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Okay i have had a really bad week. I have been pulling 20 hour days. I have been working on my projects, Davids Projects, Real Work, Voluentering at poltical and arts organaztions and being domestic. So i am alot flummoxed. Work told me to fuck off and sleep for a week because i collpased in the bathroom today. at First they thought i was taking H. So i got home and cancelled almost everything . I will be off for two weeks . I need to settle my brain. I have no idea why i am posting this but i figured you might be curious.

When i am posting about the love of my life he prefers an alias. We decided on David after David and Johnathon. I tend to forgot details when i am stressed and overly tired. So now you all know his name.

And for refrence the verses 1 Samuel 18:1-4 NRV . I could not find a New Jersoulem(sp):

When he had finished speaking to Saul, the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. 2 And Saul took him that day, and would not let him return to his father's house. 3 Then Jonathan made a covenant with David, because he loved him as his own soul. 4 And Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was upon him, and gave it to David, and his armor, and even his sword and his bow and his girdle.

― anthony, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

I realised at the weekend Anthony that I am *tired*: tired like i have never been. Tired of this year: mum and dad still ill and far away and so hard to help; work an ugly stupidity, where a pretty good magazine and an office- full of nice people is being casually and pointlessly destroyed by evil idiots; and MY work, my book, endlessly deferred and interrupted and set back, by the above, by my lack of willpower and fear of intellectual failure and endless yen for distraction, and — yes — by a bone-deep feeling of exhaustion.

K-Blimey.

― mark s, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

My problem is when people need me i always say yes.

― anthony, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

anthony - before you can take care of others, u must take care of yrself - 4 months in psych clinin taught me that one.

― Geoff, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

The problem was that I did psychology for two years. I was so blase. I knew exactly what she would ask. I wanted answers. Not questions. I didn't want a "What do you think?". I should have said:"This is pointless.".

Anthony, you need sleep. Really. Medication can help you get back on track (normal sleeping pattern).

― nathalie (nathalie), Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

Anthony, maybe if you were not constantly posting and asking questions on ILM/ILE, you would have a little more time for your other projects.

― Sean, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

If you see my posting times it is at night mostly. If i am doing house work or computer related shit then i post pretty frequently.

― anthony, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

I am angry at that statement. If i have a roast in the ooven or am waiting for bread to bake or the laundry to wash. If i am writng or editing or publishing or collating or taking notes on a text do i not deserve a break. Fuck yes i post on ILE but not constantly. I have huge twelve or fourteen hour blocks where i am knocking on doors or working casinos or shelving books or being Gopher Boy for my sister my nephew my David. I do so much in my day . I work long and hard and i do not need some asshole telling me that the few minutes i take for myself is too much. So Fuck you Sean and Go To Hell The Long Way

― anthony, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

Wow, simultaneous bold and italic cussing! I can't do that!

― Mitch Lastnamewithheld, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

Heh heh, well since you're already mad, I'd like to say you sound very girly.

― Sean, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

i suck cock of course i sound girly

― anthony, Friday, 10 August 2001 00:00 (twenty-four years ago)

five years pass...

― admrl, Friday, 27 July 2007 18:28 (eighteen years ago)

hahaha hilarious

― Surmounter, Friday, 27 July 2007 18:31 (eighteen years ago)

thirteen years pass...

Don’t know how to measure this

― calstars, Saturday, 5 September 2020 00:24 (five years ago)

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