unusually stressful ramp up time.), am making my team happy, and that i work with really cool and interesting people...

and i just pray that no major tragedy or disaster happens again before 2009, especially where the ones i love the most live, because they're pretty much going to be on their fucking own. there won't be any goddamn aid at all. fuck that. i'm telling all my loved ones to prepare their first aid packs now. if you live in a city, and you don't fend for yourself, you're fucked. this administration hates cities. what we're seeing now in new orleans is exhibit B.

9/11 NYC was Exhibit A. We just didn't know it was part of the Let The Cities Rot exhibition until much later, that's all.

― donut gon' nut (donut), Friday, 2 September 2005 02:37 (twenty years ago)

(this is obv. U.S. cities I'm talkin' about... i'm guessing cities in other first world or even second world countries will fair much better.)

― donut gon' nut (donut), Friday, 2 September 2005 02:39 (twenty years ago)

yup, i can understand that. at some points today, i was pretty close to either breaking down or blowing up. I think at some point, the horror & sadness will completely transfer into total dark-jedi rage.

― kingfish 'doublescoop' moose tracks (kingfish 2.0), Friday, 2 September 2005 02:43 (twenty years ago)

I would be surprised if this administration's attitude was limited to cities.

― The Ghost of Black Elegance (Dan Perry), Friday, 2 September 2005 03:03 (twenty years ago)

I'm furious. More and more news coming in & I get more and more pissed off. complete and total clusterfuck.

― dar1a g (daria g), Friday, 2 September 2005 06:08 (twenty years ago)

i'm just nauseous.

― renegade bus (Jody Beth Rosen), Friday, 2 September 2005 06:11 (twenty years ago)

I would be surprised if this administration's attitude was limited to cities.

No kidding. I don't think they care too much for people in general.

― walter kranz (walterkranz), Friday, 2 September 2005 06:23 (twenty years ago)

And Donut, I feel the same thing you're feeling. I'm not the type to punch a wall so it just sort of eats away at my stomach but I can feel where you're coming from.

― walter kranz (walterkranz), Friday, 2 September 2005 06:26 (twenty years ago)

Revolutions start because of shit like this, don't they? Its scary. I just want to bring y'all down here to chill out in (relative) peace n saftey in tha AU :(

― Trayce (trayce), Friday, 2 September 2005 06:32 (twenty years ago)

it's not that bad, yet, Trayce. Tho i do remind myself from time to time that Vancouver is a skant 5 hours north of here...

― kingfish 'doublescoop' moose tracks (kingfish 2.0), Friday, 2 September 2005 06:37 (twenty years ago)

i want to punch a hole through george/condi/dick/donald's aorta walls

― gear (gear), Friday, 2 September 2005 06:48 (twenty years ago)

I don't want a "revolution".

I want basic competence from the people who get a fraction of my paycheck.

That's all I ask.

We can get to the "refined and sensible social standards, practices, and liberties" part after that. Sometime. Eventually.

But for now, I don't want to feel like a disaster in my city is just going to turn where I love living into a fucking Stephen King novel. That's all I ask. I've never felt so fucking vulnerable before.. and this doesn't even have anything to do with terrorism necessarily. I realize I could have it a lot worse. I know I know. But my point is: this "a LOT worse" didn't need be so fucking horrifying.

FUCK. ok, I'll stop. I don't want to punch another wall.

― donut Get Behind Me Carbon Dioxide (donut), Friday, 2 September 2005 07:39 (twenty years ago)

Hell yeah Donut I agree - I think I said what I did precisely because of what you just said. America prides itself on the best of everything, but this happens, and ugh. A mess. Maybe it is just human nature that none of us can cope with these situations :(

― Trayce (trayce), Friday, 2 September 2005 08:01 (twenty years ago)

Tho I sound resigned saying so, I dont mean to. It really does feel like this could be handled better than it has been. Seeing the poor and infirm being the ones suffer the most... so helplessly ANGRY :/

― Trayce (trayce), Friday, 2 September 2005 08:02 (twenty years ago)

I think one of the things I find astounding is that among all else, there are tourists trapped there (for whatever reason, its irrelevant now really) who are trying to get out, but apparently can't? Being beset by armed guards and whatnot. I am unable to comprehend the situation preventing people from leaving.

Why could they not have had a shit ton of free transport to ship everyone away before this happened? Poor or no? It should never have come to "well if you dont have transport, sorry". It should never have come to "hang on, we have the infirm, and prisoners, what do we do with them?".

― Trayce (trayce), Friday, 2 September 2005 08:34 (twenty years ago)

if heads don't roll on this over the next several months, I'll be shocked, there's no patriotic bullshit or war to fall back on here. fuck the anti-war shit, this is the achilles heel, the means to an end.

― gear (gear), Friday, 2 September 2005 08:45 (twenty years ago)

Damn straight. The US cannot pride itself on being a world power, a world leader, if it cant fucking well look after its own.

― Trayce (trayce), Friday, 2 September 2005 08:46 (twenty years ago)

This morning on Radio 4 they had Sidney Blumenthal acerbically suggesting UN Peacekeeping Forces go to the city. Damn straight.

― suzy (suzy), Friday, 2 September 2005 08:51 (twenty years ago)

as much as i hate bush and all that he's done, i can see how reasonable people can support what he's done in Iraq and Afghanistan. sure, it's macho militaristic bullshit, but there is a certain demented logic behind some of it.

but this lack of response is completely inexcusable as far as i'm concerned, beyond anything else i've seen in this country in my entire life.

― gear (gear), Friday, 2 September 2005 08:51 (twenty years ago)

Have the feeling this is all only getting worse too. Police and national guard totally unable to provide even a semblance of order, and even the cops have been looting. Gonna be a whole lot more bodies when the military really moves in.

― Aramyr, Friday, 2 September 2005 10:56 (twenty years ago)

I almost can't wait for the spin they try to put on this in a month's time. I can't hear his words, but I can hear GWB's inflection as he explains that the government had the right response and we're kind of, ya know, idiots for not being able to see that. (punctuated by that fucking laugh of his.)

So, can we vote him out of office now? How is that done?

― Draw Tipsy, ya hack. (dave225.3), Friday, 2 September 2005 11:44 (twenty years ago)

i wonder if any of the looters have punched any hole in the walls too.

― ken c (ken c), Friday, 2 September 2005 11:46 (twenty years ago)

I'm almost more depressed that this serves as a further reminder that people, without actual law, are no fucking good. Say what you like about GWB, he isn't the one actually preventing a hospital from evacuating their staff, by sniping at them.

One grim (and, sorry, political) silver lining is that it further underlines how ridiculous it was to imagine that Baghdad would pick itself right back up after the invasion, inspired by the free market, or the sight of the American flag, or whatever the fuck.

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Friday, 2 September 2005 12:13 (twenty years ago)

I'm totally feeling your anger, Donut. It's completely, utterly disgraceful.

(By the way, I thought this was going to be a Luna thread.)

― Je4nne ƒur¥ (Je4nne Fury), Friday, 2 September 2005 12:28 (twenty years ago)

but this lack of response is completely inexcusable as far as i'm concerned, beyond anything else i've seen in this country in my entire life.

It's sick. I wasn't able to sleep last night.

― O'so Krispie (Ex Leon), Friday, 2 September 2005 12:38 (twenty years ago)

We were trying to get into the heads of the people who were shooting at rescue workers. The best I could think of to explain their actions is that they're better off in a state of lawlessness. The longer they keep the city in chaos, the longer before they have to go back to a system that keeps them down. Still, though, what a bunch of fucking animals.

― Draw Tipsy, ya hack. (dave225.3), Friday, 2 September 2005 12:49 (twenty years ago)

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