my ex-boyfriend passed away about 5 or 6 years ago and his family could never find me to let me know and i found out a couple of months after and i felt mad because i could never say good bye. every now and then i dream about him and his mother. his mother is so happy that she found him like he was just missing and i see him and i'm happy for her and i hug him and tell him alot of things i can never hear what i say but what i do know is that we're hugging,holding hands or just talking to one another and i feel this great joy or sometimes i'm crying so hard i could hear that and i can hear myself saying i'm sorry i just wanted to say good bye why did you leave i have these dreams and it's like i don't want to wake up and if i do i try to go right back to sleep so that maybe i can get the same dream back.
― hermelinda martinez, Thursday, 8 April 2004 12:14 (twenty-one years ago)