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― Vic (Vic), Sunday, 9 February 2003 11:51 (twenty-two years ago)

'Coz I spilled coke all over my discman in the car at a redlight tonight, and now it isn't functioning properly

― Vic (Vic), Sunday, 9 February 2003 11:52 (twenty-two years ago)

[wankgothalert] I just want something I can never have [/wankgothalert]

Not that I'm really unhappy.

― Trayce (trayce), Sunday, 9 February 2003 12:00 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, actually, my job is boring but pretty bearable, my band(s) are going well for once and, erm, stuff is OK. What continues to make me unhappy and miserable and stroppy?

-lack of a romantic or sexual or snuggling partner. I know that I should be way over this, but still it makes me unhappy. I've stopped fixating on Hilton (except in a vague "oh, he's so talented and beautiful" sort of way) but I've not stopped being sad and lonely.

-fucking PATRONISTIC BULLSHIT TOKENISTIC CRAP articles about "Chixors in Roxor" in crap style magazines. The article (stuck right at the back of the "mens issue") was so shit and so dismissive and tokenistic that for once I was actually GLAD that my band were not in it.

― kate, Sunday, 9 February 2003 12:05 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh, threadkiller me...

― kate, Sunday, 9 February 2003 12:58 (twenty-two years ago)

it's my last day of holiday and i have this sinking empty feeling in my stomach.

― mitch lastnamewithheld (mitchlnw), Sunday, 9 February 2003 13:10 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm putting too many things off.

― jel -- (jel), Sunday, 9 February 2003 13:16 (twenty-two years ago)

Feeling a bit alone in the world and mentally beating myself up all the time.

― toraneko (toraneko), Sunday, 9 February 2003 13:26 (twenty-two years ago)

-lonely
-existence is meaningless
-massive famine I will probably die in 10-20 years from now makes looking towards the future pointless.

― fletrejet, Sunday, 9 February 2003 13:52 (twenty-two years ago)

Severe long-term clinical depression. Otherwise, things are pretty good.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Sunday, 9 February 2003 15:26 (twenty-two years ago)

1) It's fucking 2 degrees Farenheit out there
2) No soulseek
3) No cash whatsoever until Friday
4) Actually, that's about it

― Nate Patrin (Nate Patrin), Sunday, 9 February 2003 15:52 (twenty-two years ago)

Minnesota weather is not Minnesota weather without featuring a wind chill factor.

― suzy (suzy), Sunday, 9 February 2003 16:08 (twenty-two years ago)

Give me ONE fucking reason to be happy. I am serious.

― dave q, Sunday, 9 February 2003 16:17 (twenty-two years ago)

You are not the child of Michael Jackson

― Vic (Vic), Sunday, 9 February 2003 16:21 (twenty-two years ago)

You should be happy because JESUS ROCKS.

― Millar (Millar), Sunday, 9 February 2003 16:23 (twenty-two years ago)

Actually I'm just unhappy because I hate having a corporeal body, maybe MJ is onto something

― dave q, Sunday, 9 February 2003 16:26 (twenty-two years ago)

Also your body parts are not detachable, as his are

― Vic (Vic), Sunday, 9 February 2003 16:35 (twenty-two years ago)

I have little or no work coming up in the near future, so I don't have much of anything to distract me from my money worries. And it's just like dieting -- since I can't afford to spend money carelessly right now every distraction that springs to mind costs money. Go to a movie? There's nothing out that I want to see that I haven't seen already. Go out for a drink? That costs a lot more than having a drink at home. Go to a show? The bands I want to see won't hit DC for several weeks, and besides they're going to be charging $8-12 dollars at the door. I can cook perfectly well for myself at home, yet I crave Chinese food; and I know I don't need any new clothes yet I long to go shopping.

― j.lu (j.lu), Sunday, 9 February 2003 17:03 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, to just make me even MORE unhappy, I just got my first muso journo rejection note.

What sucks more is, I totally agree with it. The article took me months to write, I was never happy with it, and I thought the end result sucked. The moral of the story is, I suck at doing interviews. It's hard enough for me to interact with other musicians, let alone connect with them on any level. Plus, I get jealous of anything other musicians have accomplished that I haven't. And... well... most musicians are boring fucking cunts that put their passion into their music and don't really have anything interesting to say about it.

I just had a good cry and now I think I'm going to bed.

I prefer making music to writing about it, anyway. But I can't shake the feeling of misery and failure about sucking at something. OK, it's not something I ever *wanted* to be good at, but still. I hate feeling like I suck at something.

― kate, Sunday, 9 February 2003 19:01 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I'm damned near broke and i'd rather have lots and lots of goodies.
Because I have no idea what I am doing with my life over the long-term, nor why I would be doing it if I did know what it was.
Because being angsty is cooler than being bubbly. (uh-huh, be honest. you know that's the REAL reason that you're unhappy too)
Because i'm not sure why I get up in the morning, either.

On the plus side, the chances that nuclear war will soon put us all out of our misery suddenly and without any warning are increasing. Woohoo!

― -M, Sunday, 9 February 2003 23:43 (twenty-two years ago)

Peoples utter disrespect for the rest of civilisation.

PWEI is making me happy

― Fuzzy (Fuzzy), Sunday, 9 February 2003 23:51 (twenty-two years ago)

hmm,

1. i'm always broke and can't pay my bills despite working harder than i ever have in my life.

2. my job completely fucks my mind, kicks my ass and leaves me clueless in the middle of rush hour traffic.

3. if I don't stick w/above job I don't know what else I'll do

4. I really feel i have no reason to be happy, i don't think.

all that being said this is the first time in my life i've been single and pleased with it. Tonight i counted up 6 guys and chixors who want to date me and whom i've been shutting out. At first I felt bad about it: "I'd better go out with one of them before they all change their minds!" But then i realized I just don't care. I don't want to go out with anyone. that's amazing for me.

not happy. but not miserable.

― That Girl (thatgirl), Monday, 10 February 2003 06:07 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm extremely unhappy today. I tried to make amends with my ex-flatmate (and once very close friend) and instead got sarcasm and the cold shoulder, and had to accept the fact it seems he's just a complete crunt. I had a muddled prickly msn conversation with a close friend of mine who I work with. I have feelings for someone I can't figure out, and BLARGH everything feels breakable today. Oy.

That feels better to get it off my chest though!

― Trayce (trayce), Monday, 10 February 2003 06:10 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm not doing too bad lately. My mood's been pretty good compared to what it's been like these past couple years.

Still and all, there are the usual complaints -- not enough ____, not enough ____, too much time wasted doing ____ instead of ____. I'll live. I've managed so far.

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Monday, 10 February 2003 06:33 (twenty-two years ago)

It's Monday. I'm back at work. Blah.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Monday, 10 February 2003 15:12 (twenty-two years ago)

i'm sad because my best friend's gone and it's my fault that he left.

― Sad McGinty, Monday, 10 February 2003 15:36 (twenty-two years ago)

How so, Sad McGinty?

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Monday, 10 February 2003 15:37 (twenty-two years ago)

brought about the end of a long relationship by continually giving him shit. now he doesn't even want to talk to me. sucks when you've got to delete your best friend from your life. i don't want him gone. it makes me nauseous.

― Sad McGinty, Monday, 10 February 2003 15:52 (twenty-two years ago)

welcome to my world, i do that to all my friends. nice, aren't i?

― g-kit (g-kit), Monday, 10 February 2003 16:29 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I don't have agroup of friends to do things with and this seems to be key to everything ever in life ever ever ever(inc. meeting new people to be friends with).

― Graham (graham), Monday, 10 February 2003 16:43 (twenty-two years ago)

two weeks pass...

Because this bitch says to me when I get out of my car "Could you have parked any closer to me?" Excuse me?!! You're the one who's over the yellow line, leaving 5 feet of space on the other side of you but I'm the bad parker?! I spent a minute moving as close to the CONCRETE WALL on my other side as physically possible so FUCK YOU YUPPIE SOCCER MOM SCUM!!!

Of course, all I said to her was "No, no I couldn't"

― oops (Oops), Friday, 28 February 2003 18:58 (twenty-two years ago)

Let me guess, she was in a FUCKING MINIVAN.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 28 February 2003 19:08 (twenty-two years ago)

I think you should have said what you were thinking. Really. Morons like that usually only need to be put in their place a couple times before they stop acting that way. You should have yelled it and gotten all up in her face. She'd be traumatized for life.

― Mr. Diamond (diamond), Friday, 28 February 2003 19:08 (twenty-two years ago)

When I picked my wife up from work the other day, I had to stop in front of her building on the street for about 15 seconds while she got in. She was carrying a heavy box and it was cold and there was nowhere to park. A guy in an SUV who was waiting behind us pulled around to pass us, then as we caught up to him, honked then flipped us off. If I weren't such a calm guy I WOULD HAVE FOLLOWED HIM HOME AND KILLED HIM AND HIS WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY. I'm ok now, though.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 28 February 2003 19:12 (twenty-two years ago)

no, shockingly enough, she was in a Grand Prix-ish type car. Although daily I run into the same problem here at the garage where I work with SUV's--never had a face-to-face w/them, though. WTF is up w/people who back into a parking spot? Can someone explain this?

The one other thing I did say to her was "But it appears you have a lot of room" as I pointed to the other side of her car. She said "yeah, but it's not on my driver side. Well then maybe you should've parked w/that in mind.

― oops (Oops), Friday, 28 February 2003 19:12 (twenty-two years ago)

Sometimes road rage isn't just the fault of the angry person.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 28 February 2003 19:14 (twenty-two years ago)

The terrible thing was that I saw how she thought she was in the right. To her, some young punk who could've parked further away took the small spot she left and prevents her from getting into her car easily.
I've parked elsewhere many times but I was fed up w/people doing this. I could have bitched at her loudly and angrily, but then I'd have to simultaneously explain clearly and logically why she was an asshole. Her best defense would be to say that she was trying to leave room for the person next to her to be able to open their door. I would then say that these are small spots and she shouldn't leave 5 ft on one side of her.
This would require more serenity and lucidity than my pissed-off state allowed me.

― oops (Oops), Friday, 28 February 2003 19:24 (twenty-two years ago)

You did the right thing. Her head was obviously firmly embedded in her ass. Some people are too stupid to be believed.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 28 February 2003 19:34 (twenty-two years ago)

Because...

I have hardly any friends, and not a single one within 100 miles of where I live. And I don't know how to make friends... it seems to involve necessarily pretending to be in a good mood and selling yourself, and most of the time that idea is beyond me. Being a weirdo freak, that also means most people wouldn't want to know me anyway, even if I had a Winning Personality (tm).

Because I have piss-poor job prospects and don't even feel capable of working full-time (for reasons that are probably absurd).

Because I hate being a weirdo and hate what I see in the mirror and hate being such a miserable f*ck that has nothing to offer anyone. Because I'm a little past 30 and life ought to be at least partly 'together' at this point.

No social life. No money. Don't feel a part of anything, don't feel wanted. I used to dream of feeling loved, but honestly that's just an abstract concept nowadays. Right now, just being a bit less repellant to the human race would be better than nothing. Just feeling valid and worthwhile.

I expect even the little attention I get these days is mostly an act of sympathy for the wretch. It's not like I say anything interesting or positive 99% of the time.

Being a mere spectator observing the comings and goings of the human race gets really old eventually.

But then... trust. You know? There's also a point where you get shat upon once too often, so that even if you're not completely shunned, you no longer exactly trust anyone anymore. You might say the wrong thing, fail to make to right noises at least, and that's that.

I'm not inclined to talk about this stuff much openly. This thread was almost to good an invitation, but I'll shut up before it becomes a Thesis of Misery.

― ChristineSH, Friday, 28 February 2003 20:21 (twenty-two years ago)

Christine, Wanna play LITERATI with me? Huh huh?

― Sarah Mclusky (coco), Friday, 28 February 2003 20:22 (twenty-two years ago)

bc i'm alive

― Mary (Mary), Friday, 28 February 2003 20:28 (twenty-two years ago)

How does that work? Do I need a good connection? (I won't moan about my crappy connection...)

― ChristineSH, Friday, 28 February 2003 20:42 (twenty-two years ago)

(futile attempt to cheer up Christine)

http://www.nottinghamevents.org/goosefair/images/lollipop.jpg

― oops (Oops), Friday, 28 February 2003 20:44 (twenty-two years ago)

hang around here a bit more christine. this place can cheer you up I think.

I have got two on/off friends. absolutely no social life, no relationships and work is time consuming and tiring (though I enjoy it really).

mary- are you OK?

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Friday, 28 February 2003 20:46 (twenty-two years ago)

oh i'm fine just feel that the human condition is to be unhappy

― Mary (Mary), Friday, 28 February 2003 20:58 (twenty-two years ago)

Cheer up Mary! And Christine of course!

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Friday, 28 February 2003 21:16 (twenty-two years ago)

ah.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Friday, 28 February 2003 21:18 (twenty-two years ago)

I am a cheery existentialist.

― Mary (Mary), Friday, 28 February 2003 21:31 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I don't know if I've been accepted to grad school yet and if I don't I have no good ideas about what to with myself. For the rest of my life, as in. And I'm not so sure about school to begin with.

― g.cannon (gcannon), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:03 (twenty-two years ago)

I don't know if it's good or disturbing to see people saying vaguely similar things to me. I feel a bit less unique. I suppose that's good.

I'm surely the OLDEST no-lifer on here, though...

(Cue a de-lurking 87-year-old yelling, 'NOBODY LOVES ME!')

― ChristineSH, Friday, 28 February 2003 22:07 (twenty-two years ago)

My monitor speakers that I ordered on the 9th have not shown up yet, making me think that they have become lost in the mail somewhere never to be seen. I am looking forward to another Friday night spent at home more or less alone.

― Millar (Millar), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:10 (twenty-two years ago)

Can I try for a record here? Oh, go on, maybe I'll get a prize or something. I never win anything.

I saw a couple of friends in London a couple of weeks ago. It was the first time I had done anything that even slightly resembled socialising for 12 months!

And so it goes...

― ChristineSH, Friday, 28 February 2003 22:13 (twenty-two years ago)

i'm unhappy because i felt really proud and special over this scholarship i got, all the college promotion material said it was the highest one they had, and then one of my best friends told me they gave her that PLUS $25,000. not need-based, as her family makes a ton of money...nope. it's that they really want her because she's smart and wonderful. so already i'm BACK to feeling inferior to her like i do ALL the TIME.

this is childish and stupid, i'm doing pretty well so i shouldn't care if i do worse than one person, and i KNOW that. i wouldn't dare rant about that to my friends, it'd be horrible, but no one on ile really cares. (i'm hoping liz doesn't care either.)

― Maria (Maria), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:20 (twenty-two years ago)

Because my new boots are pinching my feet.

oops: The etiquette in this situation is for your to key her car.
Mary: So then are you ready for D'Mode?

I am still drunk from last night and keep forgetting what I am doing.

― felicity (felicity), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:32 (twenty-two years ago)

I mean it. Go back and key her car, like my friend did when some Main Line bitch stole her parking spot. Just don't get caught.

― felicity (felicity), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:34 (twenty-two years ago)

felicity: OTMFM

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:36 (twenty-two years ago)

Yes happy existentialism = DM time.

― Mary (Mary), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:37 (twenty-two years ago)

but will any KMFDM be played;)

― gareth (gareth), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:50 (twenty-two years ago)

Maria: we do care, honestly. But you can't afford to get upset because someone does better. There's always a faster gun somewhere, but you have clearly done outstandingly well by any sane standards, so I hope you can get happy about that.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:51 (twenty-two years ago)

Martin is very wise.

― felicity (felicity), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:54 (twenty-two years ago)

many reasons, all of which you know

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 28 February 2003 22:56 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm unhappy tonight and I don't know why. I've been to two concerts in a row over the past two nights that I just couldn't enjoy. I'm unhappy because I thought I had rediscovered my love of music and sheer joy of existence, but oh no, it was just another false alarm. Things have gone back to being boring with a capital BLAH and it feels like the whole world is out having fun and socialising and being with my friends and I don't want to see anyone. I don't even really want to see that boy who doesn't want to see me. I realised today that I'm just bored with the situation. I was halfway through an email to him and realised that I was bored with it. I got what I wanted and it wasn't enough. It's not painful, perhaps the problem is that it's not painful enough. It used to feel like nonstop drama and excitement and rush and now I'm just bored.

I'm bored bored bored. I'm de-sensitised and deadened and depressed and I'm BORED.

:-(

― kate, Friday, 28 February 2003 23:00 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm feeling really sympathetic to everyone tonight. I wish I could make you all feel loads better, but obviously I have no idea how. I hope it helps to know that someone cares, at least, and that's true for the people here I know pretty well and those I barely know at all.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Friday, 28 February 2003 23:06 (twenty-two years ago)

i know, i'm reading this thread and wanting to give everyone a hug. so...yeah, what martin said.

― JuliaA (j_bdules), Friday, 28 February 2003 23:10 (twenty-two years ago)

I don't feel very well, either, and that doesn't help. I went out to dinner to the cult Thai food place on Leather Lane, ate waaaayyyy too much and now I feel very sick and slightly dizzy and I've got a massive case of the farts. Ugh. I should just go to bed, but I've got that "it's Friday night, I should do *something*" feeling.

I do wish that boy were here after all. Even if we'd only pick a fight with each other. I just want to be holding someone. I want to pick a fight with him so maybe I should just avoid him. :-(

― kate, Friday, 28 February 2003 23:19 (twenty-two years ago)

I finished the rough draft of a novel a week ago. It's my second, but the first was written for Nanowrimo, and so was very short and rushed. This one clocks in at about 100K words (200-something typed pages, single-spaced), with another 15-30K expected in revision. I wrapped up all my plot threads, resolved things in a way that satisfied all my beta-readers, set out what I wanted to do with the thing ...

... and have been deep in what I keep calling post-partum depression ever since. Everything I write for other things seems like crap now. I'm 12K words into novel #3 (which was brainstormed/etc. during a break towards the end of #2), and everything about it just highlights what works in #2, and makes me feel like I lucked out and happened upon a story that would write itself. Of course I know that's bullshit, but it's like after a messy breakup: you may know the "no one will ever love me again" bit is bullshit, but you don't stop feeling it.

This is a silly thing to be sad about. If the posters to this thread were in a misery race, I'd get the "thanks for participating" pat on the back, not the gold medal :) But still, there you go, it's got me way down. I keep trying to read, but nothing engages me; I've watched some movies, but my attention tends to wander. It's Mardi Gras weekend, and the very last thing I want to do is go out and be part of any of that (luckily I've done lots of MG before, so it's no big deal to skip it) -- like that Atlantic article pointed out, as an introvert, dealing with huge drunk crowds and semisocial situations just drains me further.

Thinking about walking down to Blockbuster and renting movies, but I did that Wednesday so I've already seen this week's new releases that'd topped my list (Road to Perdition, Knockaround Guys).

Bah.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 28 February 2003 23:40 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm upset because my car is back in the shop - again. And, once we did the math, it now looks like I am spending $350.00 per month on repairs alone. And I can't qualify for a car loan because we just took one out for Glenn's new Honda Insight and David will need a new car more than I'll need one in six months, so the money should be put toward his new vehicle. Sheesh.

And because the damn touch pad on this Vaio has a delightful little glitch in thatif you accidentally (or intentionally, for that matter) touch the upper right quadrant of the blood thing, all of the windows close and you get a blue screen of death. ARRGGH!

And because this new treatment makes me feel sicker rather than better, though apparently in thelong run I will feel better (and won't die, so that's good, too). But I am feeling icky and fluish and can't be hugged.

BUT I am alive, and the world is good an my animals love me and glenn and david love me and I have an armadillo in my front yard and a family of bunnies in the back yard and there've been thunderstorms all day so I've slept well. And, really, I can't stay too mad at a world that gives us rainbows and chocolate and orgasms - I think they outweigh the ucky.

― I'm Passing Open Windows (Ms Laura), Saturday, 1 March 2003 03:30 (twenty-two years ago)

There's now two threads goin' about why I'm so unhappy, so I'll resist the urge to further flog said horse here.

― Alex in NYC (vassifer), Saturday, 1 March 2003 03:33 (twenty-two years ago)

at least you dont have 23 mosquito bites on your left foot!

― phil-two (phil-two), Saturday, 1 March 2003 04:56 (twenty-two years ago)

they itch!

― phil-two (phil-two), Saturday, 1 March 2003 04:57 (twenty-two years ago)

true. my condolences. soak it...it'll feel better.

― Alex in NYC (vassifer), Saturday, 1 March 2003 04:59 (twenty-two years ago)

because i'm here and my girlfriend is out at a party elsewhere.

― Sterling Clover (s_clover), Saturday, 1 March 2003 05:02 (twenty-two years ago)

Spray Windex or rub ammonia on mosquito bites. It makes the itching stop if you do it right away.

Spray WIndex or rub ammonia on the girlfriend to keep her at home.

― felicity (felicity), Saturday, 1 March 2003 05:04 (twenty-two years ago)

haha i'll try that.

― Sterling Clover (s_clover), Saturday, 1 March 2003 05:18 (twenty-two years ago)

Because in the past couple of months (ah shit, here we go)...

An eight-year long relationship went straight to capital-H Hell (kinda touch on it in the Hell Is Other People At Breakfast - Caring For Your Introvert thread).

My sort-of brother-in-law (long story) is being treated for stage 4 melanoma which he only just discovered over New Years. Kinda doing OK now, but it's still early to see how the heavy treatments are doing. He has good days and not so good days.

Party due from the stress from #1 and #2, I made a total ass of myself in front of a friend. Cue feelings of guilt, etc.

Party due from the stress from #1, #2, and #3 I've been completely insomniac - getting maybe 2-3 hours of sleep a night.

Work is hellaciously busy right now - there's a large database I'm working on which eats my brain faster than a George Romero zombie. People come by my office door wondering when the changes are going to be done. Takes me two hours of staring at the screen to figure out where the hell I am and then another hour just to write a script step. Blame #1, #2, #3, and #4.

Having said that, this week was actually pretty good!

― Chris Barrus (xibalba), Saturday, 1 March 2003 06:04 (twenty-two years ago)

this thing

― That Girl (thatgirl), Saturday, 1 March 2003 09:22 (twenty-two years ago)

because i am drunk and boring and stupid.

― di smith (lucylurex), Saturday, 1 March 2003 10:34 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I put my profile on a dating site and now I have to talk to wome to whom I have nothing to say.

― Jan Geerinck (jahsonic), Saturday, 1 March 2003 11:26 (twenty-two years ago)

Because my innate paranoia has ruined another potentially wonderful relationship with a beautiful, highly intelligent, witty young lady.

Because I've finally started thinning on top.

Because I'd love to go to New Zealand but am terrified that I'll have a panic attack on the plane.

Because I still haven't created an indisputably beautiful work of art.

Because I'm worried that I really am going mad.

― chris sallis, Saturday, 1 March 2003 12:41 (twenty-two years ago)

*i can't find the time to play my guitar and forgot how to tune it
*the first and the last lins of chriss' post go the same with me
*i'm a manic depressant (ignor this line pls)
*oh, and there's never anything to watch on the tele

― rex jr., Saturday, 1 March 2003 12:59 (twenty-two years ago)

'there ain't no life nowhere'

― dave q, Saturday, 1 March 2003 13:19 (twenty-two years ago)

this message is for ChristineSH. i can tell u and everyone else exactlly why your unhappy. if u remember about 8 months ago we used to be best mates but then how can u forget. u were 16 i was 17. in the 3 months we were best mates u slept with about 30 different men not to forget your famous 9some you and 8 men at the same time not even porn stars go that far then there was the 30 year old lady at our work and her boyfriend you had a threesome with. oh and lets not forget my boyfriend you had aswell and my boyfriend you had after that one. believe me chrissy i will get u back for everything you done to me and you wont want to step foor in this town again.!

― Gem Moore, Saturday, 1 March 2003 14:37 (twenty-two years ago)

this makes things v interesting.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Saturday, 1 March 2003 14:38 (twenty-two years ago)

Considering ChristineSH sez she's older than most of the board members here, it does indeed.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Saturday, 1 March 2003 14:59 (twenty-two years ago)

belive me shes now 17 and her names christina stevie hammond and shes a class A S**t

― gem moore, Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:07 (twenty-two years ago)

a shit! oh not!! you called here a shit!!!

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:09 (twenty-two years ago)

SLUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

― gem moore, Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:13 (twenty-two years ago)

ah yes. class A shit doesn't work. after, what would class B shit be like.

how would you rank 'em.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:17 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, this is either a joke or a case of mistaken identity.

I'm 34 years old and I live in Central England. And suddenly I'm wishing my life was anything like as interesting as this other person... :)

― ChristineSH, Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:18 (twenty-two years ago)

Christine, just admit it, you have a SECRET IDENTITY. Oh, and I don't think I said hi or anything before. Hi there!

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:19 (twenty-two years ago)

is this the first ILX case of 'mistaken identity'?

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:21 (twenty-two years ago)

Yes Ned, in the evenings she's a 17 year old.

(Christine, are you Rebecca of the future?)

― Graham (graham), Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:25 (twenty-two years ago)

if i have mistaken your identity then im really sorry but while i was reading through your messages you sound alot like her and have the sae initials but if you are who i think you are i mean what i said in my first message

― gem moore (gem moore), Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:26 (twenty-two years ago)

Hi. You know, hell, I sure *wish* I was 17 years old and having sex all over the place! That's all I'm saying.

(Then again, even being 34 and having sex once in a blue moon would be sort of okay...)

― ChristineSH, Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:32 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, I can't provide fingerprints or DNA samples or anything. But the last time I was 17 was in 1986. That's a long time ago. I mean, Bon Jovi were in the charts...

― ChristineSH, Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:34 (twenty-two years ago)

As someone who has known Christine for some time, I can confirm that she is 34 and from the West Midlands. I had already concluded that I don't like Gem, nor believe in her really, before reaching this thread. Who jumps to conclusions based on the same first name and initials?

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Saturday, 1 March 2003 15:34 (twenty-two years ago)

good that this is cleared up.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Saturday, 1 March 2003 16:07 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm unhappy because of a severe case of disillusionment. Because I built someone a pedastal so tall that I couldn't help but knock them off it. Because I thought I'd met a kindred spirit with unconventionality and creativity and quest for adventure equal to my own, and he turned out to be ordinary and and conventional and boring with a capital blah. Because I ate dodgy Thai food last night and my stomach still hasn't settled down. Because I went to get a haircut this morning to cheer me up and be pampered and I hate it already.

― kate, Saturday, 1 March 2003 17:35 (twenty-two years ago)

Have to echo Kate a bit here. Thinking I'd met a kindred spirit with the same unconventionality and creativity equal to my own and then the slow dawning realisation that having things in common, even having a remarkable degree of things in common apparently isn't enough.

― Nathan Webb (Nathan Webb), Saturday, 1 March 2003 21:46 (twenty-two years ago)

yeah i get that all the time too. but i think its quite arrogant on my part, to think "oh i thought so and so was just like me = DIFFERENT, but really they aren't." i mean i'm just in denial about all the things that make me simialr to everybody else.

― di smith (lucylurex), Saturday, 1 March 2003 22:46 (twenty-two years ago)

I could say I've only had one relationship in my entire life, but that would be seriously uncool wouldn't it? Especially since it was an awfully horrible, desperate six months for me.

Anyway, this relationship (one of many really, honest, I'm not a total saddo or anything)... basically we had nothing in common whatsoever. But it was still crap. I only got into it because I was so wanting to be involved with someone, however wrong I might have known it really was.

God, I'm too boring and serious!

― ChristineSH, Saturday, 1 March 2003 22:48 (twenty-two years ago)

Di, It would be hard to deny there's probably an element of that going. She's a recent but good friend and I don't think any less of her for not wanting to date me. I suppose I'm a bit crestfallen that things haven't developed beyond that tentative romantic stage. Again. Still, it must be worthwhile cultivating potential lovers and ending up with really good friendships, even if you do get caught in a holding pattern of attenuated longing.

― Nathan Webb (Nathan Webb), Sunday, 2 March 2003 11:26 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm still unhappy about my new haircut. I washed the wax out of it so it's no longer STRAIGHTENED but whenever I get a new haircut, it frizzes out in protest the next day. So now I've got a yellow poofball on the top of my head and I feel like Julian Cope. Ha ha ha hah!

― kate, Sunday, 2 March 2003 11:30 (twenty-two years ago)

''I could say I've only had one relationship in my entire life, but that would be seriously uncool wouldn't it?''

heh...that's one more than me!

anyway: I'm feeling a bit low because I'm coming down with a cold. Just when I was starting to think i had got away with it.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Sunday, 2 March 2003 14:25 (twenty-two years ago)

One more, huh? Do you want to swap? I think you'd be suddenly glad to have not spent six months with the creature I'm talking about. :)

(I'll spare you the story about melting candle wax...)

― ChristineSH, Sunday, 2 March 2003 14:56 (twenty-two years ago)

yeah, no relationship is better in this case.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Sunday, 2 March 2003 15:13 (twenty-two years ago)

This makes me try to think of good points...

It is nice to have someone to go out to dinner with. Unfortunately, when they're apt to make loud, attention-drawing comments, that's a bit less good.

It is nice to be in someone's strong arms. But it's less nice when they treat you like a mother, stick their head in your lap and mumble like a baby. (Maybe the 12-year age gap was a bad thing.)

It is nice to have someone say 'I love you' a lot. But when they don't really mean it and cheat on you, well...

I think the nice things were false nice things; it was just about being wanted... which isn't enough. I hope I find something better before I'm pricing up Zimmer frames. :) (That's about two months from now, BTW.)

― ChristineSH, Sunday, 2 March 2003 15:32 (twenty-two years ago)

''I think the nice things were false nice things; it was just about being wanted... which isn't enough. I hope I find something better before I'm pricing up Zimmer frames.''

wish you luck :)

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Sunday, 2 March 2003 20:16 (twenty-two years ago)

I never got the ILX comp. :(

― Sarah Hotnights (coco), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 17:07 (twenty-two years ago)

It is nice to have someone to go out to dinner with. Unfortunately, when they're apt to make loud, attention-drawing comments, that's a bit less good.
It is nice to be in someone's strong arms. But it's less nice when they treat you like a mother, stick their head in your lap and mumble like a baby. (Maybe the 12-year age gap was a bad thing.)

It is nice to have someone say 'I love you' a lot. But when they don't really mean it and cheat on you, well...

jaysus, christine, are you sure you don't live in dublin? this sounds very like someone i went out with once ...

― rener (rener), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 17:30 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I can't afford pretty shoes and boots and dresses and each time Felicity* posts about her fun wardrobe I resent the fact that I wear the same old BORING CRAP ALL THE TIME!! And my hair is rubbish and I seem to have been particularly *broken* recently...

But at least I can go home and eat

TACOS!

*not picking on you specifically dear but you seem to have great clothes all the time!

― Sarah (starry), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 17:38 (twenty-two years ago)

I don't live in Dublin, although, oddly enough, I did know someone who comes from Ireland who went out with the same person I'm referring to... they had a terrible time of it too.

Best I can do is being half Irish, anyway. :)

― ChristineSH, Tuesday, 4 March 2003 17:46 (twenty-two years ago)

Dear Sarah Hotnights,

I shall send you another copy then.

― jel -- (jel), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 17:51 (twenty-two years ago)

'cause I have a really big crush and I'm not sure whether it's unrequited or not.

― hstencil, Tuesday, 4 March 2003 17:59 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh dear, Sarah, I understand. I didn't buy clothes for a year while I was unemployed but I would trade places with you to be carefree and 21 again!

― felicity (felicity), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 18:31 (twenty-two years ago)

I am sad beacuse I was looking forawrd to picking up my computer today. But instead I got a phone call from the boy who was going to drive me saying "I have bad news, worse news, and sort of good news," and the goodish news was "I'm not in jail."

And the place where I was going to apply for a dumb job doesn't seem to have the "Now Hiring" sign anymore.

― rosemary (rosemary), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 20:18 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I have a date tonight and I'm SICK. Ugh.

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 20:22 (twenty-two years ago)

Does that make you unhappy, JBR, or just sniffly? Surely you can still have a good time, just with lots of Kleenex?

― hstencil, Tuesday, 4 March 2003 20:32 (twenty-two years ago)

It makes me unhappy because I'll spend the date being pasty-faced and grouchy and I fear he won't get to see my sparkling personality and rapier wit.

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 20:54 (twenty-two years ago)

And while you're getting dressed up to go out, you should listen to Kleenex too.

― Sarah McLusky-Hotnights (coco), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 20:56 (twenty-two years ago)

Thanks, Jel.

― Sarah McL-Hot (coco), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 20:56 (twenty-two years ago)

Ah but JBR your sparkling personality and rapier wit always shines through!

― hstencil, Tuesday, 4 March 2003 21:00 (twenty-two years ago)

you're too kind

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 21:23 (twenty-two years ago)

Because my brain isn't producing as much seratonin as it's supposed to.

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 21:30 (twenty-two years ago)

because ILX has forgotten about me:.(

― Spencer Chow (spencermfi), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 21:33 (twenty-two years ago)

naw if anything JBR I'm not kind enough.

― hstencil, Tuesday, 4 March 2003 21:38 (twenty-two years ago)

1. Alienated a good friend through petty suspicion and envy/jealousy.
2. Sold on ebay my mp3 player + memory card for $55 when it retails for $150.
3. GOD DAMN FECKING STANFURD REJECTS ME AGAIN

― Leee (Leee), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 21:47 (twenty-two years ago)

What kind of trash you be talking Spencer?

― Mary (Mary), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 21:50 (twenty-two years ago)

Spencer's breakfast with John MacLughlin joke was hilarious!

― felicity (felicity), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 21:52 (twenty-two years ago)

hint: THREE-OH

― Spencer Chow (spencermfi), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 22:00 (twenty-two years ago)

is it your birthday spencer chow?

― Mary (Mary), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 22:08 (twenty-two years ago)

as my (Williams) ex put it on the phone this morning, I've entered my fourth decade...

― Spencer Chow (spencermfi), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 22:19 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, the thread is up, and I duly chastise myself for not starting one, and I told myself to! My apologies, Spencer. Yer a prince and a half. :-)

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 23:08 (twenty-two years ago)

Now I'm un-unhappy!

― Spencer Chow (spencermfi), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 23:09 (twenty-two years ago)

JBR, how about a Cyrano-like scenario where another ILXor pumps witty repartee into your ear via a tiny headpiece?

― Amateurist (amateurist), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 23:12 (twenty-two years ago)

This is a post to preempt Dan's inevitable commentary.

― Amateurist (amateurist), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 23:12 (twenty-two years ago)

Wise. JBR, you'll do fine. Just take some heavy strength sinus medicine or go somewhere where both of you have spicy food and so you'll both be sneezing.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 23:13 (twenty-two years ago)

JBR, actually the spicy food may clear your sinuses. while doctors may advise water, be sure to drink plenty of booze, you'll forget that you're sick until tomorrow morning, at which point the hangover will make you forget that you're sick again. All of this will catch up with you or extend your illness, but at least you'll have fun on your date.

also, is this a nerve-y date?

― Spencer Chow (spencermfi), Tuesday, 4 March 2003 23:57 (twenty-two years ago)

No food. Haven't eaten in two days. I'm hoping my loss of appetite will help me lose five pounds.

(Yes, it's a Nerve date.)

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Wednesday, 5 March 2003 00:02 (twenty-two years ago)

JBR, how about a Cyrano-like scenario where another ILXor pumps witty repartee into your ear via a tiny headpiece?

Are you volunteering?

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Wednesday, 5 March 2003 00:04 (twenty-two years ago)

I am pissy, is that similar to unhappy? I'm annoyed with myself. I CAN'T HAVE HIM, HE'S MARRIED, AND MAKING A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF TEN TIMES OVER WILL DO NO GOOD. But I had fun at soccer!

― Ally (mlescaut), Wednesday, 5 March 2003 06:37 (twenty-two years ago)

(you should pit brother against brother)

― boxcubed (boxcubed), Wednesday, 5 March 2003 06:46 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh dear.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Wednesday, 5 March 2003 21:55 (twenty-two years ago)

one month passes...

I am feeling a bit low today. I had some rough spots this weekend, namely a bad show last night. I got home at a quarter til 1 which isn't that bad, but then I was too upset to sleep so I didn't drift off until around 3:30am. And now it's Monday. Crazy work day on 3 hours of sleep. If that. Bah.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Monday, 14 April 2003 14:10 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I hate my job, I've been kicked out by my lady, and I'm broke.

― Horace Mann (Horace Mann), Monday, 14 April 2003 14:14 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm sick of my job.
I organized and played a shitty show last night.
I have to pay $975 to get my car fixed.
I'm really really tired.

― Nick A. (Nick A.), Monday, 14 April 2003 15:35 (twenty-two years ago)

Don't get me started.

― Bryan (Bryan), Monday, 14 April 2003 16:04 (twenty-two years ago)

1) couldn't get to sleep last night coz a bloody helicopter kept circling over my neighbourhood.
2) work is boring
3) i'm hungry
4) i feel old for the first time in my life

― jel -- (jel), Thursday, 24 April 2003 16:41 (twenty-two years ago)

It's spring, which means my writing attention span is scattered; I tinker with novel X for a bit, write short story Y, tinker with novel Z, instead of being able to focus on one thing at a time and just get it done. This always makes me worry things will go unfinished, cause I'll lose my groove. (But see companion thread.)

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 16:48 (twenty-two years ago)

Too depressing to talk about. I'd be ranting for pages.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Thursday, 24 April 2003 19:48 (twenty-two years ago)

i am a moron.
i walked out of my SF exam with 1.5/3 done, and no questions done well. i just didnt know.
i am feeling so depressed right now.

― anthony easton (anthony), Thursday, 24 April 2003 20:38 (twenty-two years ago)

in 5 years, you won't even remember it. (not very helpful, am I)

― buttch (Oops), Thursday, 24 April 2003 20:40 (twenty-two years ago)

I've been nominated the bathroom monitor at work, apparentfuckingly.

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 24 April 2003 20:42 (twenty-two years ago)

What are you qualifications? How do you plan to eradicate period jokes?

― buttch (Oops), Thursday, 24 April 2003 20:44 (twenty-two years ago)

I've been nominated the bathroom monitor at work, apparentfuckingly.

You can borrow my trenchcoat.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 20:54 (twenty-two years ago)

Take the hose.

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 21:00 (twenty-two years ago)

Hey, I might want to keep the hose.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 22:48 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh, give her the hose.

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 22:50 (twenty-two years ago)

She can't have my hose!

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 22:54 (twenty-two years ago)

This is such bullshit. I cannot be expected to babysit the feminine hygenie behaviors of adult women, all of which are older than me. Fuck this job and fuck these people.

AND WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I HAVE THE HOSE?

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 24 April 2003 22:54 (twenty-two years ago)

You're being awfully selfish with your hose, you know.

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 22:55 (twenty-two years ago)

It's my hose, dammit. Keeping my hose is a default condition. I don't need to explain my reasons for not giving away my hose all willy-nilly.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 22:57 (twenty-two years ago)

Tep, did you hear what I said I'm being forced to do? Monitor the tampon/pad disposal of women who are nearly twice my age. How can you NOT give me the hose?

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 24 April 2003 22:59 (twenty-two years ago)

I'll get you a hose, Ally

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:00 (twenty-two years ago)

Where da hose at?

― buttch (Oops), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:02 (twenty-two years ago)

We're turning into a thread hijacking posse.

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:03 (twenty-two years ago)

How can you NOT give me the hose?

Well I mean, if you ASKED for it or something, but I'm not gonna be all, "Yeah, take my hose, I don't care if I see it again, sayonara hose" just on luna's say-so.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:03 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh. See, I thought you had something against me or something.

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:03 (twenty-two years ago)

I would never ask you to give up a hose without a good reason, Tep

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:04 (twenty-two years ago)

No apparently he has something against me

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:04 (twenty-two years ago)

Hose-hijacking posse's more like it.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:05 (twenty-two years ago)

I have nothing against EITHER of you, least of all my hose.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:06 (twenty-two years ago)

Ally, this is an outrage (not to mention more than a little disgusting) - I say post a sign and be done with it.

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:07 (twenty-two years ago)

What luna said. Also, you can still have the trenchcoat.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:14 (twenty-two years ago)

And a hose.

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:16 (twenty-two years ago)

"A" hose, maybe. Don't go offering MY hose again.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:18 (twenty-two years ago)

I never offered yours to begin with really I said "take THE hose" not "take Tep's hose." It was only when you started to be hose-stingy that I cruelly tried to finagle it away from you.

(Not very well, I might add).

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:55 (twenty-two years ago)

I hear somebody talking about a hose, I just assume it's my hose under discussion.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:58 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, I now know where you stand re: your hose, and promise faithfully never again to let it's name cross my lips. Er, fingers.

What I mean to say is you can keep your stinky old hose anyway.

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 24 April 2003 23:59 (twenty-two years ago)

Who told you my hose's name?

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 25 April 2003 00:04 (twenty-two years ago)

I plead the fifth.

― luna (luna.c), Friday, 25 April 2003 00:05 (twenty-two years ago)

I initially read that as "I plead the filth". Damnit, where's Dan...

― Chris Barrus (Chris Barrus), Friday, 25 April 2003 01:28 (twenty-two years ago)

My hose is pristine.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 25 April 2003 01:29 (twenty-two years ago)

Do you disinfect it daily?

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 25 April 2003 01:32 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh, yow, the image I just got. Not that the hose we're talking about is necessarily .. what's in the image, but yow all the same.

... carry on.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 25 April 2003 01:35 (twenty-two years ago)

I initially read that as "I plead the filth". Damnit, where's Dan...

If Dan were ever to write an autobiography, that's what it should be named.

― Nicole (Nicole), Friday, 25 April 2003 01:36 (twenty-two years ago)

I am here for you, Tep. (I will read that novel too, promise!)

Nicole ist un genius. :-)

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 25 April 2003 01:36 (twenty-two years ago)

(I will read that novel too, promise!)

No rush, no rush, especially since you're being all feedbacky :) I'll probably end up writing my fairy tale thingie and/or fantasy thingie before revising the novel, so it's all good.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 25 April 2003 01:38 (twenty-two years ago)

I plead the filth.

― luna (luna.c), Sunday, 27 April 2003 04:13 (twenty-two years ago)

I have to go back to school Monday. So I have to do a lot of homework tomorrow. Grr.

― Maria (Maria), Sunday, 27 April 2003 04:21 (twenty-two years ago)

because I'm lost in a little random moment that I shouldn't even be wrapping my brain around.

I need another shot!

― luna (luna.c), Sunday, 27 April 2003 04:30 (twenty-two years ago)

sad about my life, my health, though i'm doign everything that's in my control to improve things. i feel like i'm just waiting for change and feel so desperate sometimes. things have to change. they just have to.

i don't want to be the sort of person where people look at me and shake their heads and say things like "what a waste", "and she's so young"..."she would have so much potential", etc. etc.

and insomnia, exacerbated greatly by the above.

― JuliaA (j_bdules), Sunday, 27 April 2003 05:48 (twenty-two years ago)

no reason, what are you fucking looking at

― duane, Sunday, 27 April 2003 06:56 (twenty-two years ago)

i can't find my guitar strap. i am really tired. i don't know if my friends are okay and i really need to know how they are and i wish i could be in the same city as them to just give them some support instead of occasionally being able to type a few sentences which probably mean fuckall cos i'm not there to back them up.

― di smith (lucylurex), Sunday, 27 April 2003 07:22 (twenty-two years ago)

lonely. watch has stopped. on the plus side I am looking for the plus side.

― Ronan (Ronan), Sunday, 27 April 2003 13:42 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm unhappy coz Kate's unhappy.

― Calum, Sunday, 27 April 2003 14:30 (twenty-two years ago)

wait a sec...go back to this BATHROOM MONITOR issue.

Ally ...

This is preposterous. Where do you work? Have you contacted the AFL-CIO? Are you a custodian? Then maybe it IS in your job description, but other than that, it's ridiculous and I can't imagine if you threaten legal action they won't back down. The manager should do it his/herself. If the management is so distraught from plugged up toilets, how about putting a lock and key on the room and making people sign out for the key so they can narrow down the culprit? Do they provide sanitary little baggies and a closed trash can for you all so people don't just drop em in the toilet?

And honey, women twice your age aren't any stinkier than you unless they ain't bathing regularly...

...oh, wait, maybe you weren't referring to hygiene....maybe you just meant they should be TWICE AS MATURE and not PLUG UP THE FREAKING TOILETS MAKING LIFE MISERABLE FOR OTHERS!!!!!

am I bad?

― BurmaKitty (BurmaKitty), Sunday, 27 April 2003 15:27 (twenty-two years ago)

My job is the source of most of my unhappiness these days (since my love life is going okay for a change). Even aside from the fact that I hate my job, my schedule has gotten worse over the past couple years, making it difficult for me to take any type of dance class during the week, since I never know for sure when my late night is going to be (and I can't really afford to miss a class, since this is intermediate level stuff and the teacher moves pretty quickly). Despite my deep dissatisfaction with my job, I can't come up with any alternatives that seem better to me.

At the moment, I am dealing with allergy-related sinus problems.

― Rockist Scientist, Sunday, 27 April 2003 17:56 (twenty-two years ago)

hope you get better soon rockist and hit that dance floor.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Sunday, 27 April 2003 18:18 (twenty-two years ago)

my hard disk just died.
but then my friends came
we ate pancakes and ice-cream
cause it was my birthday.
but I feel sad abt the
things I lost now because
I'd not saved anything.
I really miss my emails
from certain people and
pictures.

I got four little fishes
for my birthday. I'm
gonna name them after
members of KRAFTWERK:

Hutter, Schneider, Bartos and Flur.

― erik, Sunday, 27 April 2003 21:59 (twenty-two years ago)

that hose stuff cheered me up . i aren't unhappy.

― gaz (gaz), Sunday, 27 April 2003 22:16 (twenty-two years ago)

the Yeah, take my hose, I don't care if I see it again, sayonara hose" gets me every time

― luna (luna.c), Sunday, 27 April 2003 22:18 (twenty-two years ago)

i am in a good mood. i type this here so that tomorrow when i'm in a bad mood it will put me in a worse mood.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Sunday, 27 April 2003 22:20 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I can't afford a Canon GL1. And the costs for a Super 8 or 16mm camera are decent, but the film, processing and editing costs are just fucking insane.

― miloauckerman (miloauckerman), Monday, 28 April 2003 01:30 (twenty-two years ago)

(Actually though, I consider myself more happy than un- these days, despite my job.)

― Rockist Scientist, Monday, 28 April 2003 02:01 (twenty-two years ago)

Cause I ran a "clean up unneeded files" program and promptly lost all my Internet Explorer bookmarks. All 8000+ of them, accumulated since whenever the first version of Netscape came out, with over five hundred of them devoted to novel-research-related minutiae.

I blame clowns.

― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 02:31 (twenty-two years ago)

Unexpectedly or Expectedly naked?

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 02:37 (twenty-two years ago)

Naked but for the makeup adorning their hoses. (Hosen?)

― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 02:45 (twenty-two years ago)

Lederhosen? Lederhosen doesn't mean you're naked.

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 02:48 (twenty-two years ago)

Yeah, I'll lead her hosen, all right.

I have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm in bookmark-explosion shock.

― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 02:51 (twenty-two years ago)

You have a weird thing about hoses, don't you? Not to say that I don't like hoses or anything, I'm in favor of hoses, I like hoses as much as the next guy (or girl), I approve of hoses, I am pro-hose, You might hear me say "yay hoses", I heart hoses, even but I dunno. It's not the same.

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 02:54 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I cannot get the image of a certain drunk, crying, masturbating blameworthy ILXoR out of my head.

It does not cheer me.

― felicity (felicity), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 02:54 (twenty-two years ago)

I have no hose fixation!

(obUnhappy: apparently I can't remember anything I'm interested in, since I'm having trouble rebuilding my bookmarks; I almost forgot the address for my own damn page.)

― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 02:59 (twenty-two years ago)

You do, too.

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 03:04 (twenty-two years ago)

What is it that I wear sometimes? Strumpenhose?

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Tuesday, 29 April 2003 12:44 (twenty-two years ago)

Grr. Fuck. And goddamn. I'm unhappy because I've finally heard back from First Choice School -- a week after I informed them of my offer from Second Choice School -- only to be told "we haven't received your transcript or third recommendation letter yet." They waited a week to email me that -- more than that, because after I found out things had been screwed up with them, I explicitly asked them -- and they agreed -- to email me the next day if everything wasn't there. I didn't hear from them, I assumed we were okay.

I have exactly one week before I need to accept or refuse my assistantship offer -- my current school won't promise getting a new transcript out in under two weeks. I've no idea what happened to the third recommendation, since it was from the dean of philosophy, which is what got me the damn offer from Second Choice School.

(The major source of unhappiness here, just to make this rant even longer, is that my girlfriend is committed to going to First Choice School and has already accepted -- Second Choice School doesn't even offer her discipline.)

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 2 May 2003 15:07 (twenty-two years ago)

... and now my apartment complex has been sold to a local university to be used as dormitories, and everyone must vacate by July 1st, a date by which I might not yet know which school I'm going to (and hence, wouldn't know where to move -to-.)

This is a very strange week.

― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 6 May 2003 17:08 (twenty-two years ago)

Because goddamn those random moments.

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 6 May 2003 17:50 (twenty-two years ago)

Because the future's uncertain and the end is always near.

― hstencil, Tuesday, 6 May 2003 18:12 (twenty-two years ago)

that and no one's sent me any email today, hardly.

― hstencil, Tuesday, 6 May 2003 18:22 (twenty-two years ago)

I feel a little, tiny bit lost

― luna (luna.c), Wednesday, 7 May 2003 23:03 (twenty-two years ago)

Aw Luna, that's so sad. Is it the IRS thing still? I wish I could help.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Thursday, 8 May 2003 20:30 (twenty-two years ago)

Aww, thanks Martin, I'm ok.

I always post things like this and then feel like such a tool the next day because the mood has passed (mood swings? me? fuck you!) and I'm back to good again.

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 8 May 2003 20:53 (twenty-two years ago)

I am unhappy because this total asshat who isn't even my boss comes up to me at 5:30 and asks me to do something she could do herself, and asks me over and over again to re-write these surveys that she put together. If you want me to do something, DO IT RIGHT THE FIRST FUCKING TIME. It is not my responsibility to correct your sloppy mistakes any more, you goddamn prima donna. WHY can't anyone in a senior position HAVE THE SAME GODDAMN SKILLS THAT THEY EXPECT US TO HAVE?!?!?

AAARRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHH!

― hstencil, Thursday, 8 May 2003 20:56 (twenty-two years ago)

Hmmm... I suppose my problems aren't quite up there with most on this thread, but anyway...

I can't find my favorite jacket. I lost my last jacket and eventually gave in and bought one that looked almost exactly the same. NOw I can't find that one. And today's casual day! I miss the soft silky material on my shoulders. And every time I look down at my arms I see... well, I see my stupid bare arms instead of beautiful sporty white stripes. *sigh* Why do I get so attached to jackets when all they do is leave me and break my heart in the end?!?

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Friday, 9 May 2003 11:41 (twenty-two years ago)

i am unhappy because I am going to be getting a divorce soon. this is also why i am happy.

― Happy/Sad Boy, Friday, 9 May 2003 12:43 (twenty-two years ago)

I can't BELIEVE that I forgot to bitch about this!

Because HSA cut all of his hair off! All of his lovely, thick, beautiful, wavy hair! All gone! (And LEFT the beard, in the midst of said hair holocaust...) It's not quite a number two (as Percy did to rid him of my affections) but it's only an inch long at its longest point.

I don't think he understands how much this upsets me. I mean, I still love him and all, and I still fancy him like mad, short hair or no, but... if he only UNDERSTOOD what a fetish long hair is for me, he wouldn't deny me of that pleasure. :-(

Oh, alas, I'm going to go and look at those Spacemen 3 photos some more.

― kate, Friday, 9 May 2003 12:47 (twenty-two years ago)

I've been generally depressed lately. My job is boring me to hell, there are no windows in my office so it feels like prison. I want to buy things for my wife, but i can't afford to. And my friends never call me.

― Chris V. (Chris V), Friday, 9 May 2003 12:48 (twenty-two years ago)

hey kate, I haven't cut my hair. That I'll probably have to before I go on job interviews makes me unhappy.

― hstencil, Friday, 9 May 2003 12:49 (twenty-two years ago)

I second every last miserable word of Chris's post. And would add to the last sentence, "and I probably wouldn't answer the phone if they did."

― s woods, Friday, 9 May 2003 12:51 (twenty-two years ago)

kate, I'm growing my hair out! (ha ha) I'm happy with Nick's hair right now cuz it flops in his face a lot (Hi, NIck, so now you know I approve of your hair).

Cheer up, Chris V! You are a hot lover man! And its FRiday!!! TGIF. You can go home after work and drink a brewsky on yer front porch.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Friday, 9 May 2003 12:53 (twenty-two years ago)

hstencil, you had GREAT hair in my dream! I wonder if that's what that was about, then... (sublimated disappointment at HSA cutting his hair, so transfering my lust onto dream internet boy???)

― kate, Friday, 9 May 2003 12:57 (twenty-two years ago)

whoa, wait a minute, you had a dream about me? I am suddenly less unhappy.

― hstencil, Friday, 9 May 2003 13:01 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm bummed because I was just out with the folks heading towards some Mother's Day fun, and we got into a car crash. We're all fine, but the car's not. I feel bad for my dad, cuz he just bought the car new a few months ago. The insurance company's taking care of it, though...

And last night after hanging a bunch of stuff up in my closet, the rod (is that what it's called?) collapsed from the weight of everything on it. That's not as bad as a car crash obv, but it's annoying and when it happened I just let out an exasperated sigh and went "Well FUCK."

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Sunday, 11 May 2003 19:16 (twenty-two years ago)

because the place I have gone clubbing to every saturday for the last year is closed finished dead gone.

FUCK YOU IRELAND!

― Ronan (Ronan), Sunday, 11 May 2003 19:24 (twenty-two years ago)

Sorry Jody. Car crashes must be going around, my friend Lea got in one the other day too. Glad you're all okay and no one was hurt.

― hstencil, Sunday, 11 May 2003 19:24 (twenty-two years ago)

I feel weird actually, I loved that club, so many good times. I suppose I should go mad or sad, throw a wobbler, but what's the point. It feels kind of inevitable.

Dublin is having a big debate about street violence lately and dance music is the scapegoat again, so the club has been forced to close. of course the wanker other promoters can open their club for 48 hours straight and then go on the news and suck Ministerial/right wing cock for 5 minutes saying how clubs should be over 21s, yes sir, we tow the line, take this apple pie my wife made, oh and be sure and buy yourself something nice, by the way could you shut down our competitors, it's just we're desperate to promote a shite clubbing scene with snakes and horrible dancers and fire eaters and crap speakers and telling djs what to play.

To top it all off one of my best friends works for the promoter of the club which has been shut down and is now busting his ass trying to find venues for loads of gigs. If he doesn't his reputation is ruined too.

The other small matter of every single gig I was looking forward to being in the balance and up in the air is also a big kick in the face.

I hate Ireland and I hate this shithead democracy where we have to "take action now" as opposed to implementing decent long term plans for solving the drink problem.

― Ronan (Ronan), Sunday, 11 May 2003 19:33 (twenty-two years ago)

I feel funny saying "the drink problem" because I imagine you all thinking of us skulling whiskeys and dancing to Irish music all day.

― Ronan (Ronan), Sunday, 11 May 2003 19:43 (twenty-two years ago)

I feel like hell. I had a wonderful saturday night dancing at Lucien Foort, first time at a really good dance night, everyone had a brilliant time... then the next morning, coming down hard, i walk into my best mate/sort of cuddlebuddy/sort of recent ex's loungeroom and there he was under a blanket on the couch. With my flatmate.

I have no idea what to do now. I feel very ill. Technically nothing happened so I dont even know if Im allowed to be angry about it, Ï with no rights in the matter" as Roethke would say.

God I am so miserable though.

― Trayce (trayce), Sunday, 11 May 2003 22:42 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm sorry about your car crash Jody.

I have my own hair-related unhappiness. Well, that's a constant in my life. But never again will I get a $26 walk-in haircut or not ask questions when someone tells me what they're going to do.

― gabbneb (gabbneb), Monday, 12 May 2003 00:19 (twenty-two years ago)

that sounds scary. at least you didn't get the $8 Supercuts 'do.

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Monday, 12 May 2003 00:22 (twenty-two years ago)

yes, I like to spend money on my chief neurosis

― gabbneb (gabbneb), Monday, 12 May 2003 00:24 (twenty-two years ago)

''I feel funny saying "the drink problem" because I imagine you all thinking of us skulling whiskeys and dancing to Irish music all day.''

and reading joyce, of course ;)

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Monday, 12 May 2003 06:28 (twenty-two years ago)

shit jody, i'm sorry about the crash, i'm glad you are all okay. crashes are dead frightening.

― di smith (lucylurex), Monday, 12 May 2003 08:04 (twenty-two years ago)

one month passes...

Oh, my house was broken into yesterday (they rifled through our stuff and only took about 60 or so of my CDs and about $30 in change from my roommate's room, not taking any of the obvious and easy-to-steal valueable stuff) and oh and my mother went into the ER on Sunday due to chest pains (wasn't a heart attack, she's doing fine now, it seems, but they don't know what the pains were); this just after being diagnosed with a form of leukemia (which is not fatal and is treatable and whatnot, I guess). So. It all could be much worse but I'm pretty stressed out right now and am looking for paper bags to breathe into.

― Chris P (Chris P), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:35 (twenty-two years ago)

Lots of hugs and finger sucking and stuff in your direction Chris. I'm so sorry :(

I'm unhappy because people left NYC :(

― Ally (mlescaut), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:36 (twenty-two years ago)

Fucking hell Chris - bless you.

― N. (nickdastoor), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:37 (twenty-two years ago)

Finger sucking?

― Chris P (Chris P), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:37 (twenty-two years ago)

I mean I guess I wouldn't turn it down...

― Chris P (Chris P), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:37 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh wouldn't you like to know...

― Ally (mlescaut), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:39 (twenty-two years ago)

Feel better, Chris -- hope your mother continues to do fine and that you're not too freaked out about the break-in.

― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:39 (twenty-two years ago)

http://pirin.worklogic.com/pics/rockies/rockies-vlado-wet-unhappy.jpg

― Dada, Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:47 (twenty-two years ago)

the answer to the question is "don't get me started"

― electric sound of jim (electricsound), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:48 (twenty-two years ago)

A cat I had for 13 years died on Saturday.

― Mr. Diamond (diamond), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:50 (twenty-two years ago)

Sorry to hear it, Chris! I hope the situation w/your mom improves soon. You should list the cds you lost, I'd bet there would be a lot of folks on ile willing to make copies of them if they had them.

― Nicole (Nicole), Tuesday, 8 July 2003 23:54 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, who here is deeply into the Residents? They seem to have swiped most of my Rz... (They also took most of my Dylan but that's easier to replace.)

― Chris P (Chris P), Wednesday, 9 July 2003 00:17 (twenty-two years ago)

I've got a few Residents albums but not much I fear...

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Wednesday, 9 July 2003 00:20 (twenty-two years ago)

I used to have 15; now I have 4.

― Chris P (Chris P), Wednesday, 9 July 2003 00:21 (twenty-two years ago)

:-( that sucks, chris.

― di smith (lucylurex), Wednesday, 9 July 2003 00:24 (twenty-two years ago)

That's awful, Chris. I sympathise.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Wednesday, 9 July 2003 19:52 (twenty-two years ago)

Chris: I'm in a shitty web café or else I'd just IM. Please let me know if there's anything I can get you/do for you to make things ok. You know damned well that I owe you. Please be safe.

― BryanInToranna, Wednesday, 9 July 2003 20:40 (twenty-two years ago)

Thanks, everyone. I'm feeling better today than the last few days, at least. I might be in NYC in a few weeks to visit my mother (who is home from the hospital and doing fairly well -- she is a trooper).

Oh, and sorry to hear about your cat, Mr. Diamond. I like cats.

― Chris P (Chris P), Wednesday, 9 July 2003 20:47 (twenty-two years ago)

hey thanks, Chris. I'm feeling better myself, but I do miss the little guy.

Glad to hear your mother has improved; that's great news.

― Mr. Diamond (diamond), Wednesday, 9 July 2003 22:59 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm not that unhappy (esp. in comparison to how I'd be if I lost a bunch of CDs), but if I am a little, it's because I took some Tylenol Day Cold pills 12 fucking hours ago and I still have medicinehead. I want mental clarity back and I want to stop being all congestedy.

― Anthony Miccio (Anthony Miccio), Wednesday, 9 July 2003 23:13 (twenty-two years ago)

http://www.taekwon.net/webzine_img0/con_img/news_image/tigers21.gif

― Dada, Wednesday, 9 July 2003 23:42 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I got literally no sleep last night because my jackass ex-boyfriend wouldn't stop calling me ALL NIGHT EVERY COUPLE MINUTES drunk off his fucking ass getting increasingly irate. WTF? So I stayed up on AIM and tried to ignore it and that didn't bloody work cos it just pissed him off more. So I'm going to call him back tonight and scream bloody murder at his ass but jesus goddamned christ.

― Ally (mlescaut), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 13:23 (twenty-two years ago)

let it all out.

as for me, still unhappy as usual.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 13:52 (twenty-two years ago)

Reasons besides "snobbery" to not call back ex:

1) Not interested
2) He's an ass
3) HE SOLD MY NUMBER TO HIS FRIENDS FOR MULTISEX ACTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, wtf? Why does he think I stopped calling him?

― Ally (mlescaut), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 13:54 (twenty-two years ago)

Hey kids,

I'm sorry you're all having crappiness, Chris in particular. I'm unhappy for two reasons, both of which I've moaned about. One is having to do CRAPPY work next week (even though I should be grateful for any work at all at the mo), and the other is because I was dead pleased at booking myself evening diversions for Monday to Thursday this week, and unless I remember what it was I was supposed to be doing tonight I'll end up with every one of them falling through, including a double booking, for heaven's sake!

I want to go out on the town with Ally and fuck shit up. Rarr!

(p.s. - last night Jerry the Nipper and I were watching "University Challenge" and cause was had for the words "Chris Piuma to thread!" to be shouted across the living room :))

― Mark C (Mark C), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 15:31 (twenty-two years ago)

I'd go fuck shit up with you but really see this thread's direct opposite, I'm really not that miserable at all. In fact I'm quite well, just tired and crabby and a bit of a cold...

― Ally (mlescaut), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 15:45 (twenty-two years ago)

This is why phones are bad. No one ever hassles you with smoke signals. No one ever prank-smoke-signals you. Telemarketers? No smoke signals.

― Tep (ktepi), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 16:00 (twenty-two years ago)

Because people I care deeply about are hurting terribly and there's nothing I can do about it. I hate not being able to help, and by that I mean actively help.

I still can't decide if not stepping in front of that bus in Toronto last Wednesday night was a good choice.

― Bryan (Bryan), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 16:03 (twenty-two years ago)

Because goddammit, shit, fuck.

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 16:04 (twenty-two years ago)

Fair enough Ally. I guess I'm happy, really. But today has been farcically shitty and I'd like to obliterate its memory.

― Mark C (Mark C), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 16:13 (twenty-two years ago)

''I still can't decide if not stepping in front of that bus in Toronto last Wednesday night was a good choice.''

come on bryan. of course it was.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 16:14 (twenty-two years ago)

(p.s. - last night Jerry the Nipper and I were watching "University Challenge" and cause was had for the words "Chris Piuma to thread!" to be shouted across the living room :))

Heavens! Do tell...

Watching "University Challenge" with Jerry the Nipper and Mark C. seems like fun but I'll bet I would come off as not that clever after all.

― Chris P (Chris P), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 16:17 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh, it was just a section on musical intervals and one of them was a minor third. It was a nice moment though.

― Mark C (Mark C), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 16:22 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I feel terribly hurt for a silly and petty reason, and realizing how silly it is only makes me feel worse. In addition to that, my job is getting worse by the day with no prospect of escape any time soon. Is that enough? I realize there are more valid reasons for unhappiness, but I can't help but feel this way.

― Lars (Nicole), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 16:26 (twenty-two years ago)

today I found a cd called Rock The House which was house versions of "classic rock" hits (Jump, I've Been Waiting, With Or W/o You, Smoke on the Water). It was big and stompy and juicy and very nearly brilliant but then there were VOCALS all over it (and not funhouse pitchshifted stuff or even a rentadiva, just emotive eurgh 'seductive' euromale crooning) and it was just shitty shitty shitty. It's a shame, it was only 1.95. Thought I'd struck gold, but NO.

― g--ff c-nn-n (gcannon), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 17:14 (twenty-two years ago)

Clinical depression.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 17:41 (twenty-two years ago)

I am getting too hyper which means I will crash during class then be bright awake at midnight. Fuck fuck fuck.

― Ally (mlescaut), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 20:18 (twenty-two years ago)

Fuck fuck fuck.

TMI

― oops (Oops), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 20:41 (twenty-two years ago)

Going back to the original thread question:
I think "profound disappointment" is more like it, that someone could so completely misrepresent a situation to others. For shame. No wonder they can't sleep.
Ok, I'm done.

― Orbit (Orbit), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 20:41 (twenty-two years ago)

I just realized recently that after four years of employment in this career field I can't stand the business, the people, or the paperwork. I am going to be nearly 26 and trying to start a new career with little more than a mailorder BA and 4 years of "military experience" that I can't very well describe in detail. I waltzed through the past two years thinking that this security clearance was going to be my meal ticket and all of a sudden I hate it. Fuck shit piss ass dick fuck cunt.

Somebody next door is practicing drums or something and has been doing so for quite some time. FUCKING SHUT UP.

I haven't eaten since noonish.

My music sucks and I haven't put down anything new in weeks.

Mostly all of this is related to career insecurity I think. The rest would be easily dealt with except for the job thing. God dammit. I'll probably end up just giving in and taking some contractor work. GRRRR.

― Millar (Millar), Tuesday, 15 July 2003 23:40 (twenty-two years ago)

I have two words to recommend for your future career, Millar, but both of them are "porn".

― Chris P (Chris P), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 06:55 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I am on my own in the office & my boyf just phoned to tell me that he has gone home as all of their networks have gone down. How unfair is that. I want another day off for nothing. Damn having a company that has that sort of thing convered!

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 10:04 (twenty-two years ago)

In case you were wondering, I am happier than yesterday. But ILX is depressing me slightly today, and I can't think why. It may just be the oppressive day, hot, humid, grey and rainy.

― Mark C (Mark C), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 11:03 (twenty-two years ago)

worse, not enough rainy :(

― mark s (mark s), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 11:04 (twenty-two years ago)

OK, here is why. We got the quotas for how many invoices we had to process this month. It said:

Dick: 454
Jane: 483
Spot: 233
Kate: 1318

THEY ARE TAKING THE BLOODY PISS!!!

― kate (kate), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 11:10 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I couldn't eat ice cream for breakfast :(

― Ally (mlescaut), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 12:41 (twenty-two years ago)

My god Ally that's harsh, why on earth not?

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 12:46 (twenty-two years ago)

Ice cream man wasn't there this morning :(

― Ally (mlescaut), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 12:48 (twenty-two years ago)

Bummer!!

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 12:56 (twenty-two years ago)

Has no one even noticed that I am being asked to process as many invoices as THREE OF MY COLLEAGUES PUT TOGETHER?!?!?

Wah. Nobody loves me. Except Jason Spaceman and Sonic Boom.

― kate (kate), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 12:58 (twenty-two years ago)

Your colleagues are Dick, Jane and Spot=you have nothing to complain about, that's awesome. ;)

― Ally (mlescaut), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 12:59 (twenty-two years ago)

Does Spot bark?

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 13:30 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm not unhappy any more - a lovely person cheered me up by saying really, really nice things to me, and I feel loads better.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Wednesday, 16 July 2003 17:05 (twenty-two years ago)

I think the above "hose" conversations have made me cheer up considerably. Well, that and chattage.

I've been incredibly, incredibly morose and moody these last few days or so. I won't go into exact reasons why, just that a few of you have a vague idea why and one of you in particular knows all the specifics. If you're curious, just e-mail me or something. I'll choose to bum you out one at a time. At any length, the future doesn't seem that promising either, at least not for awhile. All I can do now is rely on my faith and my conviction that "whatever does not kill us makes us stronger" to carry me through this period in my life. But I'm a weak human with flaws and so if you see me irrationally snapping at any random person or thing, please do know that it's probably stemming from what I'm going through right now.

― Just Deanna (Dee the Lurker), Thursday, 17 July 2003 06:11 (twenty-two years ago)

*love to Dee*

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 17 July 2003 06:17 (twenty-two years ago)

Hope things start going your way, Dee.

― oops (Oops), Thursday, 17 July 2003 06:20 (twenty-two years ago)

We had a rough year. The season in which we earn most of our money was suxored because of war (what is it good for? not our wallet) and sars. And we had a few other major setbacks... So uh it has been a really hard year. :-(

― nathalie (nathalie), Thursday, 17 July 2003 07:31 (twenty-two years ago)

On a lighter note, now we are out of coffee. This may not sound like much but, erm, SOON I WILL KILL THEM ALL IF I DON'T GET MORE COFFEE!!! I am trying to make espresso in the coffeemaker. This will either be very very good or a very very bad idea and I'm not sure which yet.

― kate (kate), Thursday, 17 July 2003 07:44 (twenty-two years ago)

this is possibly the best thread. my misery is much more acceptable.

best story: ChristineSH
most consistent: kate

i read em all. my strife? regular life shit.

cheers...

― faggotry (faggotry), Thursday, 17 July 2003 10:25 (twenty-two years ago)

Ha ha, I just searched through my own posts on this thread, and yes, I guess I am consistent. I am bored. Haircuts suck. This is my life.

At least the boy situation cleared up! That's something to be happy about.

:-)

(Whoops, wrong thread)

― kate (kate), Thursday, 17 July 2003 10:31 (twenty-two years ago)

I just found out that the White Stripes show is cancelled since Jack White hurt his finger in a car crash. Blah.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Thursday, 17 July 2003 12:39 (twenty-two years ago)

*feels luna's love*

*is happy*

You're an angel, dear.

And thank you, oops. I hope so too.

― Just Deanna (Dee the Lurker), Thursday, 17 July 2003 18:26 (twenty-two years ago)

Either it's the recent revelation that people that I care about and am intrinsically linked to in the course of events called "life" don't particularly give a shit about me...or it's the pain in my tummy cuz OH GOD PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON'T EAT THE SPICY POPEYE'S CHICKEN AT 4 AM ANYMORE YOU IDIOT!

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Thursday, 17 July 2003 18:45 (twenty-two years ago)

Sarah, yr post should be on the other thread.

― That Girl (thatgirl), Thursday, 17 July 2003 19:22 (twenty-two years ago)

cat pissed on the carpet. can't get my industrial strength cat urine odor removal kit until next wednesday. not happy.

― anthony kyle monday (akmonday), Thursday, 17 July 2003 21:11 (twenty-two years ago)

anthony, try blotting it up, dousing with white vinegar, let that set for a bit, blot it up, put on some baking powder and leave that overnight, then vacuum.

― That Girl (thatgirl), Thursday, 17 July 2003 21:42 (twenty-two years ago)

oops, i mean baking soda.

― That Girl (thatgirl), Thursday, 17 July 2003 21:43 (twenty-two years ago)

because I'm taking some posts personally (which I think I was intended to - at least I can't see how I wasn't) and it hurts my feelings a little. Maybe I shouldn't care, but I do.

― luna (luna.c), Thursday, 17 July 2003 21:49 (twenty-two years ago)

Sweetie I'm not sure what you're talking about, but point me to 'em and I'll kick their ass.

― That Girl (thatgirl), Thursday, 17 July 2003 21:54 (twenty-two years ago)

Maybe I shouldn't care, but I do.

You shouldn't, unless you're a feral chihuahua. Or Bunicula. Or maybe Eugene Speed's neighbor. And if you're all three, that's cool enough that what could the rest matter?

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 17 July 2003 22:07 (twenty-two years ago)

Fuck the hataz, luna.

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 01:56 (twenty-two years ago)

my relationship is in weird flux. i have to move this whole house by myself in the next two weeks. i'm broke. i feel more lonely than i have since high school. i cry at least once every day.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:05 (twenty-two years ago)

Y'know, I've been on this thing for a year now on and off, and I guess most of you have become semi-friends or sparring partners or electronic acquaintances. You've all, without even knowing it really, helped me through what has been a really fucked-up 12 months. And now that I'm coming through on the other side of it (situations actually gotten worse in some ways, but my attitude towards it all has done a 180), to read this thread, to get a glimpse of the pain and the sorrow that some of you--ALL OF US--are going through right now--GO THROUGH ALL THE TIME--is tearing my heart out.

To Jess and Deanna and Aimee and Nicka and Piuma and really everyone else, I'd like to send strength and love and good luck and all you deserve and need...but I can't. All I can do is type these words, corny as they are, and tell you all that I think you are really good people who will get through this fucking obstacle course one way or another.

You're god damned RIGHT I'm emo.

― Neudonym, Friday, 18 July 2003 02:21 (twenty-two years ago)

we love you too, sug - thank you.

― luna (luna.c), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:26 (twenty-two years ago)

i have spent almost two and a half years on this thing and alienated most of the people on it at least one time over.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:31 (twenty-two years ago)

So have most of us, jess. If someone holds a sarcastic comment or a joke against you, they're a wanker.

again I reiterate: fuck the hataz.

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:32 (twenty-two years ago)

ha this is why when i issue desperate cries for help and/or lust no one pays attention.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:34 (twenty-two years ago)

you've alienated me a couple of times, jess, but fuck it. you're okay by me.

― Neudonym, Friday, 18 July 2003 02:35 (twenty-two years ago)

I got fired today. Or rather, my assignment ended suddenly. Wasn't anything I did, just... hey, no job. That's temping for you.

Tomorrow, I will deal with being broke. Tonight, I will deal with being drunk.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:37 (twenty-two years ago)

jess that's not necessarily true...

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:37 (twenty-two years ago)

i'm just playin, really. my brane is broken these days, so what i say on ilx should be taken with even more salt than usual. (xcept when it shouldn't be.)

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:40 (twenty-two years ago)

haha yeah exactly. You just gotta get to the point where you don't give a fuck no more and nothing bothers you at all, I've almost mastered that and it's cool.

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:42 (twenty-two years ago)

Don't everyone lavish sympathy on me at once.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:45 (twenty-two years ago)

heh now it looks like i'm not really sad and lonely...damn my supercool exterior of bitter self-loathing

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:47 (twenty-two years ago)

(x-p) Kenan, dude, we all thought you were off getting drunk! And I personally thought you were taking it pretty well.

Hey, man, it's a mitzvah for you--now you can leave that scorching-ass town earlier than you planned, you can have time to pack, it's all gravy, baby!

― Neudonym, Friday, 18 July 2003 02:48 (twenty-two years ago)

Kenan and jess, I'd buy you both drinks if not for the geography thing.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:50 (twenty-two years ago)

Kenan I actually didn't see your post, I'm sorry :(

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:52 (twenty-two years ago)

people should let things bother them. what's the point of being alive if you're just gonna be detached from everything?

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:52 (twenty-two years ago)

fuck the pain away

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:53 (twenty-two years ago)

what's the point of being alive if you're just gonna be detached from everything?

Wait... I thought your heart was black and cold? JBR, I can never nail you down.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:54 (twenty-two years ago)

nah, sometimes i'm the most emo person on here.

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:55 (twenty-two years ago)

I was kidding. Yer schweet and shenshitive, I know.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:57 (twenty-two years ago)

And romantic. We will all mett the same fate someday, you know.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:58 (twenty-two years ago)

jody opens up to reveal a beautiful flower within

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:58 (twenty-two years ago)

Not everyone has the same "alive," so not everyone's going for the same point. Ultimately, people do what comforts them, to the extent circumstance lets them.

I am generally bothered by internal things -- my failing memory, thinking slower and less sharply than I used to, that sort of thing -- more often and more noticeably than by external things. It's just a matter of where your line of sight is, really.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:58 (twenty-two years ago)

haha tep you ARE my doppleganger

do you worry about your waistline much?

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:59 (twenty-two years ago)

have you all read The Stranger by Camus? It's great, he's French and he hates life!

― Millar (Millar), Friday, 18 July 2003 02:59 (twenty-two years ago)

I feel all warm and fuzzy inside from reading this...and outside too I guess.

― oops (Oops), Friday, 18 July 2003 03:00 (twenty-two years ago)

I am generally bothered by internal things

Yeah, but having no money realigns your proirities right quick, lemme tell ya.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Friday, 18 July 2003 03:00 (twenty-two years ago)

Mersault the Frenchman, the less successful sequel to Zorba the Greek

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 18 July 2003 03:01 (twenty-two years ago)

But the outside warmth and fuzziness wasn't caused by reading this thread. Just so you know.

― oops (Oops), Friday, 18 July 2003 03:01 (twenty-two years ago)

do you worry about your waistline much?

Not as much as I should. Moving to Bloomington has made me gain weight for the first time in a year and a half, despite playing tennis nearly every day! (Well, until yesterday, cause I ran out of balls.) I'm getting more exercise, eating less meat and junk food, and yet ... grr. It must be because I'm smoking less. GODDAMN LUNGS.

jess and I are soul brothers.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 18 July 2003 03:02 (twenty-two years ago)

you think the stranger's good, you should try the myth of sisyphus!

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Friday, 18 July 2003 03:02 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh, gosh, Kenan, I wasn't suggesting you shouldn't be concerned about money. Things like that jump to the fore. The external stuff that I let slip is more like "what so and so thinks of me," "how I'm doing in school/at work/at my ability to make money," and so on. (And I'm not advocating my approach, cause it isn't deliberate, and I let more things slip than I should.)

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 18 July 2003 03:04 (twenty-two years ago)

thanks dallas, I will try that before my industrial strength odor eating nanites show up.

jess relationship shit can turn you upside down, my sympathies.

people should take everything anyone says on here with a block of salt.

― anthony kyle monday (akmonday), Friday, 18 July 2003 04:02 (twenty-two years ago)

Yeah, but having no money realigns your proirities right quick, lemme tell ya.

I almost feel like I need to go through this again to have my priorities readjusted. Sigh. It's not like I'm rolling in money now.

― Chris P (Chris P), Friday, 18 July 2003 04:26 (twenty-two years ago)

Don't even wish for that, Chris. I used to wish I was a more patient person...that came back and bit me in the ass.

Neudonym, your emo-corny words made me want to cry. I'm a total sap. I also need some fucking sleep.

― JuliaA (j_bdules), Friday, 18 July 2003 05:23 (twenty-two years ago)

neudonym- it might have been corny but it was the right thing to say.

sorry to hear it kenan.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Friday, 18 July 2003 07:58 (twenty-two years ago)

Tep, too bad you moved further north. If we could share drinks we'd be tight, bro.

Kenan, we must meet soon.

Jess, yr a sarcastic mutha fucka most of the times but i'll still give you benefit of the doubt. email me anytime you need a shoulder, i'm here.

― That Girl (thatgirl), Friday, 18 July 2003 08:02 (twenty-two years ago)

oh, jess- don't worry abt being sarcastic or 'alienating' anyone. its just a message board and things like that happen. they just do.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Friday, 18 July 2003 08:06 (twenty-two years ago)

Tep, too bad you moved further north. If we could share drinks we'd be tight, bro.

I will be back. There will be tequila!

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 18 July 2003 11:37 (twenty-two years ago)

Luna, I actually think I know what you're talking about. Cheer up! Anyone who doesn't appreciate your comments is a dumbass.

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Friday, 18 July 2003 11:49 (twenty-two years ago)

the woman i always hoped i would marry, have beautiful babies and get old and incontinent doesn't appear especially willing to do this right now...

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:19 (twenty-two years ago)

the woman i always hoped i would marry, have beautiful babies and get old and incontinent with doesn't appear especially willing to do this right now...

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:19 (twenty-two years ago)

Not really sure why i'm unhappy, i just seem to be all of a sudden.

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:24 (twenty-two years ago)

Have some more coffee, Pink, you'll feel better!

― kate (kate), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:26 (twenty-two years ago)

i'm happy about her not wanting to become incontinent but not the rest...

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:29 (twenty-two years ago)

Do you know what i mean though? All of a sudden you just feel a bit down. you dont know whether it was down to something someone said, or something else. :-(

Dave - it's harsh def. Hang in there.

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:36 (twenty-two years ago)

I know exactly what you mean...you should buy a flower, a funny one like a sunflower, and put it on your desk.

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:37 (twenty-two years ago)

A funflower.

― Archel (Archel), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:38 (twenty-two years ago)

When I suddenly feel a bit down for NO APPARENT REASON WHATSOEVER, I've learned that it's often chemical, rather than actually emotional - sudden change in blood sugar after lunch, that sort of thing. That was why the suggestion that you have a cup of coffee was not entirely facetious. Though some B complex vitamins might be better...

― kate (kate), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:38 (twenty-two years ago)

a colleague and friend of mine has just suggested that i go and watch strippers... i consider this to be every bad advice and something i wouldn't do under any normal circumstances but it made me laugh... i can just see it now -
she calls (well she is my friend after all, grrrr...)
i say: "sorry luv, can't talk now, i have a face full of strange women's breasts..." (with the sound of 2 Live Crew's Me So Horny in the background).
she suddenly revises her opinion of the whole marriage/babies/getting old thing (hopefully not the incontinence) and thinks: "hell, what a catch that guy is after all..."

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:52 (twenty-two years ago)

But why would you answer your phone? I'm not saying go see strippers, that's kind of the least life affirming thing I can think of doing.

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:54 (twenty-two years ago)

for all of you:
http://cnr.ifas.ufl.edu/newsletters/Volume3/Issue10/grfx/sunflower.jpg

Among another reasons for feeling moody, I'm sleep deprived and I did something last night that I kind of regret...

(haha Dave)

― JuliaA (j_bdules), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:56 (twenty-two years ago)

rest assured ally no matter what my problems may be, i will never consider strippers to be the answer...

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 12:58 (twenty-two years ago)

The flowers on the desk trick usually works for me, but I like to get them on Mondays so it seems like they last longer here at work. And Mondays are the worst anyway.

But kate's idea about coffee - right on! Less than 4 hours of sleep... I'm already starting to crash! Coffee room, here I come.

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Friday, 18 July 2003 13:00 (twenty-two years ago)

But why would you answer your phone?

for the sake of comedy ally, no other reason... this is not something that is going to happen

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 13:03 (twenty-two years ago)

Julia, thank you :)

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 13:06 (twenty-two years ago)

yeah nice flowers... :-)

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 13:08 (twenty-two years ago)

Thanks for the pic of the 'funflowers' they made me smile. I'm just going to get some coffee, although I'm not sure vending muck is gonna cut it! *sigh*

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Friday, 18 July 2003 13:09 (twenty-two years ago)

this may cheer you up - http://www.ssynth.co.uk/~gay/anagram.html
it certainly has me... one of the anagrams for my name was "adolf sex vet"! however i don't think this will be the clincher in sorting out my disastrous love life either...

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 13:24 (twenty-two years ago)

Ha ha, that's cool!

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Friday, 18 July 2003 13:32 (twenty-two years ago)

I just worked at a crappy temp job in a warehouse. I was taking orders from somebody younger and less educated than I. In addition to moving huge ass bay windows around, I had to sweep the floor and take out garbage. It made me feel like more of a loser than sitting around all day in my boxers and scratching myself. Was depressing the fuck out of me so I told them I was sick and left after an two hours.
It's very humid here and I'm all stinky--really needed to shower even before I went there and worked up a sweat--but I can't take a shower til my dad wakes up which won't be for another few hours.
This was the only work I've been able to find for the past two months.

― oops (Oops), Friday, 18 July 2003 13:35 (twenty-two years ago)

I feel like all the culture I consume is just flat and gray and without any charge. I buy records, download shit, try to read, keep up with news. None of it gives me any deep pleasure anymore (did it ever?); rather than it seeming like a great chase with vistas of ideas or some such thing, it just seems like this awful engine that can't be kept up with, especially when other people seem to love it, or love things in it, or have a stake in something's success. I feel like I'm missing something on an elementary level. (okay the zep live thing stomped pretty hard, but I think I liked SFJ's voice review of it more...)

I've just felt really dull and ignorant and stupid for, oh, the past 3 yrs. The more I think abt it the more I regret going to school where I did (small midwest private) and studying what I did (English). I never really thought very hard abt any of it, tho I did do well.

anagram of my name: canon fog fen (ha ha)

plus: are people in Mpls cold and unfriendly, or what? (not that I've been mister sunflower charisma lately) clearly the 'nice' thing is a cover for fear and contempt, but I feel like in a bigger, better city everyone is OPENLY terrified and hateful anyway, so ppl can just be a little more genuinely congenial w each other...?

― g--ff c-nn-n (gcannon), Friday, 18 July 2003 14:10 (twenty-two years ago)

how is any of this helping me!

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 14:40 (twenty-two years ago)

god helps those who help themselves

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 14:43 (twenty-two years ago)

trudat.

― g--ff c-nn-n (gcannon), Friday, 18 July 2003 14:51 (twenty-two years ago)

thank you for your concern ;)

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 14:52 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm not unhappy, but this crick in my neck really must go now.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 18 July 2003 14:55 (twenty-two years ago)

nah, seriously dave, i feel for you, but i'm wicked hungover right now and regretting last nights posting binge.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 14:57 (twenty-two years ago)

yeah, Dave, that is the hurt of hurts. It's never any consolation but everyone's been there. I don't have any good advice other than to keep yourself occupied (like with the flat gray awful engine of culture maybe)

― g--ff c-nn-n (gcannon), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:01 (twenty-two years ago)

i'm unhappy bcz my power went out late last night and i couldn't get downstairs to flip the switch on the fusebox (the elevator doesn't go to the basement after like 11pm, and there is one staircase leading from the basement courtyard up to street level, but the street level entry is always locked and no one but the super actually has a key).

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:05 (twenty-two years ago)

i was thinking about about occupying myself with the clear alcoholic spirit of vodka - does this count?

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:13 (twenty-two years ago)

vive l'amour, dude! salut!

― g--ff c-nn-n (gcannon), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:14 (twenty-two years ago)

(i'm not being snarky, btw)

― g--ff c-nn-n (gcannon), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:14 (twenty-two years ago)

christ i didn't even mean to mention this either!
but i just know she's going to end up marrying someone who works in a bank, makes truckloads of money, wears a suit, drives a nice car, owns about 12 cds and sees friends as the height of culture, iknow it .... WAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:23 (twenty-two years ago)

if that's the case, yr better off baby

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:24 (twenty-two years ago)

nah just living out my nightmares but i bet the fucker will be taller than me!

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:28 (twenty-two years ago)

Dave, if this is the case, then clearly she is not like you, and just not meant for you. So why bother wasting any more time obsessing over her and the cockfarmer she will fall in love with? Find someone else who *is* crazy about you and yer wacky lifestyle! Every pot finds its cover!

(God, I just LOVE being a smug married, so I can get away with saying trite cliches like this!)

― kate (kate), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:28 (twenty-two years ago)

don't worry folks this all at least half tongue-in-cheek (whatever the hell that means, i've never figured it out). it's annoying but i figure an epic self-destructive bout of drinking with my friends, a good moan and a credit-screwing bout of record shopping will go some way to putting things right ;-)

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 15:32 (twenty-two years ago)

well i posted this on the "this is the thread where I say" thread. But the other night I had a baseball game and all of the sudden I couldn't walk. I left the game and went to the hospital. Doctors told me I have a degenerative hip condition (im 28, not 60) and that I need to stop playing baseball/hockey competetively. Its sad because i've played both since I was 5 and have an undying love for both. So at much as it pains me to stop playing life goes on.

― Chris V. (Chris V), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:16 (twenty-two years ago)

oh shit sorry to hear abt that chris... that's nasty... compared to heath problems, most others = not that important

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:18 (twenty-two years ago)

good god Chris that's awful. I'm really sorry.

― g--ff c-nn-n (gcannon), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:23 (twenty-two years ago)

*good thoughts for the Chris*

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:32 (twenty-two years ago)

Ah geez, Chris, I'm sorry.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:33 (twenty-two years ago)

thanks guys. sshhhhh *im playing baseball tomorrow*. But its wiffleball so there's a big difference. Plus i'll be drunk, so I won't feel my hip.

― Chris V. (Chris V), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:35 (twenty-two years ago)

Ouch. That's really terrible. But look at it this way: you now own this thread.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:35 (twenty-two years ago)

its not that bad i guess, at least i'll be able to watch my kids play and still have a catch with them.

― Chris V. (Chris V), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:37 (twenty-two years ago)

That is terrible, Chris. But maybe you can focus on doing things that you like that don't involve a strain on your hip, like the carpentry.

― Larcole (Nicole), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:37 (twenty-two years ago)

And the photoshopping.

― Chris P (Chris P), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:41 (twenty-two years ago)

yep, thats the plan.

― Chris V. (Chris V), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:45 (twenty-two years ago)

although its pretty neat to walk around and feel my hip grind and creak.

― Chris V. (Chris V), Friday, 18 July 2003 16:46 (twenty-two years ago)

but i'm wicked hungover right now and regretting last nights posting binge.

aye, story of my life.

― That Girl (thatgirl), Friday, 18 July 2003 17:01 (twenty-two years ago)

And you don't need a back to play guitar! Just lay down on the ground with the guitar on top of you.

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Friday, 18 July 2003 17:01 (twenty-two years ago)

now i'm unhappy because my father in law suddenly lost about half his sight three days ago and didn't go to the doctor. he called his eye doctor and made an appointment but didn't explain the severity of it so he's not scheduled to go in until next wednesday. from the sound of it it's a type of glaucoma that needs immediate treatment but he will not listen to my wife or anyone else. So there's a chance he might go blind because he's reticent about forcing himself on the hospital. plus he has no health insurance and no real cash on hand, so who the fuck is going to take care of them the older they get? Us? we can barely take care of ourselves!

― anthony kyle monday (akmonday), Friday, 18 July 2003 17:01 (twenty-two years ago)

oh and i forgot to mention i'm unhappy b/c i haven't been able to log onto friendster for two days. Minor, I know. But it's pissing me off.

― That Girl (thatgirl), Friday, 18 July 2003 17:03 (twenty-two years ago)

I was pretty down about work and my life in general. The way the poly thread has turned out has lowered my mood further.

― RickyT (RickyT), Friday, 18 July 2003 19:46 (twenty-two years ago)

don't let the threads gring ya down! :)

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Friday, 18 July 2003 20:35 (twenty-two years ago)

I just found out this evening that an old college friend that I sort've lost touch w/ abt 3 years ago killed herself a year or so ago. This is the second time in my life that a friend has committed suicide - plus there was a close call w/ another person not so long ago - and to say that this news has fucked me up a bit wld be something of an understatement - I'm torn between thinking what a horrible, pointless, AWFUL thing suicide is, for the dead and for the living, and thinking that on the whole everything sucks, most of the time - "little stabs of happiness, sometimes a little too late" seems wildly optimistic right now, right this second

I'm sorry, I probably shouldn't be posting this - it's exactly the kind of raw downer shit I flinch at, look away from - but fuckit, it's all just tears and dust and pointlessness anyway - hold on to yr friends, indeed

― Andrew L (Andrew L), Friday, 18 July 2003 22:16 (twenty-two years ago)

wow, that's terrible, my complaint I was going to make is pretty useless and stupid next to that.

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 18 July 2003 22:50 (twenty-two years ago)

*comforting cyberhugs to everyone here*

Really. I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself. I want to feel sorry for someone else. :)

Er, :(

Or xo| -- whichever. I'm exhausted to the core.

― Just Deanna (Dee the Lurker), Saturday, 19 July 2003 03:17 (twenty-two years ago)

Today was just one of those days.

― Bryan (Bryan), Saturday, 19 July 2003 03:20 (twenty-two years ago)

I hear ya brotha.

― oops (Oops), Saturday, 19 July 2003 03:45 (twenty-two years ago)

andrew I'm sorry to hear it.

*good thoughts*

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Saturday, 19 July 2003 07:49 (twenty-two years ago)

Andrew, that is terrible. And I'm sorry that I was (I am assuming) the almost-suicide you mention. I don't think there is a risk of my getting back to that state in the foreseeable future. (And I'll see you tomorrow!)

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Saturday, 19 July 2003 13:12 (twenty-two years ago)

the downer finally hit last night, i've been expecting it for some time. i feel like all hollow again.

― di smith (lucylurex), Saturday, 19 July 2003 23:32 (twenty-two years ago)

i feel a bit better today actually - long talks with certain people in my life...i'm sorry you're feeling like shit di.

― strongo hulkington (dubplatestyle), Saturday, 19 July 2003 23:57 (twenty-two years ago)

i was very unhappy yesterday, which is quite unusual for me

i. i had an argument w.someone i like lots, caused by something i said when cross which was taken in a way i didn't mean :(
ii. dr david kelly's death — this upset me a lot, for some reason
iii. i've been a mainly fruit diet all week, and i think my chemical balance was a bit weird
iv. i was meant to be writing all day and couldn't get anywhere grrr
v. i wanted to be in plymouth with dr vick for a second weekend running

― mark s (mark s), Sunday, 20 July 2003 00:02 (twenty-two years ago)

I've been in two car accidents. Neither injured me as much as the Cyclone did today.

― Ally (mlescaut), Sunday, 20 July 2003 03:28 (twenty-two years ago)

My pee smells like corn flakes. That's bad, right?

― Bryan (Bryan), Sunday, 20 July 2003 06:32 (twenty-two years ago)

It looks like I'm not going to be able to do the ONE THING I've ever actually wanted to do at university, cos they suffered from excessive demand. Poor fucking them. This will fuck w/my money, my schedule, and the general idea that one day I might be able to spend time doing something I enjoy. Grant Morrison's leaving "New X-Men", just to top things off. I had a great weekend and it's been fucked entirely by coming home.

― Andrew Thames (Andrew Thames), Sunday, 20 July 2003 11:57 (twenty-two years ago)

yea, suicides are a real bummer. i used to have a friend that would always say that he felt like a cornered animal with no other option.

― faggotry (faggotry), Sunday, 20 July 2003 14:07 (twenty-two years ago)

Something's wrong with my car A/C and I can't use it, just as TX enters the hottest part of the year. :(

last night at 10:30 the temp was 90F. Today the actual temp is supposed to be 101F with a heat index (the way the temp/humidity actually feel on yr skin) of 110F.

very, very unhappy.

― Texas Sam (thatgirl), Sunday, 20 July 2003 17:07 (twenty-two years ago)

Bright side: if your car's AC isn't working, you have no reason to leave the house and can stay in its AC.

― Tep (ktepi), Sunday, 20 July 2003 17:14 (twenty-two years ago)

Tep you are genius. I have just used this excuse to avoid seeing family today.

― Texas Sam (thatgirl), Sunday, 20 July 2003 17:17 (twenty-two years ago)

Hurrah for Sam! :-)

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Sunday, 20 July 2003 17:37 (twenty-two years ago)

I am unhappy because I just realised that my bf has pics of his ex, or whom I assume is his ex, in his mobile phone. :-( Maybe I'm being paranoid, maybe I'm trying to convince myself that I am being paranoid because I don't want to believe it. I don't think for a second that he is cheating on me. The thing that worries me is that he might not be over his ex-gf. What do I do? Confront him? Wait and see what he says since he will know I have been in his phone? I think I will do the latter. Any help or advice please?

― Lovester (Lovester), Sunday, 20 July 2003 18:20 (twenty-two years ago)

are they nekkid pics? if so, then worry.

I am unhappy b/c I don't have a phone with pictures. :(

― Texas Sam (thatgirl), Sunday, 20 July 2003 18:23 (twenty-two years ago)

They are not naked pics no. Ones with her nightdress on, ones of her bum but no, no naked ones. The thing is, she was phoning him when I started seeing him. She's not phoned the last month or so now though. However a few weeks back she messaged him saying how she still loved him and how he's to tell her if he doesn't want to speak or be friends with her anymore. Paranoia? I guess you are probably right. There is nothing to be worried about.

― Lovester (Lovester), Sunday, 20 July 2003 18:59 (twenty-two years ago)

Because my gf has just told me that she might not love me and that she needs to go away for a couple of weeks and think it through and I've brought this all on myself with my pettiness or rhetorical bullying and laziness and I love her so much and I've been crying for the past 3 hours, swelling in me, and the screens a blur now. I just want her to come back. I'm so unhappy.

― David. (Cozen), Sunday, 20 July 2003 19:30 (twenty-two years ago)

My decade old cd player finally bit the dust today :(

― Ally (mlescaut), Sunday, 20 July 2003 21:10 (twenty-two years ago)

a decade is a pretty fucking good run for a cd player.

― strongo hulkington (dubplatestyle), Sunday, 20 July 2003 21:12 (twenty-two years ago)

my amp blew up after 15 years i was happy coz it meant i could buy v swanky new one last week

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Sunday, 20 July 2003 21:14 (twenty-two years ago)

I know! It was so old. The funny thing is, I was carrying it the other night and Paul Eater was like, that's the oldest cd player ever and I was so proud that it was so old--my pride killed it :(

― Ally (mlescaut), Sunday, 20 July 2003 21:19 (twenty-two years ago)

you didn'yt kill it ally - you loved it... it was just tired and went to sleep with the 8-track cartridges, laser discs and sinclair spectrums in the sky... it's happy now ;-)

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Sunday, 20 July 2003 21:30 (twenty-two years ago)

+ on the bright side, it may fall in love and live happily ever after w/ my old sansui amp!

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Sunday, 20 July 2003 21:33 (twenty-two years ago)

wow, to keep equally on the serious side, my penis size.

― faggotry (faggotry), Monday, 21 July 2003 03:17 (twenty-two years ago)

It's Monday morning. :-(

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Monday, 21 July 2003 13:25 (twenty-two years ago)

My boy cant download aim at work! :-(

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Monday, 21 July 2003 13:28 (twenty-two years ago)

Because the server is SO GODDAMN SLOW TODAY that it is taking me hours of sitting staring at a frozen and hung computer screen to process any invoices... and considering they already STOLE two hours of my day to sit through the MOST BORING MEETING IMAGINABLE, you can only imagine the depths of my boredom. :-(

Not to mention the fact that the only thing of interest that I gleaned out of this meeting was the fact that they had decided to make a new position - A DATABASE DEVELOPER POSITION - at my workplace. Which will probably never in a million years be given to me. Even though it is a thousand times more suited to my abilities, and far more interesting to me... because I don't know Oracle. :-(

I don't even know if it's worth mentioning to my boss that I would be interested in that position, and that I could learn Oracle at night school. I mean, a programmer who KNOWS THE SYSTEM ALREADY is so much more valuable than some guy with a degree who's never actually seen an accounting department in his life. But I'm so convinced that I won't get it due to my "bad attitude" (read: terminal boredom) that I can't be bothered to ask.

Sigh. They'll say "you're a bad-tempered employee who is always late and always playing on the internet" and I'll say I'M BAD TEMPERED AND LATE AND INATTENTIVE BECAUSE I AM BORED, AND IF YOU GIVE ME THE JOB I REALLY WANT, I WOULD BE BETTER. But life doesn't work like that. :-(

― kate (kate), Monday, 21 July 2003 13:54 (twenty-two years ago)

don't rule it out yet kate, speak to someone - you'll be surprised how they might take it... i'm bad-tempered and always late and got a promotion recently - i don't want the job at all but that's not the point... mail me off obvoard if you like...

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Monday, 21 July 2003 13:59 (twenty-two years ago)

Kate, I think you should look into it anyway because what if?... Plus, I think companies tend to prefer hiring internally.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Monday, 21 July 2003 14:00 (twenty-two years ago)

Def look into it Kate, you never know, they might just have you in mind!

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Monday, 21 July 2003 14:04 (twenty-two years ago)

Give it a go, Kate - I don't see that you have anything to lose.

I am unhappy because yesterday was my first chance to help ILX in some way, when it went down, and it was beyond me - possibly through no fault of mine, I won't know until I get home tonight and read my email. But this came at the end of a rotten day: I'd taken the day off with the intention of composing some long and difficult emails, watching some stuff on video and listening to some new music, plus doing a bit of freezer shopping, all after a good lie-in. My lodger woke me up early with the news that we had no electricity, and this was true all day, so none of the above was on. We didn't get our power back until the evening.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 11:49 (twenty-two years ago)

Granted I am mad, but was there no way you could go back in to work and switch the day off with today/some other day?

Either way, that's shit. A wasted day off is a terrible thing.

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:07 (twenty-two years ago)

I got laid off from my job on Friday. I have 6 weeks to find a new job. My position was upgraded and I was eliminated. They hired a guy to replace me who I now get to train. He's really nice and my co-workers really like him. I'm trying my very best to not be too bitter about this.

― Bryan (Bryan), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:17 (twenty-two years ago)

They sacked you, and you have to train your replacement? Teach him everything ALL WRONG. In ways that are very subtle and will take forever for other people to realise. Unbelievable.

― kate (kate), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:19 (twenty-two years ago)

For some reason catching up on the last 100 or so posts on this thread has made me feel more positive about life. I don't mean I am getting pleasure out of the suffering of others - I suspect it's something to do with feeling happy that people I like and care about are opening up, to me and to others.

I don't know if there's any point in consoling individuals, but you're pretty much all ace, and I hope everyone who's feeling down finds the strength, motivation and luck to become fulfilled and happy again soon.

My worry for the day - that my hip that's hurting more and more when I play sport is suffering from something akin to Chris V's - and I'm a year older. Sigh.

― Mark C (Mark C), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:19 (twenty-two years ago)

Jesus, again. Best of luck man. What does "upgraded" mean in this context? It looks like the most inappropriate euphemism ever.

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:21 (twenty-two years ago)

:*(

― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:21 (twenty-two years ago)

They decided they needed someone in my position with a lot more experience, and due to fiscal constraints they couldn't keep me along with the new guy. I was giving serious consideration to leaving soon anyway, but it still stinks.

― Bryan (Bryan), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:25 (twenty-two years ago)

If you don't have enough experience, WHY are they making you train him? I'd refuse. Well, obviously it's not that simple. But my coworker applied for the job of her immediate superior last year, having filled in for 6 months already. She didn't get the job, but had to train the guy who did, and has had NO reward for any of it.

― Archel (Archel), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:36 (twenty-two years ago)

He just needs to know specifically what I do, and I'll have to continue with my normal work up until the end of August, by which time I am expected to have another job. They're giving me a good reference (v. important) and giving me all the time I need to go to interviews, etc. I have about 3 years of experience and this new guy has somewhere over 10 years. Our new CFO and I weren't clicking, so I have to go! The funny thing is that I was already feeling like life had no point and other stupid shit like that as it was. It was a very interesting weekend. I'm absolutely miserable, but I don't think I'm truly suicidal.

― Bryan (Bryan), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:44 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm sorry, Bryan. One time I had this job as a receptionist in a government office, but it turned out I was basically EVERYONE's assistant so I had like 10 bosses. A higher position came open in the department, so I applied for it. I already did all of that work anyway, so they wouldn't have to teach me at all. The only difference was that I would get paid more and get benefits. But they gave the job to someone else and then made me train him AND my replacement when I finally quit.

But that was just a temporary (uh, 2 year) job, so I know it sucks for worse for you. Good luck.

Cozen/David, I really do hope you can pull through this.

I am unhappy for the silliest of reasons today - I don't get this new search feature on ILX. All I want to do is find that thread about NA and I moving and I feel helpless.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:50 (twenty-two years ago)

All these stories, and you wonder why I don't apply for the developer job here? With ILX luck, I'd not only not get it, but have to train the developer they DO hire. In which case, I'd tell him/her everything wrong and have him/her fuck up the database and the server in ways they never imagine. I am a revengeful beast.

― kate (kate), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 12:55 (twenty-two years ago)

yr evil kate ;-)

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:00 (twenty-two years ago)

You have no idea. "Oh, but we always clear off the server at the end of every month! Go on, delete it all, we've already made a backup!"

― kate (kate), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:03 (twenty-two years ago)

Hehe. Kate, if you apply for the developer job and don't get it, at least you can blame yr employers for being idiots. If you don't even apply for it then you can can only blame yrself...

― Archel (Archel), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:05 (twenty-two years ago)

I should say I'm all depressive and so on, and so that little setback I mentioned before was making me feel completely useless and hopelessly setupon, being cut out of a paper at uni isn't actually the main thing. BUT I'm in it now, anyway. Pop Music Production. Yay! I'm a little annoyed that it looks like a song'll have to be cut off early on the tape I'm doing for Luna, but hopefully she'll forgive me.

― Andrew Thames (Andrew Thames), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:14 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm with you Sarah, I really don't get the new ilx search feature either. I thought I was the only one and that I was a complete dumbass to be honest. Can someone please help? How on earth do you access specific posts? Maybe I am dumb.

― Lovester (Lovester), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:58 (twenty-two years ago)

Sarah: if you started the thread, can you remember what category you put it in?

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:19 (twenty-two years ago)

If fact, here you go:

This is the thread where NA and Sarah McLusky maybe move to another city (Do not read if you find us excessively twee)

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:20 (twenty-two years ago)

Also, the link down the bottom of New Answers that says Show All Updated Threads, while it doesn't do what it says, does go quite far back (about a week right now).

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:28 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm unhappy right now because this will probably be the last night my daddy will be alive.

I'm not feeling anything right now. I'm too numb and too exhausted to. But I have a feeling I'm in for one hell of a breakdown in the near future. And woe to the person who dares even slight me in the least, because I *will* be a Superbitch on Wheels from now on for a good while.

This may be a good time for someone to put Hillary Rosen in front of me....

― Just Deanna (Dee the Lurker), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:25 (twenty-two years ago)

or jody beth rosen. good thoughts yr way, dee.

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:29 (twenty-two years ago)

because i can't remember the last time i felt so isolated from other people. (not alienated per se, because i WANT to connect, ostensibly.)

― strongo hulkington (dubplatestyle), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:30 (twenty-two years ago)

because i realized that i wasted 3 years of my life getting a post-grad degree in a career full of people that i have come to hate, in an occupation that i have come to hate for countless reasons, in a specialty that a certain dimwit in DC is working hard to make obsolete and doing work that not only did not require this very expensive post-grad degree but probably don't even require a fucking high school diploma.

millar is right -- higher education is a rip-off.

― Tad (llamasfur), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:32 (twenty-two years ago)

That's awful, Dee. I'm so sorry.
You can use me as a verbal punching bag if you like.

― oops (Oops), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:32 (twenty-two years ago)

millar is right -- higher education is a rip-off.

It's a god damned racket is what it is. Check it - at least you're not running around the Mideast with a master's in engineering from the US and nobody to hire you for anything but translator duty. Now that would be a wad of shit.

― Millar (Millar), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:57 (twenty-two years ago)

dee I'm really sorry about that... hope you are OK. you have my thoughts.

― s1utsky (slutsky), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 03:09 (twenty-two years ago)

I don't know whether to feel happy and relived because I know that I'm getting sacked, so I can go on the dole for a while - or if I'm angry and frustrated because I feel totally misunderstood and misrepresented because so many of the things that are supposedly "disciplinary problems" are the management structure of this office being FUCKING STUPID.

― kate (kate), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 07:56 (twenty-two years ago)

Dee, I know you'll get past this. In the interim, we're all thinking strong for you. you know?

― Texas Sam (thatgirl), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 07:59 (twenty-two years ago)

my prayers are with you now, dee.

― Tad (llamasfur), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 08:01 (twenty-two years ago)

mine, too, dee - not that i ever actually pray, but if good thoughts are the same thing, then you got 'em

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 08:20 (twenty-two years ago)

you know I'm here for you, sweets, *hugs*

― luna (luna.c), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 08:22 (twenty-two years ago)

*good thoughts for dee*

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 08:22 (twenty-two years ago)

Much love to Dee. The world isn't fair - the people who live in it must try and make it fairer.

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 08:55 (twenty-two years ago)

I'd like to echo Andrew. Take care Dee xxx

― Archel (Archel), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 09:00 (twenty-two years ago)

Virtual hugs to Dee...

Kate, Do you know how much longer you have before the job ends?

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 11:49 (twenty-two years ago)

Because the thread about NA and I moving has dropped off the bottom of the New Answers page and I'm basically the only one posting to it.

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 13:04 (twenty-two years ago)

Because a close friend of mine might be pregnant and this is ridiculously stupid being as the baby is probably already a coke fiend and her and her boyfriend are on sketchy terms half the time.

― Ally (mlescaut), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 16:29 (twenty-two years ago)

I got a speeding ticket on the way down to Austin today. :( I told the trooper my AC was out and I was trying to get a breeze going. But I was nervous as hell and laughed as I said it b/c I knew that was a hella lame excuse. He just looked at me.

― Texas Sam (thatgirl), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 21:09 (twenty-two years ago)

Cuz this girl that broke up with me cuz she wasn't comfortable with having been friends with my son's momma or something apparently isn't at all opposed to stripping naked in front of a bunch of people we've both been friends with for a very long time. This makes me upset in a variety of ways, honestly.

Cuz, with some thanks to the drummer in my band among a couple other folks, some weird female teenage tweakers have been coming to my house. They're actually not bad people, but I kinda don't want them in my house, and they keep coming over.

Cuz I saw my son's momma last night when I had been drinking and she could tell I was upset and she kept asking and I couldn't tell her about any of it, and then I just panicked and slammed my beer and high-tailed it out of there. This makes me upset cuz she unlike many people I know "gets" me, and I really wanted to talk with her about it, but it just wasn't the kinda thing I could discuss with her.

There's actually more, but I'm going over to the "why are you happy?" thread to try to balance this out.

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Thursday, 24 July 2003 13:09 (twenty-two years ago)

I have no fucking money again, wtf?

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 24 July 2003 18:47 (twenty-two years ago)

I know I write badly and don't express myself well so it's probably my own fault, but I get kind of bummed when people misrepresent something I've written in order to make a point.

― Larcole (Nicole), Thursday, 24 July 2003 18:56 (twenty-two years ago)

I know of course no-one could ever have such a bad time in a job as Kate obviously but mine is as boring and dulll as all shite and it gets me down, although I am applying for other jobs. I threw today off because I couldn't bear to get up to go into it and I thought I had an excuse cos I left early the other day. I've spent most of today under blankets staring into space. I am turning to bad solutions to get myself out of funks and white noise. I am turning into even MORE of a twat.

But now I'm happy cos James Hewitt: Story of a Cad is on, haha.

― Sarah (starry), Thursday, 24 July 2003 19:06 (twenty-two years ago)

Because certain magazines are cockfarmers. Becuase I'm sick of my work confidence shattering every time I get a tiny set back. Because I feel fat. Because I hate my wanker housemate and he left a knife in a really stupid place in the drying rack and I cut myself on it. Because my nerves are jangling and I really want a large spliff and I'm watching my phone for my 'friend' to tell me he's outside and the set up is making me feel like a junkie even though it's only weed.

― Anna (Anna), Thursday, 24 July 2003 19:10 (twenty-two years ago)

Mother of fuck fuckers at my work place just changed the insurance plan to cost a LOT more out of fucking pocket and this just increases my never-going-to-the-doctor resolve and fucks me over for prescriptions I need WHEN I DIE I'LL BLAME THEM. I'm in the process of making like 3 appts for next week so that I won't have to pay like triple the fucking out of pocket, what the hell? Nice to know I work for fuckers who can afford to go to $5000 dinners with each other but won't shell out for the employees...it is increasingly senseless to stay here.

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 25 July 2003 18:42 (twenty-two years ago)

It seems like today I've had a thousand little crushing disappointments; if I didn't have so many of them I could probably shrug them off, but collectively they've made me feel so depressed and sad. It's been a long time since I've felt this hopeless.

― Larcole (Nicole), Friday, 25 July 2003 18:46 (twenty-two years ago)

On the one hand, there are nice things coming up (lo9ts of good ILX events). But one friend broke up with the woman he loves, another seems to have lost the man she loves and is in physical as well as mental pain, and I spent part of this afternoon talking to a colleague at work whose goddaughter is dying. The doctors have just officially given up on trying to save her. This girl is 19, and dying of rampant cancer. It's torturing all the people close to her, of course. Unimaginably horrible stuff.

I try to find words for all of these people, but what do you say? I feel so inadequate to such situations. And answering the thread question, I can't really weigh meeting some friends for a drink tomorrow against this kind of thing.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Friday, 25 July 2003 20:58 (twenty-two years ago)

because "you fooling around/with my feelings/has been too hard"

― strongo hulkington (dubplatestyle), Friday, 25 July 2003 21:02 (twenty-two years ago)

Today was like the worst day I've ever had since moving to Maryland. I'm not even going to talk about but I will tell you that my next car if I ever get another one at all will be some anonymous boxy asian go-cart with a warranty longer than a Hulk dong. Fuck this boutique bullshit.

― Millar (Millar), Friday, 25 July 2003 21:15 (twenty-two years ago)

surely the fact that i'm quoting electroclash lyrics in reference to my love life means i have gone over the edge

― strongo hulkington (dubplatestyle), Friday, 25 July 2003 21:17 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I did lousy in a job interview this morning. I don't want the job in question, but interviews have been so few and far between. It's the sort of thing that gets me thnking again that Dorothy Parker is my fairy godmother.

― j.lu (j.lu), Friday, 25 July 2003 21:21 (twenty-two years ago)

I don't think I'll be able to go back for my dad's 50th birthday.

― Ally (mlescaut), Monday, 28 July 2003 18:27 (twenty-two years ago)

What part of Maryland did you move to, Millar?

I have been unhappy because of my job. My boss snapped at me some more today. The he made fun of me because I was scared when I found out I'd have to get an injection tomorrow before my x-ray. I wasn't even going to tell him about that, but he heard me on the phone talking about it and was like, "What's going on?!?" Grrr. Is nothing private any more? Well, anyway, I'm not telling him about my upcoming trip to Philly. And one day I'll quit. So there.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Monday, 28 July 2003 19:05 (twenty-two years ago)

My checking account is $45 in the red because of an automatic payment that was higher than I expected and I don't get paid until Friday and my Visa went missing and nobody takes Discover. I have like two dollars cash on me. Would anybody like to take me out to eat?

― Millar (Millar), Monday, 28 July 2003 19:25 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm about to fail a test I cannot go to the birthday my mom's car broke again this is all so useless maybe I can throw myself in front of the train instead of take the test I feel like I'm going to throw up why did everything go wrong today wtf. AND GODDAMN YOU SUNBURN.

― Ally (mlescaut), Monday, 28 July 2003 20:00 (twenty-two years ago)

I thought I was having a bad day, but reading these posts I've realized I've got fairly little to complain about. That doesn't make me happy, but kind of puts things in perspective. Best of luck to everybody.

― Anthony Miccio (Anthony Miccio), Monday, 28 July 2003 21:06 (twenty-two years ago)

Ally, What was your test in?

I've said it before and I'll say it again - I have to get a shot today and I am freaking out!

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 13:34 (twenty-two years ago)

surely the fact that i'm quoting electroclash lyrics in reference to my love life means i have gone over the edge

the fact you're quoting electroclash lyrics at all is a bad thing jess

― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 13:42 (twenty-two years ago)

Good luck Sarah! Squeeze your eyes shut tight and think of kittens!

― Archel (Archel), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 13:44 (twenty-two years ago)

It was in logic, Sarah. I might've pulled off a C though.

― Ally (mlescaut), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 13:49 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh, I am unhappy because I have no money. Literally none. None in the purse, none in the bank, no more overdraft to cane, ditto credit card. Actually, I'm not unhappy so much as in a blind panic. It's not as if I have even SPENT anything for MONTHS. Stupid extortionate rent and low wages.

― Archel (Archel), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 13:49 (twenty-two years ago)

To: Jody Beth Rosen, oops, s1utsky, Texas Sam, Tad, Dave Stelfox, luna, Julio Desouza, Andrew Farrell, Archel, and Sarah McLusky

Thank you. Immensely. Tremendously. *hugest hugs*

The only source of my unhappiness right now is that I haven't been able to drag myself out of bed today! I did get to watch "The Screen Savers" on Tech TV, yes, but I was just lying there in bed watching it! I would like to move about and do a million things, but no, can't. Just have only managed to put on a casual blouse and some blue jeans. This means I need to drag myself away from the computer and do some hustling around.

― Just Deanna (Dee the Lurker), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 14:07 (twenty-two years ago)

Hustle! ~~Report back regularly!~~

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 14:22 (twenty-two years ago)

I can't find the 'Why Are You Happy?' thread but, quite aptly after my last post, I'll say it here instead:

I just found out that my job IS getting regraded and therefore I WILL get a pay rise from 1st August! Obviously being grumpy and hungover at the meeting yesterday helped my case - I must have seemed like one not be messed with! Perhaps I won't die in a poorhouse after all...

― Archel (Archel), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 15:08 (twenty-two years ago)

Yay Archel! well done you! so does that mean we can all celebrate on sat?? does it? ;-)

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 15:10 (twenty-two years ago)

Ooh... I dunno. Tim said observers would be chucked out at some point, didn't he? That doesn't sound like fun...

― Archel (Archel), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 15:13 (twenty-two years ago)

Observers will be relocated to the final pub, surely.

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 15:25 (twenty-two years ago)

Yeah but I wanna stay and watch PP win! Haha I just don't know yet, I'll decide later in the week.

― Archel (Archel), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 15:27 (twenty-two years ago)

The final is at the final pub, so everyone gets to vote for the winner, I believe.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 17:18 (twenty-two years ago)

I haven't been getting many emails lately.

(But who am I kidding? I'm ecstatic to be done with the doctor's! And I only have an hour left at work today.)

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Tuesday, 29 July 2003 19:03 (twenty-two years ago)

Cos I overslept real badly today and I'm on my fucking period again and goddamn look my boss is not in AGAIN, real worthwhile for me to come into work, isn't it. Also no goddamned coffee so I gotta run get some.

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 31 July 2003 12:40 (twenty-two years ago)

Cuz yesterday I begged my mom to watch my son so that I could rehearse with my band (we hadn't rehearsed in like a week and we have 3 shows in the next week) and go hang out at a luau with my friend K3vin who has been going through some majorly tough bullshit and he wanted me to come down and help him keep his shit together, and after we got done with rehearsal our drummer R0n was supposed to help our bass player J1mmy move out of his apartment, as this was the last day he had to get stuff out of there, but then R0n blew J1mmy off to go hang with these underage girls, so I went to help J1mmy move his stuff, and half-way through lifting a washing machine into the back of my truck R0n calls all like "what are you doing?" and I'm like "I'm helping J1mmy move, remember?" and he's like "Sorry I can't come help, I've got a couch in my van and I can't get it out of here by myself" and I'm like "Don't worry about it, we've got it under control" while thinking 'Oh, but leaving J1mmy to move all his shit by himself is A-OK with ya though right?', and this is about midnight:30, I've just watched my window of opportunity to hang with my bwoy K3v1n, and right then K3v1n calls me all drunkenly like: "HEY MANG WHAT ARE YOU DOIN? I'M DOWN HERE WAITIN FO YA! I TALKED R0N INTO COMING DOWN HERE!" and at this point I said "Fuck it, J1mmy, let's go get some beer and go to my house". S'um like dat.

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Thursday, 31 July 2003 12:54 (twenty-two years ago)

The only thing harshing my buzz today is work. Our bosses decided our international database had to be harmonised with the American database, with the result that about half the more useful figures have completely vanished. My job for the next 6 months will be telling journalists "No, we don't have that really basic information. Yeah, shit, aren't we?"

This isn't actually unhappiness tho and doesn't compare to any of your real actual problems, sorry.

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:00 (twenty-two years ago)

What was the rationale for losing said figures exactly?

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:05 (twenty-two years ago)

Harmonisation Ned. The clients wanted the same interfaces for Europe and America, which they have now (almost) got but in the process a lot of detail I found very useful has been lost. 8 small-to-medium markets speaking different languages need a different approach from 1 enormous market speaking one primary language, but fucking about with things gives the illusion of change to the highest-ups I suppose.

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:08 (twenty-two years ago)

This happened when Marathon became Snickers as well... all hell broke loose!

― Matt DC (Matt DC), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:10 (twenty-two years ago)

fucking about with things gives the illusion of change to the highest-ups I suppose

Heh, Tom...I could say things about my experience at UCI's library in that regard, positive and negative, but I will refrain. ;-)

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:11 (twenty-two years ago)

Ned: "In the interests of harmonisation, UCI's library now only stocks one enormous book"
Library User: *reads* "The Lord of the Rings feat.Finnegans Wake, Remembrance of Things Past and Porky's: The Novel — hmmm handy!!"

― mark s (mark s), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:17 (twenty-two years ago)

At times, I think this would be ideal, actually.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:24 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh yay my dad broke his fucking collarbone! Aces! This day is sweet!

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:26 (twenty-two years ago)

! That fucking sucks! How is he doing?

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:28 (twenty-two years ago)

I am unhappy because the fucking Post Office have lost the CD containing the final mix of the Shirokuma single TWICE on its way down to the mastering studio. Idiots.

― Lynskey (Lynskey), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:31 (twenty-two years ago)

He's all casted up I suppose. I don't really know, they were in the emergency room.

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:34 (twenty-two years ago)

Dodgy kebab last night.

― Nick Southall (Nick Southall), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:36 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm slightly pissed off rather than unhappy. The reason why is that the other day I left a small vase of flowers on a table.

I live in a flat-share. The person who holds the lease on the flat pointed out when I moved in that she was very attached to her "modern antique" table and I should take care with it. I made sure I didn't put hot items on it, hot drinks, glasses of red wine, etc. Now it turns out that it's been discoloured by the small amount of water on the outside of the vase. Obviously I am sorry for this, but it's led me to being labelled as thoughtless - that I "don't truly think about the implications of a particular action or behavior". Bah.

― Alan (Alan), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:37 (twenty-two years ago)

What's "modern antique"?

― Tim (Tim), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:39 (twenty-two years ago)

I got chewed up by my mother for doing this very thing once Alan (I think mine was a can of coke not a vase of flowers but anyway) - it is a method of table-damaging which many are unaware of I think :(

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:41 (twenty-two years ago)

Any table that cannot cope with a bit of water is a rubbish table that has no right to the name.

― Furniture Militant RickyT (RickyT), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:49 (twenty-two years ago)

Yes Alan you should considerately pour a gallon of water over the whole thing and then it will be uniform once more.

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:50 (twenty-two years ago)

"post office have lost the CD" => have you looked on napster?

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:51 (twenty-two years ago)

im upset cos i always come out looking ugly in photos but when i look in the mirror i know im money. sigh, somedays you are the pigeon, and somedays you are the statue, i guess

― Bob Shaw (Bob Shaw), Thursday, 31 July 2003 13:54 (twenty-two years ago)

"modern antique" => Restoration Hardware-style overpriced fake antiques like on that episode of Friends (is what I assume you mean) => pouring a gallon of water over it is part of the original "stressing" process => "Tom" is Martha Stewart on the lam.

― chester (synkro), Thursday, 31 July 2003 15:47 (twenty-two years ago)

The cricket :(

― jel -- (jel), Thursday, 31 July 2003 15:51 (twenty-two years ago)

Well my dad is back from hospital, v. laid up and unable to work for quite a while probably...update for the one person who actually cared.

― Ally (mlescaut), Thursday, 31 July 2003 17:21 (twenty-two years ago)

Hope he heals up quick. *sends good thoughts* How's his medical leave through work, or should I even ask?

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Thursday, 31 July 2003 17:24 (twenty-two years ago)

I hope he starts feeling better soon, Ally.

― Larcole (Nicole), Thursday, 31 July 2003 17:26 (twenty-two years ago)

joins chorus, baritone

― gabbneb (gabbneb), Thursday, 31 July 2003 17:33 (twenty-two years ago)

louder baritone

― Millar (Millar), Thursday, 31 July 2003 19:28 (twenty-two years ago)

Because I've been editing some appallingly poorly written stuff. How is it these f*ckers are employed when they couldn't write clearly to save their own lives? Whereas most of the resumes I send out seem to disappear into black holes.

― j.lu (j.lu), Friday, 1 August 2003 02:21 (twenty-two years ago)

hugs julia. Have you tried for a federal civilian job yet? I suspect there are many people who might hire you given certain references - and offer you a highfalutin clearance as well. I would be glad to help out. E-mail me.

― Millar (Millar), Friday, 1 August 2003 02:50 (twenty-two years ago)

I do not want to work for the federal government. I say this because both my parents worked for the feds, and the more I learn about their employment practices the more appalled I am.

― j.lu (j.lu), Friday, 1 August 2003 02:56 (twenty-two years ago)

I guess the downside of being silly a lot of the time is being patronized and having your concerns dismissed when you're being serious. Here, there, and everywhere...

― Larcole (Nicole), Friday, 1 August 2003 14:52 (twenty-two years ago)

:-(

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 1 August 2003 14:57 (twenty-two years ago)

I don't think gabbneb or I meant to be patronizing at all, if that's what you're referring to

― Millar (Millar), Friday, 1 August 2003 15:02 (twenty-two years ago)

Millar, I don't even know what you're referring to so don't worry about it.

― Larcole (Nicole), Friday, 1 August 2003 15:03 (twenty-two years ago)

Not unhappy now, but was pretty depressed last night after working for 12 hours and then being too tired to go to Charlottesville for the Smog show and meet hstencil. Made me feel old and lame because I've been looking forward to it for months and it was the second show in July (along with Blood Brothers) that I ended up not going to because I was "too tired." I'm moving into an old folks home.

― NA (Nick A.), Friday, 1 August 2003 16:20 (twenty-two years ago)

Nick, Stop being grumpy this instant! You're not old. If you're old, then I'm really old. Also, you forgot to mention me keeping you up last night with all my throwing up...

Ally, I just read the thread updates. I'm sorry about your dad. Didn't you mention that he has a birthday coming up?

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Friday, 1 August 2003 17:28 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm so unhappy.

― David. (Cozen), Friday, 1 August 2003 18:17 (twenty-two years ago)

:(
I'm sorry, David.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Friday, 1 August 2003 18:23 (twenty-two years ago)

Unhappy cuz I'm recently realizing that the nickalicious that once was (trusting, full of love, unconditionally optimistic, etc) has been eaten, digested, shat, and flushed down the drain by a cynical, pessimistic frustrated stress-bucket.

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Friday, 1 August 2003 18:23 (twenty-two years ago)

Et tu, NZA?

― oops (Oops), Friday, 1 August 2003 18:41 (twenty-two years ago)

Julius Caesar passes Brutus in the high school cafeteria. Brutus is in line to get his lunch, and Julius is walking past. Brutus says "what's for lunch today?" and Julius says "cheeseburgers". Brutus asks "how many did you eat?" and Julius says "et tu, Brute".

*ba-dum-pum*

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Friday, 1 August 2003 18:45 (twenty-two years ago)

DH - I totally agreed with you about something the other day, where you were in the minority. Don't remember what, though. Life really does go on, though you have some agency in the process. < /condescending>

― gabbneb (gabbneb), Friday, 1 August 2003 19:16 (twenty-two years ago)

Thanks.

I just wish she'd open up and fucking talk to me. Just sit me down and tell me, yeah, this *is* where it went wrong and stop fucking running away and stop being so callous and I am as upset as I've ever been because I could never think of the day when Katy wouldn't love me and now she just ups and leaves. Like that. And you know what, Katy? That is really, really unfair. Despite you wanting to be just friends, well, you have to respect me as an adult. And I know that is a bit rich coming from the kid who patented 'immature' but you really do have to treat me like the boy you've been going out with, sleeping with, living with for the past 3 years. Treat me like that and I'll only be short of understanding through idiocy not through distance and lack and want. You know? You are being so unfair.

Open letter, whatever.

― David. (Cozen), Friday, 1 August 2003 23:22 (twenty-two years ago)

And, you know what, well I don't swear much, yeah so?, but part of me just wants to turn around and say 'fuck. you.' But you know why I don't because etched in hope on my heart is your name, perfect as water.

Yeah, that's why.

― David. (Cozen), Friday, 1 August 2003 23:27 (twenty-two years ago)

God that's appalling. I wish you all the best.

― Matt (Matt), Saturday, 2 August 2003 00:21 (twenty-two years ago)

Sweet fuck. Computer things went boom, had to reformat drive, reinstall Windows, will be spending the rest of the night and tomorrow and etc. re-downloading software and restoring from backup.

― Tep (ktepi), Sunday, 3 August 2003 08:01 (twenty-two years ago)

Because Immigration won't give my girlfriend a student visa and I'm going to be able to see her twice a year until 2006. Help.

― Mike Stuchbery, Sunday, 3 August 2003 08:49 (twenty-two years ago)

Lost my notebook on the pub crawl last night (the bright yellow one if you saw it) - it had all the notes for a presentation I'm doing for work next month, and it had an untranscribed article for the FT relaunch which I won't have the time or wit to rewrite. Sigh.

― Tom (Groke), Sunday, 3 August 2003 08:56 (twenty-two years ago)

Because things aren't the way I want them to be and I don't know that they ever will be.

― luna (luna.c), Sunday, 3 August 2003 09:05 (twenty-two years ago)

Because Immigration won't give my girlfriend a student visa and I'm going to be able to see her twice a year until 2006. Help.

! :-(

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Sunday, 3 August 2003 13:50 (twenty-two years ago)

Sudden attack of self-doubt.

― Tom (Groke), Monday, 4 August 2003 13:31 (twenty-two years ago)

Go Tom, it's your birthday,
it's not your birthday... Go Tom!

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Monday, 4 August 2003 17:29 (twenty-two years ago)

My just-rescued computer seems to be dying. I've got a lot of work to do and wouldn't be able to replace it for another couple weeks at the earliest, I don't think.

― Tep (ktepi), Monday, 4 August 2003 17:40 (twenty-two years ago)

The laundry room flooded and seeped out into my hallway. If I hadn't skipped out of work early and closed all the valves to the washing machine who knows what else might have been soaked. Fuck this shit in the ass with a bent streetlight.

― Millar (Millar), Monday, 4 August 2003 18:55 (twenty-two years ago)

Well it's all mopped up now and the landlady has homeowner's insurance so they can fix whatever damage was done to the flooring, my bathroom is no longer flooded, and my carpet and bathmat are in the dryer. The washing machine's still unusable but I have plenty of underwear left and Luke went to go grab some beers. So it's cool.

― Millar (Millar), Monday, 4 August 2003 20:10 (twenty-two years ago)

There have been a lot of downers in this thread, some truly affecting and my heart has gone out to a fair few.

I'm unhappy that I spend many of my waking moments on the verge of tears, that I wanted better things from uni and didn't get them, sapping my desire to get a decent degree in the process and settling for a past, that my mother continues to demean my experiences there (so, you went to Dublin. Big deal. Geography is not an issue). That my brother is an arrogant, self-obsessed, spiteful fool playing at being someone he wasn't and that I put a hole through mum's bedroom wall when punching at him last week (I hadn't punched him since we were kids or anyone else in about four years)-any fixing tips, ILX? I'm disappointed that my 'group' don't call me outside of my best mate and his ex-flatmate, who are both away. I'm worried my best mate joining the army will effectively end our friendship/brotherly bond as we know it, especially when we stopped being in the same place when I started Manchester. I consider myself a romantic failure at age 21, which is stupid-possibly I just don't try, possibly because my introvertedness renders me incapable of kicking into attractive extrovert mode, possibly because I may not be as bothered about being single as I tell myself but still crave that kind of interaction. I don't know where I'm going in life, I'm broke and unemployed as yet, I'm too sensitive and occasionally let other people define me without realising right off that they're partially wrong. And worse, I know after writing this I'll be thinking about how petty and insignificant and solveable these issues are and feel silly for taking up bandwith.

― Barima (Barima), Tuesday, 5 August 2003 03:18 (twenty-two years ago)

*hug*

― oops (Oops), Tuesday, 5 August 2003 07:26 (twenty-two years ago)

*Hugs back* Thanks.

― Barima (Barima), Tuesday, 5 August 2003 10:09 (twenty-two years ago)

Because there are too many hours in the day.

― Cozen (Cozen), Tuesday, 5 August 2003 10:09 (twenty-two years ago)

The answer to my "which bus do I take?" question is "the other bus," since there are, as it turns out, two Route 1 busses, with only a handful of stops in common. I ended up on the wrong end of campus at the wrong time, and walked around for half an hour before getting to class.

― Tep (ktepi), Friday, 8 August 2003 16:28 (twenty-two years ago)

fuck today, fuck my job, fuck this car, fuck the mess they've made of my fucking house and fuck the government and fuck most of America not to mention the rest of the world including the little animals and all the fucking pretty flowers. Fuck the higher education system and the credit card companies, fuck hollywood and fuck you too. Fuck me because apparently getting REALLY REALLY UNBELIEVABLY ANGRY is the only way I can get anything done sometimes. I'm out to start looking for some clothes to wear to my job interviews and then I'm going to come back and work on my resume while Luke is out drinking because fuck The Rapture on Wedensday nights too. First I'm going to take a fucking shower. Fuck.

― Millar (Millar), Wednesday, 13 August 2003 19:35 (twenty-two years ago)

I can help you find some job interview clothes.

― Ally (mlescaut), Wednesday, 13 August 2003 19:38 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm sad because our rabbit died yesterday.

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 14 August 2003 08:23 (twenty-two years ago)

Aww tom that's harsh!

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 14 August 2003 08:25 (twenty-two years ago)

You mean you're pregnant?

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Thursday, 14 August 2003 08:29 (twenty-two years ago)

Kenan - wtf?

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 14 August 2003 08:30 (twenty-two years ago)

Well, she didn't suffer and was v. happy and lively right up to her last morning - she had to go under general anaesthetic to find out what was wrong with her eye and she reacted badly and died. Anyway to avoid choking up at work I will not post again about her! :)

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 14 August 2003 08:32 (twenty-two years ago)

*HUGS*

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 14 August 2003 08:41 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm truly sorry. I've lost a lot of pets, and it's always sad and difficult. Sorry about the joke there.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Thursday, 14 August 2003 08:48 (twenty-two years ago)

No worries Kenan!

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 14 August 2003 09:00 (twenty-two years ago)

Sorry Tom :(

On a similar note, I am unhappy because Matt's parents' dog died, completely unexpectedly. He had a heart defect which nobody knew about, but he was only young still.

What do you do when people's pets die? Send flowers? I want to do something because Matt's mum is really upset... but they live miles away so we can't give her hugs or anything.

― Archel (Archel), Thursday, 14 August 2003 09:09 (twenty-two years ago)

Flowers, yes. Why not? There's hardly anything that can't be at least slightly improved with a nice flower arrangement.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Thursday, 14 August 2003 09:11 (twenty-two years ago)

And plus, you'll be one of the only people to send flowers for the dog. Extra special.

― Kenan Hebert (kenan), Thursday, 14 August 2003 09:12 (twenty-two years ago)

flowers are a nice thought Archel definitely.
for tom.
http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=tbn:bBolM4YoCZYC:www.lorientale.com/italia/creazioni/fseta/foto/single%2520gerbera%2520ct-5016.jpg

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 14 August 2003 09:15 (twenty-two years ago)

Thanks!

(I have written something on the Brown Wedge for further rabbit grieving action.)

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 14 August 2003 09:23 (twenty-two years ago)

my rabbit doed of fly strike a while back and it was shit - my sympathies

― james (james), Thursday, 14 August 2003 09:46 (twenty-two years ago)

Tom, that's so sweet/sad! You have my sympathies. Be grateful you don't live on a hobbyfarm maybe, sometimes it seems like a beloved pet dies every damn week.

― Andrew Thames (Andrew Thames), Thursday, 14 August 2003 10:49 (twenty-two years ago)

My sympathies, Tom. Losing a pet is always hard.

― Larcole (Nicole), Thursday, 14 August 2003 11:44 (twenty-two years ago)

Tom, I'm really sorry. I love bunnies.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Thursday, 14 August 2003 11:44 (twenty-two years ago)

sad cos I've not got my days off for my holiday next week and yet it's booked and I'll have to go. worried cos I'll look like a dosser, as per. also guilty.

other than that I am considering my life options but quite happy.

― Ronan (Ronan), Thursday, 14 August 2003 12:04 (twenty-two years ago)

Unfun, Tom. My best indeed.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Thursday, 14 August 2003 12:05 (twenty-two years ago)

sorry to hear about your rabbit tom :(

My cat doesn't seem that well today, been out in the sun too much...and she's very old, and doesn't drink enough. I haven't painted a picture in months, and can't see myself doing so again for a while or ever, the same with making music (thinking of selling my 4-track, and instruments). The desire to create has left me. So, overall I'm a bit unhappy.

― jel -- (jel), Thursday, 14 August 2003 16:57 (twenty-two years ago)

I hope you and your cat are feeling well and happy soon, Jel.

― Larcole (Nicole), Thursday, 14 August 2003 16:59 (twenty-two years ago)

Cuzuv wimminses and their strange not-liking-me ways.

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Thursday, 14 August 2003 17:04 (twenty-two years ago)

On a scale of one to jiggered: my iPod is looking decidedly sad today. :o(

― David. (Cozen), Thursday, 14 August 2003 17:06 (twenty-two years ago)

Jel, I hope you don't end up giving it all up. Even if you haven't felt inspired lately, the fact that you're saddened by getting rid of your equiptment suggests you would be happier in the long run if you kept them.

Sorry to hear about the bunny, Tom.

― Sarah McLusky (coco), Thursday, 14 August 2003 17:06 (twenty-two years ago)

I'm sorry, Tom. And Jel, I hope your cat (and you) do better soon.

― Tep (ktepi), Thursday, 14 August 2003 17:07 (twenty-two years ago)

Jel lock your cat indoors and pour water over her. And don't give up on the creativity - I was feeling completely blah a couple of months ago and now I've got more ideas than I can possibly get to.

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 14 August 2003 17:08 (twenty-two years ago)

Sorry I forgot cats hate water! But getting her out of the sun is a good idea.

― Tom (Groke), Thursday, 14 August 2003 17:09 (twenty-two years ago)

My dad will probably need more surgery tomorrow. They fucked up when they installed the gastric bypass tube a few days ago and now he has some sort of crazy new infection. They'll need to open him up, clean out the mess, and refit the tube. I am happy that I did not get sick from eating honey dill sauce that had been left in the sun, though.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 15 August 2003 02:59 (twenty-two years ago)

hope your dad's surgery goes better tomorrow, bryan.

― The Lady Ms Lurex (lucylurex), Friday, 15 August 2003 03:01 (twenty-two years ago)

Thanks, Di.
I s'pose I should just quit talking about it on here, huh? It's getting kinda old already, and he's more or less going to be like this for the next few months. Poor old fucker.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 15 August 2003 03:09 (twenty-two years ago)

That's what this thread is for. Sorry to hear that, Bryan.

― JuliaA (j_bdules), Friday, 15 August 2003 03:12 (twenty-two years ago)

Julia is quite right. My best, Bryan.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 15 August 2003 03:35 (twenty-two years ago)

Thanks. I just got a call from my mom - they're doing the surgery in a half an hour or so. Should be ok. I hope.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 15 August 2003 03:41 (twenty-two years ago)

Now I'm unhappy because it's too fucking hot to sleep and I keep thinking the phone is going to ring. Hmm... Prescription sleeping pills...

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 15 August 2003 04:25 (twenty-two years ago)

where is my N********t?!!!!

― Orbit (Orbit), Friday, 15 August 2003 04:53 (twenty-two years ago)

Nightlight? Check under the bed.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 15 August 2003 04:55 (twenty-two years ago)

DUDE IF NEDRAGGETT'S UNDER YOUR BED YOU BEST FEEEL DA PHEAR!

― nickalicious lurvs Ned but gots mo luv fo Bryan right now cuz he's my bwoy and h, Friday, 15 August 2003 05:04 (twenty-two years ago)

*blush* Being Orbit's friend all these years is a fine thing, I tells ya! :-)

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 15 August 2003 05:08 (twenty-two years ago)

HAHAHHAHHAAAA!

― Orbit (Orbit), Friday, 15 August 2003 05:09 (twenty-two years ago)

Damn, I just counted out the asterisks, and it *does* equal that! Damba! *laughing and raising another glass of cab to toast all*

― Orbit (Orbit), Friday, 15 August 2003 05:13 (twenty-two years ago)

Wait, you weren't spelling Ned Raggett?

― nickalicious starting to think he may have drank too much again tonight (nickali, Friday, 15 August 2003 05:15 (twenty-two years ago)

No, really (not *consciously, anyway*)

― Orbit (Orbit), Friday, 15 August 2003 05:16 (twenty-two years ago)

Hey, upon reflection, where *is* my N********t? :-)

― Orbit (Orbit), Friday, 15 August 2003 05:19 (twenty-two years ago)

Heh. Very restful and about to get some sleep! G'night all, toast and chat fondly into the wee hours. :-)

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Friday, 15 August 2003 05:22 (twenty-two years ago)

hope it goes OK Bryan.

Sorry to hear it Tom.

jel- Don't give up on making music/painting. Leave it for a while. Maybe you'll start again in a few months.

― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Friday, 15 August 2003 07:26 (twenty-two years ago)

Bryan: good luck honey. Hugs & Kisses! things will be ok.

I'm unhappy cos I just tried to call my goddamned boyfriend and he's out having a smoke break and quite honestly it took me 5 times to get a circuit, he's out of luck if he thinks I'm calling him again.

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 15 August 2003 13:43 (twenty-two years ago)

Things went ok. I knew they would.

― Bryan (Bryan), Friday, 15 August 2003 13:53 (twenty-two years ago)

yay bryan!
I just hit my head on the shelf next to my desk & now my head hurts even more than it did before! :-(

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Friday, 15 August 2003 14:46 (twenty-two years ago)

Missin' my girlfriend...

― Mark C (Mark C), Friday, 15 August 2003 15:17 (twenty-two years ago)

"Ok, Ally, we're all out of here, our car showed up. When you're done rebuilding the spreadsheet, can you do up this compliance book today so I can have on Monday? Thanks! Oh and did you get Pam's phone? Bye!"

― Ally (mlescaut), Friday, 15 August 2003 15:19 (twenty-two years ago)

I managed to burn my arm on some hot oil yesterday & it has blistered & looks horrible. :-( also, estate agents are rubbish.

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Monday, 18 August 2003 10:52 (twenty-two years ago)

'Cept for me!

How is it possible that I got to work 30 minutes early this morning when I still have no boss?!

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Monday, 18 August 2003 11:19 (twenty-two years ago)

Sarah are you an estate agent??

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Monday, 18 August 2003 11:26 (twenty-two years ago)

Ha! Yes, I am a licensed real estate agent, but I work as an assistant instead of trying to live off comission.

― Sarah MCLUsky (coco), Monday, 18 August 2003 11:38 (twenty-two years ago)

Oh I see! Not sure if the process is the same in the UK, but what should happen after offers have been accepted? (i.e. the ppl we are buying from have accepted our offer about 7 weeks ago & they have now had an offer accepted on a house they want to buy, but over a week later, i have heard nothing!)

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Monday, 18 August 2003 11:44 (twenty-two years ago)

I hate these people. With every single fiber of my being I hate these people. I am trying not to but jesus christ it's impossible. My nerves today aren't making this more bearable. STOP FEELING SICK. What in the fuck. I just want to get out and go somewhere else but where exactly?

― Ally (mlescaut), Tuesday, 19 August 2003 19:29 (twenty-two years ago)

because i'm losing my job in 5 weeks and i'm in a down in the dumps cycle whereby i'm too down in the dumps to summon up the requisite enthusiasm to look for a job but because i'm not looking for a job and ph34r unemployment i'm down in the dumps.

― anonymous1, Wednesday, 20 August 2003 11:44 (twenty-two years ago)

Pinkie, I had an offer I put in accepted when buying my flat. Then someone else came in and put in a higher offer, and my offer was un-accepted. Until you have it in writing, nothing is fixed.

I got the flat, but for £7,000 more than I initially had accepted. That sucked.

― Mark C (Mark C), Wednesday, 20 August 2003 11:48 (twenty-two years ago)

Mark! don't go scaring her! Have you instructed your solicitor to do all the searches etc? There will be a period when your solicitor/mortgage provider will be doing all the work, once you've instructed/applied, and there's not much for you to do.

Have you got their phone number? If not, get in touch with the estate agents, and just make sure that everything's in place, and that you can set the ball in motion.

― Vicky (Vicky), Wednesday, 20 August 2003 12:01 (twenty-two years ago)

Thanks for he advice guys. Sadly they have pulled out of the house they wanted to buy, so we are back to waiting for them to find somewhere, which is very frustrating to say the least! Still, hopefully it will all be sorted soon!

― Pinkpanther (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 20 August 2003 12:10 (twenty-two years ago)

My eye problems

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Wednesday, 20 August 2003 16:31 (twenty-two years ago)

The book I was/will be co-editing is likely to be pushed back indefinitely or cancelled cause the publisher is scaling things back drastically and we were only in the planning/solicitation stage. My first and so far only editing experience!

― Tep (ktepi), Wednesday, 20 August 2003 16:41 (twenty-two years ago)

Pinkpanther, I agree you should contact your agent. It's his/her job to keep you informed of everything going on every step of the way. If you have any questions, you should ask them. I think agents forget sometimes that buyers don't always know what happens next. Here, after you have a contract signed by both parties, you usually set up a home inspection to make sure the house you plan to buy is structurally sound. Then you can ask the Sellers for repairwork to be done based on the inspection report.

I'm a bit unhappy (though I feel ridiculous being upset on such a pretty Friday) because everyone keeps telling me they can't come to my birthday party. :( I really don't have that many friends anyway, so it's looking more and more like it's gonna be my family, NA, and just a couple other people. I really wanted to have a big party this year! :( :( Which reminds me, if any ILXors have any reason to be in Richmond, VA on September 13th, let me know cuz you'd probably be invited. Just email me for directions.

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Friday, 22 August 2003 12:45 (twenty-two years ago)

I'd come if I could!

I'm unhappy cos I'm not feeling well at all and I really don't want to be at work.

― Ally-zay (mlescaut), Friday, 22 August 2003 12:48 (twenty-two years ago)

Hehe. Who *wouldn't* be invited, Sarah?

― Mark C (Mark C), Friday, 22 August 2003 12:49 (twenty-two years ago)

Let's see... Complete strangers I've never seen post to ILX, Ronald McDonald, anyone else who likes to wear clown costumes, the president, vicious dogs, snakes, serial killers, rapists, Bill O'Reilly, Rush Limbaugh, and anyone else that annoys me. Though, on second thought, it would be pretty funny to have Bush over in my tiny backyard and watch him eat finger foods.

― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Friday, 22 August 2003 13:05 (twenty-two years ago)

serve pretzels!

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Friday, 22 August 2003 13:12 (twenty-two years ago)

erg...WHY THE FUCK DID WESLEY WILLIS HAVE TO DIE!?!?!?

― nickalicious (nickalicious), Friday, 22 August 2003 17:16 (twenty-two years ago)

Wesley Willis is why im sad. We are lost as a society without him. God help us all...

He died for our sins.

― Spinktor the Unmerciful (mawill5), Friday, 22 August 2003 17:17 (twenty-two years ago)

I HAVE NO PIMP JUICE!

― Ally-zay (mlescaut), Friday, 22 August 2003 17:20 (twenty-two years ago)

Who can think of pimp juice at a time like this?!

― Spinktor the Unmerciful (mawill5), Friday, 22 August 2003 17:21 (twenty-two years ago)

Ok, you're right, that was rude but it was why I was unhappy before I heard of this.

― Ally-zay (mlescaut), Friday, 22 August 2003 17:22 (twenty-two years ago)

some ppl really fucked up at work and I have to go kick their ass for it.

― teeny (teeny), Friday, 22 August 2003 17:23 (twenty-two years ago)

1. I'm a curmudgeon.
2. It's hot as fuck today.
3. I don't think an unemployment check showed up this week.

― hstencil, Friday, 22 August 2003 17:24 (twenty-two years ago)

How much do you get for unemployment? (Anyone can answer this if they know)

― Spinktor the Unmerciful (mawill5), Friday, 22 August 2003 17:26 (twenty-two years ago)

$405 a week.

― hstencil, Friday, 22 August 2003 17:29 (twenty-two years ago)

ppl who owe me money are not paying me and i'm coming down with a nasty cold.

― H (Heruy), Friday, 22 August 2003 17:39 (twenty-two years ago)

migraine omg i'm going to throw up

― Ally-zay (mlescaut), Friday, 22 August 2003 19:21 (twenty-two years ago)

Boo! Migraines!! Boo!

― Millar (Millar), Friday, 22 August 2003 19:23 (twenty-two years ago)

I have to go to work now. :(

― Texas Sam (thatgirl), Saturday, 23 August 2003 21:19 (twenty-two years ago)

Hope it goes well as it can, Sam.

Anyway, time to move to a new thread, I think.

― Ned Raggett (Ned), Saturday, 23 August 2003 21:26 (twenty-two years ago)

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