Bullying and Emotional Terrorism

It's hard to withdraw to a "safe place" and gather one's thoughts when there doesn't seem to be a safe place anywhere.

I wish I could say that it didn't hurt, but I'd be a liar. Probably because he knows exactly where to aim. The fact that it's happened before, so many times, over and over, almost like an OCD compulsion doesn't *stop* it from hurting. In some ways, it makes it hurt more.

Breathing exercises are part of anger management, and counting breaths is part of that. If I counted to 100 before taking a breath, I would probably turn blue and collapse. Which would end the argument quite effectively, though. Hah!

And when someone continues to do it, long after the target has asked them to stop, that makes them a bully.

It's also interesting that just because I expect people to behave decently towards others, I'm "crazy".

The whole thing is a giant troll, it's like someone beating you on the head and then calling you the perpetrator. I'm sorry I'm not 21 and stupid anymore, or 19 or whatever, but I'd like to talk to the people I like without being harrassed by Ally, JBR, Jon, Chaki, or any of the rest of them. You don't see *me* searching for their old posts, out of context. What a bunch of wankers.

But if you wanna further alienate people, I got an idea how...

What makes someone part of this vast conspiracy? Simply posting on the noise board? Making a joke about you? What if someone merely laughs at the joke? I think there are plenty of people who don't "hate" you, people who don't really care one way or the other, and even people who like you that managed to find some humor in all of the absurdity that took place.

Going on the defensive and lumping him into the "ENEMIES OF ORBIT" category simply because he posts on the noise board and made a relatively benign joke may serve to make that list of people longer, but I don't see any reason why you would need or want to do that.

And what I did post that offended you: a kettle and a pot calling each other black, and then one of them saying "choke on vomit and die," which was a reference to something said about Jon NOT by you. If you read with any kind of scrutiny whatsoever, you'd realize I was implicating him as much as you,* and not in any particularly mean way. You were both being crummy to each other and calling each other out for retarded shit. Thus: pot and kettle.

Further -- why've you've gotta level charges of immaturity at me, or anybody else who dares disagree with you? The worst thing I ever said is that you've no claim to higher moral ground than anybody else on this dumb board, and I stick by that claim. But if this (rather inarguable) fact constitutes "trolling," than I guess I'm a troll.

Let me say this: I double-dog dare you to read through our conversation (here, right now, this one that we're having on this board) and tell me who's insulted whom? I've tried to be open with you, cajole you into some sort of honest conversation, and behave completely transparently. You've told me I "do a good job of alienating anyone who doesn't see my bullshit as funny" (which I presume means: you and you alone, since I've never put too much effort into being funny at anybody else's expense), called me "assholish" and snarked back at me when I tried to extend an olive branch admitting I'm not too funny.

Don't privilage your importance in my life, I don't by any stretch hate you, or even dislike you -- you're an angry girl on the internet -- but I sure as hell think you could benefit by trying to be being less bigoted towards some of us. Most of ILE is willing to forgive people for bitchiness in any form: you might try it too. That's why I'm taking the time to write this, because I _don't_ think you're a bad person at all, but because I want you to be clear on what I (and by extension, quite a group of others) feel about this stupid vendetta against a whole board.

The Noize Board posts about me are lies, are insulting, and I don't see how you could defend treating another human being like that.

2) *I* don't post creepy pictures after everything Jon posts, either.

The ENEMIES OF ORBIT thing was more conceptual than literal, but whatever. The point here is not that some people on the noise board have given you shit. The point is that the noise board is not some unified bloc of mindless automatons with no thought but for single-minded hatred of you. (This is also conceptual, hyperbolic, and not literal.)

I'm sure it's tempting to just lump everyone together and make generalizations about them, but it's a rather dangerous practice. Can you truly state with certainty that almost everyone on the noise board posts cruel, cruel lies about you? If not, it's unfair (and perhaps... hurtful?) to paint the people who don't with the same brush and insult them.

My point is that if you are offended by someone, or by a number of people, then limit your feeling about the specific incident(s) to the specific individual(s) in question. Don't amalgamate everyone who surrounds them into some collective symbol of your Enemy. The noise board does not share a hive mind, and plenty of posters probably do not give half a shit about any of this.

As, now, I do not.

I don't need to waste my time re-posting the BS here so you can understand it. "They" is anyone who has dissed me, obv. and those who stand by and let harrasment happen. Why is this so difficult for you to grasp? I'm thinking especially of a couple of *your* posts, btw, so let's just drop it.

You're right; I've made jokes about you, and found most of what's gone on pretty absurd and hilarious. My intention here, however, was to engage you rationally about something you were doing, rather than make fun of it. I have learned an important lesson today about the efficacy of the former.

I will gladly cease to attempt it.

I did not ban persistent trollers only to have arguments and recriminations spill over here. This place is a NOIZE-free zone. I refuse to have this place spoiled by endless arguments about it.

good thread

::whatever::

-- ghetty green (eman), Monday, August 1, 2005 1:35 PM (2 years ago) Bookmark Link

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