heroin

daily usage for about a year late teens. kicked by switching over to speed & alcohol, which worked for me. chipped for another couple of years. the final time the whole scene made me so aware that this person cleaning needles with bleach and nodding his way through a late night conversation and driving home completely racked at 5 a.m. really wasn't who I was any more, and that was that. it still felt great but the junkie me who couldn't get enough didn't seem to live in my body any more. we are still on speaking terms.

impetus on both these polls is primarily that I've rad a few musician biiographies in the past year. heroin, as expected, featured prominently, as did crack, which i guess i was a little surprised about. many of my friends growing at least tried heroin and some developed substantial habits. even my wife used to use regularly, but it's so long ago that i consider that to be an almost useless factoid about her. like "oh, you were on the heroin team in high school? i was in jazz band."

there were a few people who did crack too, that I knew about. i almost tried it once, when an acquaintance went into a house to get some blow for a bunch of us and came back half an hour later with "Ready Rock", which he assured us wasn't the same thing as crack, but also wouldn't share, at all.

So nothing on either count for me, but just sort of interested in a general statistics among ilxors.

Never though I've had some friends that have.

There have been times in my life where I've smoked tons of weed (lol college and here and there since), did E once and shrooms a couple times but that's mostly it for drug use. I did do coke a handful of times when I was younger but it was too awesome for me to use regularly. I have a very addictive personality and a family history of substance abuse of which I'm keenly aware. I think that's been the number one thing that's prevented me from doing harder drugs as a regular thing.

And now I'm old and not interested tbh.

I don't know anyone my age who has ever done this. I think my uncle might have had a phase in the 70s.

Yeah, same here. It was not a thing in the country (that I knew of), and when I went to town for university, it was The Scourge of The Underclass - so I probably know a lot of people who know people who've had a time with it, but they don't talk about it that much. It wasn't something that Right People did, on a different moral plane from weed or acid or even coke.

All as distinct from crack, which wasn't something that anyone that wasn't Bobby Brown did.

Also contributing to this is my fear of needles, in fairness :)

Oops, voted incorrectly - snorted once. Needle phobia kept me from doing anything really, really stupid with my body when I was young and adventurous/stupid.

Never tried it.

had morphine in the hospital when I was 14 with a busted knee. single greatest feeling (drugwise) i ever had. complete bliss. after a couple days they took me off it and gave me tylenol with codeine. man was i bummed out. begged them to put me back on it because i couldn't sleep and the pain from my knee was murder. no go.

never had an opiate since

Oh yeah, after I had thoracic surgery, they slowly weened me from morphine to demerol to percoset. When the percoset prescription ran dry, I called the doctor's office and ended up cussing someone out and not getting any more pills.

To be fair, I was still in incredible pain at the time.

just the one time, about 10 yrs ago. my junkie BFF was moving out of the country, i wanted to give it just one try, he was the only person i trusted to 'administer' the drug. i only had a small dose, bc he was pretty worried about fucking me up (he actually kind of fucked the injection and i ended up with a huge lumpy bruise on my arm).

it was... fine. idk i just didn't really get what was so awesome about it. i puked and puked and puked and then puked some more, but it didn't bother me at all. i just felt relaxed and had a great night hanging out with my friend. never had the desire to do it again. it did however open me up to needle use, which i'd been pretty anti to, and when my friend moved back a year or two later, i got into semi-regularly banging up ecstasy.

I didn't even know you could DO that!

imo it was a thousand times better than heroin, and 1 pill could be split up to 6 ways (the other reason we got into injecting it - we were poor!).

as any junkie will tell affirm, you can shoot almost anything. during my addiction there was little I didn't try shooting up. if you like cocaine, please refrain from learning what injected cocaine feels like. I don't give a lot of advice about stuff, but that is serious advice.

snorted it once because i was high and the dude told me it was coke. plz note: getting heroin when expecting coke is a deeeeeeply unsettling experience. have residual bad feelings toward it because of dead friends, despite generally not indulging much in the tell other people what to do game. iatee i dont know how old you are but in my experience heroin users come in every age group, its def not a waning scene

no I have no doubt there are people in their 20s who do heroin I just meant people in my life

man, i'm glad you're off this aero becuz i still have good feelings about that morphine i had many many years ago.

Nope. Seen the effects, never been near it.

learned why they call it kicking the habit after helping a friend

they should call it shitting the habit or something

Opiates are the best. When my mom was in the hospital, her male Filipino nurse kept asking her, "Want some morphine? Calm you downnnn." And my mom, out of some misguided sense of responsibility, kept refusing. She also had a prescription of Percocet in the house that she never dipped into.

i have been way too into opiates the handful of times i've been hospitalized to ever trust myself w/ heroin.

i always rate my pain honestly the first time they ask but after they've put the IV in i start rounding up

ha yes, i was getting my finger stitched last year and they asked me what my pain level was. the wheels started turning

That pain level thing makes no sense. I never know if they want you to rate it as 10 being the most pain you've ever been in, or, as the way I understand it, 10 as the worst pain you could ever imagine in the history of the world.

never tried. only drug i've tried is still just good ole marijuana.

percocets and codeine have both felt very good, would rate my pain again

i've been in 9 or 10 pain level when my patella tendon separated from the bone and i was unable to move my leg. one shot of morphine and ~butterflies circling my head~

xpost yeah painkillers, I can definitely see why people get hooked on them. being a naturally nervous dude with a speedy heartrate, I had my first painkillers after I had my wisdom teeth out, and it was bliss, I felt like I had slowed down to teh speed everyone else was at. Then I started stealing my dad's pain meds until I finally realized it was probably best to find another way to slow myself down.

^know that feeling. alcohol does the trick for me

have had the gun club stuck in my head forever now because of this thread title, thanks a lot maybe I'll take some morphine to help me forget

wow u guys have really been down to the depths w/yr doctor visits, heavy stuff

xxpost it does for me too but alcohol also makes me really emo if I go too far past what Brick in Cat on a Hot Tin Roof referred to as "the click".

no, it was Hud, with the click?

maybe not

morphine has ruined my memory

morphine and vicodin are nice and all but even morphine doesn't measure up next to the mighty black tar, legalize it now

^^^braggin

Could never get too into opiates because I like it way too much when my dick works. Or maybe Mr. Floppy was unique to my experiences.

This stuff left me in a state of heartbreak for a year after I stopped. Best relationship ever.

^^^braggin

gtfo noobs this is the heroin thread not the cough syrup thread

*skulks away*

john u r the worst n.a. sponsor ever

topic on which ilxors will not compete: remains undiscovered, search continues tomorrow with bestiality poll (early money on jjjusten)

tbh i've been sick for like a week and have *definitely* been getting diminishing returns from nyquil

try heroin

john u r the worst n.a. sponsor ever

"havin a hard time doin my inventory aero I feel really bad about all the ppl I robbed"
"man yeah I remember the 4th step it sucked, let's get super high I know a dude"

kind of romanticized it in high school because so many musicians i revered used it, was a stupid freshman in college and was befriended by a junkie who lived in my dorm (along with her older junkie boyfriend who more or less lived there as well) and used it enough to really like it but not enough to be physically addicted to it. only snorting, my friends were protective enough to not want me to shoot it. my life was pretty screwed up going into this and the idea of checking out was very attractive. i went home that summer and had my wisdom teeth out and the codeine just like...didn't do anything. i tried snorting the pills and even smoking them and also nothing. i realized what a pathetic loser i was and when i went back to school resolved to never use it again and never have in the 13 years or however long its been. the junkie friends from freshman year managed to guilt me into "lending" them hundreds showing up at my dorm sick. i eventually cut them off and started playing in a band that took up all my time instead.

it's strange now, i immediately get sick off any codeine or opiate substance. i imagine that this is for the best.

"Chipping" is my new favorite drug word. The image it conjures up for me is a well-mulched playground.

If this thread was on 77 I'd talk.

Never done smack, coke or speed that said.

crazy times

If this thread was on 77 I'd talk.

yeah i guess i overshared a little as people have definitely tried to fuck with my life over the internet on this and other boards before :/

Is all of ILTMI de-indexed? Should I de-index this thread?

u should send heroin to all of our homes so we can post abt the high under our real names is a better plan imho

that might be good - i dont think there is anything linking my identity to this account besides pictures i've posted, BUT i'm sure if someone wished me ill they could figure it out...hopefully no one wishes me ill at the moment.

xpost

De-indexed! Overshare away!

thanks!

cool now that thread deindexed i can share that i never did heroin but i did listen to this song once

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6xcwt9mSbYE

and i was pretty afraid that i might like it too much so i stopped abt 2/3 of the way through

but its a pretty long song so you know

lol

had morphine in the hospital when I was 14 with a busted knee. single greatest feeling (drugwise) i ever had. complete bliss.

Oh god yes. I've never done heroin, I stopped liking Percocet and Vicodan and I took a couple morphine pills once and *hated* it, so I figured opiates were no fun.

Then I got a patient-controlled morphine IV while in the hospital for a skull fracture and concussion. The drug going in was one of the most glorious thing I've ever felt. Besides easing the sickening head pain, it felt like I was exhaling for an impossibly long time and a cool, refreshing, glowing feeling radiated from my IV arm, through my chest, and toward my limbs.

I'm really, really glad I never tried heroin b/c if it is anything like IV morphine, I would have to do it more than once.

#25 DEMEROL, MORPHINE, HEROINE RAP’S,,,,,I STARTED SAYIN ALL THIS CAUSE I WRITE RHYME WHILE IM SICK IN THE HOSPITAL ACTUALLY GETTIN THESE DRUGS… SAYIN YA SHIT IS LIKE CRACK, COKE ANS WHAT HAVE YOU I STARTED DOING THAT BACK ON D.J. CLUE MIX TAPES FIRST TIME WAS ON THE MOTHERLESS CHILD BEAT…ME AND TY-NITTY

PATIENT CONTROLLED MORPHINE IV

WHY ARE WE SO SCARED OF WHAT FEELS RIGHT

...and the tide was way out

one time, worst hangover ever

hangover?/???

Tried it a couple of times myself and it never really took. I have strong angry feelings about it due to dead friends and ruined friends and this worthless junkie ex who managed to suck two years of my 20s into a black hole of shit and misery. Plus a couple of times I nearly died/met grievous bodily harm because I was a huge dummy who trusted junkies with my safety.

Automatic thread bump. This poll is closing tomorrow.

drugs are so crazy!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eNeN9ZU2CSM

Panic in Needle Park! Definitely in my top 5 Heroin movies. The other 4 being Christiane F, Trainspotting, Dogs in Space and Pulp Fiction.

Great H TV shows - Sopranos and Breaking Bad. I also want to say Sweet and Sour but can't recall any actual drug scene.

Crap H movies: Requiem for a Dream and High Art. Fuck that boring, stylized bullshit.

High art was a bad heroin movie but a good dyke one iirc.

It's fortunate that sticking needles into myself scares me, as it no doubt saved me from becoming a heroin junkie....

Never used heroin (and yes, i know it doesn't have to be injected), but have used all sorts of other opiates/opioids, generally not for recreational purposes though.

I don't quite get the demonisation of heroin, given that morphine is legal and pharmacologically very similar. Heroin was invented by Bayer and was legal for decades as a cough medicine, and even marketed towards children for awhile. (of course in much smaller doses than used to get high).

Automatic thread bump. This poll's results are now in.

Results!

There are 4 people on this board I would like to become v v good friends with.

oh wait i have kids. FUCK.

Panic in Needle Park! Definitely in my top 5 Heroin movies. The other 4 being Christiane F, Trainspotting, Dogs in Space and Pulp Fiction.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0064694/

the only friend i ever had who was a legit heroin junkie who never cleaned up just died of an overdose last month.

at age 12 my mom discovered me still taking my daily dose of codeine the doctor had prescribed me two weeks after i had gotten better and had a minor freakout.

Really hoping this ilx poll doesn't trigger any relapses : (

what was the other poll you did?

cushions

very muddy apple juice

"It'll make you feel good!"

Bustin'?

alt: "It'll make you feel good!"

my scant heroin experiences made me really glad to be an uppers guy

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Gamer Cosplay gone...Good!

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