TITTWIS 38: Demon Seed

Is your sister happy? Or scared, or worried, or anything? Was she sensitive regarding your situation?

She is scared partially because she had severe health problems as a kid and her doctor has told her if she ever gets pregnant there will be great risks. so we'll all worry about that...that will be the major issue with my parents.

also, granted she is 24 but she is very immature and acts like a 17 year old...partially from being spoiled all her life. she thinks she is ready to be a mother, but i highly doubt it.

she was....as it came off to me...sneakily sensitive regarding my situation...apologizing and saying that they weren't trying to have a child it just happened. which is true and there is nothing i can do about it. it would have just been nice to give my parents their first grandchild rather than her.

ugh.

Sorry about the shock Chris.
is a really great kid
Hmm anyone concerned then about children raising children? I know this has probably been asked before and is rather personal so ignore me if you want but have you guys seriously considered adoption?

I'm back at work today after the funeral and whatall. I'm so horribly behind in my six-month training program now it's not funny. I don't know what to do except try to find the stamina to get back into it.

I still feel severly depressed obv. b/c of my grandmother (and all the ugly family issues that got stirred up around that) but then I was kind of depressed before hand.

In good news my new $240 psychiatrist seems really fantastic and switched me to Lithium yesterday. We'll see how it goes.

actually, he's not a kid. he's 30....i just like to use that expression.

Sam, I'm very sorry for your loss.

Chris, your feelings are totally natural. What you do with them is up to you. Best of luck to you on the ovulation monitor.

i had a friend who wanted desperately to get pregnant, but it took her four years. i think she's due soon.

so sorry about your grandmother, sam.

Argh, why do all my feelings of sympathy turn to thoughts of crime?

massive :(

massive :(

i need a vacation. or something good.

Ugh, this job is getting me down. I think it's the fact that I'm totally exposed for 8 hours a day, on the front desk that entire time with no office of my own. It's a mission even to escape to make tea or go to the toilet sometimes, and meanwhile my coworkers are either hiding in their offices or swanning off on errands at will. It's not good for me to build up this resentment, but it seems to have happened.

Sam - I'm sorry about your grandmother, I hope you're OK.
Bingo - This must be tough for you & I'm sorry that it's upsetting you. I assume you have been to the doctors to make sure that all is OK for you both?
Archel - sorry your job is getting you down. Also, I'm sorry we did not have a chance to meet up on Saturday. We were up & out & walking along the beach quite early on as it happens.

Hope the wedding was lovely!

Hey pink!

I'm holding up over here. I'm probably feeling sad about my grandmother only every ten minutes now instead of every two. I'm trying to remind myself that she's probably happier. If she had come home like they were planning on letting her she would have to have been fed through a tube in her stomach and I know she wouldn't have wanted to live like that.

I'm trying not to get overwhelmed at work/home. My worry and grief these past two weeks have gotten me dangerously behind at work and we're having a 'heads up' meeting this morning with my boss, education coordinator and mentor to figure out what's going to happen. :(
At home chores are piling up and we've been having $ squabbles which makes for tension everywhere I go!

I'm holding on to the fact that the new pysch I saw seemed really fantastic (even if I do have to pay cash for him) and I hope the meds change will help. Also that my grandmother would be really disappointed to see me fall apart over her. And my aunt needs help from falling apart. She misses her most of all.

*sigh*

There's your morning Misery report. Everybody have a great day!

Wow, this evening actually went to plan for once. A mere 4 hours ago there I was planning to make nut roast and get drunk, and here I am with nut roast made and eaten and half a bottle of wine put away.

What, pray tell, is a nut roast. It sounds intimidating to me.

I'm sorry to hear about your loss, Sam. Thanks again for being there for me when I lost my grandmother. I know it is hard, no matter how much you try to prepare yourself for something like that.

I have been super busy lately, but happy busy. Right now I'm completely exhausted because I was in Vegas this weekend with my office. It was a good time.

Have any of you read Million Little Pieces? I need to finish it for a bookclub I'm trying out tonight.

sory to be an idiot...what hasn't yr sister told of chris?

90% is a start Chris. So when's your moving date?

nice ego masage fr sure but i'm slightly stressed at the thought.

and you?

close on 10-31! boo!

can you let on about a couple of the various reasons?

thnks markelby.

bingo: so it might ba, ah, kind of ok to have yr friend as a relative? lord knows family gatherings can be trying.

Don't put yr Christmas cards in the office outgoing mail. I am not your butler.

xxxxxpost, pink, if I get a job offer from the university (which is where I want to be) I'm going to take it. If something better comes along later I'll worry about that then.

I am now a year closer to death but strangely feel the same as I did on Saturday. G. gave me a course of knitting lessons for my present. But I'm scared that I'll get in there and all the other knitters will make fun of me and tell me I'm doing it all wrong. :(

Also my license's expired and I have warrants here. Which means I can't renew it till I pay the piper. bah humbug!

I've taught myself from books to this point so this is an intermediate-level class, which is why I'm scared.

Go to my MySpace page and look at the card my brother made for me:

http://www.myspace.com/missmisery73

so cute!

and good luck with new/possible jobs to huck and archel and sam.

i've just been plunged into a bad mood over SHOES. i'm so silly. i found a pair. the perfect pair. cute and comfortabl. a lot of research went into this. ordered them online from nordstrom last week, get an email yesterday saying 'we're sold out, tough luck'. i searched online, everywhere is sold out. except a place in my hometown! so i order them online and call this afternoon to ask them to hold them for me rather than ship them. no problem. then get home to an email saying they don't actually have them, they have been discontinued so can't get more, do i want them in two tone with burgandy bits?

i guess this is a sign that i should let these shoes go. but it's so maddening! how hard is it for shops to only sell stuff that they have?

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your face
I whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

Morning has come, another day
I must pack my bags and say goodbye...

Oh hell. That's gonna be stuck in my head all afternoon.

Colette - I feel your pain!

Well I haven't worked for three weeks now and am on the 'puter less than two hours a day but the pain just gets worse. It's always worse at night and I can't sleep on my right side (the hurting one). The past couple of days it's been unbearable and I hardly slept at all last night. I can't extend my right arm fully and can't turn my neck to the left without excruciating pain. wtf?

In the past G. would massage me and it helped but last night it did not. Neither did a heating pad or otc pain meds. I'm want to try ice except we don't have any ice. Maybe I'll use some frozen greenbeans.

Could it be possible that I suffered any injury months ago when my dog tore across the road while I was walking her? I was holding the leash with my right hand and it bruised the fingers so much I was afraid I had broken them. Could that have also done a whiplash type thing to my neck which has just slowly been building up?

Obviously if I had health insurance right now I'd be asking the doctor all this. But I don't. :( So I'll just whine to ILX. *sigh*

need job now! need doctor!

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I'm going to have G. bring some aleve and an ice pack home. Could always go to the emergency room but man do I hate ghetto healthcare. It takes forever and it's usually subpar. :(

Use frozen peas. They're small so they mold to organic shapes well.

I am listening to Ministry - Thieves right now and I want to ram my head through my monitor. I bet if i did they would let me go home early.

Hi Luna!