ADMIN LOG WATCH 2

ASPCA threatened legal action, had to be done

why was that not in the admin log?

need to protect horse's privacy

still googleable ... for now

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can't believe i didn't think of that. poor horse. All his horsey friends have probably shamed him.

profoundly NWS

misread that as profoundly NWW

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Xui Xui are "weird" like Myspace

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Neigh means neigh

great thread.

rip

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I'm just a teenage dirtbag fartbag

Let's Do It, Let's Fart in Love

Wednesday, January 15, 2014 3:35 PM I Love Music Message edited to :
j4mes bl0unt see fucken googleproofed what's your point

flawless victory

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Tuesday, February 4, 2014 5:07 PM Site Ramona and Yeezus (Matt P) has been temporarily banned.

get with the times, og thread bumped like hours ago

just now seeing that but the fart thread locks were controversial imo

uh, this ban happened 1 minute before I posted it.

first up is best dressed, father used say

and matt p -- you're my pal, but wishing rape on other posters is awful. you are better than that!

uh, this ban happened 1 minute before I posted it.

oh, i'm talking specifically about the fart thread locks from 3 weeks ago, not anything that just happened.

i was replying to deems

antɪsɪˈpeɪʃ(ə)n

what ahppened

a variety of unfortunate things were said on the woody allen thread and matt p played a trump card

m/l what i supposed

was it morbs he wished rape upon tho

it was morbs and that philosopher of the common man, aimless

ha this message board writes itself

Self clowning borad

dayo can i say i am sincerely enjoying this thing where you wake up in morning your time and catch up on the day's events

i am moving up from death wishes to rape wishes; it's called the New Civility

Aw thanks cad; it's a return to my roots, this is the time zone where I first started

Still need to make my way through a week's worth of ILH posts

dayo dayo where r u

morbz i wish u no ill & hope u recover from ur various ailments but ilx is lightly-modded and ppl are gonna type things. there's a mod system in place and it has vindicated u to a degree in this instance. don't keep it going i implore you

that's a muddled message tbh

Still need to make my way through a week's worth of ILH posts

recap: okc is unbeatable; lol knicks; the heat are old, tired, and sad and the pacers are unstoppable; the warriors are fun to watch; some-overrated-guy shouldn't be traded to ease some-bloated-team's luxury-tax woes; lol jason kidd.

darragh have you checked out my blog

Thanks Daniel! One of my secret joys of the past few months is seeing you resurface on ILH

thanks!

also i wanna put on record that the constant battering of aimless on this board is shit- much more sinned against than sinner imo

xp no, link pls?

who batters aimless?

http://ilxor.com/ILX/ThreadSelectedControllerServlet?boardid=77&threadid=98837#unread

deems i am simply saying that ppl are gonna type things but allow me to essay an exhortation to desist from mortal struggle

aimless and i have been known to war, he rubs up a few ppl badly and i have no problem with justifiable combat

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admit it does make me feel better that i began my response post to their attempted takedown of me with “I don’t know how you are” or something to that vein. Turns out I did, but they were being a deceptive sociopath

Now that this has settled down but before the thread subsides, let's all acknowledge the magnificent construction of after the poster agreed to a permaban voluntarily, an almost "i would just like to point out that" level of ilxing.

lmao yes some incredible posting

im going to go post lads in the lads thread now lads

well that answers my question i suppose

keeping watching the logs

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One day my log will have something to say in the DMs

the log lads

It’s better than bad it’s good

ok i guess i'll wade into this whole clusterfuck

i won't say that Etherwave (i'll go with their most recent DN because people change and i don't know that the name i knew them under is still applicable) and i were friends, really... the impression I get was that Etherwave was not necessarily an easy person to be friends with.

an anecdote about my personal experience - there are online spaces that meant a lot to me, online spaces that i am no longer welcome in as a result of past behavior of mine. the way shit went down wasn't good, it wasn't fair to me, and half of my friends are still in these spaces i'm not welcome in. it sucks and i've just learned to accept it and move on with my life. the more i wanted these people to accept me, the more i alienated them. right or wrong, they got a right to their judgement, and i mean, loss is part of life. it's difficult and complicated and, i mean, i just don't belong there anymore. i don't.

the situation with Etherwave is a different situation. I was taking an extended break from ILX when Etherwave's previous account got banned.i wasn't there for what went down, and summaries of what happened, well... they're not going to do justice to it. i think people at the time made the best decisions they could, and i don't see any value or merit in revisiting those decisions.

HAVING SAID THAT i also don't see a lot of merit in throwing around words like "narcissistic abuse" and "sociopath". the reasons i'm excluded from the spaces i'm excluded from, those reasons largely relate to something that can be called "BPD". this is why i figure whatever happened in 2021 is impossible to fully explain... there's no comprehensible justification i can give for why i'm banned from the spaces i'm banned from, and at the same time, i understand why that was a decision the mods over there made. i also understand that attributing my being banned to my having a mental health condition, rather than to my _behavior_, would be fairly stupid and counterproductive. sometimes i've said some fucked up things, sometimes i've behaved in ways that aren't right, and whether i did it on purpose or not, i'm responsible for the consequences of that. "BPD" isn't a term that's as stigmatized these days as "narcissist" or "sociopath", but it used to be, and it used to follow the same pattern - focusing on the people, not the behavior. for me, dealing with my mental illness has been learning to accept that i'm _not_ categorically different from other people, that everybody is responsible for the consequences of their behavior, whether or not those consequences are fair or unfair.

of late, i've veered away from words like "BPD" and more towards "highly sensitive". i have Big Feels. i have feels that hit harder and last longer than is the case for other people. that's not a good thing or a bad thing. that's just a thing. as for _why_ i have big feels, i do think that a lot of it has to do with the trauma i've experienced, particularly the trauma of being a gender non-conforming person who grew up in the age i did. so i am naturally going to be more sympathetic to someone who has similar experiences. however, being "highly sensitive" is not in any way an excuse for my behavior, for anyone's behavior. to me, being highly sensitive means that i have to work harder to not take things so hard, so personally, to not make things about _me_ all the time. to just, like, let shit go, no matter how painful and difficult that may be.

tl;dr - i don't think Etherwave is a fundamentally sick or toxic individual, and it really puts me out when people treat them that way. while i wasn't around at the time they got banned from ILX, i don't see any reason to reconsider the decision four years ago to permaban them from ILX, particularly given that they attempted this year to actively evade that ban.

i don't think Etherwave is a fundamentally sick or toxic individual

i get how the distinction between behavior and labeling someone as a type of harmful person can be important when you're someone who is dealing with their own history of mental health issues and acting out based on trauma. i do want to point out that "narcissistic abuse" is the name of a behavior. that being said, i do think it is actually useful to use words like "narcissist" and "sociopath" when the behavior is unbroken over a long period of time. because it's a warning. and sometimes a warning is warranted. i don't know what the statistics are, but i think it's fairly self-evident that most abusers are locked into abusive behavior patterns and never budge. something gets lost or buried very deeply. this is why the cycle of abuse is incredibly strong. do i believe my mother, a narcissist and an abuser, is fundamentally only that in her soul? no. am i comfortable calling her a narcissist? yes. because i think it's ok to understand that a person becomes their behavior at a certain point, especially when that behavior keeps repeating itself with no resolution, defining that person's entire web of relationships. it's ok, sometimes, to use a label, because a label is shorthand, a hard line that allows us to steer clear or to justify what needs to happen in these kinds of cases, a complete removal and a cutting out. there's a reason why they call it "breaking" the cycle of abuse. does that mean i can't forgive someone who is so lost in this larger force that any goodness in their nature is squandered? no, no, i certainly forgive them, it is just unbearably sad and i have to leave them behind so i can stop hurting myself. but also... it's completely understandable and human to harbor a lot of ill will toward people like that. i have a lot of empathy for that too. anyway.

being exiled from this particular tiny corner of the internet is a protective measure for its decreasing number of peculiar inhabitants, it isn’t a life sentence of “exile from the entire internet” or a mental illness labelling exercise.

mods are hear to prevent abuse. they took their time and analyzed the situation, they deliberated, then made the choice. The choice was correct and we are all going to be OK.

Otm

I really dislike the forensic discussion of a person's mental status they can't be here to defend themselves on, fwiw. I don't think it's a good look. ILX does this a *lot* and it has always felt extremely ick.

I agree when random posters do that it’s not a good look but I think for people who have been done wrong by this person it’s a way of processing the abuse they received or w/e

can I agree with all of the last five posts? I want to.

also wanna note that I interacted with the new username in good faith and am a bit shaken/feeling icky about that now that I look back on the discussion and realize this person knew who I was.

I've been upset all day about them being back incognito--it's not a major stressor, but there's been a lot of recent snubs and vulnerabilities building up in my life lately that I can't shake off.

sorry I meant the last six posts from Kate on

yeah honestly i agree with all the other things people have been saying as well

map, what a post ❤️

one of the firmest and most fundamental lessons that took hold for me in being raised in the circumstances that i was is that i generally refuse to be coerced or cajoled into ever serving as merely a part of anyone else's treatment plan in my interactions with them- not for their self-diagnosed, their community diagnosed nor their formally diagnosed conditions

i think trayce makes a generally fair point except that the topic here is somebody who was bytimes a collection of various conditions that dictated how everyone else was to behave (or were the explanation for however they themselves had behaved) but the extensive knowledge thus exhibited never really seemed to stretch as far as methods of self-management nor interception of the many negative behaviours that were attributed to whatever condition (but never, ever to the person claiming that condition).

i think rush makes some good points, but core to that element is an iota of recognition that a person's behaviour is inevitably a factor in their long term place in any given community, and repeated attempts to deny that others are entitled to react to your behaviour is a toxic, controlling trait.

some of the best ilxors bring the scrap with righteousness and vim, but are quick to hold their hands up also. i think that's a necessary mix if you are constantly in fights (nobody will admit to constantly picking fights) but want to also be able to contribute to things in other modes or moods

nobody on this board brings 100% wonderfulness to the table and most of us let ourselves down (or have done historically) more than we would like to recount over the years (yours truly not nor near least), but the extent to which bb required this board and every poster on it to exist and act only according to their personal requirements - and the eventual rapid and certain deterioration in every thread or conversation where this constant demand was not acceded to- was far out of kilter with any workable coexistence with other actual people that weren't acolytes

after far too long of that being accepted as a feature of their personality that was just part of how this place was, the reality was that the reactions to any pushback just got bigger, more frequent and spilled out across twitter and everywhere else- with the description of the events or justifications afterwards always bearing zero resemblance to the actually observable interactions (much like what was seen earlier today tbh)

there's a large extent to which ilx has pressured many posters to tolerate all sorts of negative behaviours from the person in question across many identities and many changing ilx contexts over many years, and im very glad that the mods took the stance they did here, and that they continue to stand over it.

Trayce OTM. I suppose this post"mortem" has to happen, but maybe it doesn't?

I missed that Masonic Boom and Branwell were the same person.

As a mod here, this current conversation is also making me feel uncomfortable… for reasons Trayce and others have mentioned. There’s also a bunch of discrepancies about what happened and when, and some stuff being brought up I wasn’t aware of. I think a lot of people here are honestly expressing heavy and messy feelings and being fairly respectful to one another. So I don’t feel like locking / deleting / interfering unless people want me to … or unless shit gets shittier.

I get WmC’s point that this is kind of cut and dried but there are a few vocal and a few silent people who probably need reminded of the consensus, and also people like pontificating. Appreciate darragh’s pontificating at the moment.

Even as a ‘bystander’ who never interacted with any of this poster’s DN’s, this was unsettling and stressful to witness, as it was in 2021. It’s important to allow people to process and grieve, even though that’s also stressful, and I likewise appreciate dmcc’s pontificating, in particular the opening line.

Now to Kate’s point, when I see these kind of pathologies invoked against someone else, my instinct is to immediately turn them against myself. Am I a sociopath? Am I a narcissist? I even took a quiz on openpsychometrics.org this afternoon (I’m good, lol). But I also have that history, of being banished from a social circle I grew up in. My understanding had always been that it was more because I was considered a “bad influence” than abusive, but whatever. However you spin it, it amounts to pressuring people to tolerate my negative behaviors. I’ll never know exactly, and I’ll always wonder. I mean yeah, accept it and move on for sure, but it’s a pall over my life.

Just saying one of the reasons this sucks is that some of us, maybe a lot of us, get to be reminded yet again, and painfully, of all the ways we’ve let ourselves and others down.

I interacted with Etherwave, knew they were an old poster under a new name. The question was who. From the interaction in UK pol I thought there would be a 'long night ahead for all of us'. Just not a good vibe. The post where they talked about reading the archives and then deploying that was clear there was more than just an old poster. This was someone with various grudges. I guess I'd forgotten it was fairly easy to evade a ban?

To Trayce's point, when that poster was banned I remember a mod making a point to not discuss ppl who can't talked back which was respected. We ofc have had a long time poster given a permaban just a little while back, after a discussion between posters and mods, and not much at all has been said since so I feel this rule is understood in the community.

This time it was different.

Part of the reason it was different this time is bcz Suzy has pretty much chosen to argue with this ban by asking petty questions of the mods, and in doing so she happened to talk past the reasons for the original ban, going so far as degrading the reasoning behind it, and then inventing a bullshit story as to how this poster evaded the ban. We all ended up laughing about it. Poster wins has a new handle, but its pretty disgusting and I ended up giving her an FP.

Agree with Trayce.

I really dislike the forensic discussion of a person's mental status they can't be here to defend themselves on, fwiw. I don't think it's a good look. ILX does this a *lot* and it has always felt extremely ick.

I agree on the broader point but I also think that categorising the entire discussion thus far as such is misleading.

The compassionate thing with this poster is to keep them banned bc ilx was bad for them. Also to not talk about them bc they are reading all of this.

There was never anything to discuss, if we hadn’t had a day of timewasting nonsense we’d have all moved on by now

xp the compassionate thing to do here is to read what ppl who are still here are posting.

co-signing map and deems particularly

fwiw i'm not coming at this as a "post-mortem" or as any kind of critical interrogation of the mods' actions. they acted well, and they acted well under extremely difficult circumstances. in fact i'd like to actively praise the mods here for their handling of things, because i have some idea of how difficult it is when faced with situations like this. i also agree with xyzzz___'s post... this isn't about banned post, it's about us. because it is true that behavior like banned poster's takes a heavy toll on the communities where regulars engage in that behavior. i do think that banning them was an act of compassion - to _us_, not to _them_. they're an adult. ilx isn't acting in loco parentis here.

banned poster was on ILX for a very long time and affected many of us... while i didn't consider them a friend, they were in some sense a role model to me, which does make coming to terms with the shit they did difficult. particularly in terms of differentiating myself from them - i definitely relate a lot to deflatormouse's point. there's this constant question in my head of "god, am i like that?" nobody is truly like banned poster except banned poster, and while i can have empathy, i know it doesn't do me any favors to compare myself to them.

anyway, i'm glad to have had the space to kind of... talk with other people affected by banned poster's behavior about this. my intent isn't to negatively judge anybody else here.

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Wednesday, November 12, 2025 7:23 AM Site jennyTina has been banned permanently.

why aren't we helping jennyTina get her money back

jennyTina isn’t real

I never her

who did i invest all my money with then?

Wonder how she fooled the mods into letting her in?

bribed with guess papers

I appreciate jennyTina for going on her bombing run within seconds of her reg being approved, while I was still looking at the site, rather than waiting a few minutes.

xp buffy dvds

lol

There have been worse posters, tbf to her.

We need another Jay Batman

gone but not forgotten