ah............fuck it!

I remember we had a thread about this a while ago - a few searches yielded no result, unfortunately.

Because ultimately people have already made up their minds about the topic at hand. Many thread posts are primarily "position statements" and the following discussion is basically a Soviet-style mutual bashing of shoes on the table as everyone defends/attacks their own/others incomprehension. In the end, I delete my posts without hitting submit, because I believe that people really don't give a shit and really I have better ways to spend my time.

iworried that i am becoming so jaded that i cant even be bothered making a helpful comment any more.

fuck worrying about whether i sound like a dick or not, ive done tht too many times here now already to be concerned about it hahaha.

i should have written my title in a more concise manner!
as in " im becoming an arsehole please help me "

That's indeed a good thread (and a rare exception), but really I have nothing to contribute to the discussion. That thread isn't just something that you can post once to and walk away from, it requires a minimum level of participation.

Or, more specific to me, when I stop myself from posting, or at least fail to nurture the impulse to post, it's often for one of two reasons: either I feel like everything I've posted in that session/day/week was fluff, and this would be more of the same; or that it's all been pedantic/nitpicky/navelgazey, and ditto. The exception is maybe if some trivial fact/sequence comes to mind on a religion-related thread (or at least post), because that's just reflex (and explaining something to someone else reminds me of where I have gaps).

This would be one of my own personal lines of reasoning for typing out a response and then not clicking on Submit, as well. One of the biggies. The other would be the thought that whatever I'd typed out made no sense whatsoever or made me out to be an idiot.

And currently my mind is racing with thoughts of: And look at you, Dee. You still post some amazingly brainless shit.

thats not what i meant.

*backs off very slowly, cursing self for posting stupid shit yet again*

What percentage of the time do you change your mind about submitting the ILx post you just drafted?

I Started Something I Couldn't Finish

(i found them by searching on "submit")

.. it's funny that donna started this, because i was just thinking about this today, and thinking about searching for one of those older threads. I never used to do this, but now i find myself doing it quite often. I always surprise myself when i do it, too, because it's usually not like me to not just say what i want. I dunno why i've been doing this so much lately. Maybe just the increased amount of ilx traffic in general makes me think "shit, why bother adding to the shitstream."

my finance tutor tells us he has an imaginary parrot on his shoulder that he calls "Captain Bullshit" - whenever he writes something that's not quite substatiated it squawks "bullshit!!"