thread to get over a breakup

Debating just how much of a disaster one night of (probably drunk) ex-sex would be. On a 1-10 scale it might be an 8. Might also be worth it.

if y'all both single then get to it imo

I've done ex-sex. generally rule is, do it long after you became exes to ensure any buried feelings are just that, very buried or nonexistent.

having sex with an ex weeks afterward=mistake I'll never make again.

btw is it weird for my ex to show up in my dreams? and by this, I don't mean my most recent ex, I mean the one before this one.

I wasn't barely thinking about her at all, especially when I was dating new girl, and now she invades my subconscious every other night.

nah it's not weird. or if it is, i'm gonna need to get advice on why my teacher from when i was 6 makes regular appearances.

xp - not weird at all, esp. if you were together for a significant period of time

significant for me, not significant for most, so I guess that counts.

it's partially my most recent ex's fault for planting some of it in my brain

in ur case she'll make an inception

nah it's not weird. or if it is, i'm gonna need to get advice on why my teacher from when i was 6 makes regular appearances.

It would be even weirder if your teacher was your ex.

you got all the detail you need already

wait darrag what if she incepted the whole relationship and i never really went out with her

not impossible, i've definitely spent long periods of my life in what turned out to be imaginary relationships

^^^^^^^^ ouch but yes.

tho none of them were as hot or terrifying as cotillard

I have about 5 different imaginary relationships going on right now.

ughhhh holiday text

could be worse i spose but still

apparently i need to be more assholish, because less so isn't working

I've tried to be an asshole, but I'm a bad actor and they see through it.

the asshole angle only works for genuine assholes. when you're a nice guy they can tell you're just acting and they see through it.

sad but tr00

we need some asshole girls that go for nice guys

http://www3.pictures.gi.zimbio.com/500+Days+Summer+2009+Sundance+Portrait+Session+NfxKBZ9MsQRl.jpg

is he gluing his pubes to his face

is she an asshole?

working in what way?

that pic made me irrationally angry

hands up who needs a drink

well it's 8am here but sure why not

okay, so, i've written about this plenty of places on ilx.

but my most recent ex has become my best friend, in this weird way. we spend a lot of time together. we really enjoy each other's company. we even occasionally have sex.

my problem is that i can't get over the 'relationship' aspect of it. the ilx gays know this, but yesterday, he shot a porno with one of his favorite lovers. since his parents were in town and bought him a hotel room, he went out to dinner with this lover and his parents, then i met them and we went for a drink, then they went back to the hotel. and i was alone. and when i finally got home, all i could do was cry. i wanted to meet his parents. i wanted to sleep in that hotel room. i wanted to be near him and share that sort of intimacy with him.

to make matters worse, he is shooting another porno today on his last day off for a week, and seems like he might be giving up on this project of the past couple months of building a house for himself, which is nearly completed, and which i've been helping him with. like, i have a feeling he's going to move down to santacruz with this boy, who is really that: a 21yearold porn star who gets flown all over the country to shoot porn and have sex with men. they don't share that much about their lives with each other (in my ex's own words), they just fuck and hang out.

it isn't even the sex, for while it was fucking amazing sex, it's more that i'm like: you're falling for HIM? what the fuck happened to us? i still don't get it, and i still am really upset about it, and i really dislike him right now. like, i love him more than anyone in the world. and we have a very real connection. but like... FUCK.

i need therapy. i really do.

i feel ya dude.

but my most recent ex has become my best friend, in this weird way. we spend a lot of time together. we really enjoy each other's company. we even occasionally have sex.

In short, you haven't actually broken up with him. The jealousy you're feeling over his new man kind of confirms this. Maybe some time spent thinking of him as an ex rather than a friend might help.

And let me express sympathy for your troubles.

^

it's hard in some situations. i was in a relationship w/ someone i played music with and it was really hard to move on, in fact in toto it probably took 2 or 3 years to fully get over it, just because we were in each others face all the time. also i was in love with him and he was my best friend. also he dumped me and immediately started dating someone new and i had to have her in my face all the time. it was impossible, also she was stupid.

And it's going to be extra difficult for Tabes, because the porno movie industry is very, very close knit.

xp - yeah, i think the key thing to realize -- at least for me -- is "he WAS my best friend" - past tense. If he has fucked you over, or hurt you, then, really, he is no longer your best friend, and you need to put more distance between you and him. I mean, it's hard enough trying not to dwell/obsess/feel like shit about the situation in general, but when it's physically in your face on a regular basis -- well, I couldn't deal anymore, so I ended up quitting something that was a major part of my life.

also she was stupid.

HAHAH - *sigh* ... yeah

yeah it was really hard for me to recognize that he *had* screwed me over until a long time after, because we were such good friends and i at the time just tended to take the blame and guilt for everything that happened in my life. i eventually, from talking to others about it etc, started viewing him as behaving crappily in the situation, which he had, and at that point i confronted him about it and we finally talked at length about it - this was like a year and a half later. after that weird period of time i could finally start getting over it. we are still v close friends today

friend of mine is going thru a similar sitch, and just can't bring himself to get angry at his gf despite the fact that she clearly wronged him, and in a way that a partner/best friend just shouldn't.

anyway tabes, i know yr obv a pro at casual sex and all, but i think you should probably just decide that yr ex is a) not your best friend, at least not right now and b) someone you should never sleep with again (unless, you know, its in a professional capacity).

the hardest thing for me was the avoiding/distance part, because i felt like that was weak, and i was "not a weak person" - like, i felt that i should be able to take it, and that was the "strong" way to deal with it.

xp I am really tempted to say it sucks worse when they are NOT stupid, but I think it must suck the same.

it sucks differently, i think, but in the same quantity. i made what i think was the wise decision not to investigate this girl in order to prove/disprove her stupidity -- though i did read her artist's statement, and it was clunky and workmanlike and made assertions about her work that didn't really follow, but it wasn't horrible. Still, mine was way better.

the hardest thing for me was the avoiding/distance part, because i felt like that was weak, and i was "not a weak person" - like, i felt that i should be able to take it, and that was the "strong" way to deal with it.

― sarahel, Thursday, December 30, 2010 2:13 PM (5 minutes ago) Bookmark

right. my bud is trying, explicitly, to be "dispassionate" about it and just try to focus on enjoying his now ex-gf's company for the remainder of their time together (similar situation to yrs, actually---he's decided to move, but not until march), and i'm like dude yr fortitude is admirable but ffs its perfectly reasonable to be angry/hurt/resentful right now, the less time you guys spend together the better

my fortitude went out the window one night after 4-5 shots of Jameson's and a dumb argument with some entitled motherfucker over a parking space.

hahaha. It is easy for me to think I am a worthless vomitous mass next to almost anyone my ex would date. If I wasn't, he'd be dating me, amirite? No.

xp. I always thought I was weak for not being able to pull off a clean break.

oh, well i figured anyone he would get with would be more "fun" than me, because they were new and not the person he'd been practically married to for over a decade, and his business partner to boot, and thus well-aware of all his flaws and mistakes.

plus i would win practically ever argument, which i'm sure wasn't fun for him -- not that it was my goal to win

yeah, that is easy to understand. But the same goes for any new people you date. They'll be different most likely in some very refreshing ways.

exactly - so i stopped beating myself up over the fact he rejected me for her ... though it was a bit more complicated than that

it's good that you at least were able to stop beating yourself up despite the complications.

oh, there are so many different things you can beat yourself up about in regards to a break-up, though. in reality, i think i just moved on to a different thing.

here's the thing: he hasn't really wronged me, at least in my opinion. if anything, he's been very kind to me, and realized how hard the breakup has been for me, and tried to help me move on from the 'boyfriends' part of our lives so that we're at where we are now— really close, really caring about each other, but not in a way that spells out 'romantic relationship.'

and tbh, i've been really good for the past two months or so. i've been seeing other people both casually and in a 'getting-close' way, and i've also been spending a lot of time with him. i don't really want for him to not be my best friend. i think that part of it for me is that i can't stand the idea of losing him as a best friend, so i get super-jealouse of possible replacements...in the end, we're both in sex work, and i don't mind too much who he has sex with or how, but i'm still having trouble with the idea that there's another person in his life that he feels as strongly about as he does about me.

also, i don't think there's any way he'd move down to santacruz— he's spent so much time and money working on his house that it would be a total waste if he did so. plus, his work and his future work (commercial diving) are all up here. so.