can we talk about autism and music

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does anyone here have anything to say? there are a couple threads that touch on this already, but most only lightly.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 00:53 (twenty years ago)

Mostly it's discussed as hi functioning autism, ie 'aspergers syndrom. There's a few threads around I think.

moley (moley), Friday, 5 August 2005 01:01 (twenty years ago)

thx - The "Electro and Asperger's Syndrome" thread is closest to what I'm looking for, but but still wondering more broadly about Austism and its relationship to music and other things. There are some general questions and hoping this won't dissolve into junk-science/pop psychology. basically having some characteristics of aspergers syndrome, I've always wondered if those with various degrees of autism might have an unually closer and more direct connection to the fundamentals of science/aesthetics/arts which accounts for the bizarrely instantaneous knowledge of things "normal folks" generally have to learn and also the euphoric nature of affected people's reactions to the natural world/patterns/data…and in general this phenomenon of there being a possibility of knowing and feeling versus learning and understanding with regard to science, not just art. I'm on the fence though; either this is a kind of deep and important intuition that should be studied and milked for various reasons, beyond the scientific applications, also to understand people's reactions/need of/ability to create art by studying how the science/math/natural world stimulates autistic folks without metaphors (??)...and in general to link the arts/sciences... OR possibly thats just the drughaze of my own faulty brain chemicals talking and the "intuition" doesn't go anywhere besides recognition of patterns, much like a computer's intelligence (a limited computer). so i'm not saying this is the only way to experience art or understand science as I know it has limited value atleast for practical applications, but wondering if anyone is alteast studying this beyond the disease perspective? have there really been an inordinate amout of autistic artists/scientists out there and who are they and how do they work? I can google the autism/asperger sites but frankly they appear useless in this respect and more geared toward the "people with aspergers do this and that and have trouble communicating etc ".

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 01:38 (twenty years ago)

I'm sure there are insider views on this question, I remember reading some about a year ago and they're much more qualitiatively rich than the pathology approach, which, as you say, is rather uninformative on the question of how it is that a high functioning autist sees the world. I remember an article in Wired that may be on line about this question...? It was interesting, and more of an 'insider' view.

moley (moley), Friday, 5 August 2005 05:12 (twenty years ago)

whe i was at uni one of my lecturers showed me some drawings done by a young autistic child, the depth perception and detail in them was quite exceptional. i understand that this is a relatively common phenomenon among autistic children - where autistic children draw what they see, normal children draw what they 'know' (i.e. their understanding of the abstract concept - leading to the brown tube and green bubble on top for a tree etc). this seems to me to represent a fundamental difference in the way that autistic people experience their sensory world - i can't see why it wouldn't also influence their experience of aural mediums such as music as well as the visual medium.

this is a really interesting question. i hope you find some good info.

gem (trisk), Friday, 5 August 2005 05:19 (twenty years ago)

'normal' being non-autistic obviously

gem (trisk), Friday, 5 August 2005 05:20 (twenty years ago)

this book is a good starting point for understanding autism


http://www-users.cs.york.ac.uk/~susan/bib/nf/g/covers/10298.jpg

m coleman (lovebug starski), Friday, 5 August 2005 08:55 (twenty years ago)

I've always wondered if those with various degrees of autism might have an unually closer and more direct connection to the fundamentals of science/aesthetics/arts which accounts for the bizarrely instantaneous knowledge of things "normal folks" generally have to learn and also the euphoric nature of affected people's reactions to the natural world/patterns/data

Define "normal folks." This stupid whimsy insults many people I know who don't consider themselves in any way deprived in connection with "art and sciences." It's even more odious when comparely to people who are severely mentally and emotionally diminished.

The peculiarly dumb shit American superstition: There must be something queer going on with people who show any excellence in science or arts.

have there really been an inordinate amout of autistic artists/scientists out there and who are they and how do they work?

No. Where did this fool's meme come from? Have you actually ever gone to school with or been around any number of real scientists? Why don't you apply this ninny logic to all professions which require some rigor and dedication? Have you come face to face with physicians who are rendered dysfunctional by autism or Asperger's syndrome? Do you think the scientists who worked on the Manhattan Project or the Apollo program were autistic? Are you privy to some secret history on these things that no one else knows about?

Do you think Edward Jenner, the father of the vaccine, was autistic or suffered from Asperger's? How about Isaac Newton? Or Galileo. Or Dick Feynman. Or Hans Bethe. Or Enrico Fermi. How about Jonas Salk? Cat got your tongue? Do you think Anthony Fauci, one of the leading AIDS experts in the world, might by autistic? How many of your college professors in the hard sciences were Asperger's sufferers?
How about the guy who helped wipe out smallpox in the world for the WHO, D. A. Henderson?

Did you even know of such people or are "scientists" just a vague group for you?

this is a really interesting question. i hope you find some good info.

Unequivocal evidence of the complete failure of the educational system.

I'm sure there are insider views on this question

I'm sure you are speaking as a ninny.

I remember an article in Wired that may be on line about this question...? It was interesting, and more of an 'insider' view.

Have you ever walked the walk and talked the talk with scientists? Wired magazine, geesh. Have you ever read Science or Nature or the Proceedings of the National Academy of Science or the New England Journal of Medicine or JAMA or The Lancet? There's no insulting of people's intelligence with crap about how scientists suffer from neurological disorders or that predisposition to such things amplify one's aptitude for science.

It's also way far from obvious that the musicians commonly chronicled, criticized, extolled and examined on ILM are neurologically perculiar or impaired.

Walter Groteschele, Friday, 5 August 2005 10:08 (twenty years ago)

Are you a new comedy character?

DJ Mencap (DJ Mencap), Friday, 5 August 2005 10:18 (twenty years ago)

ie are you marcello?

mullygrubbr (bulbs), Friday, 5 August 2005 10:20 (twenty years ago)

Rendered you relatively speechless, did I? That wasn't too hard. You must have recessive Asperger's genomic material.

Walter Groteschele, Friday, 5 August 2005 10:23 (twenty years ago)

C'mon, I'll give you a handjob if you can scientifically, not ILMically, argue that John Lennon and Kurt Cobain were autistic.

Walter Groteschele, Friday, 5 August 2005 10:36 (twenty years ago)

How 'bout Bon Scott or Angus Young? Chuck Berry? Howlin' Wolf or John Lee Hooker? How 'bout Ray Charles? He was blind. Heck, that might be halfway there.

Walter Groteschele, Friday, 5 August 2005 10:38 (twenty years ago)

OTM, well said Walter - i'm as tired as anyone of all this autism fetishisation. gettin hella fashionable that condition, people are tripping over themselves to describe themselves as semi/borderline autistic and make links that don't exist. what's next, i wonder.

jed_ (jed), Friday, 5 August 2005 13:22 (twenty years ago)

i'd guess drug addled brane = creative. but i'm not sure jed. wait and see.

bull bum gerry (bulbs), Friday, 5 August 2005 13:36 (twenty years ago)

Fuck off, Jed. Who are all these people "tripping over themselves to describe themselves as semi/borderline autistic"? Are the the same people who are tripping over themselves to describe themselves as gay?

dasein, Friday, 5 August 2005 13:43 (twenty years ago)

'normal' being non-autistic obviously

The term I hear most often is "neurotypical".

My son is autistic. His interest in music doesn't seem very different from that of any other 6 year old. He likes the Human League, because he likes the way Phil Oakey sings.

Many people have "some characteristics" of autism or asperger's syndrome. This is because they are spectrum disorders. Many of the characteristics of ASD are not unusual in themselves, it's the degree to which people feel them, or suffer from the, or wtfe.

Anyway, the main thing that people think of w/r/t autism and music is the whole savant thing, kids who can bang out incredibly complex pieces of piano music at an unbelievably young age or whatever. This is actually very uncommon.

The only ASD/AS related thing that I find interesting w/r/t music is reading gary numan's lyrics on "The Pleasure Principle". They do seem to me to express some sense of "otherness", which is, or is supposed to be part of the condition, very well.

I agree w/jed w/r/t the fetishisation thing. Our kid's life is often going to be very difficult because of his condition, and he is at the upper end of the spectrum. The difference between him and his peers is very plain to behold.

xpost fwiw, many many people I know described themselves as borderline AS/ASD when outr kid was diagnosed, who WEREN'T. I had to develop a thick skin

Pashmina (Pashmina), Friday, 5 August 2005 13:56 (twenty years ago)

...coz it really annoyed me for a bit.

Pashmina (Pashmina), Friday, 5 August 2005 13:57 (twenty years ago)

i suppose that's possibly a good point, dasein. Autism is a condition that people have or don't have, just like homosexuality is. and i suppose for a while it was fashionable to be gay or appear to be so. some people may pretend to have any number of "conditions" in order to appear more interesting or inscrutable. it's just seems clear to me that there's a whole buzz surrounding autism at the moment. loads of TV programmes about it,, articles in weekend supplements, documentaries on TV showing autism sufferers as some kind of "savant" figures without showing the assosiated difficulties etc. beyond that i've no idea what you're implying or why you're telling me to "fuck off".


xposts

jed_ (jed), Friday, 5 August 2005 14:01 (twenty years ago)

Define "normal folks." This stupid whimsy insults many people I know who don't consider themselves in any way deprived in connection with "art and sciences." It's even more odious when comparely to people who are severely mentally and emotionally diminished.

Ah, right, so people with mental disorders are inferior in every way to "normal folks". So inferior, in fact, that it would be to "odious" to compare a normal person with scum like them. To suggest that people with autism might possibly have something unique worth contributing to human culture is political correctness gone mad.

er, multiple xpost

dasein, Friday, 5 August 2005 14:01 (twenty years ago)

Why does this topic make you so angry Walter?

Hurting (Hurting), Friday, 5 August 2005 14:03 (twenty years ago)

http://members.tripod.com/childish_tapes/reynols.htm

Raymond Cummings (Raymond Cummings), Friday, 5 August 2005 14:06 (twenty years ago)

nevermind. dude has down's, isn't autistic.

Raymond Cummings (Raymond Cummings), Friday, 5 August 2005 14:07 (twenty years ago)

Jed, I'm sorry if I was rude. I'm someone who has been diagnosed with "high-functioning" autism going (according to my psychiatrist, I'm not an expert on this) somewhat beyond Asperger's Syndrome. Your post, and other comments like it, remind me of those right-wing commentators who dismiss the gay rights movement by claiming homosexuality is nothing but a lifestyle choice. It's a bit insulting to the people who actually have to deal with the difficulties of actually being autistic, or gay, or whatever.

dasein, Friday, 5 August 2005 14:07 (twenty years ago)

Of course, homosexuality isn't a disorder, but it's similar in that it's something which, due to social prejudice, can be difficult for people to live with.

dasein, Friday, 5 August 2005 14:09 (twenty years ago)

it's fine daesin- i didn't mean to dismiss it or anyone who has it. i should try and talk less about things i know little about. my answer was somewhat prejudiced but more against the media than against the syndrome or it's sufferers.

jed_ (jed), Friday, 5 August 2005 16:13 (twenty years ago)

glenn gould to thread.

you will be shot (you will be shot), Friday, 5 August 2005 17:17 (twenty years ago)

it seems like maybe this is not something that should/can be discussed on a message board. i apologize for the nastiness this has stirred up. gem, moley dasein - thx for the responses.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 18:00 (twenty years ago)

This is a strange thread.

jaymc (jaymc), Friday, 5 August 2005 20:36 (twenty years ago)

yes, this is quite disappointing. message boards are usually a treasure trove of well-informed individuals who never post information out of their asses. i simply cannot understand why an anonymous interface such as this wouldn't facilitate intelligent dialogue on controvesial and/or sensitive subject matters. a pox on you, anonymous ruffians, for you have made baby GZA cry

jerry atricks, Friday, 5 August 2005 20:43 (twenty years ago)

i like how post the freakout, it almost veered into a thread about neuro/sexual diversity/slipperyness. its coming, people. or atleast i think it is.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 20:45 (twenty years ago)

i know i am

jerry atricks, Friday, 5 August 2005 20:49 (twenty years ago)

must i smack myself after every post? i guess so.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 20:52 (twenty years ago)

that sounds wrong too :(

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 21:01 (twenty years ago)

Whoa. I didn't intend to kill the thread. Walter sort of had a point, but he seemed to be trying to be intentionally inflammatory. The sort of person who takes pride in being "politically incorrect". So I flew into an internet nerd rage, told jed to fuck off for agreeing with him, etc etc

dasein, Friday, 5 August 2005 21:11 (twenty years ago)

ugh, so depressed now

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 21:35 (twenty years ago)

ugh, so depressed now

er...i'm just going to go back to lurking

dasein (dasein), Friday, 5 August 2005 21:38 (twenty years ago)

i'm a walking interweb disaster area

dasein (dasein), Friday, 5 August 2005 21:41 (twenty years ago)

no i'm just dissapointed at the apology. what point was valid? that only REAL scientists can understand the world and the people who live in it?? and can also label and push people into the little manmade categories they create? only NORMAL people can possibly contribute to science and art. you're either gay or straight, sane or insane, a professional or an idiot who shouldn't ask questions ---- its all so simple.

i'm going to go join marissa marchant's fan club.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 21:44 (twenty years ago)

Well, there possibily is a bit of exagerrated post-facto autism diagnosis that goes on...I've seen articles speculating that various historical figures - off the top of my head I can remember reading this about Wittgenstein, Einstein, De Valera, and Michaelangelo.

On the other hand it doesn't seem unthinkable that certain mental abnormalities could have some positive effects. Aspects of high functioning autism in particular might well be conducive to intellectual or creative activity.

dasein (dasein), Friday, 5 August 2005 22:00 (twenty years ago)

er, that various historical figures were autistic

dasein (dasein), Friday, 5 August 2005 22:00 (twenty years ago)

ok.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Friday, 5 August 2005 22:08 (twenty years ago)

people don't seem to get that upset when its postul. that jefferson and co. had syph and herpes etc... so i'm confused why there is an instantaneous balking at hypoth. mental diagnoses in simil prominent historical figures. maybe the problem is mental variances aren't exactly like herpes, which is a disease...saying someone might have a autism spectrum disorder isn't actually a diagnosis as much as it is simply pointing out unusual characteristics in thinking/behaving. but we are taught there are strict diagnoses, so it does seem brave and bold. however, the autism diagnosis isn't exactly static -one of the reasons A's prevalence is on the rise is b/c the diag criteria have changed so dramatically through the years (and etiology still unknown, by the way); maybe today all/most of these folks would have been diagnosed with some autism spectrum disorder. its also interesting to note that Microsoft was the first company to cover healthcare costs for autism treatment b/c experts say ...there is a much higher prevalence of austism related disorders amongst hi-tech workers children than in the average community.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Saturday, 6 August 2005 07:22 (twenty years ago)

Reality check: There was nothing valid about Walter's post. Susan hadn't said that autism was a prerequisite for scientific and artistic achievement, so Walter was just going off on a pet peeve.

I know little about autism. A good friend's son has been diagnosed Asperger's, but they live in another city, and I haven't seen the boy in four years. When we talked, he was more comfortable if there was a prop that could be the center of attention. For instance, it was easier for him to focus on a dog when talking to me, and make the dog the main subject, than to speak directly to me, or look at me.

I'm curious about why people have tried to retroactively diagnose Wittgenstein with Asperger's. Isn't one of the features of autism a difficulty in reading social cues, especially in reading motives and tone of voice? The biographies of Wittgenstein do paint him as both demanding and displaying a candor that was almost dysfunctional. But his books are among the most nuanced in their use of language of any that have ever been written, with voices constantly interrogating other voices, often shifting from ideas that were his own to ideas that he considered enticing but very wrong, guiding you very subtly so that you first see the ideas as plausible and as potentially his, and then you follow them along to where their taken to their falsity, and clearly not his. (I'm not explaining this well. My language skills aren't up to Wittgenstein's.)

(I obviously don't have anything to offer on how an autistic's use of music would be different from someone else's.)

Frank Kogan (Frank Kogan), Sunday, 7 August 2005 02:25 (twenty years ago)

I'm curious about why people have tried to retroactively diagnose Wittgenstein with Asperger's.

Because it's layman pop psychology and semi-entertaining bullshitting?

Have you ever read Science or Nature or the Proceedings of the National Academy of Science or the New England Journal of Medicine or JAMA or The Lancet? There's no insulting of people's intelligence with crap about how scientists suffer from neurological disorders or that predisposition to such things amplify one's aptitude for science.

This is fairly accurate.

there is a much higher prevalence of austism related disorders amongst hi-tech workers children than in the average community.

No. There will have to be furnished a real scientific epidemiological survey before getting people other rubes to smoke it See below.

For example, this from the NIH:
====
Prevalence estimates for autism spectrum disorders for the United States are
unavailable.
However, recent studies from Canada and Japan indicate that autism
spectrum disorders may not be as rare as heretofore assumed. Studies from those
countries indicate that prevalence rates are greater than ten per 10,000. There
is a need to increase research efforts in epidemiology in order to understand
etiologic factors, rigorously characterize high-risk groups, identify comorbid
conditions, clarify the relationships between disorders (e.g., Asperger's
syndrome and autism) and document their broad range of expression. Of particular
interest are developmentally-focused, longitudinal epidemiological studies that
follow children and families over time. Areas of interest include, but need not
be limited to, the following:
===
Full announcement:

http://grants.nih.gov/grants/guide/pa-files/PA-98-108.html

Also consider:

Autism and many of the autism spectrum disorders are characterized by significant
impairment in both verbal and nonverbal communication, deficits in emotional
understanding and expression, difficulties in initiating and maintaining verbal
interaction, and a limited behavioral repertoire with restricted interests and
activities.
Longitudinal data are limited, so the course of communicative,
social and emotional development in children with these disorders is poorly
understood. Longitudinal studies of communication combined with techniques such
as neurochemistry and/or neuroimaging are needed to elucidate their underlying
biology and the interplay between biological and environmental influences on the
course of lifespan communicative competence.

====

If you read this document thoroughly you'll find there is keen interest in basic research on autistim disorders to the genomic level.
Ther is interest in developing fundamental understandings of impairments, outcomes of treatments that exist, the effect of environment and complex variables on patients with the spectrum of problems. There is no request in the call for grants on the study of autism spectrum disorders as they relate to allegedly hypertrophied scientific or artistic abilities.

George Smith, Sunday, 7 August 2005 02:51 (twenty years ago)

thx. i touched on that issue in my post but it was ignored so much so that i thought his post was suggestive of the opposite...that no austistic person could possibly make an important contribution. hence my bitchin. i'm suspect.

i'm sure it varies wildly from person to person, but i've read that many austistic people say they are not insensitive to social cues, but generally cannot respond in a traditional way. however i don't know anything about wittgenstein and certainly just one thing shouldn't make folks suspect he was. i know the evidence for bill gates having aspergers is pretty intense. also, don't really know if there is some trend of proclaiming certain scientists/artists as autistic, or if there is some recognition going on...which i think would be a positive thing.

by the way, the neuro-diversity movement which has been adopted by many communities of mentally-different people, began in the austistic community; there are many individ. and their advocates who feel there is no disease, who (gasp), like they way they are...meanwhile, the medical community is fairly aggressively treating on all manif. of autism as disease and they are looking for a cure. i'm not sure why all this fascinates me. its not a fetishistic thing, more of a --if different thinking folks have stuff to bring to the table but aren't being nurtured, - being silenced/shamed/ignored etc., even spending too much time trying to adopt ways foreign to their thinking when maybe its not that critical-the whole world suffers. and b/c i think in a certain way, i might connect with the creative outpour. but i'll stop posting on this topic unless i come up with any interesting connections with music.


Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Sunday, 7 August 2005 04:00 (twenty years ago)

that was supposed to be an xpost. george, i haven't read your post yet, but will shortly.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Sunday, 7 August 2005 04:01 (twenty years ago)

b/c there is no data of prevalence then it would be hard to justify or even do a study on hypertrophied artistic/scientific talent and austism? also i'm assuming the majority of money would be spent on researching this from a disease perspective anyway. i guess that what the scientific community focuses on doesn't/shouldnt' be a determiner of what they are studying.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Sunday, 7 August 2005 04:15 (twenty years ago)

abusive comments

Extension Corduroy, Sunday, 7 August 2005 06:13 (twenty years ago)

My girlfriend and I were watching this documentary about the scientific controversy about whether birds were descended from dinosaurs. She said derisively, 'Of course they are, you only need to look at a dinosaur skeleton to see that'. By the end of the program, it appeared quite clear that the scientists, when they weren't slagging each other off and covering up their fudges, were doing much the same thing, ie, they were finding bits and peices and launching hypotheses based on just looking at two things and comparing their qualities.

I feel the same about high functioning autism in electronic music (I can't speak for any other field). It seems quite prevalent, from the inside at least. I am just comparing the qualities of the aspergic cluster of traits - which tend to pick out the highly repetitive, obsessive and bizarre behaviours of an individual (we all have a few) as particularly noticeable in about half of my electro muso friends. It's almost as if you have to be, to make electronic music: or at least, to bang away at it for days on end ignoring meals, girl/boyfriends, the garden etc, and never really getting to grips with dealing with people or social situations in general.

I could be wrong, but I'll go with my personal experience until science can tell me otherwise.

moley, Sunday, 7 August 2005 07:56 (twenty years ago)

I'll do some more ignorant blathering: Blind people develop especially sensitive hearing to compensate for their blindness, deaf people become adept at reading body language, paraplegics gain upper body strength, etc. But I wouldn't know what the equivalent (if any) would be for people with Asperger's. It may not be entail developing one skill in particular; rather, some people that are deficient in one area will excel where they can. Nothing particularly mysterious about that.

i've read that many austistic people say they are not insensitive to social cues, but generally cannot respond in a traditional way

According to the New York Times, people with Asperger's have trouble with subtext; e.g., when asked "Do I look good in this dress?" they don't realize that "No" is never an appropriate answer, since they don't perceive the underlying unstated question, "Do you still find me attractive?" (Most men, by the way, are afflicted with Asperger's. They develop upper-body strength to compensate.)

Frank Kogan (Frank Kogan), Tuesday, 9 August 2005 22:14 (twenty years ago)

yeah, i definitely think many would say there is overcompensation going which results in the savant phenomenon atleast, and maybe a lot of the other more common recognizable features of autism as well. As I understand it, Autists have less communication within the brain, so certain areas may overdevelop as they'll need to stand on their own.

also, for purposes of closing this thread, I should make it clear that I really wasn't thinking about the savant aspect of things when i wrote this thread, although i'm not sure if that came across. I realized this when someone brought up the HYPO-scientific/creative issue and how folks weren't studying that with regard to austists etc. I was more thinking about how this different way of thinking might lead to different understanding of science and a different flavor of creative expression and god knows what else -and a deeper connection between the two somehow?? as far as i can see there should be reasons for interest...simply the nature of the disease -minds working but not really integrated, there are many more males than females with autism -which is odd (Cambridge University suggested it might be some form of "extreme maleness" (which i think is kinda palpable)), also the fact that a lot of hi-functioning autists are at the center of the neuro-diversity movement... its kinda interesting, and yeah sure that there seems to be a tech connection with this group. I've thought about all this from time to time, but the thing that reminded me again was Ellen Allien's new album ... yet hard to explain why. Its something about how she relates organic systems to seemingly non organic symptoms or seemingly organic systems to non-organic (you get it) through their basic structures and how its very very boiled down. Also, my realization that a lot of people would probably think it was a dry sound or might not "feel" the images it produces for me and also thinking about how it ultimately fails and why? and did it have to? etc. In addition, I've always felt her music was very "male" and I wanted to stop saying that b/c its more "male" than anything i've heard from men. Its just some common denominator I associate with male thinking and wanted to explore its roots more. Anyway, I tend to think like Moley with this stuff... I see what I see and until proven otherwise I'll just continue believing. and pretty tired talking about this in pseudo-scientific terms and also fielding pseudo-academic smackdowns. er. so there.

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Wednesday, 10 August 2005 00:52 (twenty years ago)

sorry for posting ill-informed bs and getting off on a pet peeve which was, in fact, what i was doing.

jed_ (jed), Wednesday, 10 August 2005 01:16 (twenty years ago)

i didn't mean that sarkily! and daesin, please don't go back to lurking.

jed_ (jed), Wednesday, 10 August 2005 01:17 (twenty years ago)

shit! now i'm 90% less bitchy :)

Susan Douglas (Susan Douglas), Wednesday, 10 August 2005 03:32 (twenty years ago)

fifteen years pass...

Damn, I was looking for another thread, and I found this one - blast from the past both about how nasty ILX could be in 2005, and also how ... *limited* people's understanding of what autism is/isn't, was in 2005. (I mean, the ~male brain~ bullshit and the ~fashionable now~ garbage upthread is just offensive - but I couldn't say my understanding of autism was any better at that time?)

I wanted to talk about stimming, because I was curious - y'know, what does stimming do the brain chemistry, that it *feels* so good? And when googling, all I could find was medicalisation after medicalisation and annoying articles from parents asking how they could *stop* their children from stimming. (Why would you want to stop something which is so beautiful, so useful, so calming, and amazing?)

Because what I wanted to talk about, was the use of music for stimming. I spent much of Saturday listening to the same song over and over again, and even listening to the best *part* of the song over and over again until I put myself into a state of almost manic excitability and getting chills up and down my skin. The best thing about being autistic, is that one does not habituate very easily - something which is pleasurable the first time will be even more pleasurable the second, fifth, twentieth time! (But the flip side of that is that something that is *annoying* the first time will never stop being annoying at the same or increasing levels of annoyingness.) I think I was still in my teens when I realised that the *pleasure* I derived from music was far more extreme than most of my peers - and it wasn't until I found places like ILM that I realised there were other people who experienced music this way. That autistic sensitivity makes music absolutely *amazing* in a way I don't know if more neurotypical people experience?

I think there is a connection between some forms of electronic music and autism, but I'm not sure I can adequately express it? The griddyness of sequenced music is very pleasing. The repetitiveness is very soothing. Like, there's a particular motif - and it comes from Kraftwerk, I wrote a whole essay about why Kraftwerk's music is so great for autistis! - of scratching back and forth between one or two notes, while changing a filter sweep, or something which slowly alters the tonal quality of those two notes. And that combination of "exactly the same" plus "changing in a predictable pattern", for an autist, is like scratching the bit of your mind that nothing else can reach, and nothing in the world feels quite so *good*.

At least, it does for me, an autist who is extremely highly sensitive to sound.

I really wish that more non-autists would concentrate less on what seems bad or unusual or debilitating when dealing with autistic people, and listen a little more to come to an understanding of the joy, the pleasure, the intensity of it. Like, how much of what makes for a Good Pop Hook is what makes for a good audio stim toy, the itchiness of it, the catchiness of it, how many times you can hear it before it loses its flavour.

Extractor Fan (Branwell with an N), Tuesday, 25 August 2020 07:42 (five years ago)

I used to keep a great resource list of autistic bloggers which I sadly don't have any more and the politics of stimming was a regular source of discussion.

I don't know if you've come across this site Branwell but it seems fabulous: https://www.stimyourheartout.com/

From my presumed neurotypical perspective I've often found something deeply satisfying about the "readability" of electronic music - I can see how the pieces interconnect, it's fugal like Bach or something and that creates a degree of fascination in being able to follow each of the constituent parts as they interact, almost like you can see how the music "works" in some way that's different to denser musics. Also yeah a lot of electronics foregrounds timbre and texture in more obvious ways.

A Short Film About Scampoes (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 25 August 2020 07:58 (five years ago)

Stupid work have blocked that site for some reason - will have to read it on my mobile. Thanks, I will check it out!

(I'm reading even the National Autistic Society's reccommendations and they are as a group, generally quite good, but I'm recognising some of the stuff that was done to me to try to control my 'obsessions' and it didn't diminish them at all, it just drove them underground and made me feel a sense of *shame* about them.)

Is electronic music really more readable in that sense? I completely understand what you mean - following the different threads of instrumentation and seeing how they interact and harmonise - or don't. It's easier to follow simpler instrumentation - a 3-piece power-punk band with guitar-bass-drums is also quite easy to follow the threads. But lots of electronic music, especially the dance variety, is deliberately stripped down to only the 'important' parts.

I don't know; as one starts to understand more about music, one can learn to follow more and more complex structures - from understanding what a string quartet is doing, to understand what every part of a full orchestra is doing. Paying attention to each strand, or letting it merge into one big texture. Sensitivity to music on that level isn't *necessarily* an autistic quality - but I think that the intensity of general autistic sensitivity makes it overwhelming in a very pleasurable way.

Just really noticing lately, the combination of 'intensity of a really exciting new Special Interest' plus 'stimming really stimmable music' is just such a source of joy and pleasure!

Extractor Fan (Branwell with an N), Tuesday, 25 August 2020 08:20 (five years ago)

Not autism, but reading the above reminds me of hearing this discussion of whether Mozart had tourettes

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2117611/

Anti-Cop Ponceortium (Camaraderie at Arms Length), Tuesday, 25 August 2020 08:35 (five years ago)

My son spends hours every day on YouTube with a mix of fishtanks, water-features, playstation game d+b, electric fans, swimming pools, chopped and screwed horror versions of C-beebies themes all sorts of loud and quiet "music" or what could be loosely termed field recordings! When I had to endure the dreaded Section 47 this complete dickhead advised me I should have safesearch on to protect him from Islamic State propaganda or any unsuitable youTube content, I'm not being facetious about Islamic State - the fucking clown actually used that as an example. I felt like saying I'm a card carrying member of IS, deal with it you smug bullshiting prick! Anyway I didn't apply any oppressive filter to his youtube experience and lied to them that yes I agree safesearch is just the kind of mindless neurotypical interfering condescension he needs to ruin his enjoyment of sounds + images, of course I will play along with it.

calzino, Tuesday, 25 August 2020 10:13 (five years ago)

I've done the dreaded PREVENT training three times now, it does something terrible to people's brains

Anti-Cop Ponceortium (Camaraderie at Arms Length), Tuesday, 25 August 2020 10:27 (five years ago)

It just made me join IS with calz

A Short Film About Scampoes (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 25 August 2020 10:35 (five years ago)

It's strange but interesting how much understanding more about my Autism has led me to understand my own listening habits more.

For as long as I've been obsessed with music, I've noticed this pattern, where I've become really, really obsessed with *one particular band* (or individual or style of music) and just really tunnelled and gone deep-digging on that artist. Because it gets to a point where I don't really want to hear any other music but that artist, like, nothing else will do, nothing else will scratch that itch - and I might spiderweb out a bit, through connections which lead to other interesting things that become interesting *through* their connection to the Current Most Interesting Band.

I always thought it was something really special about the *music* that made it so interesting, and kind of searching for what strange connection that there might be between bands as disparate as Spacemen 3, Aphex Twin, Radiohead, Secret Machines/SVIIB, Kraftwerk, Neubauten, and whoever else I've obsessed on over the years. (And that weird experiment where we tried to see if we could make ourselves *like* an album through repeated close attention to it - and I found that not only that I could make myself like a band like Interpol, but that literally, the act of *paying close attention* to something could indeed lead to a Special Interest as much as *paying close attention* could be the result of a Special Interest.) But it turns out, there's nothing inherent in the music that makes it obsessable to me (though I suppose what they generally have in common is that they are very closed-system bands in some way) - it's that I have an obsession-shaped brain.

There's nothing really inherent about the *things* that I like the way I do... it's that I *like* liking things in that way?

Extractor Fan (Branwell with an N), Friday, 28 August 2020 08:08 (five years ago)


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