TiTTWIS Part 37: She Should Have Been a Stunt Car Driver

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This is the Thread Where I Say Pt 36: All the Crazy People Couldn't Hold a Candle to You

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 16:27 (twenty years ago)

HI EVERYBODY!

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 16:34 (twenty years ago)

wahay! hello!
here, have a carrot

― dahlin (dahlin), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 16:43 (twenty years ago)

i don't want a carrot. got any celery?

― Paunchy Stratego (kenan), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 16:44 (twenty years ago)

I want fennel. Or maybe radishes... and picholines.

― M. White (Miguelito), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 17:04 (twenty years ago)

I didn't eat at all today. I think I've really fucked up my life and I don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe move back in with my parents for a couple of months.

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 17:05 (twenty years ago)

Is that why you didn't eat, Huk?

― Kittens Licking Cakes (coco), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 17:07 (twenty years ago)

My stomach's just a frigging knot of nerves and such. I'm not sure if I can eat anything and keep it down right now.

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 17:08 (twenty years ago)

Did you quit your job, Huk?

― jaymc (jaymc), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 17:08 (twenty years ago)

Aw, Huk, that sucks.

― M. White (Miguelito), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 17:11 (twenty years ago)

You should take a vacation maybe, if you're in between things.

― Kittens Licking Cakes (coco), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 17:13 (twenty years ago)

Yeah, that's the idea.
I've just more or less given up on myself lately, and been wallowing in self-pity and spite and didn't (or didn't want to) realize how this was affecting anyone but me, and now I've really fucked up a promising thing and I think it's irreparable. And the fucking tragic irony is that now I see where there HAD BEEN a chance for me to actually take charge. But I've blown it big time.

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 17:17 (twenty years ago)

oh dear! take a few deep breaths... and think about what you CAN do, rather than reflect on what you should have done.
and.. er... ice cream. cool and soothing and pleasing and tends to work its way through any knots...

― dahlin (dahlin), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:13 (twenty years ago)

Huck, Lemmy says "fuck them, you own them."

http://www.nrk.no/img/269600.jpeg

― killed by death ƒur¥ (Je4nne Fury), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:21 (twenty years ago)

sorry to hear it huk. wish i had something comforting to say........

― kelsey (kelstarry), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:24 (twenty years ago)

on the positive end, it's a wake up call.

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:25 (twenty years ago)

If you think it's irreparably harmed, there isn't anything much you can do, so just keep looking ahead and don't beat yourself up too much over it. You deserve better, and you'll get it. Or else.

(I never listen to this kind of advice, so feel free to tell me to go fuck myself)

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:36 (twenty years ago)

go fuck yourself luna
gently
with a cucumber

― dahlin (dahlin), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:37 (twenty years ago)

Luna's parenthesis explains exactly why I didn't give you the same advice before and Kelsey's post expresses what I was feeling. At least you're seeing something positive about this, or pretending, and that's a good first step.

― M. White (Miguelito), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:41 (twenty years ago)

Yeah, well, the problem started because I've been moping around feeling sorry for myself, so, like, more of that is probably not the best response.

How does it take after you've hurt someone who really, really didn't deserve it for the gut-rolling thing to go away?

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:45 (twenty years ago)

Two years and counting...

― luna (luna.c), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:46 (twenty years ago)

About a month, in my experience.

― Rock Hardy (Rock Hardy), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:46 (twenty years ago)

Huk, it might show up for ever even after it has mostly gone away but the mostly gone away part depends on you, how much you beat yourself up over it and how much you can allow the past to fade away.

― M. White (Miguelito), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:52 (twenty years ago)

Huck, apologies work well.

― i'd know ƒur¥ (Je4nne Fury), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:54 (twenty years ago)

Okay, now I actually don't know what's being talked about.

― jaymc (jaymc), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 18:55 (twenty years ago)

i wonder if there are pinkies involved

― dahlin (dahlin), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 19:12 (twenty years ago)

I don't know what's being talked about either, but I know that most reasonable people will accept a sincere apology.

― The Milkmaid (of Human Kindness) (The Milkmaid), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 19:14 (twenty years ago)

i wonder if there are pinkies involved

You mean a Yakuza apology?

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 19:15 (twenty years ago)

aye, something like that

my cigarette burn is still visible. argh

― dahlin (dahlin), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 19:22 (twenty years ago)

Huk, I forgive you.

― Casuistry (Chris P), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 19:24 (twenty years ago)

That's all I can ask. Thanks.

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 19:24 (twenty years ago)

Well, INTO THE FUTURE I GO.
(Not "The Future", but the future. The real, scary one.)

― Huk-L (Huk-L), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 20:00 (twenty years ago)

So, uh, what is happening, then? Did you itquay your objay? Or is it some special adylay?

― Casuistry (Chris P), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 20:35 (twenty years ago)

Huk, I have nothing useful to say, but I hope it's not as bad as you think it is, and things get a lot better for you really quickly.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Tuesday, 23 August 2005 20:59 (twenty years ago)

How to begin
Do i shed a skin?
Now that i am starting to remember
It takes a while
But you find a way to open up the door
Let demons walk
Now that i am starting to remember
Can't change my world
I was happy ever after
Was it only yesterday?
That i bought the dream?
But i don't sleep no more
Counting the hours
‘til the dawn
Now that i am starting to remember
How to love
How to learn draw like a child
Run for miles and miles
Now that i am starting to remember
Who i am

Another lonely night ahead for me now
Buried in the darkening day
That lingers on
And drags me down
But you've got to believe
Time will heal

― (This Field Left Blank) (Dee the Lurker), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 01:30 (twenty years ago)

Anyway. Huck, there has to be a way to repair the damage. It's not too late. It just happened. The sludge hasn't yet dried on the floor. You can still clean it up. And now you have the added benefit of the kind of knowledge that can only be derived from experience.

― (This Field Left Blank) (Dee the Lurker), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 01:37 (twenty years ago)

I just signed up for three (3) dating websites! I've never engaged in this kind of thing before. I don't know what's going on.

And Huk, if it means anything from somebody who has never had any contact with you, you seem like a good guy. Maybe you made a mistake, but people do that. Hope things work out for ya.

― stewart downes (sdownes), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 02:32 (twenty years ago)

Morning, kiddies.

Sometimes I hate sitting in the finance department. I wish I didn't hear things - like there's been some problem with the payroll this month and none of us may get paid. Eeep! I'll be OK, but still.

My sisX0r arrives today - she says she'll ring me when she gets in, but she'll probably go back to her hotel and sleep. Part excited, part nervous.

How are you all today?

― I Dream Of Sleep (kate), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 07:05 (twenty years ago)

Stunt Car Driver, yay!

er, i'm tired. i thought i'd be able to hack a late night since this is my last working day this week, but my body isn't much liking that idea this morning. ho hum.

― g-kit (g-kit), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 07:12 (twenty years ago)

Oh no Huk! I know it wont help at all, but my love & all of my postive thoughts are on their way to you as I type. Hope things can be sorted out & I agree with others up thread, a sincere apology works wonders. *hugglez*

Morning kiddos!

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 07:28 (twenty years ago)

uh-oh. huk - it sounds so unlike you. from what i've gathered. the sad truth is...you go on. you work through it. and it springs up every now and again for years afterward and makes you fucking cry. how many years i don't know. still.

hi everyone.

― mullygrubbr (bulbs), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 07:36 (twenty years ago)

Hey lovely! How are you this evening? Drunk yet?

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 07:49 (twenty years ago)

no - i have a job interview tomorrow. after...maybe.

how are you?

― mullygrubbr (bulbs), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 08:02 (twenty years ago)

Drunkenness? I've not even had my first cup of chochaccino!

I have the feeling today is going to be a very slow day. Sigh.

― I Dream Of Sleep (kate), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 08:06 (twenty years ago)

i need coffee. i'm almost dozing off, fer reals.

― g-kit (g-kit), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 08:12 (twenty years ago)

Ooh excitement - I just called an ambulance for a colleague cos she was having chest pains and shortness of breath and faintness. 4 very nice paramedics have carted her off. It was her first day back at work after a week in hospital.

― beanz (beanz), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 08:39 (twenty years ago)

bloody hell!

― mullygrubbr (bulbs), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 08:41 (twenty years ago)

Huk, I'm not sure what's happened, but from what I've witnessed here you seem like a good person, don't let it get you down. Oh, and everyone's advice on this thread is good, I have nothing to add that wouldn't have been said already.

― Tuomas (Tuomas), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 08:42 (twenty years ago)

Ooh good luck with that Gaz! Tell me all the details...

I'm good ta, looking forward to a long w/e & then a week off in September.

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 09:45 (twenty years ago)

Hi everyone. Phew, busy all morning doing tasks for anally retentive coworker, she's almost as much of a nightmare perfectionist as ME for god's sake...

Hope things look and feel better soon Huk, time can do so much as the film Ghost teaches us, and who are we to argue?

I felt really guilty eating my dinner in front of Matt last night - only day two of the fast as well! He seems ok though.

― Archel (Archel), Wednesday, 24 August 2005 09:55 (twenty years ago)

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Aw, Martin. As you said, it's not as hard on you if it's you that doesn't like her though.

She was appalling. Arrogant and about a quarter as clever as she clearly thinks.

Did you say "you know, there's this internet messageboard that you'd probably fit in well on..."? ;-)

― Forest Pines (ForestPines), Friday, 30 September 2005 05:50 (twenty years ago)

She wasn't that smart, honestly. She is studying politics at present, and told me that after her studies she now understands what is behind the Iraq war. I was keen to hear, since there are elements that still mystify me. It turns out that it's because America wants oil. She said this as if it was a sophisticated explanation that less informed people won't have thought of.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Friday, 30 September 2005 08:18 (twenty years ago)

Sometimes because things are simple doesn't mean they're not true :)

I'm sorry it didn't go better, Martin, but at least you know where things stand.

― Markelby (Mark C), Friday, 30 September 2005 08:36 (twenty years ago)

No, I don't mean to imply that it's not a factor, just that it's one that everyone outside the right has been hammering since the idea of attacking Iraq first came up, and for someone to propose it as the kind of complex explanation that only someone studying politics could come up with is pretty breathtaking.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Friday, 30 September 2005 08:59 (twenty years ago)

I guess feasibly she could have done an in depth study of the situation, taking into account all pertinent socio-geographico-historico-political viewpoints, and her complex proofs demonstrated that it was, in fact, the correct conclusion?

(sorry Martin, I'm in a playful mood today :))

― Markelby (Mark C), Friday, 30 September 2005 09:14 (twenty years ago)

wanna know why i love the red sox so much...look who threw out the first pitch a couple days ago.

― bingo (Chris V), Friday, 30 September 2005 09:26 (twenty years ago)

http://bostondirtdogs.boston.com/Headline_Archives/bdd_Chewbacca.jpg

― bingo (Chris V), Friday, 30 September 2005 09:26 (twenty years ago)

Bingo, I kiss you!

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Friday, 30 September 2005 09:30 (twenty years ago)

Chris that is rad!

Pink, your MSN messages have been very brusque lately :) Everything okay?

― Markelby (Mark C), Friday, 30 September 2005 09:39 (twenty years ago)

Haha, just getting too many MSNs when I'm busy! ;-) You know it's so frustrating when people ignore the "busy" sign!!

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Friday, 30 September 2005 11:06 (twenty years ago)

She might have been lying about studying Martin. She could've been watching 2nd season Chapelle DVDs.

― Miss Misery (thatgirl), Friday, 30 September 2005 11:53 (twenty years ago)

Sam, that's the grandmother alright. The yardstick's haunted, huh? Sometimes I forget you were involved in that event, even though I just came across that photo of us in her apartment a few days ago.

― Kittens Licking Cakes (coco), Friday, 30 September 2005 12:35 (twenty years ago)

well I think we decided that since my classroom was haunted your grandmother's yardstick would bring an added nuance to back me up.

― Miss Misery (thatgirl), Friday, 30 September 2005 13:00 (twenty years ago)

Part of me really wants to see this "Green St Hooligans" movie.

― bingo (Chris V), Friday, 30 September 2005 14:16 (twenty years ago)

So, should I apply for a part-time job at Heathrow?

Also, what's up yo.

― sgs (sgs), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 09:29 (twenty years ago)

hey sgs! What's the job?

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 10:07 (twenty years ago)

working at the lost and found. could be intriguing (and material for heind-the-scenes research), but I'm also about to leave town for several weeks so my motivation is meh.

how are your sneakers?

― sgs (sgs), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 10:10 (twenty years ago)

Sneakers are fine thank you very much for asking. There is a distinct lack of new sneakers at the moment, but I am totally skint & still have to pay for loads this month. *sigh*
I think you should apply for the job, it sounds really interesting.

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 10:11 (twenty years ago)

"heind"? uh, behind, rather. I will have to fake like I enjoy customer service, but have done that before for over a year. Ah transferable skillz.

― sgs (sgs), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 10:22 (twenty years ago)

sgs, the combination of not being sure about the job and leaving on holiday soon seems ideal to me. if you like it/are good at it, surely you'll be able to come back to it. if not, you can just quietly never come back, with no big conflict.

oh man i have some good pictures of sgs dancing!

― colette (a2lette), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 12:51 (twenty years ago)

Hello, Sarahs. Working at a Lost & Found sounds like an adventure to me too, but also I'm easily ammused.

I just finished eating a granola bar for breakfast at my desk when a coworker came in with 5 cartons full of chocolate chip cookies for someone else's birthday. So then I ate LOTS of cookies. Ugh.

Post 'em, colette!

― Kittens Licking Cakes (coco), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 12:52 (twenty years ago)

Sarah, I like the idea of working at a major international airport's lost and found. Amongst all the routine tedium, I'm sure you'll find odd and memorable items and see strange people come to collect them.

― M. White (Miguelito), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 12:57 (twenty years ago)

Delurk because I saw something on a computer screen at work that I can't not share:

Grant Number:
meh

― j.lu (j.lu), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 13:08 (twenty years ago)

that is my grant!!

ok not really.

But you guys've convinced me to send in my CV. I'm gonna have to retail-ify it. I think that's the one spin I haven't yet put to my chequered past...they probably will not reply, since no one ever does, but hey. Hope springs eternal.

omg Colette I bet you have pics of me looking ZANY. I look forward to laughing at myself even if I vaguely remember doing an impression of dancing from the "Kiss" video and I hope there's not a record of that.

Anyone want to cut my hair?

― sgs (sgs), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 13:33 (twenty years ago)

And in unrelated celebrity news:

What's with Nicholas Cage naming his son Kal-el? Like he wasn't already going to impart a crippling sense of self-importance on the boy.

― M. White (Miguelito), Tuesday, 4 October 2005 13:50 (twenty years ago)

Work has brought me to my knees. Today I wrote the most code I've ever written in my life. I felt like I was in army boot camp crawling under barbed-wire while people shot at me. And it wasn't even the program, it was just the audit module!

I feel close to shattering to pieces. couldn't even make it to my therapist's today as I broke into tears trying to get my piece of shit car out of the drive.

i want to blog again but till I have time for the real thing here's my myspace one:
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog&Mytoken=F9B17E97-8904-4E56-9C22D4CB6B24A9B42303297109

that was long.

also, though I'm knee deep in non-relational database coding during the day I don't mind a bit of a chat so if you're on aim my work handle is (spaced out for googling) d p s m c 1

be good kids

― Misery, Wednesday, 5 October 2005 01:28 (twenty years ago)

Kisses, Sam. This is a good time to have a dog in addition to a boyfriend. Keep your chin up.

― M. White (Miguelito), Wednesday, 5 October 2005 02:14 (twenty years ago)

Hope you're ok Sam!

In other news today my cat is really poorly & spent the night at the vets. :-(

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 5 October 2005 08:05 (twenty years ago)

I'm sorry to hear about your kitty, Pink. I hope she gets better.

(oh and some drunken NO evacuee tried to steal our dog in the street when george was walking him. .but that's another story.)

― Misery, Wednesday, 5 October 2005 10:46 (twenty years ago)

WTF? Is Missy OK Sam?
My kitty (a boy named Mungo) is actually under the knife as we speak. :-(

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 5 October 2005 10:49 (twenty years ago)

Take care of yourself, Sam, and you know where I am and all that.

― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Wednesday, 5 October 2005 16:00 (twenty years ago)

Blimey this thread has totally died a death. TITTWIS RIP?

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Friday, 7 October 2005 08:19 (twenty years ago)

I'm still alive and kickin'! How's it going, Pink?

I had a personal training session at the gym last night. She said to eat a lot of protein about an hour beforehand, so I ate tofu and bean sprouts. I'm trying to tone up because I'm a complete wuss. She put me on some weight machines and then had me do some free weights so I could see the difference, and it all totally kicked my ass. Then she said to eat MORE protein when I got home, so I had some black bean tacos. This morning my body feels SO WEIRD.

Sam, may god have mercy on anyone who would try to steal Missy from you!

― Kittens Licking Cakes (coco), Friday, 7 October 2005 12:40 (twenty years ago)

Yay!
It's going OK thanks. We get to pick the kitty up tonight, so phew!
I'd like to have a personal trainer, that'd be cool. weird in what way?

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Friday, 7 October 2005 12:52 (twenty years ago)

There are so many people here that I thought had quite ILE completely. It's a shame, it would be nice to see yez outside.

― Andrew Farrell (afarrell), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 09:23 (twenty years ago)

Matt just joined a gym. I probably should have done too, but I hate organised exercise. I'm trying to persuade my mum to be my badminton partner though.

― Archel (Archel), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 09:29 (twenty years ago)

I love badminton, I miss playing actually! I'm coming to Brighton on Friday!!

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 09:34 (twenty years ago)

Hey Pink. Weddingness? If you want to meet up while you're here let me know!

― Archel (Archel), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 11:12 (twenty years ago)

hey folks! only a couple weeks until i close on my house

― bingo (Chris V), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 11:18 (twenty years ago)

Weddingness indeed! We're hanging about on the Saturday, so we could maybe meet up for a coffee or something? Do you want to email me your number, as I don't have it anymore (since it got stolen).

Yay Bingo!

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 12:07 (twenty years ago)

Yay Bingo! from me too!

I guess I meant my muscles feel weird in the sense that I'm noticing muscles I didn't even realize I had before. I'm still in pain! I think I overdid it last time, so I'll have to be careful tonight when I go back. Maybe I need to listen to some slow jams so I don't push myself too fast/hard and concentrate on what I'm doing.

― Kittens Licking Cakes (coco), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 12:19 (twenty years ago)

I wish I could play badminton... I love genteel but vicious sports plus I like saying 'shuttlecock'.

― M. White (Miguelito), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 13:09 (twenty years ago)

Sssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhuttttttttttttlllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeecccccccccccoooooooooocccccccccccccckkkkkkkkk

― Panther Pink (Pinkpanther), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 13:18 (twenty years ago)

I don't know a soul who has a badminton set. I think I may start playing tennis again, though.

― M. White (Miguelito), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 13:24 (twenty years ago)

We have badminton rackets. Most of our shuttlecocks are now in next door's back yard though, as we used to play outside at the back of our flat, over the washing line. Can't now as we have new neighbours and they're scary.

― Archel (Archel), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 13:31 (twenty years ago)

If I had just a tiny bit more headroom downstairs, I'd get a ping pong table.

― M. White (Miguelito), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 13:46 (twenty years ago)

I've finally solved the issue of why I continue to come back to this place, even if it's back in lurk mode... it's the alluring power of The Sarahs. And a Rachel or... ok, so there's just the one. So The Sarahs Plus One (an Honorary Sarah?) keep me coming back here, even now, even when I truly and fully hate this place. I really do. Except for The Sarahs (including the honorary Sarah). I'm willing to admit I might be missing a few extra Honorary Sarahs, though.

So hey. Power of The Sarahs.

― This Field Left Blank (Dee the Lurker), Wednesday, 12 October 2005 23:10 (twenty years ago)

We have badminton rackets.

I didn't think badminton was *that* noisy.

― Forest Pines (ForestPines), Thursday, 13 October 2005 05:21 (twenty years ago)

Hey Dee! Hope you're OK honey. Please remember to send the odd email if you can't keep up with or hate ILX. I miss you loads! Love & hugs on their way to you! xxx

― I am Sarah (Pinkpanther), Thursday, 13 October 2005 07:11 (twenty years ago)

Hello, Miss Dee. Hello, TiTTWISers.

The tension in my office has gotten kind of bad lately. Thankfully, very little is directed towards me. It's really just this one coworker who is outright mean to another one (and to a few others, but mostly just to one) and it's ridiculous. And this weekend is our work fun trip in Vegas. Why can't everyone just get along? I'm actually planning on NOT drinking when I go out to bars this weekend on Friday and Saturday night so I'll have enough enough energy for the trip (we leave early Sunday morning). It helps that I'm reading a book about recovery from alcoholism (not that I'm in any danger of that, I'm just saying).

― I am Chicago Sarah, hear me roar! (coco), Thursday, 13 October 2005 12:47 (twenty years ago)

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