best of the gzeus

I hope there's a ghettoAkihabara in heaven.

his myspace photos remind me of jay blanchard's.

"You probably don't remember, but ost places were either smoking all over or the smoking section was poorly divided."
Yeah, I remember, and whle some places were poorly set up, newer restaraunts were very different.

"You probably don't remember, but ost places were either smoking all over or the smoking section was poorly divided."
Yeah, I remember, and whle some places were poorly set up, newer restaraunts were very different.

That's how I talk.
Sudden volume changes and overdone emphasis.

>.<

good times

how did I miss out on this guy.

some guy I didn't even notice and HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE IN MY LIFE walks up to me and says, "Excuse me, sir, but I've been sitting here for the past 10 minutes trying to figure out how to tell you how you've been ruining my food in this fine establishment, but then I realised you have to live with yourself, so I'm gonna leave."

is killing me

I actually tried to spend about 10 mins backtracking from a DJP post I read in another thread about how this was one of the worst posters on ILX ever and trying to find some of the sources of ire and then I read

You're the only ONLY person who's ever made me angry enough that I wanted to use a racial slur just to make them feel bad.

jfc

I knew Gzeus personally. I've occasionally come to this thread over the years to remember just what the fuck.

She's out as trans now. I just came across something online talking about how after you transition, you still have a lot of work to do to unpack whatever issues you had before. Probably somewhat predictably, at least in the ~2016-2018 era that I followed her on Twitter, she was professing that it had solved all her problems, i.e. everyone that stressed her out was at fault for THAT reason now, and also that was why she was entirely blameless for stressing out the people she stressed out. e.g. a family member didn't IMMEDIATELY support her transition, so she said openly under her well-known username that this family member had a particular venereal disease and particular substance abuse issues. She said something about how she knew she was "really trans" because all her male RPG characters had been one-dimensional, might-makes-right assholes, psychologically in the same breath as when she was talking (again, openly under her well-known username) about how if she was doing sound at shows, if she felt an artist disrespected her, she'd make them sound good in the monitors and bad in the PA so that the audience would think they sucked and they wouldn't know why, which, y'know, it didn't make her "feel strong" to think about that was doing some part to ruin the audience's night and the reputation of the venue, so she just didn't--she was just being a one-dimensional, might-makes-right asshole. (NOTE: I'm not saying she's "not really trans"--I'm saying that particular aspect of her personality didn't indicate so at that particular time.)

She'd always done that kind of thing a lot. She likes to think of herself as very observant and good at pattern recognition, I think because times that's gone well for her stand out in her mind and she really likes to emphasize them psychologically, but she also thinks she's entirely free to arbitrarily, completely ignore all evidence to the contrary by everyone else, because it doesn't make her feel good. There's a book on my list I heard the author talk about on NPR, Strangers to Ourselves: Discovering the Adaptive Unconscious, where he said if everyone gives you different advice, you should probably stick to what you believe about yourself, but if the advice is pretty much unanimous, chances are other people see something about you that you don't. My point is Gzeus often complains about why EVERYONE treats her this way or that, and constantly does all kinds of mental gymnastics, convincing no one but herself, why everyone in the world is wrong except for her and, if she's feeling particularly expansive, whoever she arbitrarily decides to support, because it arbitrarily makes her feel strong (while simultaneously objectively weakening her, e.g. she was still BRAGGING about having very few followers as though that somehow "proves" she's in a rarefied air and not that she just doesn't have her thumb on the pulse of... anyone).

I could go on, but there are limits to taste and I don't want to get too personal.