This is the Thread Where I Say Pt 13: Scared Stupid

anybody remember this show?

I have gone blind or the photo never made it.

You say that almost as if it were a bad thing.

Yup. That's how I felt last Sunday around 9 am.

Also it's like a majillion degrees here and I'd really like a margarita. But band practice in a few minutes prevents me. Um. I'm not sure why. Oh, that's right, we don't have margarita makings.

There is a bar across the street that slings them... but it's nasty and anyway I have no moneys. Because I don't work. Catch 22!

I'm listening to, uh, shit, protect my neck. c
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i think i'm learning to like it.

Casuistry, wow. It's much the same down here as it is where you're at. It's not supposed to be that way.

Marillion degrees? Hm. Hm. Hmmmm.

That's all I can think of adding here at this moment.

But it's freaking freezing today. We had insane thunderstorms last night, complete with hail. the boy and I sat on the porch listening to Howlin' Wolf and drinking beer watching it draw close. Love lightning shows. Then when it was cracking over our heads and raining sideways onto the porch we went inside, put on LaVern Baker and uh . . .I'll let you finish that.

now i've got to go home and design a business card and tend to the menagerie. Tonight, the Riverboat Gamblers, wooohoooo!

Today is my cat's fifth birthday.

Over the last two weeks, I've actually tried to focus on getting proper work done for a change. Got personal statements done for 3 of my Masters apps. (Waiting for mates' opinions on 1 of them.) If you listened closely, tilting your head to the South, you might have just heard howls of frustration. Have no hair left to pull out, see. Damn hard to do, six years cold.

Other than that, still educated and jobless. Tis evident the cash and job pool is flowing elsewhere than down here. Bastards. The search goes on.

Enough. How are the rest o' y'all? Squeak up.

Think of your bed as a reward for actually being able to shift yourself.

Today is my cat's fifth birthday.

Bonne anniversaire, meow. May the litter be clean and your company in heat.

two nights again, Slim Cessna's Auto Club in detroit. Great guys, great show, first chance I'd gotten to see them in almost 3 years.

Tonight, avoiding the houseparty that my roommates are throwing.

And I need a haircut.

they're great for rock poses, too. I got about 100+ decent shots of the guys doing various rock things.

"Socket from the Crypt"?! Jeez, how literal.

Almost considered a new thread for this but I'll just let you all "enjoy" it.

Wargh. Well the glasses help set me apart.

Anyway I'm not saying that I couldn't tell you apart, but it was somewhat startling.

can I come?

I got tipsy on the paper's dollar and discussed upcoming pieces I shall write for them. My next feature will basically be a 1200 word blog entry about my kids and music. Easiest. Money. Evah.

And then I'm for the rest of the summer I'm the go-to girl for local bands. which means I'm going to be getting paid for going out and writing about my friends.

word.

off to do so now. cheers.

I've got a journal entry formulating in Notepad at the moment (I usually type up lengthy entries on Notepad first, then cut and paste) but have yet to really complete it. I want to say so much in it but don't know how to phrase certain things and edit others. So I've got a Notepad window open and it's filled with text and I have this thing about keeping windows open that don't really need to be open and so I'll just have to get over that for tonight because as soon as this film is over I'm going to bed.

Somewhere ouside someone is playing the bagpipes and it's driving me nuts.

I need your help. For the story I'm working on I'm going to play some music for 5 or 6 of my kids and talk with them about it. Simple concept with great yield. I'm trying to pick 10 or less songs that cover a lot of different territory and see what prompts the best comments from them. Here's what I have so far:

Tipsy - J-Kwon (example of bad rap)
a track by Mike Jones (example of good rap)
This Love - Maroon 5
Toxic - Britney Spears
Polyphonice Spree track

What else should I include?

I'm thinking a track off of speakerboxx/love below to see what urban black kids think of america's favorite rap group. Maybe a track off the Grey Album. Maybe a Mountain Goats song (to make it up to J0hn for not having heard them before). Possibly something by The Dirtbombs.

what would other ground would be good to cover?

Who are the Distllers Jeanne?

yeah i want to do some country but not sure what. Maybe something more alt-country like pleasant grove.

Oh please oh please oh please oh please.

(And er let me know if you'd like a copy... on Monday I can give you one. Hopefully J0hn won't mind.)

Unfortunately, those last couple of posts I typed out weren't the "hey folks, I'm drunk!" style posts I think might have worked well as a rationalization for how nonsensical said posts were. I think I was just so filled with things to say that I didn't know how exactly to phrase them.

Same for tonight, really, and again I post when I shouldn't even be up. Another early morning wake-up call will be in the cards. Ack. Since when did I get this life?

Sam, good luck with the music project. I'd be no help to you at all since I listen to things that most young teens would probably roll their eyes at, but hopefully it'll all work out for you. Huck, I suppose the one benefit to the hair cut is that hair grows back, but I'm sorry to hear about your impending baldness.

Ok, have to get to sleep. You guys will get a drunk post from me sometime, mark my words. But as for now, you'll have to settle for these semi-unconscious ones.

I can fly standby for free on JetBlue whenever I want, apparently, but since it requires going up to Seattle and they only fly from Seattle to NYC it would require a lot of hassle for me to go anywhere.

that's kind of the point of the article. With the exception of the two rap songs I expect them to hate every single thing I'm playing for them.I'm especially looking forward to writing out their spew of hatred for the Polyphonic Spree. heheh. Chris, I was actually thinking of that Mtn Goats song (didn't realize it was them till yesterday.) how old is it? Jeanne, are the distellers punk-ish?

Dee needs to discover that I35 goes north past Austin.

I *just* got up and showered. I've been sleeping over at Hank's all morning (er afternoon) while he's been productive and refinished furniture and crap. Now I'm about to design a tshirt for one of his bands and then I have to go into work at Sh1ps at 6:30. *sob* I'll be so glad when school is over in two weeks. I cannot put into words how loathesome working till close in a bar then getting up and teaching teenagers is. Surely, it's a form of torture in some part of the world.

For some reason I was both confident and totally anxious about it (it was my first "featured" reading, I read for 30-40 minutes or something). Now it's over! In a few months I may do it again in L.A.!

Mine (on Friday) went really well too. I only did 15 mins. But people even laughed at my 'patter'. And I hate doing patter.

It always amazes me when people have stories of nasty horrid teachers. I think I must've been really lucky as I don't remember any who ever made me feel like shit. And I never say/do anything to my kids to make them feel worthless. (at least I really hope I don't.)

I got lots of work done this morning, and didn't lo onto ILX until lunchtime. Now the lunch hour is over, I'm going to have to try VERY hard to stay away. If you see me back here, shout at me.

(oh, just thought - is DJing at a friend's wedding performing? I did that on Saturday, and it went very well!)

It's got a great interview with kids section in it about current and older pop songs.

Maybe you should play them a hispanic rap song?

I had an odd but fun birthday. Sarah was sick, so she slept basically the entire day. I played Secret of Monkey Island 2 a lot. It was really really lazy and quiet. But then we doped her up on meds and the party started. Jaymc, Kenan, and Todd Swiss of ILX fame came over, as well as an eclectic bunch of others. Our downstairs neighbors, who we'd never met before, brought sundae fixings, which was really nice. We drank a bunch of beer and talked about music.

The Petrified Forest moved into our new practice space yesterday and discovered that the door doesn't lock right. I rigged something up with some nails and we also have a padlock. It's small and dingy but it's ours, dammit. Also yesterday I spent birthday $$$ from my parents on a digital camera (Canon Powershot A75) so expect a flood of Sarah McLusky and NA pix any day now.

This quiet, studious good little girl gave me a slip of paper with her email and it's dev1lgrl (de-googled). hahaha

woohoo!

of course we have to stay all day when they leave early but ala the Simpsons we all go to the lounge and crack open bottles. (j/k) (sorta)

as fuck-ish.

so is that it for your teaching career?

I don't know. I have yet to make up my mind. It looks like staying here if I want is an option though. I was worried my contract wouldn't be extended b/c of me being sick and generally fucking up all semester. also, i thought my prinicpal didn't like me. that turned out not to be true. am waiting now to hear from the board of certification as to whether they'll grant me one more year of temp creditnals (I didn't complete my coursework this year). They don't have to but considering my prinicpal put in a supporting call for me I'm 95% sure they will.

also in my favor 700 teachers are retiring from the district this year and as our head coach/my psuedo-father said, 'who in the hell do you think they're going to get to replace them?' like i've said before i have to remind myself that in this case my employer is grateful that i've taken this job rather than the other way around.

My school never gets experienced teachers as none of them want to work in places like this. the only teachers we get are the nubile ones who don't know any better (like me two years ago).

the kids are taking a nat'l standarized test today (thanks dubya!) so it's a morning of quiet boredom for all of us. I think they would truly prefer beatings to anymore scantron tests at this point.

Sam, I'm okay.
The plethora of new people up in this bitch (this one, the physical work place) has mysteriously upped my workload for at least this week and also, they are all morons. And the new intern is here, and she is no fun.

hey bryan - how are ya?
Sam - that's cool, do you think you'll stay?

Sam: My favorite is running across e-mails like "dev1lgrl" on resumes. Oh, and my roommate was telling me about the lockdown they had at her high school the other day. It was just a drill -- the principal went around with an umbrella "tagging" kids with it, knocking on doors to see if they would be opened, seeing who still had their blinds up, etc., and then passed out a report of how many students were "dead" -- in the 300+ range. His methodology seemed suspect -- are rogue killers really going to go around and knock on classroom doors and only kill those who answer? But I don't know, maybe that's what K1p K1nkel did...

like I said, I have no idea. I'm just concentrating on wrapping up this year, finding ways to alleviate my poverty, finishing my story that's due this week and the million and one band things I have to do. after that, I'll start thinking about the future.

Yesterday, in a couple of sleepy, uncomfortable hours (I was wearing no pants and there was a mosquito in H.'s computer room which made a feast of me) I designed a logo for a band that I'm pretty happy about. Lately the designs I've been turning out just haven't been doing it for me but I think this one was spot-on.

How was everyone else's weekend? tell me fantabulous stories.

are rogue killers really going to go around and knock on classroom doors and only kill those who answer?

Remember Columbine?

We've never had any drills except for weather which, when we had our bomb threat a few weeks ago, proved to be a mistake. (administration in making a mistake non-shockah)

We've went into lockdown twice this year which is always scary. They'll get on the intercom and announce "code blue" and we have to get every student into a classroom, any classroom, quickly and shut the doors. At some point they'll come on the intercom and give us a general idea of the emergency but until then I'm always wondering if there's some nut with a gun loose in the building. The district policies state that we are supposed to lock our doors during a lcckdown but we can't lock ours from the inside so I guess we'd just all die.

(That said if you were going for Columbine II surely you wouldn't copy the details down to that exact level of nuance, just like if you were going for another 9/11 style attack you probably wouldn't use boxcutters even if you did use planes. But, eh, I think I might stop plotting this out now!)

Other shootings that have happened in this area in this past year have included an ex-boyfriend walking into his girl's class and shooting her and a former student coming back in and shooting his teacher.

I believe the two kids at columbine started in the cafeteria and went to the library shooting whoever they saw. Many students only survived by playing dead as the shooters passed them or by lying still under corpses. I'm not sure if they entered classrooms or not. When the swat teams arrived they evacuated students through classroom windows. If there was someone walking around shooting people, I would be very glad to lock my door.

Also, I'm on Dayquila nd I'm LOOOOOOOOOOOPYYYYYYYYYYY.