Why do I come here?

Because it's fun here, natch. :-)

If anything she is refreshing because she is honest, says what she has to say......

My one crack on that other thread aside, trust me, Gale isn't my creation.

I like Gale because I enjoy straightforward honest people. When everyone on I Love Music were attacking me - they were not straightforward or honest - Do you remember the Doom Patrol classic or dud thread?

I attack pretension, lies, bullshit. If Gale comes on and is a psychotically happy french canadian lunatic who wears her heart on her sleeve like a rehab meeting - this I enjoy.

There are more harmful people on this board that need a good straightening up.

Anyways, Marcello, what do I think? I think people on this board have been utter self absorbed twats when it comes to you.

And really, I'm not this angry little beast of a man that I am put out like - sometimes frustration fucks me like a pig but really I'm very easy going.

And Marcello - you are acting like a twat towards Gale.

Anyways...

Have a good day everyone.

IE SCIENCE! Ahem. Don't mind me. Fight amongst yrselves!

Hm.

Marcello if you want to feel important read some George Bastille.

Mark I will email you....we should meet up. But I got to head out at the moment. Expect an email at the end of the day.

I was writing as characters before - and yes, the quality of the posts may be slipping because I no longer have a need to write in character. This is me. Like it or lump it's me.

i would rather be friends.

but if you fuck me, you are going to take a three day japanese fecal porn orgy of constant fucking back.

paul.

Bye.

Well, whatever. Mr Brownarse's posts are not amusing and certainly not shocking so I shall eliminate his "threat" by simply not responding to, or even reading, anything he posts, whether here or anywhere else. Again I would suggest that all other posters here do the same, then the pathetic little troll might get the message and fuck off for good.

Oh and it's Georges Bataille, you semi-literate elbow of a man.

If you are trying to regain lost footing you could try another target, maybe like, Gale. Oooops, you take some simple innocent posts and turn your vitrol on them, pretension, lies, bullshit, on them.

I am thankful that I did not turn out like you after my life's tradegies.

Hopefully you will sort yourself out - otherwise you will be here another year down the line attacking people for the hate that you have in yourself.

I should congratulate you. You are now a full fledged member of the commuting/bitter/human race.

come on, let's have it then, if you want to be bitter and hateful take it out on me, i can handle it.

i dare ya.

i mean it's sad ... but really do i care? no. i think that i was worried about you because at that point i knew that you would end up like this and thought "hmmm....i really want to intervene and maybe help clarify" but then really...you are just words on a screen to me, marcello, at this point, you are just a parody of yourself and i find myself very easy to shut myself down to you.

so go ahead, pour your little anger into me.

"....Like posts on the New Answer's Page, so are the days of Marcello's lives..."

this is the best line ever.

I'm only sorry it has cusswords in it and will offend Gale.

Sounds a pretty good deal, except possibly for the first part. Can I just have the orgy please?

But this has become yawnsville (yawnsville = when you predict a person's behaviour pattern and they follow through, me, I enjoy unpredictable people).

Enjoy your life (sic).

Paul.

(draws breath, unscrews capsule. Tape begins to play)

"Greetings all Earthlings in mysteriously perfect English. We come to bring you eternal life and happiness. We have the means to eradicate war, famine, disease and death from your planet forever. All you have to do is return the enclosed slip in the "YES I'LL SUBSCRIBE FOR A YEAR" envelope..."

like i said, good luck.

Oh yeah, buddy, I'll flick the dime from 500 feet.

Let's have an answer to that, smartarse.

if anything, believe it or not, i worried about you and asked sophie what should i do? i wanted to help you in december just because i understood what you were going through.

to say that to me is just bullshit, pure bullshit.

you never responded to my email did you?

and to say that i ever wished that you died of cancer is just crap. i know that i never said that.

and to be honest with you - i have not troubles and stresses with publishers and pitching books at the moment - that i really do not need that sort of crap.

but at the same i come here when i'm freaked about life just to hear other people just be as freaky about life as i am.

but i'm leaving now.

and what you said? me saying that...

IS BULLSHIT.

but whatever....i realise that i come here when i am freaked about life, success, failure, depressed and to have people underline that yes, I am a freak, failure a depressive.

another of my lasped catholic masochist bullshit, i'm gone. this is just unhealthy and destructive.

Just before Christmas . . . remember?

Have you fucking twigged yet, dumbo?

just before christmas i wasnt on the internet, i was in the states. so I think you fucked up dumbo.

i'm out of here.

Why don't you try looking up the ILE threads just before Christmas? I'm not going to hold your hand on this one - work it out for yourself. You'll get it eventually.

communication breakdown and anger at what was said.

obviously it was directed at the person but i was very pissed and drunk when i wrote those posts.

And if this is the poster who left his name off of the post....it was anger (obviously) fuelled by drink of what was said. Was it right or wrong? I have no idea. But if that has still left you angry then so be it - I apologise.

I just googled back to the post. Found out what I had posted. It was not directed towards Marcello but the person who wrote the original post.

I admit what I did was out of anger. I have now therefore apologised.

It was an unfounded comment.

How can he assume that I did know that?

If it came from Marcello than I would understand why he did it...but I don't spend enough time on the boards to appreciate that.

But Marcello how could you think that of me? That is bullshit. And you could/should have seen the obvious error in judgement that I did make and corrected me then and there.

The only thing that I could to is offer my apology to Marcello and leave it at that.

But he should have clued in that I had no clue that it was him who had written the email.

I just thought it was toss because I thought it was from someone else. And Marcello you should have told me.

Anyways - that is the biggest communication breakdown of 2002.

But at the same time Marcello how could you not clued me in? Do you really think that I would suddenly say "Marcello, I hope you die of cancer" after trying to help you, by being as honest as I could for you at that time?

Do you really think that? That's not in my make up Marcello.

Yeah, I was drunk and dumb and should have put more thought into it....but things happen like life.

Anyways...

Be seeing you.

I fucked up.

christ, you're weird.

so, weirdness and me, hand-in-hand.

so what? i can tell certain things that others can't notice. I can predict future events................oooooooooooooscaryoooooooo......

can we move on?

ooooooooooooooooooooweirdoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Again, hm.

be seeing all of you!

i think this sums up the whole question of why i spent time on here.

and really i don't think i'll come back on here.

but anyways bye! it's been fun!

*paul leaves in a huge 72 ford mustang*

*looks at watch*