Over on the "Reading Saramago" thread, I am quoted as saying the following.
"I need CLOSURE".
Well I tempted fate or something, because today what should have been the worst thing EVER happened. I was leaving college with a friend when he uttered the words which are the title of this thread. So he pretty much came out with it "I've started going out with *unnamed person*", this is sort of ex girlie of mine, you may remember the long saga which had semi-stopped about a month and a half ago where I was on and off seeing her for what was an eternity.
Up to last week I thought I was still really interested. In fact I was miserable about it. I was talking to best friends about it. If you'd asked me last week how I'd feel if this happened I'd have predicted major major disaster.
But I just kind of answered him "eh......ok". And HE TOO was shocked. I'm a mentalist or something. In fact far from being depressed, all I am is a little surprised. Hell I was even thinking of going out. This is the oddest reaction. Maybe tomorrow I'll want to die or something. But it doesn't seem so.
It just seems pleasing in an odd way. I want some DC cds. I feel so empowered. Er.....scratch that actually, but I am now fully reformed. I also now feel that I have no desire to EVER EVER EVER go to a crap club with my class because I used to go and sort of hang around her.
God talk about epiphanies, I feel like a weight has been lifted from me. It's highly possible my brain is just forcing me into this positive stance but I've had all day thinking about it to figure out that yes, I'm secretly pleased.
― Ronan, Monday, 22 April 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
Sorry I just needed to get all this out somewhere. Feel free to
ignore or think I'm a lunatic or something.
― Ronan, Monday, 22 April 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
No no I entirely sympathise. Enjoy yourself before the next one comes
along har har.
― Tom, Monday, 22 April 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
"One less, one less, one less bitch you gotta worry about" - NWA
― dave q, Monday, 22 April 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
Also now I really need to buy some of the rock recommendations. I
listened to the Pixies just now and it was fantastic. "Lazy" stays on
regular rotation, it'll get a new meaning in a few days no doubt.
― Ronan, Monday, 22 April 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
Ronan,
I can identify with what you said in a couple of (very different)
ways. I was in a position where someone I had a real crush on got it
on with one of my friends. Completely to my surprise I didn't feel
jealous, hurt or rejected, but pleased for them and secretly a bit
relieved, I think.
Trying to rationalise it - I think the fact I knew she was interested
in me, but I didn't have to deal with the consequences, was the
reason. It's a bit crap, but it really comes down to ego, I think.
Actually, the 2nd thing I was going to mention I'll leave for now -
it's all a bit fresh and I'm not sure I could articulate it well
enough!
Hope you remain okay :-)
― Mark C, Monday, 22 April 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
this is ms wheatus?
shit, it coul;d've been so much worse, like ronan, remember when yuo
were passed out last week? well i had anal intercourse with your
toothbrush...and now we're in love. Wanna threesome.
― Queen G, Tuesday, 23 April 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
How could you?
Wasn't Wheatus person, no no.
― Ronan, Tuesday, 23 April 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)