Deathbed regrets thread

spending 4 years of life on ilx

I've just realised I've spent 4 years on ILX too. I don't feel any different. Damn you time.

spending 7 years on ilx

spending 25% of your lifetime on ilx

my lifetime rather

Not taking enough sanity days

But what would you guys rather have done beyond spending time on ILX? Or complaining about it? Like the corollary to the office lament is "gee, I wish I had spent more time with my family"...

I had no idea you people have been staying logged in continuously for all these years

Well, we used to, anyway.

Not taking enough sanity days

-- Dom Passantino, Monday, February 18, 2008 2:49 PM (11 minutes ago) Bookmark Link

lol doms girlfriends joke here

unlike you losers i regret not finding ilx sooner

not sleeping with enough chubby cuties

The only thing I'll regret is that I'm on my fucking deathbed.

Living forever would suck, though.

not if you could also travel back and forth in time and space

deeply regret not being able to do this

I hope the means to make this sort of thing become available. Fuck going back to the age of the dinosaurs, or shaking hands with da Vinci. I just wanna smoke angel dust with bored teenagers in late seventies' Indianapolis.

All told, I've got few regrets, and none worth worrying about on my deathbed.

But, if I have to pick one - I wish I spent more time playing music, and less time worrying about things. Just fucking play, man.

When I die, I imagine that I'll regret having been so tightly wrapped around my concept of my self-image. Especially insofar as it prevented me from giving my heart to others. Total waste.

I may regret only a fear of/reluctance to really extend myself creatively and actually play in bands, learn more instruments, get stuff published. Just DOING it. And I should think on that and like, get shit done (instead of for example thinking of bailing on the gig I'm meant to play at in a few weeks cos I cant play bass well).

Also, regretting death has to happen. I'm not a fan.

Dude, Trayce - a few weeks? How many songs do you have to learn? You could totally learn like 10 songs in that time, plus I'm sure you already know a bunch of other ones they're going to play.

Don't bail. Playing music live is AWESOME, and I don't do it enough.

THE FUCK IT LIST

I think I will regret not having told more people off. I'm ALWAYS always sharing the gratitude and loves with the ones I know. I still feel upset at myself for not giving my first three partners the grand, resounding airing of greivances they deserved.

THE FUCK IT LIST

Exactly.

Living forever would suck, though.

-- dell, Monday, February 18, 2008 4:27 PM (Monday, February 18, 2008 4:27 PM) Bookmark Link

Yeah, but what if you're the age you are now?

How would I ever get my post-menopausal zest and turn into the Jane Goodall of the cuscus world?

not bowing down to Desert-walking Michael Jackson Robot after the Great Robot Revolt of 2048

I'll never regret having designed the Will Smithbottron that started the revolt in Miami!

I've tried pretty hard to get my life squared away enough that I would leave few, if any, regrets if I died soon. At age 53 this seems more of a priority than it does at age 23 (or whatever the median age around here is).

It is also a bit more feasible at my age, since I've had some time to plow through a lot of my lifetime 'To Do' list, and have had a chance to reconsider some of the more foolish items that were on that list when I was, say, 18 or so, and to get over them.

I still have a few random pangs about my nonexistant career as a great poet. I do think I had the talent to write some very good shit, given the correct number of monkey-typewriter-hours. But instead I had to eat, damn it. It's the story of my life. I can't go 12 hours without stuffing my pie hole.

Twelve hours is a long fucking interval for piehole stuffing!

I am making sure I don't regret having eaten more delicious food more often.

But maybe when I'm dying I'll be so ill that he mere thought of food will revolt me.

I don't imagine I'll have a happy death, and I'll regret not dying of pneumonia, "the old person's friend."

with friends like that who needs enemas

/\ new regret

And I should think on that and like, get shit done (instead of for example thinking of bailing on the gig I'm meant to play at in a few weeks cos I cant play bass well).

-- Trayce, Tuesday, 19 February 2008 10:09 (2 hours ago) Bookmark Link

Wear hot pink and bounce, sorted.

BLAM: hah I dont even have that excuse, its a drone metal jam and I only have to improvise one note stuff, lol. Its just stage fright :/

Living forever would suck, though.

-- dell, Monday, February 18, 2008 4:27 PM (Monday, February 18, 2008 4:27 PM) Bookmark Link

Yeah, but what if you're the age you are now?

Wouldn't make much difference. I'm not suicidal, but I do recognize that there are liberating qualities in dying/death. The world will still turn without me having achieved this or that, and I suspect that my soul will be similarly unaffected.

my soul will be similarly unaffected

The big trick is to work on the 'compassion toward all living things' gig and let most of the other cards fall where they may. This has certain soul effects worth pursuing. Otherwise, you don't seem to be wildly off on the wrong track or anything like that.

Ah, soul.

xpost

Wow, yeah. Paradoxically, (or not so!) my biggest stumbling block is applying that in generous fashion towards myself. There's some work to be done in that area, for certain, which (again, paradoxically) would make me less narcissistic, I'm pretty sure.

word

xpost Were you vanity smurf?

Ah, soul.

I'm using that word here as a clumsy gloss for, among other things, whatever sense of being one gravitates towards when they are faced with crazy-seeming life-or-death moments, or whatever would seem to annihilate one's habitual sense of self...in other words, whatever connection one feels to the larger scale of things on such occasions.

Not something to be earned, or involved with issues of merit, but rather something everyone is born with and which is present when we breathe our last breaths.

xpost Were you vanity smurf?

Dunno, but I gravitate towards introspection for whatever reason. I don't think that should be taboo, but...

Sometimes when I’m alone
I imagine that the world is a mirror
And in minds eye behold my dark inner nature

I’ve been waiting time on this time honoured whore
’til I get so confused I can’t see anymore
And I have crawled where I should have seen the signs
Dragging my feet when I could have been flying

Sometimes when I’m sad
I drink to the health of my torment
And dance at the altar
To the tune of a drunken black tango

I’ve been waiting time on this time honoured whore
’til I get so confused I can’t see anymore
Wastes my mouth trying to settle old scores
Dragging my feet when I could have been flying

all the assholes I didn't set on fire

You still have time.

bruns my ass in publix

http://media.collegepublisher.com/media/paper265/stills/2bb770yk.jpg

If one good deed in all my life I did, I do repent it from my very soul.

re: Drone Jam

Whatever. this Friday, have a few drinks, and have fun droning at home.

then, at the gig, repeat.

Aye, have done that several past w'ends and will presumably do so again... still - meeeep :/

not using search more ;~;

this post

I wish I had dropped more acid when I was young and irresponsible. Scheduling drugs in your 30s is tough.

that I have spent probably 75% of my life worrying about shit and only 25% doing shit

and that I pissed away most of my 20s

didn't see daft punk in 07