thread to get over a breakup

i made a sandiwch, and then sobbed for half an hour, and then ate my sandwich

and now i kind of feel ok

thanks nv. <3

kinda sandwich?

i'm sorry, hoos.

but maybe you're heading toward a better place now, right?

peanut butter

it was p good

xp

but maybe you're heading toward a better place now, right?

― 1994 ball boy (Karl Malone), Thursday, August 27, 2015 2:23 PM (12 seconds ago) Bookmark Flag Post Permalink

yes, i absolutely am. when the conversation started last night it was on the pretty well-tread ground of "i'm done with not dealing with my drinking problem" "i want to believe you, but you've said that so many times" "i don't need you to believe me. it's just over."

and it felt really good to say that.

yes!

you are heading toward the 'riding toward the sunset with a giant cowboy hat in front of majestic mountains' kind of better place

yeah this gon be gud

all my best hoos

ugh pb

do like mountains tho, head for the mts

"i don't need you to believe me. it's just over."

I can't think of anything more liberating to say/think/feel. GL Hoos

<3 Hoos

you're far away now, two time zones west

I did it all right, but only after doing all of it (and then some) wrong, and I got no one to blame but this yours-truly fuckin asshole, 2.5 years since

I miss you more than the one who left months ago, more by far, because some shit don't happen twice, but I own it cause I deserve it

and I'm still here.

hey, it's been five years

(very mel allen voice) how about that

i am 100% over you so why did i have a dream that was equal parts vivid and mundane last nite that involved me just hanging out with you and being given a tour of your new apartment for what seemed like hours

i sometimes have those too. somewhere in our subconscious they're still floating around, even though our waking brains thought they had been compartmentalized and forgotten.

xpost

i'm not sure if the five year anniversary is a happy one or a sad one, but i hope it's the former, or at least that it went better than the 1 year anniversary did.

http://brokenships.la

you owned books by jack donovan and had terrible taste but at the end of the day you were just a total asshole.

you're 53 and you left the mormon church years ago but you're still mormon as fuck, lying to everyone who isn't a blood relative, getting upset when i use swear words, making recipes which feature cream of mushroom soup, putting mayonnaise in your guacamole.

did i mention you owned books by jack donovan? you fetishized violence but didn't know anything about it you entitled ditzy cunt.

you kicked me out with nothing on a monday night when it was 20 degrees outside because i told you i was planning on breaking up with you when i got a job. and you accused me of being the mean one. go fuck yourself forever and ever. i will never go to burning man in remembrance of you.

Okay what the actual dickens *is* going on here

Map <3

just googled Jack Donovan o_O there's always one more bottom feeding right wing men's rights bullshit artist

sorry you're going through this but honestly anyone who would read that....

i doubt he even read much of it though to be fair it is completely unreadable. thanks guys. i'm in a much better place. ya'll know stevie d. he is the sweetest guy and a total saint for letting me stay with him for a bit. going back "home" across the country on friday. another start from scratch, the third in five years or so. feeling good about this one though. decent mental health, feeling more myself than ever. i know what i want from life. cheers and peace.

Best wishes matt. Stevie d is indeed the best.

best wishes, map<3
even though these are difficult days the recipes featuring cream of mushroom soup and the mayonnaise in the guacamole made me lol

:)

sorry yr going through this matt. good luck.

wishing you the best, the initial "dodged a bullet imo" in this thread seems appropriate here as well

mayo in guac is the devil, go in peace map

love you vegemitegrrl

<3

making recipes which feature cream of mushroom soup, putting mayonnaise in your guacamole.

this is triggering memories of my upthread ex's family, but you are awesome, and go in pizza! if you ever visit the SF Bay, I owe ya!

map rules y'all

ty for being the awesome guy to help through a breakup <3

sometimes i still miss her so much

Hey nv

<3 to you NV

<3

you thought 4ndrew sulliv4n was brilliant. you always chatted him up whenever you saw him out walking his dogs. one time you guys stopped right in the very narrow entrance to the gym locker room for a conversation. i squeezed by to go work out, which is what you're supposed to fucking do at a gym. you were one of those annoying queens who couldn't see the gym as anything other than a social club.

misogynistic gays with daddy issues, fuck off 4 lyfe

let me just say that you have always seemed like an awesome dude

and also most of these anecdotes make me want to go screaming for the hills

Missed this before, 💜Matt

aw u too boo

Today is 5th wedding anniversary.

My last 3 wedding anniversaries (including today) - two years ago: on my way home from work my wife calls me upset as the cat has gone into a catatonic state with hugely dilated pupils. This lasts for a week - during which we start discussing putting the cat down as he is not eating, sleeping, or drinking fluids - we take the cat to the vet a few times and visit a veterinarian neurologist, none of them have a clue other than it is something neurological. The cat eventually suddenly snaps out of it, never for the conditions to reoccur.

Last year: I have a doctor's appointment as I have been having numbness of the extremities, chest pain and tightness, sweating, tachycardia, trouble breathing etc. I have a panic attack in the doctor's room. Wife has a meeting at work.

This year: wake up in my new place for the first time having separated from my wife yesterday. This is by far the least shitty of the last 3 anniversaries ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

<3

fight the good fight

We are going to hang out tonight and watch riverdale and eat some edibles

Ah Jim. Sorry.

I'm doing surprisingly well, and there is very little acrimony :)

thanks for the kind words