hi deepak, it's christmas day man, lighten up! seriously though,
whilst i would usually be the last person to offer advice on anything
about relationships, failing to enter them is something of an
expertise. just going by what you have said above, i'm really not
sure that you should pursue this. i get the impression you are aware
that your actions are probably innapropriate, and feel love is
forcing you to act against your better judgement. love will. it's
like that.
ignore it, let your head guide you and not your heart.
your head just wants to keep you out of trouble and keep your
emotions intact (i suspect it's probably looking out for her's to).
don't worry, your heart will have its turn.
i am often lonely as
sin because of all this, and i have had some very strong unrequited
feelings, but talking to my friends, that's not love. when you (and
i) truly love and feel loved by someone in mutual adoration i think
all of this will become clear. i know it might be elusive and might
not last for ever, but that is the love which i seek, and i believe
it's probably going to turn out to be worth the effort.
peace.
― another james, Tuesday, 25 December 2001 01:00 (twenty-three years ago)